episode_0019
by fnovelpia“Again, school… you decided to come out? Hehe.”
A kid in the same class who says that with an awkward smile.
I think we talked quite a bit in the first year.
Obviously we were looking at each other and laughing.
This is what they mean by friends.
There must have been many reasons why he was difficult to approach, such as his anti-social personality or the shadow of the prestigious Sarsberg family.
But he was the one who approached her. To Noctilla, who was a poor student but had promising talent. He didn’t care about the differences in their circumstances or the gossip around them.
The first friend I ever had.
What was your name?
When I met that friend again, the first thought that came to my mind was.
At some point, after I gave up on everything.
I felt like I had forgotten a lot of things.
I end up remembering things I don’t want to remember.
You were the first one to tell me about sugar donuts.
You also taught me that the shapes of clouds, which I always thought were the same, are always different, and that they come in different types.
Autumn smiled, saying that the sky somehow looked high.
I always looked at the sky from the rooftop.
I thoroughly enjoyed the fluffy shapes of the clouds.
And then I forgot about you.
“Thank goodness… . I believed in you. Really.”
Embarrassing lines.
What’s fortunate? What do you believe in?
First of all, don’t expect anything of me.
Why are you laughing? I really hate that kind of thing.
Maybe that’s why it was intentionally erased from my memory.
The muscular male teacher looked surprised for a moment, then smiled warmly and welcomed me.
He said thank you for coming back. He said you were truly welcome.
I’m not really interested in things like academy life.
What’s so great about becoming stronger and being able to wield more violence?
Why is everyone laughing like they don’t know anything?
“Sleep, wait a minute.”
There was no seat like mine left, so even though class was in progress, the teacher ran out of the classroom and got a desk for me.
And class started again.
A friend whose name I can’t even remember whispered to me.
“That guy from earlier, that guy is that failing student. Do you know him by any chance?”
“I don’t know. I’ll find out.”
“Um… Your face is fine. Hehe, it’s still cold. It’s the same. How should I put it, I feel relieved.”
Just like that, he said.
I can feel the skin on my face inevitably crumpling.
“What?”
“No, just. It’s like the old days, I like it. Oh, you really worked hard back then too… ”
“What do you know that makes you say such things!”
Silence falls on the classroom.
Everyone is looking at me. It’s a cold atmosphere.
“… Okay, let’s focus on class~. We’ll talk later.”
At the teacher’s words, the students’ gaze returned to the blackboard.
“Is that something to be so angry about?”
Their lips were stuck together and wouldn’t come off.
The expression that had been smiling brightly until just a moment ago was cold.
“She’s talented and from a famous family. She can refuse to go to school without any problems. So what’s going on?”
It’s true. Every single one of them is obvious.
“You’re funny. You’re really funny. You should show off a little.”
“Huh… ? I, that’s not it, uh, sorry… ”
“That’s exactly what it is.”
I pronounced it with special emphasis on the part ‘as is’.
Words that have been building up inside me for a year just keep pouring out once I start.
“I don’t know what made you feel so disgusted and disillusioned. A mediocre person like me wouldn’t know. But all the kids here are desperate.”
Yeah, that’s right.
It was not only self-deception, but also deception of others.
Even while I was leisurely contemplating whether this was the right path for me.
This child clearly had no choice or leisure to do something like that.
A tingling, prickly sensation in the forearm.
“If you’re going to keep talking about expectations and effort and stuff like that, then go away. Don’t come back.”
My throat is sore.
It’s like forcing dry bread into the dough without adding water.
But I can’t take even one step forward.
It’s scary to even take half a step.
Deception. The words of a well-fed person. If other people saw it, they would definitely think it was disgusting.
I’ve known that fact for a long time.
I knew it all.
So I was always wallowing in self-loathing.
Even hearing these words now, nothing in my heart has changed.
The wound just gets a little deeper.
I came for nothing.
It’s all, it’s all because of that kid.
It would have been fine if I had just sat there like I usually do, doing nothing and watching the clouds drift by.
It would have been okay.
I wonder if it was okay.
No. Is life that easy that you can just play around like that forever?
There is a limit to how much your head can become a flower garden.
“I feel like a fool for having even the slightest expectation of seeing you today.”
My friend was sobbing, just a little bit.
But still.
It doesn’t change.
It’s a deeply ingrained habit now. People don’t change easily. Even if you beat them to death, they’ll still be like this.
I’m sick of this. I can’t do anything about this pathetic self.
I wish he would just die.
Noctila Sarsberg stood up from her seat.
Ignoring the gazes of those around me and the teacher’s urgent calls, I left the classroom.
“Okay, go. You bitch.”
That was the last conversation I had with my friend.
I was locked in my room. I didn’t eat anything. I took off the bandage on my arm. There was a scar there. There was a pain that I was ashamed of and hid. I drew a few more lines. Time flowed steadily like blood.
I didn’t go to the rooftop I always went to.
That was wrong.
It was a week later that I heard that my friend had jumped from that very roof.
***
“Hoo… .”
Snowfield in a dream.
Seed had a satisfied expression on his face.
“Now I’m getting the hang of it. It’s starting to make sense. I guess we can move on to the next step. Right, right.”
The Master stroked Seed’s ashen hair roughly.
“No, he’s not a kid.”
“Don’t humans say that no matter how old a son gets, he’s still a little kid to his mother? Something similar.”
“Sigh… .”
As he said that, Sid found himself smiling without realizing it.
However, the Master is a completely different person than before his regression due to some difference in the past.
The essence is the same, they are the same people. That’s why I felt that.
When I first got the chance to ‘dance’.
I remember him silently patting my head.
Suddenly, I asked, even though I knew I shouldn’t have said this. Even though I knew it would only make things difficult for both of us.
“… What happened to the seed before I regressed?”
Obviously, the path that Seed took in this post-regression world would have been just a little bit different.
There may be birth, but the events that we experience as we grow up create our personality. Personality is one of the best ways to define a person.
So, it’s a different person.
It goes without saying that it is the same as taking someone else’s body.
The Master told me, no matter what, you are my disciple.
“Isn’t it here?”
“Yes?”
“Disciple. Muscles also have memories.”
The teacher said with a smile.
But for some reason he looked a little sad.
“Of course, your body is also you. How much weight does your brain take up in your body? It is arrogant to think that only a part of your body, the shallow reason contained within it, is you.”
“Still… ”
“Think simply. Eat comfortably.”
The smile is faint.
“You are you. You are my friend, my family, my disciple. That is the only truth.”
The teacher turned his head.
The still thin back was visible.
I can’t see the Master’s expression. Is he still smiling? Or.
I couldn’t stand it anymore, so I changed the subject back to the original.
“… If you say next step, that’s it, right?”
“Yeah. That’s what I tried briefly last time. Aura injection through impact.”
The teacher’s expression returned to its original state.
The transmission of the supernatural, like Somnium, takes place in the space of the mind.
Strictly speaking, it is not a ‘dream’, but rather a virtual ‘reality’. That is the expression I used. If you look into the method in detail, it seems to be very different. It is unfortunate that the flow of time is the same as outside.
Anyway, the reason why the Overcoming took the form of training in the mind is because of the training method that will be taught from now on.
Pass it with an aura to get a feel for it.
The master uses his enormous aura to forcefully inject his aura into the disciple’s body.
Since each person’s life wavelength is different, it is basically nearly impossible to transmit an aura to another person.
It’s like forcing electricity through an object that normally doesn’t conduct electricity, like an insulation breakdown, by increasing the voltage to an extreme.
Oh, I told you, you’re ignorant.
However, that doesn’t mean that just having a lot of Aura sheep will do the trick. What was needed at this time was a blow.
An honest and ignorant beginner will sketch out the basic outline of the movement your body wants.
By striking the drawn blueprint, the senses are awakened by injecting an aura. Just like a thin stream of water flowing slowly, the ground is eroded and the waterway becomes larger.
At first glance, it seems like a method that anyone can do, but if that were true, the world would be flooded with users.
Every student at the Imperial National Academy has at least one ability.
On the contrary, it also meant that at that age, he was one of the best talents in the entire country who could enter the academy with just one Auror.
The reason is simple.
First of all, there is no one who has as much talent as the successor to the super power. More than that.
Of course, if you get beaten by Auror all day long, a normal person would die!
That is why training takes place in virtual spaces.
“I know this is a bit urgent, so I’ll go hard this time. …Is that okay?”
“Yes. You’ve heard of Somnium’s training method. It’s much better than that.”
Seed shrugged.
But the teacher looked surprised.
It was that look people often make when they ask themselves, “Why didn’t I think of something simple before?”
A feeling of foreboding ran down my spine in the form of sweat in this cold snap.
“Disciple.”
“… Yes.”
“Once, shall we try that too?”
Finally, something worthy of the name Super Extreme.
The hardships have begun.
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