episode_0017

How do you treat someone who is so mentally devastated?

In fact, even psychiatrists don’t know the clear answer.

Because the treatment is different for each person.

Nonetheless, we were able to narrow down the answers to something that was somewhat close to the correct answer.

As if analysis is essential to portray a role.

Put yourself in someone else’s shoes.

It’s about thinking from the other person’s perspective.

If I were in this situation, what would be best?

‘If you’re not careful, you might end up stepping on a landmine.’

A mentally healthy person might be able to get over a mistake or two somehow.

For a mentally exhausted person, it was like walking barefoot through a field full of landmines.

It was best to avoid that as much as possible with the mine detector called research and analysis.

‘I desperately want you to save me.’

However, it was clear that Choi Yoon-ha had aversion and fear of being deeply indebted to me.

Isn’t it?

If I’m this broken, do I really need someone’s touch so much that I want to depend on them?

One thing is certain.

-First of all, you must never take off your women’s clothing ‘right now’ in front of Choi Yoon-ha.

-Don’t mention the name of the piece of trash that raped Choi Yoon-ha. That guy shouldn’t be in Choi Yoon-ha’s sight.

-You shouldn’t approach too hastily.

‘Now, even if I take revenge on the actor who made Choi Yoon-ha like this, nothing will be solved.’

Rather, he might have to eat better and live better.

That way, Choi Yoon-ha will be able to find the strength to seek revenge.

okay.

As if taming a wild animal with strong guard.

[Would you like to play White Winter Episode 1 VOD?]

[Yes/No]

Fortunately, Choi Yoon-ha’s family isn’t that poor.

There were quite a few things that my parents had bought just in case.

Among them, the mobile stand TV was very helpful.

“Would you please look at this for a moment?”

“… … Yes.”

The more mentally exhausted a person is, the more he or she tends to cling to what he or she knows.

I thought you said you were a fan of .

When I brought her into the room and turned on the TV, Choi Yoon-ha covered herself with the blanket as if possessed and stared only at the screen.

As if running away from reality more thoroughly.

As if ignoring reality.

‘after.’

In the meantime, I rolled up my sleeves and started to carefully and diligently clean her room.

But the tightly drooping blackout curtains were left untouched.

I also tried my best to avoid being noticed by Choi Yoon-ha while I was cleaning.

Choi Yoon-ha’s current state was that her heart had opened only for a moment thanks to her older sister’s help.

It was still sensitive.

It was a nuclear bomb landmine that would explode if touched incorrectly.

‘Take it slow. You have plenty of time.’

4th year of college.

The classes I’m taking are only two 3-credit classes and one 2-credit class.

Even two of them were special lectures in cyber lectures.

A subject where you are guaranteed an A+.

[Hey. Even though you’re a 4th year student, aren’t you earning too many credits?]

‘I took the entire semester.’

I don’t know why I took the summer semester.

Because I didn’t want to just spend the long college vacation doing nothing.

That was it.

If I didn’t hear that, my vacation would have been too long.

“After.”

I was worried that the vacuum cleaner would be noisy, so I solved it with a broom and a dustpan.

After that, mop the floor with a disposable mop.

The floor was so dirty that the disposable mop had to be changed 12 times.

Even my parents couldn’t come in easily.

That’s not all.

The bed was also carefully rolled up, and it was covered in dust and hair, to the point where it took almost an entire package of rolls to roll it up.

“… … I’m sorry.”

“No, I like cleaning.”

[Kind!]

Everyone is naturally kind to people who are sick.

“Do you know that?”

“… ?”

“That’s my sister.”

“Is that… that?”

“Yes. That one. The female protagonist of . Kim Hye-rin.”

“That. That… Rani. Ah. No. More than that… Who. Sister?”

I couldn’t openly show that I was a man.

If you do that right now, the trauma will explode and you will be even more shocked and go into hiding deep inside.

At the same time, gradually narrowing the distance between us.

I had to heal Choi Yoon-ha’s wounds as much as possible.

The best way to do that would be to make Choi Yoon-ha herself have the will and interest to do so.

Aren’t humans said to be curious animals?

“Do you like that girl that much?”

I don’t particularly hate my older sister.

But by pretending not to like it, he was able to get the words to come out of Choi Yoon-ha’s mouth easily.

“I… like… it. Right now… too.”

“Huh. I see.”

Choi Yoon-ha looks as if he is surprised and embarrassed at being able to say something like this.

And yet he was curious about me.

“Really. Man… Are you… a believer?”

“Huh. Well?”

I never reached out to Choi Yoon-ha first.

After all, she had to make all decisions by her own will.

“That’s right.”

Fluffy-.

I said, running my hand over the bedsheets that had just been cleaned by pushing the bedspread.

“Let’s check it out for ourselves. Let’s start with the hands first.”

“That. That’s… ….”

Choi Yoon-ha’s pupils trembled.

Her hands twitched. They twitched.

Heavy breathing comes out of my mouth, but I don’t even realize it.

“Ugh. Ugh… … .”

“Shh. Calm down.”

“Uh-huh. Uh-huh… … Phew.”

“I won’t run away. I don’t intend to harm you. Think of it as your last chance. Your last salvation. My sister said it too.”

Smile.

My third older sister used to say that the best medicine for people who are sick and tired is a ‘smile’.

And at the same time, I was taught by my third older sister.

Thanks to my second older sister’s teachings, I was able to have a smile more beautiful than any other beauty.

You worked really hard today.

Today I am… … .

It was the most beautiful thing in the world.

“… … .”

bruise-.

“I’ll help you. Revenge.”

“… … ! See. Revenge… … .”

“Tight,” Choi Yoon-ha said, clenching her fist.

Isn’t there something like that?

For someone who has lost the will to live, it’s like forcing yourself to play the villain and earning their resentment to fuel their motivation.

It was a similar principle.

“Take courage.”

“… … .”

To the average person, this might seem like nothing special courage.

If he were an ordinary person, he would have already grabbed my hand, smiled brightly, and exclaimed that it was amazing.

however.

To Choi Yoon-ha… … .

“Ugh. Ugh… … .”

Your breathing is ragged.

It took her over ten minutes just to reach out and touch my hand, which was still on the bedsheets.

His face turned pale, as if he was about to suffocate at any moment.

… … Really. It’s really broken.

Bam-.

Shudder-!

“Hah… .”

He stretched out his hand.

I just touched one of the knuckles on the back of his hand, but he was so surprised that he didn’t know what to do.

I looked at Choi Yoon-ha like that and smiled again and said.

“Well done. You showed great courage.”

“Ah. Ahhh. Huh. Huh… … Huh. Huh!”

[……amazing.]

Pia gave a small exclamation of admiration.

[Really. It’s more real than real… … .]

[It wasn’t like I received any help from any skills.]

“There’s still plenty of time. Slowly. Let’s change very slowly. I’ll help you.”

“Oh my. Oh my… … Oh my. Oh my!”

I didn’t even reach out to Choi Yoon-ha, who was crying loudly.

Rather, it was a good sign.

People release stress through tears.

Because I often vent my anger.

And I personally showed my determination to never leave Choi Yoon-ha’s side.

Never wavering.

Even if it was a moment when I needed to go to the bathroom, I would have peed in secret if I had peed here.

He was showing his will to never leave.

I could tell because the more mentally exhausted a person was, the more sensitive he was.

“A little more. Shall we be brave?”

“Ah… … .”

Choi Yoon-ha, who used to burst into tears in shock at just the touch of her finger joints, has already changed and is gaining courage.

He was slowly reaching out his hand towards the back of my hand.

It was faster than before.

‘I’m doing well.’

I only muttered those words in my heart.

Now is not the time to rush.

However, I will only cheer you on.

“Ah… … Ahh. Black. Heh. Heh. ”

Finally, Choi Yoon-ha reached out and carefully stroked the back of my hand.

“How is it? Got it?”

Choi Yoon-ha: Probably.

It was the first time in a long time that I smiled and cried.

“I don’t… know. Not at all. I don’t… know. Sigh. Sob. ”

“I see. Then next time, I’ll tell you about a slightly different place. Are you curious? Are you sure I’m really a man?”

“Yes… … I’m curious.”

“Wait a minute. Let me sleep. Yoon-ha.”

“Ugh… ….”

dump-.

Choi Yoon-ha didn’t even have the luxury of refusing or rejecting. She just fell backwards with a thud, exhausted from the immense amount of energy she had expended after a long time, and fell fast asleep.

“… … .”

I didn’t even reach out to Choi Yoon-ha, who was sleeping.

I just watch cautiously.

Even though I said I just stayed at home.

A body that is extremely emaciated. Dark circles that have settled thickly around the eyes.

Even my hair was full of holes from the immense stress.

For someone like me to end up like this at the age of just a third-year college student… … I could only vaguely sense how much pain he must have endured.

“After. Let’s see.”

Squeak. Click-.

I carefully closed Choi Yoon-ha’s door and went out.

And I thought deeply about the cooking and the clothes that Choi Yoon-ha would have to change into.

“I asked my parents. What kind of food does Choi Yoon-ha like? I think it’s kimchi fried rice and soybean paste stew? Fortunately, it’s not that difficult.”

[Excuse me, sir.]

“Huh?”

Pia’s voice was serious.

[how.]

[How can you do so well?]

“… … .”

[Doing something for someone. Being needlessly devoted to someone. That’s actually something that quite a few people can do.]

[But doing that ‘well’ isn’t easy.]

[Master… … .]

“Well. Maybe you had experience. Or maybe you were interested in it. Or maybe you just learned it naturally because your older sisters were so great.”

[okay.]

Pia shouted again a moment later.

[Aha! I see!]

[That’s what it was! Of course. If that’s the case, then it can happen. Ta-da!]

I chuckled and immediately opened the closet containing Choi Yoon-ha’s clothes and checked all the clothes and underwear inside.

and.

I sat at the kitchen table and leisurely read a book.

Until Choi Yoon-ha, who had fallen asleep for the first time in a long time, was able to sleep soundly.

And after some time had passed.

Rustle-.

I heard it clearly.

Very small though.

I can hear a sound coming from inside the room.

‘It could be that he rustled while sleeping, but I guess it’s right to assume he woke up.’

Because more than anything, you’ll want to go to the bathroom.

“Yoon Ha. I’m going to make kimchi fried rice and soybean paste stew now. What do you think?”

“… Good… ”

Squeak. The door opens.

When I saw that, I smiled and put on an apron and headed to the kitchen.

Choi Yoon-ha ran into the bathroom as if she had been waiting for it.

Click-.

Even the sound of the door locking.

When I saw that, I snickered and fried kimchi and rice with oil, then added eggs and ham on top.

And in the case of doenjang jjigae, the food is so good these days.

You can make something delicious just by boiling it in water.

Shoo-ahhh.

If you pour water really carefully, you’ll hear exactly that sound.

As I watched Choi Yoon-ha walk in as if she were dead, I immediately put food in the bowls I had prepared in advance.

I put it on a tray, opened the door, and went in.

I said this while looking at Choi Yoon-ha, who was blankly staring at me.

“I’ll feed you.”