episode_0018

“What are you talking about? You’re giving up on the audition.”

“After seeing Hajin’s acting, I don’t have the confidence to do better than that. The director thinks so too.”

“… … .”

Director Kim Si-woon could not refute this.

That’s because Byun Ha-jin’s acting was so overwhelming.

This acting competition disguised as an audition ended rather blandly with Byun Ha-jin’s victory.

*****

I was staring blankly at the ceiling in a dark room.

I couldn’t fall asleep at all.

The shock of the audition I saw today hasn’t gone away yet.

“Hajin still can’t get up?”

“I’m sorry, Director.”

“I’m just acting like that, so what are you sorry about? Hyungseok, go outside and bring your mother. I guess I’ll have to carry you.”

Eventually, I ended up having to be carried to the parking lot.

When you get immersed in method acting, there are times when you don’t turn it on/off properly when you return to reality.

This is expressed as the actor being consumed by the role.

If you become too immersed, it can interfere with your daily life.

That’s why a veteran actor famous for method acting said, “There’s only a thin line between a method actor and a schizophrenic.”

‘I couldn’t get away from the boy who saw the ghost.’

I thought it was the aftereffects of experiencing supernatural phenomena that went into the script.

But the boy who is still trembling in front of the ghost does not leave me.

My acting skills were good enough to just pretend to be the character, but I got deeper into it than I thought.

What should I do when the situation written in the script unfolds before my eyes as if it were a VR game?

[Is it right to be miserable in reality in order to act miserable? Is it necessary to become crazy in order to act crazy? Acting is just a technique to imitate something believably, so there is no need to become the character itself. That is why I am negative about method acting.]

This is what my acting teacher said in my past life.

He said that acting shouldn’t cause any problems in daily life.

The teacher was right.

My daily life was put in jeopardy because of one audition.

What if this happens on set too?

Aren’t you going crazy like this?

For the first time since my return, I felt anxious about acting, but there was no way to solve it.

Because the vision of the future pulls me into a world of smoke regardless of my will.

“Haam~”

I was worried, but I was so sleepy that my eyes almost closed.

I closed my eyes, thinking I should go to sleep, but something wrapped around my body.

It was a warm light like a mother’s embrace.

‘Where will you take me this time… Hmm.’

*****

It was a small, sunny practice room.

The voice of someone sitting in front of me was affectionate.

The face was not visible.

“I think it might be difficult for you?”

“It’s okay. I read that difficult book well.”

“Okay? Then I’ll talk about it, so if you come across something you don’t know, just ask.”

“Yes.”

Describes post-performance depression (PDS), a condition that actors often experience.

It has also been compared to trauma or post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

It’s obviously difficult for a 6 year old, but I’m 6 years old and 22 years into my life.

He listened to the voice with a serious expression, remembering the acting class from his past life.

“Hajin is really amazing. He has an expression on his face that says he understands everything.”

“No, it’s not. At first, it was difficult because it seemed like a medical paper.”

“This is from a medical paper abstract. I didn’t expect you to guess the source, but are you really 6 years old?”

“6 years old. A 6 year old who reads difficult books well.”

He pats my head with an amused expression.

“But how does this help me? I just need to not lose my mind on set.”

“That’s the aftereffect of being overly emotional while acting. It’s so common among actors that doctors write papers about it. It’s a kind of occupational disease.”

“Did the doctors tell you how to solve it?”

“No. There is still no solution that does this.”

“Then what should I do?”

“What should I do? I brought you here so we could figure it out together.”

I tried to ask what I should do here, but I couldn’t open my mouth.

Because bright light enveloped my body again.

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When I opened my eyes, it was morning.

In my dream, I saw a vision of the future, not a smoke.

It was a prophecy that someone would help me.

‘But who? Shouldn’t you tell me who will help me?’

Mom opened the door and came in.

“Hajin, if you don’t wake up now, kindergarten… Oh my. My son is already up?”

I started my day with my mom looking at me with a curious expression.

No matter how difficult it is, there are things that kindergarteners must do.

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The Osung Techwin commercial featuring Kang Ji-hoon, who dropped me, was aired.

Although Kang Ji-hoon’s acting was ordinary, the adult actor’s acting of a rich life, director Lee Joo-young’s comical directing, and the sensational screen were enough to attract the public’s attention.

“As expected, you take good pictures. Now I understand why Osung Techwin hates you so much but keeps using you.”

“Why does Oh Seong hate me?”

After a long time, director Park Myeong-cheol met his junior director Lee Joo-young.

“Who likes someone who is so stiff to advertisers?”

“Joo Se-hee, that stiff beggar can’t even raise his head above her. I have to eat to live too.”

“You chewed out the PR team leader so hard, but you pulled him out so smoothly?”

“That’s my career. No matter how much of a shit the client is, I do my work.”

“Of course you should. If you neglected it because of audition troubles, you would be dead to me.”

“Why are you killing me, hyung? You’re not even an advertiser.”

“If you make it carelessly, it won’t be a real showdown. Mine will be released next week.”

“Ah, is that the commercial with Hajin and Sora?”

I consider Director Lee Joo-young, who is my junior but whose abilities are not lacking at all, as my rival.

The better your rivals do, the more motivated you become.

“I thought you’d send it out together, but it’s a bit late.”

“Because of CG. I got double-crossed.”

“SJ Telecom?”

“No, me.”

Director Park Myeong-cheol, who was working hard with the CG team, appeared before my eyes.

“So what do you think, hyung? Did the two of you come out well?”

“Hehehe, what’s the point of saying that. It’s still a drawing, a drawing, even without CG.”

“Let me see that picture too. There must be a rough cut, right?”

“There are only a few days left, so see you then. I came here today to make a bet.”

“What’s the bet?”

“Of course, let’s bet on who made it better.”

“How do you beat the commercial with Sora and Hajin? They start from different places.”

“Inma, where is Kang Ji-hoon? And Ahn Jung-hoon is also coming, so why are you talking about the starting line? Are you that unsure?”

“Who says they are not confident?”

Since ancient times, men have been animals that are infinitely weak to provocation.

“What are you going to bet on? Should I appoint a judge?”

“No need for a jury, you’re going to Cannes Lions next year, right?”

“If the company tells you to go, you have to go.”

Cannes Lions is the nickname for the French International Advertising Festival, also known as the Olympics of the advertising world.

It is one of the world’s three largest advertising festivals, along with the Clio Awards in the United States and the New York Festivals.

“I’m going next year too. Let’s decide based on the ranking.”

“Hmm… Not bad.”

It’s entirely possible, as a South Korean advertisement won an award in the film category a few years ago.

“First, decide after seeing the advertisement that will be released next week. You see that outdoor billboard in your company building? They’ll be playing it there too.”

*****

Office worker Bora Lee almost missed her stop because she was falling asleep on the subway.

“Ha, if you worked overtime, let me come in a little late.”

I grumbled as I passed through the turnstile and headed up the stairs.

“Why is it so cold today. I’m going crazy, seriously.”

I often walked up the stairs, thinking of the warm office.

I came out of the subway and people stopped and looked up at the sky.

‘What’s going on? Why is everyone like this?’

When I followed the people’s gaze, it wasn’t the sky.

It was a large electronic billboard installed on the media tower across from us.

‘A movie… an advertisement? Or is it a music video?’

A dull sky that doesn’t match the emerald sea and its clarity.

Someone is walking towards that border.

He was a small child who looked like he was in elementary school.

You can’t take your eyes off the intense color contrast and sensual camera work.

The camera zooms in on the child walking slowly, knee-deep.

The child turns his head toward the screen as if he senses someone’s gaze.

“Ugh, euaaaah… .”

Exclamations came out not only from Ibora but also from here and there.

There was also a woman who covered her mouth with a look of shock.

The reaction was the same when a girl looking at me with sad eyes from across the sea was reflected.

No one was able to leave their seat and just stared at the scoreboard.

Two children who express their emotions only with their facial expressions and eyes, without a single word of dialogue.

From the sadness, frustration and despair to the hope and joy that surges through,

When the two finally crossed the bridge and met, several people clapped.

[Reconnecting World, TTN]

It was the revival of the TTN advertisement, which had been missing since actress Im Eun-jung left the show.

Although it was only a short 30-second running time, it was enough to capture the hearts of people going to work.

From that day on, I went from being an animal friend on a kindergarten program to a TTN boy known to the entire nation.