episode_0020

I closed my eyes, but I’m not sleepy at all.

My body feels like it’s floating in the sky to the point where it seems dreamlike after overcoming dizziness, making me feel like I should keep sleeping, but I get stuck in a strange place.

“Sister… Are you sleeping…?”

“No…?”

It feels like I might blurt out without thinking.

I’m just curious about my sister.

“Sister is my friend.”

“Yeah. A friend.”

“But… why do you keep suggesting we date…? Do you see me as a romantic interest…?”

My sister slowly turns over.

“Just because. Out of pity.”

“Pity… Am I pitiful?”

“It doesn’t matter if you have a crush on that person, but that person doesn’t pay attention to you. And you keep suffering. So I suggested dating me instead. I don’t really know if we’ll actually date… But still, I hope Ji-hye doesn’t get hurt.”

My brother did nothing wrong.

I was just impatient.

It’s embarrassing. Definitely.

So I ran away.

It must have been too hard for him to accept me.

But… can’t he accept me at least a little?

At least he should think of me as a woman.

“But… what should I do with my feelings… sniff… sniff…”

That’s why I endure.

Enduring more and more until my brother suddenly becomes interested in me.

But… until when?

“Unrequited love is painful. Ugh… What should we do about Ji-hye.”

“We. Sigh. We’re friends, right…?”

“Yeah. Friends. Always.”

“If we’re friends who are girls… we can at least kiss, right?”

I just want to be proven with some evidence.

I just… feel strange. Strangely depressed. Playing with my sister is fun, but why do I start thinking about my brother again when I think it’s all over.

“I don’t usually do that unless we’re really close… It’s kind of strange even then…”

“We’re not really close… right…? Sniff… sniff…”

“No, no! Wait, Ji-hye!?”

I’m going crazy. I don’t even understand my own feelings.

I just… don’t know. I wish someone would leave a sign that they love me.

Lonely. Desolate. I’m just trash who can’t do anything alone.

Love is lacking.

“You won’t do it…?”

“Ugh…! I really don’t like girls!”

My sister sighs and gently holds my chin.

“…Close your eyes.”

“……”

Following my sister’s words, I slowly closed my eyes.

“Phew… I’m going.”

-The end.

The wind blew softly.

Our lips met for a moment, and it ended there.

“It… wasn’t a big deal.”

“Ugh… Ugh… sniff…”

“Why… again…”

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”

Soft lips or whatever, it ended without any thought.

Yet. Why am I sad?

Why do I feel guilty?

I’m angry.

I’m angry at myself for not even understanding my own emotions.

And I’m sad.

“Come here. Ji-hye thinks a lot. She has a timid side too.”

My sister hugs me, wrapping her arms around my face.

“Don’t think. Let’s just think about warm things in this moment. Comfortable… sleepy… calm.”

Tears stain my sister’s clothes.

Thinking not to think, thinking not to think about what I thought not to think about again.

Trying to brainwash myself with such foolish thoughts.

“Everyone goes through those times, right? Have you ever been in love, Ji-hye?”

“…No.”

“It’s your first love. It’s okay… It’s okay. Ji-hye is pretty, kind, and cries because of love. It will definitely work out.”

Folding my heart like folding paper once again.

I’m just an ordinary woman.

Ji-woo will hide now.

She won’t abandon herself.

Just. It’s like burying it in a clean corner like a time capsule.

So that it can be thought of as a memory and make you smile when you take it out again.

“Thank you.”

The choked-up heart softened a bit.

“I deserve to die….”

“Oh, why! It’s okay. I went to an all-girls high school, so I saw kids kissing each other sometimes. Well… I’ve never done it myself… but it was still nice. Kissing a kid wasn’t bad.”

“…Yes… I’m sorry.”

Kissing between girls.

No matter how much I think about it, it’s not right.

Imagine two guys kissing…

“Hmm…”

“Huh? Did you not like doing it with me?”

“Oh, no….”

“I really didn’t mind at all….”

Before a strange misunderstanding arose, I explained right away.

Why is it weird for guys to do it but not for girls?

“Hmm~ I don’t know either. There aren’t cases of guys doing it, right?”

“Yes yes yes… and I’m really sorry.”

“No~ Ji-hye was really cute. It’s totally fine.”

I patted my head awkwardly for no reason.

“But how are you going to talk to that guy?”

“Oh… um… I don’t really know how he’ll say it, but you should apologize and maybe explain a little. That’s what he wanted.”

Being acknowledged as a woman.

Honestly, there’s nothing else.

Being acknowledged as a woman ultimately means that the guy sees me as a woman.

“Ugh… then I have to dress up Ji-hye, right?”

“…What!?”

“Come here. You have to look so beautiful that he falls for you at first sight for things to go smoothly.”

“Uh… okay.”

Unni opens a drawer and takes out various items.

“…Oh. Let’s start with a bath. Hair and all, we can’t be careless.”

“Yes yes.”

“Okay… great. I’ll get ready for the bath, so go into the shower room.”

“Yes~”

Unni prepares clothes and enters the shower room first to undress.

The shower room, tiled in black, looks quite luxurious.

The showerhead isn’t handheld but comes from the ceiling, adding to the atmosphere.

“Ji-hye, did you go in first?”

“Yes~”

“Got it~”

Unni’s voice is heard outside the shower room.

After a while, she opens the shower room door.

“Oh… huh!?”

“Why are you covering your body like that~”

“No… no no, it’s just….”

“Ji-hye, a woman’s beauty starts with a shower, you know?”

Unni enters.

Both of us are naked.

“Uh…! Is this right!?”

“How do you usually care for your hair?”

“Um… well, I wet it with water, apply shampoo, and rinse it….”

“Yeah. That’s the problem.”

Oh no. Unni takes a deep breath again.

The shower proceeded swiftly.

I wandered around trying to figure out how not to look at Unni’s body, but she caught me.

“Let’s start with hair care. This is…”

There was something to use on the hair besides shampoo.

The shampoo I use is not recommended.

You have to use good shampoo.

And treatment, conditioner.

At first, using shampoo is the same.

“For treatment, leave it on your hair for at least 5 to 15 minutes after applying it. It’s like a nutritional supplement for your hair. Use it 2 or 3 times a week.”

“Think of conditioner as a protective layer… Coating your hair so that while treatment provides nutrients, conditioner prevents them from escaping. It also blocks external elements like dust, so Ji-hye, you must use it. Just like shampoo, once a day!”

She explained various things, and I tried to remember them all.

Effort is being made, and because it’s something you must learn… I know, but isn’t it too complicated?

“Are you washing your genitals well?”

“Yes, of course….”

“If you don’t keep it clean, it will smell, so be careful~”

Unlike men, it feels awkward to touch because it feels like going inside.

Of course, at first.

I thought something was strange when a weird smell came out once… Ah. I won’t think about it.

Anyway, since then, it has been done properly enough to feel clean even when handled gently.

“By any chance… are you using soap instead of body wash?”

“I am using body wash…!”

“Okay okay. Use something good if you can.”

Women… just their existence seems to make money rain down.

The rest ended quickly.

“Phew….”

“Wear this outfit.”

“Yes yes… huh?!”

“Just take the clothes~”

No. That’s not what I meant….

Well… it’s ordinary. For a woman.

Just because it’s a skirt.

“Wisdom has a big chest but a very thin waist, so there’s nothing to be done. If you give her loose clothes, she’ll look very fat.”

“Yes… I know….”

I heard there’s breast reduction surgery…

But I won’t do it.

Usually, if a man has a big chest, he mostly likes it.

Unless he’s crazy, he likes big chests.

My brother wouldn’t be much different.

“Uh uh ah…”.

It’s almost exactly as expected.

Sure, if someone else wore it, it would just… fit. But strangely, my chest stands out.

Well… it’s pretty. It’s beautiful. It’s just that the gaze goes straight to the chest.

“Don’t worry. I explained the principles while washing. Should I explain it again?”

“Oh. It’s okay. I’ll wear it.”

The top is not a high-neck knit but a V-neck knit.

Because the chest is big, they say that if you divert attention with the neckline, the focus goes to my face, not my chest.

They say fashion is about visual effects and utilizing gaze well.

I looked good in the monochromatic outfit I wore last time.

Should I say the skirt is slightly flared? With many patterns, it makes me look fancy while also diverting attention… that’s what my sister said.

Now my head is spinning.

I’ve been given too much information.

“I’ll adjust the strap on your bag. It was a bit long when I saw it yesterday.”

“Uh… do you do that too?”

“Yeah, of course. This is…”

Oh darn. Here comes the explanation.