episode_0016

How long has it been since I was sitting alone on the sofa and meditating? Honestly, I don’t even remember what I was thinking.

I think I just meditated to avoid falling into strange anguish due to the sound of water coming from the bathroom.

Isn’t this the 108th anguish?

And before I knew it, the sound of the water quieted down.

Dalkak-

The bathroom door opened behind me with a short sound.

It wasn’t like that, but I felt like I could feel warm moisture full of water without knowing why.

“Sihyeon, can I wear this?”

“Ah, yes. Those are things I don’t wear a lot.”

At that moment, I could feel something strange about the question and answer with her.

If you’re asking what to wear, it means you haven’t worn it yet.

And she was in the bathroom right after taking a shower.

in other words.

A situation where you are not wearing anything.

‘…crazy.’

Don’t imagine, you crazy person.

Don’t even try to imagine anything.

Don’t even think about looking back. Just don’t pay attention.

‘….Will it work?’

Unfortunately, my mind followed my body, which was currently in the midst of a vigorous puberty.

Not imagining things in this situation… is almost impossible.

Even if a promising Buddhist came, it was clear that he would shake his head.

Suk, Suk-

The TV wasn’t on, so the house was filled with silence.

In that situation, the sound of clothes rubbing against each other could be heard from behind.

A sound that stimulates the imagination in itself.

How many times did I take a deep breath at that sound?

“Sihyeon, it’s done.”

Finally, the sound of clothes rubbing against each other stopped being heard.

I was finally able to turn my head to her words. I could see it as is.

Riya is soaked in water.

The hot water stuck to her hair and had not dried yet, and the water dripping from her hair soaked the clothes she was wearing.

And even white skin that seems to have a glossy sheen to it.

And in her both hands were the clothes she was wearing.

From school uniforms that were completely wet and saggy. Even underwear.

Yes, it’s underwear.

“….Riya, put it in the washing machine.”

“Yes.”

Her growth was good enough for an adult.

And as I keep imagining that unconsciously… I feel like I’m really going crazy.

No, just thinking about this in the first place is a sin.

‘Should I go to Buddhism?’

How should we manage our worries? The agony that fills my head!

It was really hard to bear when she came in unexpectedly sometimes.

For example, he suddenly pushes his face in my face while I’m playing a game next to him, or he suddenly puts his finger in my mouth while I’m sleeping.

or.

“Sihyeon, what are you doing?”

While I was thinking like this, I put my face in front of my nose.

“Ugh!?”

I was taken aback by the sudden look on her face and pulled my body back.

It was almost a reflex action. A reflex action similar to when your finger is pricked by a thorn.

But I guess Riya has no intention of letting me go.

“Why are you pulling it back?”

“….!”

She slowly brought her face towards mine.

Very slowly.

As her face gets closer little by little, my heart also beats up little by little. And at the end, he ran wildly.

“….”

Her soft legs touched mine, and the distance between our bodies was barely a hand’s span.

Even though their bodies were not touching and they were in close contact, there was nothing to say.

Riya’s blue eyes look at me with an expressionless expression, but one that doesn’t seem to hate me.

Even after looking at it, I was able to come to my senses as the water droplets falling from her hair wetted my clothes.

“Li, Li! Hair… I need to dry it.”

I managed to escape by rolling my body to the side.

Thump, thump, thump-

My heart was still beating crazy fast.

I probably exceeded my highest heart rate this year.

Honestly, in this situation, it would be understandable if my heart exploded and I died.

” Sihyeon doesn’t wash?”

“…Yes, it’s okay.”

Actually, I was going to wash it, but I felt like I shouldn’t wash it now.

Really, I had a feeling that something was not good.

“Sihyeon. Then stop me.”

“Ah? Uh.. okay.”

Drying my hair was something I had only done a few times, so there was nothing I couldn’t do.

Yes, there is nothing you can’t do.

Because I’ve done it a few times.

however.

‘Why is my heart… racing like this?’

It’s been like this often these days.

When I do things I have often done with Riya before, my heart beats fast and I feel strange.

Actions that had seemed innocuous before.

I was worried now.

The reason, I didn’t know.

“Vision?”

“…I’ll go now.”

When Riya called, I went straight to her and dried her hair.

Because I had long hair that reached down to my waist, drying my hair was not easy.

Riya’s soft hair touches my hand, and its moisture wets me. The feeling was so itchy.

At that time, Riya, who was looking at my face closely, opened her mouth.

“Are you okay?”

“What?”

“Your face has been red since a while ago.”

When I looked in the mirror at her words, my face turned bright red.

A face that looks like it might explode at any moment. And even an expression full of agony.

As she said, there seemed to be a problem somewhere.

However, the problem is that the cause is Riya.

‘…What are you doing?’

I tried my best to shake off the worries I had from earlier.

It was really wrong to think like that about Riya. really.

What if I catch this idea from her?

‘It’s terrible.’

It was an outcome I never, truly wanted to imagine.

Thinking about that, I took a deep breath and dried her hair.

‘I guess I can endure it.’

I thought about it, trying to exorcise the troubles that resurfaced.

I have to pass it on today.

#

‘…It doesn’t do anything.’

Riya sighed and looked at Sihyeon drying her hair.

Riya’s expression looks quite dissatisfied.

Of course, there was almost no change in his expression, so it was really difficult to notice.

‘There is a reaction.’

It was completely wet from the rain and it was unexpected that he came all the way to his house.

That’s literally an accident.

Because it happened suddenly.

However, they did not bother to change their clothes outside the bathroom or deliberately showed their underwear among the washed clothes.

And pressing his face towards Sihyeon, who was sitting, was a thoughtful and deliberate action.

finally.

‘…I don’t even have any underwear right now.’

It was all something I thought about and did.

There was a bit, or quite a bit, of impulsiveness, and she was aware of it.

I just wanted to do that today.

I had to say that the desire I usually suppressed overflowed a little.

‘Because this doesn’t happen often.’

It had been a long time since we had been alone together like this at his house, and it had been a long time since we had washed up at his house.

All of these impulsive actions up until now were due to this situation.

However, although he reacted to Riya’s appearance like this, he did not directly say anything.

It’s been like that since long ago.

He avoided seeing Riya herself as a member of the opposite sex, or to put it more bluntly, as a sexual object.

I’m not sure why.

‘…It’s okay.’

It’s okay.

It didn’t matter what he wanted.

Of course, I am currently in middle school, so I have no intention of going further than that.

When you become an adult.

‘If I become an adult…’

What should I do?

And at that time, Riya’s face turned bright red at those thoughts and she lowered her head.

#

‘what?’

Why is my face suddenly blushing?

Did I do something?

I thought about it for a moment, but all I did was dry my hair.

“Riya, do you want to eat something?”

So, to change the subject for both her and me, I brought up another topic.

I was starting to feel hungry too.

“Rice?”

“I’ll give it to you. Because it’s been a while since I came home. Above all, my mom gave me a card.”

The so-called Umka.

My mom couldn’t cook a meal for me, so when she went out, she tended to give me a credit card so I could buy something like this.

As such, it was okay to buy something to eat outside today.

“Hamburger. I want to eat it.”

“Hamburger? Then let’s order a hamburger.”

I haven’t eaten a hamburger recently, so I wanted to eat one for the first time in a while.

After deciding on the menu, I immediately had a burger delivered from a restaurant I frequent. There weren’t many hamburger chains near my house, so my options were limited.

After ordering food, what we did while waiting for it to arrive was watch a movie.

Recently, a movie I wanted to see became available on OTT, so I decided to watch it someday.

It was nice to see it this time.

“…Liya?”

“Why?”

“Don’t you watch the movie?”

“I’m watching.”

The only problem is that Riya keeps looking at me.

Every time I turned my head to the side, I couldn’t help but make eye contact with Riya, who was looking this way.

As I was looking at it from a distance that was quite close, within reach of my shoulder if I moved just a little, the distance felt very close.

Even the white eyelashes are visible.

‘I can’t even concentrate.’

Under such circumstances, it was natural that there was no focus on the movie.

What was really in front of me was a moving picture, and my only focus was on Riya who was looking at me.

When such awkward situations continue.

Ding dong-

“I guess it came.”

When the doorbell rang, I went straight to get a hamburger.

After the hamburger arrived, she also focused on eating.

Honestly, if you kept watching me until I finished eating, I might have thrown up. really.

After eating quite a lot of hamburgers, I looked at the time and it was quite late. 8 o’clock. It looks quite dark outside.

“Li, when are you going home?”

“Home?”

“It’s getting late now. I’ll take you there.”

Lee rubs her fingers as if she is thinking about my words for a moment.

And soon, really soon, she said to me. In a slightly firmer tone than usual.

“I’ll go to sleep.”

“…?”

The biggest surprise of my life has come.

In a truly unexpected situation.