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As I sat in the restaurant to eat breakfast, Kailon came from somewhere and handed me something.

I carefully moved my eyes, which had become diluted due to lack of sleep, and looked at it, and soon realized that it was a bottle of medicine.

“… Why do you do this to me?”

“It’s a nourishing tonic.”

“I will accept it well. Thank you.”

Still, is it Kylon who takes care of it?

It was a small glass bottle the size of a yogurt bottle, but since it was a nutritional tonic in the game, the effect could be said to be excellent.

I quietly watched the lid open and drank it, then sighed so as not to attract other people’s attention.

I can’t see it in numbers, but I definitely felt a little tiredness disappearing, and my vision, which had been a little dark, felt brighter.

After sighing and coming to my senses, things I had not paid attention to came into my eyes.

But no matter how much I came to my senses, the moans that remained in my head did not go away.

I don’t have a hobby of watching, and I didn’t even see it myself, but when I heard the sound of sex in the next room, I felt a sense of self-destruction.

Even if that person is not a complete stranger but a colleague in my party.

Of course, I don’t know because I don’t have much of a relationship with him, but wouldn’t it be too easy for it to fall after three days even if it was a game?

No, since it is a night game, it is possible that favorability may be on the rise.

I glanced at Linda, who was clutching her throbbing head and crunching on her food as if she were embarrassed, and then I looked at Kailon, who was drinking water with an empty bowl in front of him as if nothing had happened.

Rather than this atmosphere, it was uncomfortable to be in a situation where I was the only saint, keeping my distance from others and not being able to talk to them.

Of course, it’s been a while since I’ve talked to someone, but if this is a world where anonymity is guaranteed, there’s nothing I can’t say.

I didn’t feel very good today after eating tasteless food.

It’s just that, at some point, I was slowly losing interest in this world.

After being dragged in arbitrarily, I was subjected to torture under the pretense of researching immortality, and it was difficult for me to adjust to the body of a woman who went further, and after forming a party, I was left alone, and the hero often jerked off at me, but now he is having sex with another woman. Slowly, I began to wonder if it had any real meaning.

Of course I have to go back.

Back to the time when I hated being outside and my room was my whole world.

I was told that walking around in a place like this didn’t suit me.

When we left the restaurant and were gathering our luggage, I was the only one who didn’t have any luggage, so I cautiously spoke to Kailon.

“… Me, warrior. I’m sorry, but can I ask you a favor?”

Being conscious of other people’s gaze, I tried to speak in a saintly tone as much as possible, and Kailon naturally nodded and looked at me.

“Yes, of course. What is it?”

“I want to take my luggage too… ”

“… … ?”

I saw his expression become subtle for a moment at my answer.

I guess you have your own inventory, but do you really need your own luggage? It seemed like that was the expression on his face.

Of course, I have nothing to say when I say that, but I envied the advantage of Agnes, Flora, and Linda, who all carried their own clothes and at the same time carried their own things separately, so they didn’t have to ask the warrior’s permission.

So, I, who wanted my own bag, did not move away and just stared at Kailon’s face.

Then, Kylon looked around once, and eventually nodded, after muttering as if it was difficult to refuse.

“Of course. Where should I go?”

“Oh, I have to buy a bag first.”

I felt a little sorry for the others, but I couldn’t help it because it was something I wanted.

Instead of heading straight to my destination, I took a different route and bought a useful bag at a general store. At the same time, I bought five empty glass bottles with the pocket money I received from Kailon.

The rattling glass was circular, but the bottom was flat, so it was safe to say that it was exactly the same potion.

At the same time, I also got my hands on a small knife so I didn’t have to ask for permission from Kailon.

Even though she is a saint, does it make sense that she doesn’t have any weapons?

After all the shopping was over, we moved again and headed to another place.

To find quests for special items that can be obtained in each village.

From what I roughly heard from Kailon, it seemed like there should be a gem in this village that could easily awaken the holy sword.

Since the goal of this game is to awaken the holy sword and obtain training tools while going through the village, it seemed like a convenient way to not deviate from that quest line.

Wait, so the black market selling hypnosis tools didn’t just open, but it just didn’t open because you didn’t complete the quest?

Memories of the hard times came to mind, and for a moment I got emotional and wanted to say something to Kailon, but there were a lot of eyes watching me right away, and when I thought about it, Kailon said he’d only done it once, so I just quit and let out a sigh out of sight.

After hearing about the incident in this village, Kailon, who received the quest, looked somewhat troubled, then scratched the back of his head, looked back at the party, and opened his mouth.

“… They say there’s a huge bug that’s been eating up this forest these days.”

“Ugh, I don’t like bugs… ”

It was Flora who responded to the word bug.

Behind Flora, who had a disgusted look on her face, Agnes’ expression hardened, and Linda looked at Kailon as if that didn’t matter.

To be honest, I also had a bit of aversion to bugs, or rather, I had heard a lot about them, so I didn’t really want to get involved in the fight.

But what about my body constitution?

When I think that my safety is not guaranteed due to trauma, my body tingles when I think of the pain that someone might attack my body again.

After that, I ended up harming myself even though I didn’t want to.

Even this morning, Kailon seemed to be in a good mood after interacting with Linda, but after seeing me in a sober mood, he seemed to feel sorry and embarrassed.

When will my self-harming behavior, which causes my white clothes to quickly turn red when I become even a little anxious, stop?

Even though I didn’t want it to, I couldn’t help but follow it because of the trauma of this damned body that was dependent on me.

I guess I’ll have to follow along eventually. Thinking about that, I carefully took a deep breath, and Kailon purred as if he knew how I felt.

“This monster might be a bit strong, so let’s prepare thoroughly.”

“Good!”

Agnes and Flora were tilting their heads to the sound of Linda’s voice saying that everything Kylon said was good, but it was similar to the feeling of affection between Kylon and Kylon, which had become a little deeper than his previous cheerful appearance.

When I noticed that, I glanced at Linda and then at Kylon.

Wow, I was really blown away.

Yesterday, they made me cry like that, and I was secretly amazed that they had succeeded in capturing it in the end.

Well, seeing as he was not corrupted in the humiliation game and still maintains the position of lover, you could say that the story so far has only increased his favorability, but it was obvious that that would only be temporary.

If you go further, there will be Linda who will give in, obey Kylon, and follow him like a master.

As I was looking at her, thinking that she was the bitch who shook her ass at Kylon before anyone else, I couldn’t help but shake my head.

At times like this, I always envied the warrior’s body.

Of course, it would be a bit difficult if you were just wandering around without knowing the strategy or how to clear, but if someone you know was there to help you, wouldn’t I be able to enjoy this situation in my own way?

After realizing that there was nothing that could interest me in this colorless world, I just did my best to get out of this world and return to my room.

In order to do that, she had to fulfill her duties as a saint to be helpful.

I spent the whole day shopping and choosing weapons.

The sun quickly set and after an ordinary meal, I was once again given a private room.

Kylon and Linda went out for training today as well. And Agnes and Flora are chatting in the room across from there.

And sitting alone on the bed in my room, I scratched my neck and lined up the glass bottles I had bought with Kailon’s help earlier.

It seems like a lot, but it seems like a little.

The ambiguous number five was placed in front of me, and I carefully took out the knife I had secretly bought from Kailon.

If I were to be dragged into a world like this, I wish I would have just woken up as Kylon and enjoyed it.

It was sincere. Because I didn’t want to live a dependent life after experiencing such trauma.

It’s okay for someone to depend on me, but I didn’t want to be dependent on someone else due to trauma.

But it has already been done.

It’s something I envy, but I can’t ask for more than that.

In order to return, I just had to quietly carry out my work for one dream.

Rattling.

He placed the empty potion bottle in front of him and put the lid aside.

Then he rolled up his sleeves and put his hands on them. And from digging into my neck, I could see the blood on my fingernails.

Blood hardens when exposed to oxygen, but when the king experimented with my body before, my blood did not harden.

So, I knew that my blood was different from other people’s, so I tightly held the knife I had bought without the hero’s knowledge in my right hand.

On the subject of being a saint, despite being a saint.

Since I was a non-religious person, I had no religious beliefs, and at the same time, I did not know how to use my abilities, so I was unable to show my usefulness other than harming myself like this.

Still, it’s difficult, but I’m doing it because I can’t ignore Kylon’s words that it requires the abilities of a saint in the beginning.

Since I can’t use the saint’s abilities, I’m going to do something like this.

It had been a long time since Kylon had gone far away, and my body seemed to be tickling itself and crying, as if it was looking for Kylon.

And I could only endure more intense pain to calm the pain.

“Ugh… !”

With determination, my right hand gained strength, and at that moment, the blade dug into my right wrist on top of the empty potion bottle.

My body shook in pain, but the blood that spurted out quickly filled the potion bottle, splashing around.

The act could only be completed after being repeated several times.

The floor of the room I was in at the inn became a sea of blood, and my clothes and body were stained with blood, but I was okay.

But there was one thing that wasn’t okay.

It tickles.

Even though I cut my wrist with a knife, the sensation of centipedes and bugs crawling on my body became stronger.

So, with trembling hands, I stuck the knife into his throat.

“Keheuk.”

While I was dead for a moment, my body was free from the itchiness.