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“That.. That.. When I was little, when my younger siblings were sick, that behavior became a habit… Without me even realizing it..”

As time passed, she calmed down a bit and told me in a faint voice, like an ant crawling on the ground, why she had done this.

Her face was still red, even though she had calmed down. And her hands were fidgeting.

She acted as if she was lying, but it turned out that she was not lying; she was just stuttering from unbearable shame.

Because the scene of him holding and stroking her hand was witnessed directly by the person involved, and not by anyone else.

She was worried with a red face that Raon might think she was strange.

‘The touch… wasn’t bad…’

Dali, whose face turned red with embarrassment, did not think badly of her rough touch.

Even though her hands were hardened by calluses, I could feel her warm heart through them.

He didn’t feel bad at all because he could feel her genuine concern for him, not just pretense.

So much so that I wanted to feel that touch once more.

But such words could not come out of his mouth.

He finally said to her with a slightly regretful smile.

“No, I didn’t feel bad at all. Rather, I felt nostalgic because I remembered the spell my mother used to give me when I was little.”

“Really? Was it similar to the spell that Raon’s mother used to give him when he was young?”

Raon spoke calmly to her, who was blushing and feeling embarrassed, and at his words, she carefully opened her closed eyes and asked.

“Yes.. There may be some differences.. but it was quite similar. To the point where it brought back faint memories from the past.”

At her question, he looked at her with eyes wet with sorrow, as if recalling a vague memory from the past.

Soon, he felt something was missing, so he began to think carefully and soon realized something.

My head didn’t hurt anymore.

The headache that had been clouding his mind and tormenting him was no longer felt.

Of course, it seemed that he still had some residual fever, as if he was not completely cured, but even so, his head no longer hurt.

As he reached out and placed a hand on his forehead, he could feel a cold towel resting on his forehead.

The moment he fell asleep, she nursed him with utmost sincerity while he was sleeping soundly, and her sincerity must have been heaven-sent, as his fever went down a lot.

And when he turned his gaze, there was a bowl of white porridge in front of him that he didn’t know when it had been made, and he couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed by her sincerity.

Before she came to this house, he was always alone.

That’s why, even when he got sick and suffered in pain, there was not a single person who cared for him or took care of him, so every time he got sick, he had to cook and eat alone.

He was so touched by the fact that someone had prepared food for him while he was sleeping.

Taste wasn’t important. What was more important was the feeling that someone had made the food for him.

I looked at the porridge to eat the porridge that contained her warm heart.

“Oh..! It must have gotten cold because it was left out for a long time. So I’ll boil it again and make it warm. Please wait a moment!”

She ran to the kitchen to get the cold porridge and make it warm again.

“……….”

He saw her running hurriedly to the kitchen with a bowl of porridge in her hand, and he looked at her with a faint smile that she didn’t know about.

His smile was filled with a variety of emotions.

***

Camilla went into the kitchen and was re-boiling the cold porridge.

She couldn’t serve him cold porridge, so she made the porridge warm again, even if it was difficult, and it wasn’t that difficult for her.

Back in the old days when I was living in an orphanage. Whenever there was a child who was sick or in pain, she would always take care of them with utmost sincerity.

For Camilla, who had been taking care of others since childhood, this task was not difficult, so she happily prepared warm porridge for him to eat.

It’s been a long time.

It’s about making food for someone.

I have taken care of others.

After becoming a warrior, as time passed, she gradually became insensitive to pain and stopped getting sick.

Even though she fought in the coldest of climates and slept on the ground without a blanket, her warrior’s strength kept her from getting sick.

Because of this, she had never been sick before, except for a very long time ago, before she became a warrior.

So, even though she didn’t really know what it felt like to be sick, she still nursed him diligently.

With one thought in mind: I hope he gets well again.

With these thoughts in mind, she carefully placed the warmed porridge into a bowl again and soon took it to him who was waiting for her.

“You’ve been waiting for a long time, right? It’s hotter than you thought, so you should eat it carefully?”

Camilla spoke affectionately to Raon, who was waiting for her, as she handed him the bowl of porridge. He carefully accepted the bowl of porridge and said.

“Thank you, Camilla. Thanks to you, I feel so refreshed.”

“Is that so..? I’m really glad that Raon is okay!”

Camilla smiled brightly at him, who seemed to have regained his energy.

But she had one small regret…

‘I guess I won’t be able to feed you anything…?’

The point was that I couldn’t feed him the food.

Of course, it was a great thing that he regained his energy.

She also wished for his health to improve, as she never wanted to see him writhing in pain.

The regret of not being able to feed him directly was also not easily erased.

I have seen it briefly before.

Before living in his house, I saw a couple feeding each other’s food while wandering the streets like a vagabond.

Their eyes are filled with affection.

At the time, she didn’t feel anything special about their behavior, but after she started spending time with him, she began to be conscious of the scene she had seen that day.

The image of that time, when we ate together and shared our things with each other.

Camilla wanted to feed him food like she had seen from them that day while looking at each other’s faces, but unfortunately, this could not happen.

Still, she smiled with relief at the sight of him looking healthy again.

Raon ate the white porridge she had made for him, almost inhaling it.

“It was really delicious, Camilla. How can I repay this favor..”

“Don’t worry too much. It was Raon who showed me kindness in the first place. I just did what was expected.”

Raon, who had eaten all the white porridge she had made for him, thanked her for making the food, and she responded as if it was nothing special.

They felt grateful to each other.

Raon gave her a place to stay when she was a wanderer and became a place to lean on.

Camilla saved him when he almost lost his life and took care of him.

‘I also owe you a debt that I can never repay, even if I spend my whole life doing it.’

Raon looked at her, who was smiling shyly at him, and thought.

“Still, I think it would be best to rest for at least today since my body is not completely better yet. I am feeling better now, but I still have a fever…”

“Okay, then I’ll try to rest today.”

“Oh, and the clothes you’re wearing now are probably really dirty because of all the sweat you’ve shed, so I think you should change them. Here are some new clothes.”

“Ah.. Thank you.”

“I’ll go into the room for a moment while you change your clothes. Please let me know when you’re done changing.”

“Okay, I understand.”

Camilla handed him new clothes and went into the room for him, closing the door.

Even though we were very close, it was still too early to see his naked body.

So she went into the room and Raon changed into the new clothes she had given him.

Indeed, as she had said, the clothes he was currently wearing were soaked with sweat from his high fever and chills, and as he changed into the new clothes she had given him, he felt much better, as he was wearing new, fluffy clothes instead of damp and damp ones.

“It’s comfortable to wear new clothes. It was good to listen to Camilla”

He said this while putting the soiled clothes in the laundry basket.

“The clothes that most clearly smell like Laon… Ha… My heart feels like it’s going to burst just thinking about it…”

She went into his room and tried to calm herself down by rolling on the bed just enough so that no sound would escape.