episode_0020
by adminRight after I finished my training, I ran into the person who has been giving me a lot of good advice these days.
“year.”
“Room Master.”
“What about dinner?”
“I will practice and come back to eat.”
“Are you going to do that meditation thing again?”
“Yes.”
The host began to show a displeased expression.
Originally, I used to meditate after eating, but one day I changed it. The reason is that the ability sent me emotions, so it was easier for me to kill those emotions, so that was a bigger deal.
-Seriously.
“Ugh… .”
It feels like something is flickering before my eyes.
What appeared before my eyes was either the shape of a giant white tiger or the shape of something happening to me.
‘…What the heck is that?’
It’s best to pretend not to see things like that. There’s no need to react to each and every one of the things you’ve been ignoring and forgetting as they come back to the surface.
Of course, that’s why I think I see such strange things.
That wasn’t my concern.
-A string.
No matter how dizzy I feel or how much I feel like vomiting, I can avoid it. That’s what I do best.
Even if there are things piled up behind you, you can stop them. You can avoid them.
-Kuuuuk.
I imagine pressing down on those things that are sprouting up.
Even if the bowl breaks and completely falls apart someday, I will be able to endure it.
That’s the weight of the name this family carries.
As I walked, I felt a strange sensation as if the world was holding me back. It was as if I could no longer move forward from here.
“… . Hoo… .”
“Yeon-ah?”
The manager noticed that my steps had slowed down and ran towards me.
“What’s going on, why?”
“No big deal.”
What I feel from the rising hallucinations is something like an ability.
The things it saw, the feelings it took and kept, and the memories I had turned away from seemed to take shape one by one.
… the color was so dark that I even thought it might be a liquid.
Anyway, I still had to go forward.
I quietly watched Yeon-i leave the training ground.
and.
“… … Phew.”
The more my child develops his abilities, the more I realize that I am not the right father for him.
I feel like the child has never called me father.
-Keep going.
Whenever I felt that way, my heart would feel like it was being squeezed. I saw and felt with my own two eyes how the child was growing up.
‘… At least, that’s what Jin-ah wants… What Jin-ah wants… .’
After I retire and the succession of the family is complete.
It was clear that it would be possible at least then.
-Cracked.
Even though my teeth were gnashing, it was clear to me that I had to endure it. What has already been decided cannot be changed, and I had already come too far to change my mind.
So. At least until I retire, I’ll hold on and give my child what he wants. What he wants… Or at least. What is normal? At least that.
Let’s just let him experience that.
Now, it is called duty and authority, but back then, it was my greed… Let’s dismiss it as an order from the ancestors.
The child will listen to that.
Up until now, the child had been like that. He had listened and followed orders. So, this time, he would go along with my insistence.
“Go home… !”
“What’s going on? Je-seon.”
“That’s it… The sun has come to visit… !!”
“… The King?”
Why did the king come here? It was clearly an order to come here continuously, and I was going to visit him instead, but why did he come here right away?
“First, bring it up to the meeting room.”
“Okay.”
The King of Zhou has a strange aura. He looks like he is on the verge of being possessed by evil spirits.
… . I haven’t heard the exact story from my father, but at least he said that’s how someone who kills someone feels.
Even in history books, there was a description that one day, all of his brothers suddenly died.
… . I always feel this way, but it’s ominous. I have a very strong feeling that I shouldn’t let the children meet him.
So, I’ve been trying not to send my children to see him, but why is it going like this?
‘Let’s go quickly.’
I must not let Yeon-i meet that damned king. With that one thought in mind, I headed towards the king.
As always, he was the one in my interview room, a man with red hair and blue eyes, with a similar build to mine.
“Are you here? Baek Gaju.”
“Yes. I see the great Sun Clan.”
I greet him with a courtesy that is always on my mind.
“You’re still stiff.”
The king looked at me with a kind smile, and his eyes were filled with desire as always.
I didn’t know what he wanted from those eyes, but I knew they were directed at me and the children.
“… . Yes.”
Not knowing what else to say, I walked towards the chair. I sat down and looked at him. I had to know why he was here first.
“Why are you here?”
“What else is there? I just wanted to see you and talk to you.”
“Why did you not call me to the palace and come here yourself… .”
“Heh heh, I can see you’re getting old these days. You’re saying the same things as those old guys.”
He goes around saying, ‘Don’t make me feel bad.’
This man has absolute authority over us. We don’t have to obey unless he orders us to, but it’s just a way for the king to show us respect.
Since he was a descendant of the sun in the first place, he could command us to do anything.
That was his greatest power given to him by heaven.
To his words, I didn’t say anything else. Because I knew better than anyone that that wasn’t the main point.
A twisted snake that pretends to be gentle.
That was the king.
“It’s nothing special… . This time, my son, Ju-san, will soon be 10 years old.”
“Are you 10 years old?”
“Yeah. As you know, there are certain things you have to do for royals over the age of 10.”
“Oh, that’s what you’re talking about.”
“Yes. The 10th birthday party. It is the time when the power of the gods becomes the strongest, and the grandest successor ceremony. I thought it would be good for the four guardian angels to get to know each other before then.”
“… … … . I see.”
That’s what they were saying, bring the children in front of you and show them.
In order to avoid having her brought to the palace, don’t use different tricks every time, just bring her and show her.
That’s what it said.
“I will soon make room for you, so come with another family. I hope you will participate at least.”
“… . Okay.”
My heart raced at the king’s words.
It wasn’t a feeling of joy. It was a feeling of sadness, pain, and anxiety. They were squeezing me and making me anxious, but I didn’t show it.
“Okay. I guess I should go back now.”
“Are you going back already?”
“Hahaha! This is the first time in my life that I’ve heard you say something like that! I didn’t really come here to do anything, I just came to ask questions, so don’t be so harsh.”
I lowered my head, as if he had already seen through my thoughts.
“… . I’m sorry.”
There was nothing I could think about except that I had to hide the children from this rascal.
“Tsk.”
The person Baekhan introduced as the king clicked his tongue and left the place as if he was in a bad mood.
“Like an arrogant white tiger.”
If only for once, she would just coo and purr under me.
I didn’t like it. The huge force. I didn’t like the fact that they had the huge force that a king should have.
Even those who were retired and capable of transformation did not follow the royal family.
In the first place, it was a natural story that absolute command was only exercised by direct descendants with bloodlines.
Beings who lose their abilities or have fewer blessings should naturally be less affected by it.
In addition, the absolute command authority was not something that could be used at will, and was limited. It was only for the sake of this country.
That alone was the condition under which absolute command could operate.
To him, absolute command, which could not be used to control people or move at will, was nothing more than a shiny dog paw.
“I want to kill them all.”
I didn’t want to take on this kind of obligation.
With those thoughts and words, he began to return to the palace where he was supposed to be.
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