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The alliance of this place was relatively made up of small countries. Their history is a history of struggle against monsters. They are a gathering of coastal nations that protected the continent from monsters.

As they did not have a strong military power like an empire, it was also a collection of cities where wandering mercenaries and adventurers who wanted to make a name for themselves temporarily stayed.

In other words, most of the people involved are not very patriotic and seem to come and go at any time. It is a place famous for the tourism industry, accommodation, luxury, and pleasure for adventurers who stay for a while.

The gloomy weather concealed the true value of the alliance. If you came for tourism, it was a disappointing day. I wasn’t here to play, so I guess that was fortunate.

“Miss Beatrice, we’ve arrived. Would it be okay for you to use a place like this as your accommodation?”

Julia, dressed in a robe like me, pointed to the inn and said.

It was a place that doubled as a tavern and an inn. It was built with two floors, with the bustling tavern on the first floor and typical guest rooms on the second floor.

Comparing it to the Dalia mansion, I felt a desire to finish my business in the alliance as soon as possible and return. But if I were to choose a good accommodation, it would seem like advertising that a member of the Dalia family had visited.

I have to handle things quietly here.

“I’ll be going back soon, so it doesn’t matter. But I wonder if there’s a vacant room…”

Thanks to the weather that seemed like it would pour rain at any moment, all the inns nearby were bustling with people. This place was no exception.

Creak—

When I opened the wooden door and entered, a lobby and dining area spread out. The inn, which had been bustling on the first floor, quieted down for a moment due to our arrival.

Countless gazes were directed at me and Julia.

Some gazes were quickly averted, belonging to groups that had just finished their meal and were continuing their conversation, picking up their dishes to eat again, or emptying their glasses, scenes that could be seen anywhere.

However, there were still gazes that hadn’t been averted yet. Those gazes made me feel extremely uncomfortable.

I wanted to ignore them, but they were too obvious.

A gaze unfamiliar in this world.

An impolite gaze that scans the body from head to toe. Even though I covered myself with a robe, it seemed impossible to escape their radar, which scrutinized my physique and hair.

The radar of males hungry for women.

When I was a man, I had never experienced such a gaze that couldn’t touch pussy. I wanted to blow this place away out of instinctive disgust, but I had to endure. I couldn’t afford to cause a disturbance.

“I plan to stay for three days. I’d like two rooms, please.”

Julia approached the innkeeper at the bar without paying any attention to such gazes and handed over a gold coin.

“If it’s a gold coin at our inn’s level, you could stay longer than a week.”

“Fine with the best room and a carefully prepared meal. Please pay special attention to the meal.”

“If that’s the case, we do have a VIP room, but only one.”

“Great, if you give me that room, I don’t mind which other room is left.”

Gold was convenient to carry, but she hadn’t considered the local standard of living. Judging by the innkeeper’s reaction, it seemed to be excessive currency for use in this area.

“Are you planning to give the VIP room to the lady at the back? Seems the precious miss has unavoidable circumstances.”

“You don’t need to know about those circumstances.”

Julia’s voice became slightly sharp.

“Well, as long as I get paid, I won’t ask further, but are you okay, Miss Silver-Hair? Except for the VIP room, only dormitory rooms are left. We’ve had an unusually large number of guests today.”

“Yes, it’s fine. She can stay in a suitable room—”

“No, she can’t.”

I intervened between them.

They were going to make Julia stay in a dormitory in an inn full of horny men? That was absolutely unacceptable.

“Innkeeper, just give us the VIP room. The meal and drinks will be the most expensive and best here.”

“Understood. It’s the room at the far end on the second floor.”

I received the key and took Julia’s hand, leading her up the stairs. I wanted to take her to a place where they couldn’t see her, even for a moment.

“B-Beatrice…”

“Yeah?”

Yulia, who was being pulled while holding my hand, called me to a halt as we climbed the stairs. Her face had suddenly come to mind.

“How can I sleep in the same place as you…?”

“It’s not the first time you’ve been next to me at night, is it?”

I recalled the first night I had a nightmare. The night Yulia had been there for me.

“That, that’s…”

“It’s okay, Yulia, be by my side.”

Yulia’s violet eyes tried to avoid my gaze. It felt incredibly cute.

I smiled and took Yulia’s hand, using my other hand to insert the key and open the door.

After losing Theo, my feelings for the Marquis and Marquise and Yulia grew significantly. They are the only people in this world I can rely on. So I didn’t hesitate to express myself. Because I might never see them again.

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“I’ve been deceived.”

That was the first thought that came to mind after looking around the room. It seemed that the meaning of VIP in this world was different from what I knew.

Apart from a well-ventilated large window, a double bed, and a fireplace, there didn’t seem to be anything special. At least it indicated that some attention had been paid to the room, as evidenced by the thick rug laid on the floor.

Compared to my room in Yeongji, it was less than a quarter of the size, and due to the wooden floor and low ceiling, it felt stifling. If this was a room with attention to detail, I couldn’t even imagine what the dormitory level would be like.

I felt proud that I hadn’t made Yulia sleep in such a place.

I opened the bathroom door to check its condition. There was a bathtub of sorts, but there were signs of wear and tear here and there. I didn’t expect much. Still, it wasn’t too dirty, so it was fine.

“Go wash up, Yulia. You must be tired from the long journey.”

“Please, Beatrice, don’t let me be too rude. I dare not use the bathtub before you. Just sharing the same room is already an overwhelming grace.”

Because of Yulia’s deference, I reminded myself that I was still the mistress. In the end, I immersed myself in the hot tub first.

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I returned to the room feeling refreshed after washing myself.

While waiting for Julia to come out of the bathroom, I sat in front of the vanity and dried my hair. My reflection appeared in the mirror.

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Between the front opening of the nightgown, my sternum was visible. It didn’t bother me anymore. Since deciding to live as Beatrice, determined to live for Theo’s revenge, I had accepted this body.

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I didn’t feel repulsed by the unfamiliar female form that I could no longer recognize. I just cautiously glanced at the mirror to remember what I looked like.

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Truly, a sinful body.

If I had encountered this body when I was a man, I would have flirted shamelessly to get her number, such a body that would captivate men. The haughty and elegant face exuded an aura that seemed to decisively reject men’s advances.

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In the novel’s setting, the chest wasn’t emphasized as much as that of a saint, but it was definitely not small, rather on the larger side, enduring the force of gravity.

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I stood up for a moment.

From head to toe, my whole body was revealed. Beatrice was tall for a woman. Her proportions were as perfect as her height. The curves resembled those of a Coca-Cola bottle, which was charming.

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Especially, the overwhelming volume of her hips that ran from the waist down to the thighs, along which the protagonist’s gaze was fixed every time they met, became apparent. In other words, she had a slender waist contrasting with ample hips.

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Somehow, there was a reason why I couldn’t help but reach for dresses or one-pieces instead of wearing pants.

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At the time, I didn’t want to understand the reason. Just thinking about the changed body made me feel like I was committing a sin as a man.

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Now it’s different. I won’t hesitate to understand Beatrice’s body, my own body.

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Another change was that now, looking at the mirror didn’t make my face blush as it used to. Back then, I blushed like a man who had a beautiful woman in front of him, but now it seems to be because I am aware that it is my own body.

I breathed a sigh of relief. I don’t seem to be a pervert who gets aroused by looking at his own body, at least.

I drank the strong liquor prepared on the table. It became a habit. I always had to drink at night to sleep well. Without alcohol, I couldn’t sleep due to disturbing thoughts in my head when lying down. My face quickly grew warm, as if it was high-proof liquor for adventurers.

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After a while, the bathroom door opened.

Yulia walked out with a flush of heat.

She was wearing negligee to go to bed in a neat and dry manner. She came out of the bathroom completely dried off with a towel, determined not to wet the bed.

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Seeing Yulia, who usually wore a flawless maid outfit, in a relatively disheveled and natural state felt unfamiliar. Nevertheless, her beauty remained unchanged.

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“You’re beautiful, Yulia.”

“T-Thank you, um, sir?!”

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Yulia seemed flustered several times today. When I first possessed Yulia and saw her, she always looked pitiful or worried, but now I realized she was a person with rich expressions.

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I jumped onto the bed and lay down.

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“Come on, let’s sleep before dawn breaks.”

“Yes….”

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Yulia, who was about to get into bed, was cautious. She seemed puzzled by the overwhelming honor of sleeping in the same bed as her master, so she turned her body and looked out the window, falling asleep.

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The long journey to the Allied Nations combined with accumulated fatigue and strong liquor turned into a first-class ticket to Dreamland. I fell asleep as if fainting.

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In my drowsiness, I heard someone murmuring.

As I turned my head restlessly, I saw Yulia’s violet eyes. She was staring at me intently, wearing a happy expression.

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I couldn’t distinguish whether it was a dream or reality. I simply closed my eyes again due to the overwhelming drowsiness that was coming over me. Soon, I would fall into a deep sleep, experiencing the nightmare of that day again, but it couldn’t be helped. It would repeat every day. However, for now, it seemed like I could hear Yulia’s sweet voice.

It will be a very long time from now to completely remember what Yulia said. As if it were decided like that.

Purple memory.

-The end