episode_0015

Even if I had heard that story from an anonymous person, there would have been no major changes in my daily life right away.

Just a little worry arose.

‘Saint… .’

A saint chosen by God,

Is it okay for me to have ill feelings toward that child?

But she also did not do it of her own free will,

Didn’t she just become a saint by God’s choice?

The worries continued, but the end result was always the same answer.

‘I don’t know.’

To be honest, I don’t know what I want to do.

If you want, go see the saint.

I wanted to curse that fucking god through her… .

Well, is that okay for me to do?

I’m not complaining about the original, I’m just scared.

Because of my ugly selfishness,

Is it really right to ruin the future of a child I may have once cherished and loved?

This is no longer a world of fiction for me,

That child also has an ego.

Even if you look at the nameless one right now, isn’t that so? Originally, the child who should have gone to the academy to meet the warrior and overcome adversity together is now by my side due to my influence.

This is reality.

And that damn god chose me and brought me here and abandoned me,

Even if a saint were to suffer in my eyes, it seemed likely that I would just stand by and do nothing.

‘Was I originally like this?’

I feel sick at the sight of myself worrying and thinking in an extremely calculating way that is not a matter of conscience.

My thoughts continued to deepen.

I still don’t know anything,

I don’t know the answer because I’m an ignorant person who doesn’t do anything.

Today, I just kept repeating my worries,

As always, I’ll be stuck in this narrow mountain swinging only my sword.

It’s so pathetic.

I was staring blankly at the sky, lost in thought,

My name came near to me, as if he couldn’t leave me alone like that.

“… Master.”

I slowly turned my head and saw the nameless person speaking to me.

The anonymous expression also looked as worried as mine,

Of course, Anonymous would know best how upset I feel after hearing those words.

This situation was funny for no reason, and a self-deprecating laugh escaped my lips.

‘A teacher who worries his students.’

It’s still pathetic,

It’s also disgusting to see someone who knows they’re pathetic but doesn’t try to move forward.

I feel so pathetic that it’s hard for me to answer an anonymous person.

He lowered his head, which had been looking at the nameless person, and looked at the ground.

I could see uneven and bumpy soil, with weeds growing here and there and rocks lying around messily.

It was shabby.

I raised my head again and looked at the sky.

The clear sky was visible, and among the countless stars shining brightly in their respective places, the full moon that was shining particularly brightly today particularly caught my eye.

‘Oh, it’s so bright that it hurts my eyes.’

On this land where I stand, there is nothing that shines on its own.

When I was looking up at the sky for a long time, lost in thought.

Suddenly, something touched my shoulder.

“Master.”

There was no need to question it, an anonymous hand was placed on my shoulder.

‘Hmm.’

Usually, when I was lost in thought, he would avoid me without even talking to me.

It seems to be particularly sticking to me today.

I don’t intend to reject it though.

Since I got my name out, my priority has always been to be anonymous.

I can’t just reject your touch and end up hurting this child who has so many wounds.

He let out a small sigh and turned his head towards Anumyeong once again.

“Ha, why are you calling?”

To finish my answer briefly, where did that worried expression from earlier go?

An anonymous person appeared with a mischievous smile, as if a child was about to play a prank.

I wondered if it was possible for him to do that in this kind of atmosphere, but whenever Moo-myeong made that kind of expression, I felt uneasy because he was always teasing me.

“Do you remember a few days ago when you said you would grant me one of my wishes?”

“Hmm.”

He pursed his lips, playing a somewhat awkward prank as expected.

‘Did I raise my disciple wrong…?’

I thought he was trying to comfort me based on the atmosphere, but this was unexpected.

‘Who do you take after to be so clueless…?’

Anyway, I have no idea what the disciple is thinking.

Even though I said I would do it at the risk of my teacher’s honor, I couldn’t say no just because I was upset right now, so I nodded slightly with a subtle expression.

The nameless man who saw her nod her head erased her mischievous expression.

After a while, the anonymous person took off the hand that was holding my shoulder and slowly moved in front of me.

Accordingly, I also naturally moved my head and looked at the nameless person.

When he reached the point where his back was turned to the moon in the sky, Myeong-un opened his mouth that had been closed.

“Hasn’t the Master always told me to get off the mountain and look at the wide world?”

The nameless one took a step closer to me, the moon was now completely obscured and out of sight.

“Of course, I would be happy just staying on this mountain with you, Master.”

The brilliant moonlight that had hurt my eyes had degenerated into a simple light that only illuminated the nameless.

“I will follow the teacher’s words and see the wide world.”

In the pitch-black surroundings, only the nameless one stands before me with a bright halo.

“But I am still immature, so I am afraid. So if you are worried about this kind of disciple.”

My eyes didn’t hurt, they were just bright.

“Would you like to travel the world with a disciple who is still lacking in learning?”

After saying that, Myeong closed his mouth with an awkward smile.

I stared blankly at the unknown person and opened my trembling mouth to answer.

“Hmm, I see… .”

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After finishing speaking, I waited for the teacher’s answer with my trembling hands hidden behind my back.

The Master’s mouth opened and closed again,

I could sense that he was hesitant to answer.

‘Is he trying to reject me after all?’

A bitter smile formed.

In a way, it’s natural.

I thought the teacher was upset, so I said these words to comfort him.

I don’t know why the Master doesn’t go out of the mountain,

Because my teacher never told me.

When I was a child and had no sense of humor, I once asked a question, but I saw my teacher avoid answering with an awkward smile. I haven’t asked him that question since then.

If you ask me why I didn’t ask persistently, contrary to my personality,

The reason is simple enough.

Because I saw the teacher’s trembling hands.

If we look at it simply in terms of force,

No one could surpass the Master, yet he was trembling.

What on earth were you so afraid of?

It is different from saying that the teacher that day looked weak or easy.

For the first time, the teacher who had seemed so huge in my heart seemed small in proportion to his body.

At that time, my heart ached as I saw that teacher for the first time.

The one who saved me from the darkness, the one who confidently told me that he would give me a warm home and a bright future when I was lost, but it seemed like he himself was living with darkness in his heart, and my heart felt like it was going to burst.

Seeing that teacher, I suddenly had a thought.

‘I hope that just as you have made me happy, you too can be happy.’

The teacher’s face is the most beautiful when he eats strawberries and smiles happily.

I wish you could keep that smile on your face for the rest of your life.

It may be presumptuous of me as a disciple, but I fervently wished for it.

And I will definitely make it happen with these hands.

As my thoughts continued, I heard my teacher’s voice.

“Hmm, I see… .”

The teacher slowly got up from his seat, turned his back on me, and walked away.

‘Is he trying to reject me after all?’

I don’t regret saying that.

I told you what I wanted,

The decision was made by the Master, so all I had to do was follow Him.

Rather, it is okay to refuse, but I hope that this incident will not cause you to become distant from your teacher.

Let us look to the Master, preparing our hearts for rejection.

An answer came back from the teacher that made my eyes open wide.

“Surely I told you to get out of this narrow mountain and experience the wide world.”

Light gradually begins to shine on the teacher who had been shrouded in shadows and darkness.

“But I’m worried and my heart feels heavy because I’m going to send you away alone.”

Soon, the Master stopped in his seat and emerged from the shadows, bathing his entire body in full moonlight.

“Well, there’s still a lot left to teach, so it wouldn’t be bad to go around together.”

The Master turned his back to me and was shining brightly in the moonlight.

“Okay, let’s go see the world together like you said.”

The teacher smiled, as if relieved.

I thought it was so beautiful, I treasured it in my own eyes.