episode_0015
by admin‘I thought you would ignore it…’
Damian tells his story first.
He calmly told me the story from when he was young until now.
From the story of trying to live up to the expectations of those around you,
After being defeated by Miss and Ella, I lived a broken and crooked life.
In the end, there is a story about being possessed by the devil without one’s knowledge.
“Yeah… that’s right”
“I didn’t say this specifically to get sympathy from others, it’s just… I somehow wanted to do this”
I also briefly summarized the events from when I was young until now.
“Yeah… I guess you haven’t had an easy life either”
“The difficulties of living with each other are the same”
Through many conversations, we learned about each other
Although it was a little bit, I was able to empathize.
“Okay… Because I was raised like that, I was able to win without even using my energy once.”
A self-mocking laugh mixed with self-deprecation
But I misunderstand one thing
“No, actually… ”
I gave a brief explanation of my abilities.
After listening to my story, the guy’s eyes got surprisingly big.
“You couldn’t write it in the first place? For the rest of my life, I will face the other person with my bare body… No way!”
Maybe it’s because I’m so surprised, but I can hear myself muttering to myself.
It’s not clear, but I can see a smiling face, so I guess it’s a good sign.
He also talked about demonization.
“Demonization? I don’t even know at what point I changed! All I remember is that I lost my temper because I couldn’t bear the boiling anger and shame after being defeated by you”
‘There was no particular harvest’
I made a small sighing gesture and the guy immediately started arguing.
“… I’m not sure, but from what I heard, they beat up a commoner and knocked you out…! Still, it’s nice to get revenge for getting hit!”
‘It looks like he was quite upset about being beaten by me…’
“Ehyo~ Is it okay to do everything you can to win and still lose to a kid with no skills? Is it good!?”
I feel bad because I got scolded, so I have to let it go.
I raised one hand high and gave the guy a hard hit of honey chestnuts on the head.
“Profit! You devil, assaulting a patient!”
“How are you? Who is the devil?”
“I’m not the devil, you damn commoner!”
“Yes~ Next, I’m the bitch who couldn’t overcome my inferiority complex and turned on the devil”
“Profit~!”
We got tired of arguing with each other so we went back to bed.
‘Let’s get some sleep’
When I turned my head and went to bed, he started talking to me from next to me.
“Commoner: I have a question”
“…tell me”
“… Why did you save me?”
“What are you talking about? Why did I make you…”
“I heard that you asked others to bury this incident”
“Why did you do that? Why me… Did you ask me to forgive you?”
“… … ”
I guess you heard what we were saying
It’s not a story I really want to hide, so it doesn’t matter.
“I saw your eyes when we were fighting and I kept thinking about them”
– me… Don’t ignore it! Look at me! Ah!
– I can’t lose anymore. I don’t want to lose!!!
Even after his body was taken over by the devil, the emotions he expressed were consistent.
I want to be loved
I want to get attention
I want to be recognized
A feeling so desperate that it’s so pitiful
The tenacity of a guy who shouts until he falls into tatters.
Because I thought it was amazing
‘I don’t know… why I did that’
I didn’t really intend to cover up for what he did or make it go away.
I’ve hurt my loved ones and it’s actually wrong.
Because I didn’t know that it might have been irreversible
But so far it’s okay
Because it wasn’t enough to cross the river of no return.
Maybe it could definitely change
“I thought there should be a chance to change at least once in life”
“… … ”
He didn’t say anything like that.
and
I didn’t see anything either.
Our night passed like that.
~~~
After a few days, we were discharged from the hospital. After going through the discharge process, we were in front of the door.
I saw the guy who went out first and was waiting.
A special guy
We’ve become close friends these days, and we can talk to each other comfortably.
‘Now we’re leaving! Go and live well! From now on, don’t bother others!’
When I tried to pass by without saying anything, he grabbed my shoulder.
“Commoner… You won’t be able to return to school until the suspension and demon investigation are over… ”
“After… Okay, pay well for your sins and see you later at school”
I was about to tap the guy on the shoulder a few times and leave.
The hand holding my shoulder did not lose strength.
‘Were you trying to ask for less punishment?’
I’m sorry, but that’s out of my scope so I can’t do any more.
“I’m sorry… Even if you pray to me, it won’t work”
“What are you talking about? What does it mean that it doesn’t work?”
An expression that says you really don’t understand
I guess it was just a misunderstanding on my part
“No… I think it’s my imagination, so can you please let go of my hand? Do you want to go home?”
“Hmm? Are you really planning to pretend like you don’t know anything?”
“???”
What else is this guy trying to say?
“If you made me like that, you have to take responsibility!”
“??????”
‘Fuck! Seriously, why is everyone around me like this these days?’
When I made an expression of not understanding the incomprehensible sound, he came next to me and quietly whispered.
“Did you really want my breasts and legs?”
“Fuck… ”
Wasn’t that a fad that was out of date and now you’re bringing this out?
They started teasing me because they thought they had won the game.
“You knew I was an attractive woman, but even if I fainted, you never let me go?”
“… … ”
“Squeezing a woman’s breasts and spreading her crotch open in front of people made me so faint that I couldn’t resist. I can’t get married anymore, so I’m responsible! Black black black”
Fuck!
‘You’ve been speaking a little more easily lately, but now that we’re getting closer, you’re getting angry? Should I just beat this up?’
I clenched my fists and trembled because of the sin I committed.
“Ugh~ I can’t do anything and just sit around and feel pathetic”
“Ugh! Fuck!”
In the end, I couldn’t hold back from hearing that guy’s harsh voice and I exploded.
Damian, who had already run away with his excellent physical ability,
“Take care of yourself until I return, sir~”
I left the academy, teasing myself until the end.
“Just don’t come back!~! Please~!”
I hope to reflect deeply and come back by the time I graduate.
Not long after I broke up with Damian.
I met Ella and the professor together, and she said she came right after class, which warms my heart.
They each gave me a warm word to commemorate their discharge from the hospital.
“I’m just saying this now that you’ve been discharged from the hospital, but I’d like you to ask me a few urgent favors.
ah! Of course, I need to get some rest since I just got discharged from the hospital.
However, I unreasonably handed over the work to the professor and even took care of the incident.
I don’t think my student would do such a miserable thing like mouth-washing.
Will you do me a favor?”
‘Professor Catherine, you talk longer when you get excited.’
I heard you said that this time, you pushed for an unreasonable request because of Damian.
Aren’t you going to be back in the hospital in just a few days? worried
“… I think you shouldn’t do dirty things”
Ellaella, are you still like that?
Lately, my confidence has grown, so I’ve become a little arrogant.
Let’s extend our hand and place it close to Ella’s cheek.
“Yes~”
He made strange noises and stayed still as if he was enjoying my touch.
‘This is not it!’
I felt strange and tried to pull my hand away, but in an instant, my hand was taken away.
He rubbed his cheek and held it so that it wouldn’t hit him.
“Not yet… Just a little more”
‘The Ella I knew was not like this!’
Ella’s changed appearance
The cute past of acting like a jerk is gone.
Today my world fell apart.
“Let go and go!”
~~~~~~
I don’t have courage
I definitely had a lot of things I wanted to say until I entered the stadium.
I saw him smiling next to me
My mind went blank and I couldn’t say anything.
“I’m sorry… ”
At first, I prayed that he would wake up quickly while lying down.
The unspoken truth
If you don’t wake up, my world will fall apart.
If I live alone, I will regret it for the rest of my life.
So I want you to stand up and listen to me
And when he tried to get up
i ran away
The reason even you don’t know
I felt like I shouldn’t face him, so I made an excuse and ran away.
‘I guess I’m not the right woman for you’
I wiped away the tears flowing from my thoughts with my sleeve with my sleeve.
“I decided to stay away… It doesn’t work out the way I want”
Although I abandoned you
Distorting and doubting you for stupid reasons
I can’t even let go of my own ugly feelings
Stupid drumsticks
All I do is hide and watch, but someday
I am by your side like this
“I love you”
holding hands with you
walking down the street with you
eat with you
sleep with you
laughing with you
go on a trip with you
Raising my child with you
love with you
Until I grow old and die with you
“I love you”
I want to stand by your side and be the woman you love.
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