episode_0018

After I remained silent for a while, Renia spoke again.

In a slightly calmer voice than before.

“Please, Chris. Take me and run away.”

Yet Renia’s voice trembles.

It was a look that Renia had never seen before. This alone showed how big of a decision Renia had made.

but-.

“It’s impossible.”

My answer was set. I had no choice but to refuse Renia’s request.

During that moment of silence, I thought a lot.

And I came to a conclusion.

He says he will run away with Renia. It wasn’t something that could be said so easily.

No matter how much I love Renia.

Naturally, Renia’s retort continued.

“Why… ? Chris, you like me. Wasn’t it? It’s my mistake… ?”

“It is absolutely not an illusion. Just like you said, I like you, Renia.”

“I like you too, Chris.”

“I know.”

“Then why… !”

Renia shakes her head several times as if she doesn’t understand.

It was only recently that we became aware of each other’s feelings. No, maybe it was from long ago.

Although I denied it at first, I probably fell in love with Renia at first sight. It’s just that I’ve been denying it myself.

Then, after he stopped denying what happened with Lecter, it was clear that he recognized my feelings.

That’s how I came to love Renia.

I’m not sure when Renia’s feelings began… . Perhaps Renia has also liked me for a long time.

Boss love.

Lenia and I loved each other. However, I know that feeling, but-.

“Still, it’s impossible.”

It was impossible to run away with Renia.

As Renia just said.

This generation’s saint. It must be referring to Renia.

And as announced by the Empire, five years from now.

Renia was to embark on a journey to defeat the Demon King, bearing the great responsibility of being a saint.

The act of running away with Renia like that…

‘This is the path that will lead to the destruction of this continent…’ .’

It was the worst move for humanity.

This is something I cannot do as I am only the son of a baron.

That’s why I couldn’t grant Renia’s request. Many hardships lie ahead for Renia, and no matter how much I love her.

“Liar. You said you would be on my side unconditionally… .”

Our relationship started as friends.

He promised to be by my side for the rest of his life.

but-.

I was the only one who couldn’t keep that promise. Renia stood by me at my ten-year-old birthday party, but I couldn’t.

Is that why?

I feel guilty.

Renia’s voice grew cold. It was a voice as if he had lost his only hope.

To others, Renia’s voice may have been just an ordinary crying voice… , To me, Renia’s voice felt colder than ever.

“I’m sorry.”

“Chris, something like you… I really hate it. Go somewhere.”

Renia’s words pushing me away.

There was nothing I could do, not even a simple excuse. Renia’s words of pushing me away stuck in a corner of my heart.

Although it hurt like crazy, I tried to keep a calm expression.

“I’m really sorry… .”

I had no choice but to apologize to Renia.

“… .”

Renia left me like this without giving me any answer.

Left alone, I could only look at Renia’s back. Even though I already knew what would happen to Renia.

Didn’t I say this before?

The saint is a symbol of purity.

Renia’s eyes were scheduled to be removed before she became an adult in order to maintain the purity with which she viewed the world.

I know that, and Renia herself knows it. Because it was a story that Renia told me directly.

That’s why Renia, who was scared, asked me to run away.

‘But it’s not just the two of us… .’

The destruction of the continent was not the only reason for not granting Rhenia’s request.

Another reason… It was the fact that both Renia and I had families. Perhaps a more reasonable reason than the excuse that the continent will be destroyed.

And if there’s something else -.

‘Because I am helpless.’

Even if he ran away with Renia, it was obvious that he would be caught before long. So the option of running away was impossible in the first place.

Because I had no talent for the sword and had not trained it.

So I couldn’t protect Renia.

I looked at Renia’s back as she walked away and made a firm determination.

“… Even if you end up hating me, I will protect you in my own way.”

For Renia, who will live without the light in her eyes.

I decided to become strong in my own way. That’s why I will definitely protect Renia.

It was the only thing I could do.

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I stood blankly for a while. It seemed like he was only looking in the direction where Renia had left. Then suddenly my hand went into my pocket.

Hard texture.

I touched the ring necklace I had prepared for Renia.

I took it out and checked it.

A ring that remains the same as when you first bought it. Suddenly I remembered the purpose of this ring.

“Engagement… I was going to say let’s do it.”

tomorrow-.

To celebrate Renia’s 15th birthday, I wanted to confess my true feelings.

But – why did it end up like this?

For some reason, I started hating God.

Why did Renia become a saint?

Even after thinking about it, I couldn’t come up with an answer.

Of course I couldn’t come out.

Isn’t that natural?

“What does the baron’s son know?”

If you wanted to know even a series of secret stories, you had to have power. I just wanted to cry at the sight of my ugly self.

It was pathetic.

I am so proud of myself.

I should have been by Lenia’s side for the rest of my life. What am I doing now? Was the guy who said this was his life-long side really right?

Unfortunately, the vision did not stop.

Before we knew it, time had passed and the sunset had set.

A sight dyed in scarlet.

I can’t stay here forever.

I have to go back.

Will Renia ever meet me again? Today will be the last day.

“Why… This only happened to us… .”

I promised myself that I would live happily ever after with Renia. It was like that.

Then, I-.

Who on earth should I blame?

Should I blame God for taking away the happy future that Renia and I were planning? Or should we blame the priest who came to see Renia?

But at that moment-.

I remembered one thing.

“But did Renia really want to run away with me?”

I thought about it carefully.

I just made excuses. I couldn’t give Renia any consolation. It just doesn’t work. can not do it. That’s just it.

But if I think about the Renia I know… .

Did you really mean to ask me an unreasonable favor? It wasn’t. The Renia I knew was not that kind of girl.

Perhaps Renia-.

The answer that Renia really wanted was-.

“Regret… I didn’t even know I could do it.”

I can’t believe I couldn’t even tell Renia that.

He was just busy refusing Renia’s request. I feel like my ugly self stands out today. But I realized.

Now, I-.

I had to go to Renia right away.

I had to talk to Renia before it was too late. Only then can you have no regrets.

If you continue like this, you will only continue to regret it. It doesn’t even help at all.

I hurried back.

To the Luver family’s mansion, probably where Renia is.

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Before I knew it, the day was over.

The hallway was dark.

A particularly quiet hallway today. The day is bright, but the atmosphere is gloomy. Probably because everyone in the mansion is sad.

Because of the harsh fate that was destined for Renia.

So I was passing through that quiet hallway…

stopped at one place.

A place I have never been to before.

It was in front of Renia’s visit.

There was definitely Renia in here.

I took a deep breath. To relieve tension. I hope Renia doesn’t reject me.

and-.

Knock-. Knock-.

I knocked on the door.

Then I felt a buzz inside. However, no answer came back.

“Renia… it’s me… .”

A clicking sound was heard. It seems that Renia had locked the door.

Sigh-.

The visit opened slightly. But it didn’t open completely.

The sound of Renia’s footsteps echoing on the floor. And the sound of sitting on something like a bed.

“You can come in.”

I opened the slightly opened door and entered the room.

A dark room.

A figure covered in a blanket could be vaguely seen on the bed.

Renia.

That figure was Renia.

Renia completely covered her face with a blanket.

I closed the door and walked over to Lenia.

Renia didn’t even react to me.

But it didn’t matter.

Renia removed the blanket she had covered herself with. Renia’s tears are clearly visible, and her eyes are swollen.

Maybe he didn’t want to show me like this.

Renia tried to hide her face with the blanket again.

But before that-.

I brought my face closer to Renia.

“Renia… ”

“K, Chris?”

So close to my nose that I could feel Renia’s breathing.

Our breaths mingled, and I made eye contact with Renia.

Renia’s eyes were shining blue. I felt like I was being sucked into those eyes.

Is it because he was surprised by my sudden action? Renia’s eyes got even bigger. I looked at those eyes intently…

I kissed Renia.

A moment of silence.

I don’t know how many seconds or minutes passed.

I said as I slowly put it on.

“I have something I want to say.”

Renia touches her lips with blushing cheeks. I had something I had to say to Renia. If you don’t want to regret it.

“No, it has to be said.”

I’m telling you my sincerity because I don’t want to regret it. I decided to tell this to Renia before it was too late.