episode_0015

I’m lost in thought for a moment.

Lee So-young.

This girl, who appears only in the latter half of the story, is a character who helps Seo Jae-hyeok a lot during the latter half of the story, when he starts to move around on his own because of a will.

Especially when I needed to surprise the Masin Cult guys or get information on where the key executives were, they were really helpful.

A character who had a certain amount of importance.

Of course, but that too became useless after being defeated by Yoo Seo-ra in the final ending.

‘I didn’t know at first just by reading it, but it actually looks like this.’

As I recalled the expressions of Lee So-young’s writing in the original work, I thought that it was very similar to the novel. In many ways, when I recognized that girl as ‘Lee So-young’, I felt like the developments that would happen later were flashing by in real time.

Lee So-young, who was standing timidly no matter who saw her, straightened her back, which had been bent down, and confidently glared at Yoo Se-ra.

She seemed to be asking me how I got here, and I thought she might have felt the same way as I did.

Maybe that was why Yu Seo shook her shoulder slightly and brought a child in front of Lee So-young.

“First of all, I can only say that I have heard a lot about you. If you have time later, let’s meet up separately. First, I want you to take responsibility for those kids.”

Lee So-young nodded with a puzzled expression, perhaps feeling a sense of unease. It seemed as if the two of them were having an implicit conversation.

Did something come and go?

“Oh, I see, let’s talk about it separately later.”

She, who had been confident until just a moment ago, bowed slightly again as if she had lost a fight.

“But, who’s that person over there?”

As she said that, Lee So-young pointed in my direction. It seemed like she was worried. No matter who looked at her, she didn’t look like a victim like those kids.

“This is my group. This person doesn’t know anything about you, so you don’t have to worry about him.”

No. You know?

That too, a lot.

A former executive who betrayed the Masin Church.

Although we still agree that the world is rotten, we are well aware that the Masin Church is moving to stop it by getting away from it and doing the opposite when it sees even more rotten behavior.

In the process, I made some valuable colleagues and developed new, proper feelings for them.

And in particular, he is quite good at hacking and is a relatively strong Awakener.

Lastly, do you know that I will betray you in the future?

I can’t tell you this.

“Okay. Let’s talk about this later when we have a separate conversation.”

“Yes, thank you.”

Yuseo said with a smile. It seems she will continue to do so to still look good.

At least with this, it was certain that the children were safe. Considering that in the original, the reason why Lee So-young betrayed the Masin Church was because of the children, it was completely believable.

“Then we don’t have time anymore. So let’s go now.”

As he said that, Yu Seo nodded to me. It must have been a signal for me to follow him, but he had something to do first.

I approached Baek Jeong-eun.

Of all the children here, that kid is probably the most pitiful. If you look at him, he’s at a level where he can accept that he’s going to die. That might be why I keep worrying about him.

Of course, it’s more than that; it’s so unique that it stands out.

“Then, take care.”

Too little time to develop feelings for each other.

But the impression I left was so deep that I even greeted him separately. I think Baek Jeong-eun will probably remember me too. After all, he was the one who saved her in that situation.

“Yes. See you later.”

I followed straight towards Yusera.

Finally, the work was done.

Naturally, I felt relieved only then, as if my legs were about to give out.

No, I walked quite a bit and got quite far from the building, so my legs really gave out. At some point, I just collapsed on the floor.

I felt an intense trembling covering my body that I had been able to ignore before.

“What are you doing?”

Yu Seo-ra looked at me like I was pitiful and said, “I wanted to go quickly, but I was holding back.”

“Fuck, let’s just take a break. My legs are giving out right now.”

Yu Seo-ra, who had a puzzled expression on her face at my words, looked around for a moment and then checked the watch on her wrist.

“It’s almost 3 in the morning. Are you okay?”

It’s already like that?

What the fuck.

It seems like I’ll just lie down and sleep during class tomorrow, or rather today. It’s uncertain whether I’ll even be able to go to school.

“What can I do? It doesn’t move.”

It really doesn’t move the way I want it to.

In fact, I couldn’t move. My legs were shaking and my hands were shaking, as if my body was telling me it wasn’t mine.

Every time I tried to move, even just a little, I felt more exhausted, and to be honest, it was a little scary, to the point where I was getting annoyed.

“Then should I carry you for you?”

what?

“Are you crazy?”

I said it with all my heart.

I’m being carried by Yoo Seo-ra? In that case, it would be more comfortable to just go back to where Baek Jeong-eun was and ask her to carry me. I couldn’t trust her to that extent.

I just didn’t like it.

“If it’s embarrassing, then it doesn’t matter, right? No one will see it anyway.”

That’s not it, I just don’t trust you. I realized this after seeing Lee So-young, but you’re a guy who could kill all the characters except Seo Jae-hyeok.

I didn’t want to get it out of my head, so I didn’t want to carry it. It wasn’t a matter of pride.

With that thought in mind, I immediately lay down on the floor. I decided that since I was going to rest anyway, it would be better to rest properly.

I felt comfortable because there were no rocks or debris on the floor. I don’t care what Yusera thinks of me now.

I continued to rest like that for a while, and then suddenly my body rose into the sky.

What the heck? Did I awaken to superpowers?

no.

Someone had lifted me up. Of course, it was Yu Seo-ra.

“You, what the fuck are you doing?”

What the hell is this kid doing?

“I think it would be better to go quickly. Don’t worry. I won’t run fast.”

Are you saying that you are being considerate in your own way?

“No, I’m just resting here. So put me on the ground. Don’t make it uncomfortable.”

I was sincere.

I wanted to walk on my own strength. Of course, I couldn’t walk yet, but if I rested for about 30 minutes, I would be able to walk well enough.

That’s why I want to rest comfortably here.

Anyway, I’m back in the forest now and there won’t be any people around, so I just want to lie down.

“That’s because I want to go quickly.”

“Then just go alone. You don’t have to go with me.”

“What if something happens to you?”

It seemed like he was worried about my life.

Her actions in valuing my life were natural. That’s because saying she won’t kill me meant she would watch over me, and if that were the case, then I would have to be alive to watch over me. In other words, saying she would let me live also meant she would protect me.

I was aiming for this part to some extent too.

So I could understand why she couldn’t leave me alone now.

but.

“Then just wait. Is there any need to move?”

“Then is there really a need to not move? Honestly, I don’t find it that hard, so I think it’s better this way.”

This is rotten.

There is no point in refuting this. Talking about it emotionally will be useless. I’m seriously going crazy.

“Okay, do whatever you want.”

I just didn’t like the idea of being lifted up by Yoo Seol-ra, and there was no reason for me to be unyielding. That’s why I decided to accept it.

But isn’t this a bit like the princess hug you often see in otaku stuff?

Well, what’s there to worry about? Just ignore it.

That’s how Yuseo started to run, and thanks to that, I was able to feel the cold wind head on. It was quite cold, but I was able to endure it, so I didn’t say anything out loud.

Still, it was true that it was cold.

*

I returned to my dorm room, lay down on my bed, and closed my eyes tightly.

No light came in between the eyebrows, so it almost felt like the surroundings were dark.

I’m deeply lost in thought.

As I said before, I was taking this world lightly. I thought that anything would work out somehow, and that’s why I had made very shallow plans.

My initial plan was this.

The main character, Seo Jae-hyeok, is given intensive training from the beginning so that he can become as strong as he is in the latter half. He also teaches him Seo Jae-hyeok’s fighting style that appears in the novel and gives him tips from there so that he can become stronger quickly.

And by sharing the hidden piece that Yusera will bring, you will become even stronger.

You can even get to know colleagues you will meet in the future in advance.

And finally, I somehow manage to control Yoo Seora’s emotional ups and downs. If I do that, not only will the main characters become stronger than in the original, but Yoo Seora’s impulsive behavior at the end will disappear, so for me, it will be a good situation to move forward.

To put it simply, I was thinking of a development similar to the original where Yoo Seo-ra takes on everything on her own.

But it wasn’t.

It was obvious when you think about it that Yuseo wasn’t the kind of guy who would kill everyone except Seo Jaehyuk just because of one emotion.

Because Yu Seo always moved according to plan.

Even if he committed a crazy act out of love, his actions were planned. That may have been his goal from the beginning.

No, even if it’s true that Yoo Seo-ra killed her because of her emotions, how could I control her emotions? I would end up being used.

If I leave Yusera to do everything on her own, I will end up relying on her and the only thing that awaits me is the same ending as the original.

I was annoyed at the fact that I had made such a trivial plan in the first place. It was stupid and too simple. When was the last time I thought this world was real and that I should move properly, and now it has become so dilapidated.

Reality can’t be that simple.

I think it’ll be okay since I have information about the future that I saw in the novel?

There are already several instances of information that wasn’t in the original work being revealed, so we’ll probably be able to find out about the events that will take place at school.

What kind of reader is that kind of topic?

That was truly stupid.

I should have even considered the possibility that things might have changed from the original, but I didn’t even do that and just made plans lightly.

I thought I was such an idiot.

You said that becoming friends with Yuseo came first?

Let’s be honest. You were just trying to be friendly because you were happy. You just thought you were the main character in a novel.

That’s what the fuck is going on.

I can’t say anything. That’s what I ended up with.

‘Who is like this?’

Then no?

‘Of course. It’s going to change from now on.’

Yes, it was something that had to change from now on.

I remembered what I had done earlier.

I killed a person. The feeling was extremely unpleasant and the sight was unbelievable. At the same time, the thought that I could not deny it filled my head.

I stepped on a corpse. There was blood on it.

It reminded me of when I stepped on mud. My feet sank in, and the dirty liquid splashed onto my legs.

Those sensations brought me back to reality from the time I took this world lightly.

Because it was an unrealistic situation, it woke me up even more.

I will do it properly.

Even now, I need to revise my plan to be more realistic and use the information I already know.

From now on, you just have to stop acting like an idiot.

I guess you must have known the fear of the Masin Church.

I also knew that this was not a place to be taken lightly.

I guess your head is starting to roll now.

“Hoo.”

In deep thought, I was able to come to my senses.

In the end, I didn’t get any sleep today, but I didn’t care. On the contrary, my head felt clearer than before.

Although the anxiety increased, the discomfort was able to go away.

I came out of the room with heavy steps at an early hour.

I was able to arrive at the academy in no time. The first thing I had to do was change my weapon.

I just put my bag down in the classroom and went straight to the first-year teachers’ office where my homeroom teacher was. As soon as I opened the door and went inside, I saw Lee Ju-hyeok sitting on his chair, typing away at his laptop.

It looks like he was doing some paperwork or something.

I looked around. Naturally, since I had arrived so early, the only person in the teachers’ office was Lee Ju-hyeok, who always arrives early.

I confidently went in and approached Lee Ju-hyeok.

“What, what is it?”

Lee Joo-hyuk immediately raised his head, perhaps taken aback by someone approaching him. When their eyes met, Lee Joo-hyuk frowned.

“What are you doing? Isn’t it polite to knock before coming in?”

Lee Joo-hyuk always showed me this cold attitude. I guess it was because he was incompetent. But now, I didn’t have to worry about it.

“I came to request a weapon change.”

“No way.”

Lee Ju-hyuk answered before I could even finish speaking.

“Who wants to change it on their own? I can’t allow it.”

“But my weapon is too weak right now. If I don’t change it right away, something might go wrong during the next class.”

“It’s not that the weapon is weak, it’s that you are weak. Kim Seo-jin, that’s the difference between a normal person and an Awakened person. I recommend that you accept it and continue attending the academy, or at least drop out.”

Yoo Seo-ra hasn’t done it lately, but now you are?

If it had been me, I might have gotten a little angry, but I deliberately tried to remain as calm as possible and continued speaking.

“That’s not what I meant. I came here to request this gun because it’s hard for even ordinary people to kill.”

I immediately placed the gun I brought on Lee Ju-hyeok’s desk.

“First of all, when it came to ‘weapon selection’, it wasn’t me, but someone inside made the choice, so this time I came here to decide it myself.”

“What does that matter?”

“Unlike before, this time I want to decide.”

If you think about it, it was natural.

Who among the properly trained people would like an ordinary person like me? Thinking about it now, I think it was probably because I was given such a bad weapon with malicious intent.

I’m finally starting to understand.

Why did you pass it over so lightly?

“Stop talking nonsense and go to class. I told you I couldn’t change it.”

I said that dryly, with little change in expression.

“There won’t be a problem since you’ll be choosing a firearm anyway, right?”

“What?”

“It doesn’t matter whether you choose a sword or a spear, but rather what kind of weapon you choose. Am I wrong?”

It won’t be wrong.

It’s clearly something that was in the original. I don’t want it to be different, but what I’ve experienced so far is a development that wasn’t in the original, and the original story hasn’t changed.

It must have been the same, obviously.

“How do you know that?”

“Because I did my research in advance.”

Lee Joo-hyuk didn’t say anything and quietly placed his hand on the phone next to him. He stopped moving his arm as he was about to come in and turned his gaze back to me.

“Let me just ask you this one question. Why did you research that in advance?”

Looks like he’s having doubts.

I hesitated for a moment about what to say, then decided to mix in a little lie.

“Because I am an ordinary person. Shouldn’t I research this kind of knowledge in advance?”

The beggar who was satisfied with the answer smiled in front of me for the first time.

“Okay, I understand. I’ll give you special permission.”

This gives me the time to choose again.

This time, I’ll choose it myself.