episode_0012

As she slowly walked out into the hallway, she headed towards the next room.

‘Drurrr’

“Let’s get ready for bed”

“Yes~”

“Yes”

“Yes…….”

“…….”

When I went inside, there was nothing inside the room except a bed that could accommodate all the people in the room and a storage closet. And there were four nurses sitting on the bed.

‘!!!’

“Climb into bed”

“Yes…..”

Kim Yun-mi locked the door, removed the handcuffs, and pushed me toward the bed. I climbed onto the bed following her instructions, and four nurses laid me down and wrapped my arms and legs one by one.

“Hyeonwoo~ I can sleep now. I am happiest while sleeping during my day! Hyunwoo, are you like that too?”

“Yes…..”

“You don’t look very happy~”

“………….”

“Stop chatting”

“Yes~ Hyunwoo, dream of me!”

“………….”

‘!!!’

After turning off the switch in the room, Yunmi Kim slowly approached the bed and lay down on top of me. After getting ready for bed, I could feel their body heat and breath all over my body. It was warm and comfortable, but apart from that, I felt uneasy and felt like I was in a thornbush.

‘……………………………………………………….’

There was silence for a while. All the nurses seemed to be asleep and were making light breathing sounds. I, too, had not been able to sleep all day and was stressed by them, so I thought I would fall asleep right away. But unexpectedly, when it was time to go to bed, I couldn’t sleep. My body was heavy, my mind was cloudy due to fatigue, and my eyelids were heavy, but even so, I couldn’t fall asleep.

Was it because the sudden darkness and silence calmed down the difficult feelings? As time passed, miscellaneous thoughts hidden somewhere in my head began to reveal themselves one by one. I need to sleep now… If I can’t rest, I won’t be able to survive tomorrow…

‘…………………………………………’

“Mr. Hyunwoo”

“…….”

As I was lost in thought for a while, Yunmi Kim spoke up. I was scared of her, so I pretended to sleep, but Yunmi Kim woke up a little and started whispering in my ear.

“I know you’re not sleeping. Open your eyes”

“……Yes”

When I opened my eyes at Kim Yun-mi’s instructions, she was staring at me with her face close to mine.

“Is there anything uncomfortable?”

“No….nothing….”

“Really?”

“……..”

I was speechless at her questioning. She watched me silently for a moment, then removed the arms and legs from the other nurses’ bodies one by one.

‘Clap’

“Follow me”

“Yes….”

After being released from the nurses, Yunmi Kim put handcuffs on each of our wrists and then slowly led me down the hallway. As I was distraught, the fear of what she might do to me added to my mind, making my mind even more confused.

#

‘Clap’

“Follow me”

“Yes….”

Kim Yun-mi and I came out into the hallway and entered the next room we had been in just a moment ago. She got inside, locked the door, and slowly walked towards the bed.

“Please sit down”

“Yes…”

‘!!!’

As we sat side by side on the bed, she lifted the blanket and wrapped it around my body. Fortunately, it didn’t seem like they were planning to punish me for not sleeping. She turned her head slightly to the other side and started talking.

“I could feel anxiety in Hyunwoo’s heartbeat. Due to the rules, you can’t be alone, but please talk when you calm down.”

“Yes……”

Kim Yun-mi still turned her head and did not even move. As I was looking straight ahead, I felt really alone, and various thoughts came into my head again. Is this situation really real? Will I be able to endure this painful schedule tomorrow? When will I be able to get out of here?…

“…..!!! ……!!!”

As my difficult and hopeless feelings piled up, tears came out. I tried to hold my breath as much as I could so that she wouldn’t notice, but Kim Yun-mi soon turned her head and watched me. Then he took out a handkerchief from his front pocket and held it out in front of me.

“Black… Black…!!!”

When I saw the handkerchief she held out, I was so moved that I burst into tears. And while crying, I confessed my feelings to her.

“…..!!!! …..!!! Can I… can I… hold on… my body too. …. It’s hard… Still… I don’t know… I don’t know if this is… a dream… or reality… I don’t know…. .”

“…….”

She listened to my story without saying a word and just made eye contact. So I stopped talking any more and burst out all the tears I had been saving up for so long.

#

After shedding a lot of tears, I felt a little better.

‘……………………………………………………….’

“Have you calmed down a little?”

“Yes..”

“I see. Now, I think it’s my turn to answer the question I heard earlier. There is no need to think about whether or not Hyunwoo will be able to endure in the future. Even if he says he cannot endure, we will make him endure. And even if you want to deny it, this is reality now. Any time you’re not sure, I’ll remind you that this is reality.

If you’re worried about what we’re going to do next, don’t make a fuss and ask questions. If you feel that what we are doing is unfair and your anger is rising, it is better to shed tears. No matter what Hyunwoo thinks of us, we just do our best in our respective positions.”

“Yes….”

Yunmi Kim’s tone was cold, but when I think back, she held my hand tightly even when I was crying. I realized that I was not as bad a person as I thought.

“I’m sorry, you have less time to sleep because of me”

“……. Now let’s go back, everyone else is awake besides me.”

“Hey… this handkerchief is very dirty… can I wash it and give it to you?”

“Just give it to me.”

“Yes….”

After she finished talking, she walked slowly to the bedroom.

‘Drurrr’

“Haaa…….. Is Hyunwoo here?”

“……..”

“Welcome”

“……!!”

As Kim Yun-mi said, everyone in the bedroom was waiting with the lights on. I looked at them looking tired and nodded with a feeling of regret. Then, I looked around the front and saw that the other nurses had tired expressions, but Noh Yu-jin’s expression was especially full of life. Looking at that expression, I sensed something was wrong and quickly ran towards the bed.

“Good night, Hyunwoo”

“Yes..”

“Dream of mine, Hyunwoo!”

“……..”

The lights in the bedroom turned off, and my body was bound to them like before. After I let out the emotions I had been repressing, I felt much lighter. I felt like I could really sleep now.

# [Week 2]

‘……………………………………………………….’

‘♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪’

“Wake up”

“Ugh……!!!”

“Did you sleep well?”

“Hyeonwoo is a sleepyhead~ He needs to come to his senses quickly!”

“………….”

A crazy week has passed. The first day was the most leisurely time, and after that, chatting other than asking questions was prohibited, and we kept busy with our schedule. When I thought about what would happen in the future, I thought I would never be able to endure it. But I don’t know if it was because of the breast milk I drank every day, the urine they gave me as a medicine, or the massage that Yunmi gave me every day, but somehow I was able to hold on.

I decided not to think about whether this situation was a dream or reality, which made my head hurt anymore. I just decided to stick to the current situation and live in moderation. When I became cooperative with the nurses, they no longer used punitive actions or a coercive tone. As time passed, it seemed like some internal intimacy had built up with some of them.

“Mr. Hyunwoo”

“Yes”

“Since you have followed our instructions well for a week, we will lower the control level.”

“Yes”

“First, I will explain the schedule that will be implemented this week. Please read carefully”

“Yes”

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Doctor’s morning consultation, medication prescription 7:00 – 7:30

Shower 7:30 ~ 8:30

Morning treatment 8:30 ~ 12:00

Calories Burned 12:00 ~ 12:30

Afternoon treatment 12:30 ~ 20:00

Bath 20:00 ~ 21:00

Discretionary guidance 21:00 ~ 22:00

Bedtime 22:00 ~ 7:00

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When I read it properly, it was clear that the schedule had changed a lot. Nothing else mattered that much, but the fact that there was still time left for prostate stimulation was terrifying.

“Did you read everything?”

“Yes..”

“Then, I will explain the changed schedule. First of all, bedtime has increased by one hour. Also, instead of all participants participating in the morning and afternoon treatment sessions as in previous weeks, one or two people will take turns. Except for a few times, unlike before, we will treat Hyeonwoo at our individual discretion.”

“……..”

After hearing Yunmi’s story, I became frustrated. If what she said was true, from now on she would have to be in the same room as Noh Yu-jin and Baek Hyun-ah at a certain time… When I glanced at where Baek Hyun-ah was, her eyes were already sparkling. When all five of us were together, it was okay as each individual’s personality was somewhat suppressed, but I didn’t even want to imagine the situation when there were just two of us or three of us together.

“……. Are you listening properly?”

“….Yes!”

“I don’t think I’m pleased with your expression, but let me first explain what has improved in the current situation. It was inefficient time-wise for Hyunwoo to always have five people around him. There were only one or two people actually carrying out the work, and the rest were waiting, maintaining the tension of work.

We are also human, so if we work without a break, we become sharper, and the risk of being emotional towards Hyunwoo increases. However, if a certain number of people take turns administering Hyunwoo’s treatment, the remaining people can rest and the treatment can be performed effectively according to each individual’s expertise. Do you understand?”

“…….Yes”

Because of the problem I thought about earlier, I couldn’t hear her voice. I thought about telling her what was on my mind, but I decided to keep silent for fear of the storm.