episode_0013
by fnovelpia“2nd year, you’re Noctilla, right?”
“Sarsbury.”
The senior, who was two heads shorter than Seed, spoke in a cut-off voice.
“It’s long.”
“Then go away.”
“Yeah, well. Anyway, Noctilla-senpai.”
“What are you trying to do? You don’t like it because it’s too long. This one’s longer. Can’t you even count the characters properly? Don’t make me laugh.”
“No, because the name is pretty. It would be a waste.”
“… Stop talking nonsense and tell me what’s wrong.”
Seed shrugged.
“The sky is really pretty.”
“What’s your business?”
“No, like my senior said, I just came to play.”
“The rooftop door must have been locked, how did you get in? At that time, why don’t you try a little harder? You’re pathetic, you failure.”
He speaks with a sharp tone and snaps coldly.
but.
My senior said the same thing.
So, in fact, it is also a word you tell yourself. No, it is a word you wanted to tell yourself from the beginning, but when the time comes, you pour it out to others. Without even realizing it.
I don’t really know anything about the students who failed, so maybe they’re working hard in places we can’t see. There’s a lot of talk about this and that, but the Academy isn’t a place you can just enter.
That is, deep down, the one who is actually the most miserable is me. Hurting oneself is always painful, sharp, and addictive.
Quickly slander me, without even realizing that desire.
“Haha, that’s right. But I’d still like someone like my senior.”
Sarcastic, perhaps.
Wrinkles appear on the pure white forehead.
A completely different reaction than expected.
Seniors like that, tell me what you’re doing here. Tell me what’s the difference between you and me. Push me to work hard.
Why am I feeling so bad right now, without realizing my own secret, dark desires?
“I’m jealous~. You must be talented. Unlike me, you must be able to play leisurely like this. Hahaha.”
Seed’s eyes weren’t smiling at all.
That must have been the trigger.
Should I just say that my hand went out without thinking?
Invitation. A pale aura like a glacier, densely compressed over a long period of time, with a soft blue glow.
With that kind of hand, he just slaps me on the cheek like normal.
If you’re a loser who just swings your bare hands but has no skills, you’ll get seriously hurt.
My head suddenly became cold.
About halfway through the arm’s trajectory, it begins to slow down.
At this point, you can stop just before your palm touches Seed’s cheek.
What are you doing? It’s so hot.
however.
A beat before my hands stopped moving on their own.
It bounced off the arm that Seed was swinging.
A metallic clanging sound.
visor?
“You have bad hand habits.”
“You…? How. No, more than that, sorry, I… .”
“No, I’m the one who’s sorry. I deliberately thought hard about what to say that would upset you, my senior.”
In the end, was it a question of the wavering of the heart?
Since then, the burden on me when I draw my sword has definitely decreased. It’s not that it’s gone, but it’s almost like it’s gone.
That’s why something like this was possible.
It only manifests a part of the sword at the very moment of contact, for a very brief moment. It bounces back.
Then put it back in.
It would not have been visible to Noctilla.
Even though I almost killed the speed, I was able to block the attack with my bare hands.
Even if that were true, it still felt like I had hit a lump of metal.
I can’t quite understand what happened, but it must be some kind of ability. It can’t be helped.
Wasn’t he incompetent?
“Still, really, I think it’s okay if you’re a senior.”
“Shut up.”
“Senior, you are definitely a natural. I think you can live happily even if you don’t work hard and just take a breather.”
“Don’t talk nonsense. Someone like me… .”
That’s what he says, but maybe what Seed says is right.
Because she was praised by those around her since she was young. No matter what she did, she was better than others, and she was always told she was great, and she had unreasonable expectations. Even though many people don’t learn this aura throughout their lives, she learned it when she was three or four years old.
You might have that much talent.
But I know all too well that that is an illusion. That is why I am stuck there without any progress. In fact, I know all too well that I am a really worthless person.
“No, I think my senior is great. But.”
“What are you trying to say?”
“But still. It’s just simple logic. I think it would be even better if a senior like that tried harder.”
No. It’s a different race from the beautiful people who have ordinary talent but always work hard, terribly, and to the point of making your heart ache. You can’t keep up with such people even if you die and come back to life.
Because they don’t want to admit it, they end up belittling it.
It’s nothing, I said, if I just put in a little bit of my skills I could catch up in no time.
But I’m really afraid of getting hit hard and breaking, of the shell of talent being peeled off and the empty core being revealed.
So, I usually take a nap on the rooftop.
If you don’t try, it’s not just about stopping. The more you do, the more you regress. You rot. And even more, it becomes harder to try.
I hate myself so much, but I can relieve some of that by cutting my wrists and forearms a few times.
so.
so.
The sky is still beautiful.
and.
“… Try to beat me.”
What Seed said was unexpected.
“Poo-ha, even jokes have limits. You want me to beat you?”
Seed smiled, holding up the arm that had just blocked Noctilla’s hand.
For a moment, I was speechless.
There’s something about that guy. I can’t quite tell how much.
When I look at that proud face, I can’t help but laugh.
“There’s an evaluation match in a month. Then there’ll be a one-on-one match. Let’s go and see.”
You knew it. Your talent is nothing. You are nothing. You are nothing. You are nothing compared to a failing student.
The failed student that everyone ignored is now.
I want to completely shatter her shell of vicious mental triumph and self-deception.
It’s shaking.
We must resist.
But then, it moves again.
On the contrary, does she know that it is a matter of breaking free from the inside, of breaking free from the slimy shell that surrounds her?
While Noctilla is staring blankly, Cid closes the door and comes out.
“Sigh… .”
It was close.
Fortunately, the bluff seems to have worked to some extent.
My arms felt extremely numb.
He rolls up his sleeves tightly and bites them down, forcing his wrist bones, which are twisted into a slightly odd shape, into place.
“… Ugh, ughhh!!”
Okay.
shit.
At this point, I think I can just go to the infirmary and get some simple treatment.
Now, I have to get stronger within a month. There is no way to deal with the current seed. I need a way to get stronger.
I have no intention of giving in. Here, I must definitely destroy her lethargy.
But the opponent is Noctilla.
I think I’m just a little more naturally gifted than the average person.
Even in an academy full of geniuses, there are only a handful of people like Noctilla.
Even that is just a glimpse of her destiny as an adversary and a warrior.
If you really, really start moving your body even a little bit now, and it may sound funny, but if you put in the effort, you will probably get stronger incredibly quickly.
Even if we try now, the odds of winning are slim. What can we do?
The method was in an unexpected place.
A little while before that happened, Irusia arrived at the infirmary.
“Huh? Huh? Excuse me… ?”
– I can’t tell you, but it’s hard to say, but anyway, something came up and I had to leave. I’m not slacking off. Seriously. If it’s just a minor injury, didn’t you learn first aid? Treat it yourself. There’s a lot of medicine in the drawer right next to you. If you’re seriously hurt, go to the hospital. Why did you come here? Oh, if you wanted to slacken off, or if there’s some other unspeakable reason, you can just lie down in bed and go.
Mr. Yang suddenly disappeared after attaching a piece of paper with the following content.
The actual speech is much cheaper and more difficult to understand, and it is so messy that it makes you think that the writer is a swindler, but the handwriting is so beautiful that it makes me angry for no reason.
I looked around the infirmary, but I couldn’t see Seed.
Did he go to the bathroom for a bit, or did he just grab some headache medicine and go back to class after seeing this? There’s a chance they got along.
My head hurts so bad. I think I have a fever too.
Looking at the drawer where the medicine was, the medicine was clearly labeled and categorized in detail. It seemed like this unmanned system had been in place for quite some time.
‘If you have a sore throat, cough, and runny nose, go to >5. If the same but no runny nose, go to >7.’
It doesn’t just give the impression that it was well-prepared, but rather that it was established in its current form through trial and error and numerous improvements.
Irusia was able to find some headache medicine without difficulty, took one, and lay down on the bed.
I wanted to have a more calm conversation with the unidentified helper.
‘I told you I wouldn’t fall…?’
‘Yeah. I guess that’s why I can say I’m your assistant.’
‘Really? Then why? How?’
‘Um… I don’t want to say it. Hehe.’
Even though I could only hear the voice, I somehow felt like she was sticking her tongue out cutely.
‘You’re completely selfish. Yeah.’
The kind-hearted Irushia smiled faintly.
‘That smile, I think it’s too pretty, so I think you’d better be careful. You should only use it carefully when you feel the time is right.’
‘huh?’
‘No, anyway. You don’t seem to be suspicious at all? No matter what I say, you still say this out of the blue, so do you believe me?’
‘That’s right… I heard all that from you. But still, yeah. Strangely enough, I believed it. It didn’t sound like a lie.’
‘You, don’t call me unnie. I’m your older sister, right?’
‘Oh, really? Um… I don’t like it. Hehe.’
He sticks his tongue out just like the image I just had in my head.
‘Chee… Huh? Wait a minute, be quiet.’
‘Oh, I’m not saying anything with my mouth… .’
‘No, well, anyway, you know what I mean. You did it on purpose…!’
‘Hey, sorry. But why?’
‘It’s coming, it’s coming!’
‘Huh? What’s coming?’
The door to the infirmary opened and someone came in.
The sound of footsteps.
There are curtains drawn over the bed, so you can’t see outside.
“Tch, what is this, teacher. This is funny and I’m falling over. Where should I get the medicine… .”
It was Seed’s voice.
‘Okay, now’s my chance, let’s get at it!’
‘Uh, yeah, uh, ha, haa??’
‘I’m showing you the heart you’ve been cherishing now!’
“What, what are you talking about!!”
A loud noise without thinking.
“Huh?”
The curtains were drawn.
Sid with a puzzled expression.
Irusia is curled up in bed, hugging her pillow, with a red face.
“Hello?”
“You idiot aaa… !!”
The pillow that Irushia threw with all her might hit Seed’s head, and his body fell over with a bang.
“Wow, no, why???!!!”
Irusia puffed out her flushed cheeks and turned her head, then looked at Seed lying on the floor and giggled.
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