episode_0012

“Will it be okay this weekend, Saturday?”

A month ago, a new shopping center opened in this shabby I city.

It is said to be a shopping center, but in fact it is a complex entertainment mall with various leisure facilities.

I sat down at my desk and listened to Yena and the crowd gathered around her talking.

‘I’m glad I felt something this time and wasn’t in a mental hospital.’

The third loop was quite rewarding and rewarding.

The place Yena suggested we go to this weekend has come a long way, and I’m on the verge of tears!

You’ve grown. It’s great.

However, for me, a shopping center full of people is as uncomfortable as a mental hospital.

“Joo Yena. First of all, I know you’re sorry, but… … .”

“Aha, that’s right! Do you still like tropical fish? There’s an aquarium there. They said it was well decorated.”

I definitely liked catching fish when I was playing at the ‘secret base’ by the river. A story from elementary school.

-Now, if I have to be honest, I hate it. Those unique, protruding, lifeless eyes.

“When are you talking about enemies?”

“Yeah, really? There is also a big movie theater. The recommended piece is a recently released zombie movie, and the kid in the class next to me said it was fun… .”

“I don’t watch horror movies anymore since that day.”

“There are a lot of restaurants in the shopping mall. Your favorite food, I see! Potatoes and sausage. Right?”

“It’s what you like… … . It’s tailored to your taste.”

Since he is from Germany, it is easy to understand.

As I smiled bitterly, my blond childhood friend made a wry expression. As soon as I took the picture, I missed it.

In comparison, I know Yena’s tastes and preferences well. Because I observed it intently to get a good sense of it.

-This means that my relationship with her has been one-sided these days. From what I can tell, detailed information about me stopped about 5 years ago.

“Do you know that there is a school trip coming soon? There won’t be any clothes to wear. I’ll pick out some new clothes for you, so go buy some. how is it? Huh?”

Was this the goal from the beginning?

‘It’s clothes.’

I don’t know how they knew (I thought they installed a wiretapping device in my room), but when I go out, they ask me about my whereabouts. I haven’t gone out much in the past few years.

Naturally, I didn’t have much clothes for going out, so I was planning to buy them soon.

However, I can’t tell if Yena is evaluating me by her own standards.

Sometimes I would hand over clothes that I had received because I was embarrassed to show them off somewhere.

If so again… … .

“You will choose my clothes?”

With a sigh, I move forward one step at a time.

Then Yena’s face gradually became whiter.

Judging by his reaction, it seems like he wasn’t specifically trying to judge me based on his own standards. I’m glad.

“Well… out of it. That’s not what it means. Wait a minute, it’s regular.”

We reached Jena, who was desperately making excuses.

When I stop walking, my eyes are immediately focused on Jena’s wall.

Feeling somewhat reassured that I could not guess what kind of threat it meant, I asked her a very common sense question.

“Are you in pain today? The situation is strange.”

Ugh, unable to continue speaking, Yena covers her mouth and sighs.

“Ah, it doesn’t hurt. I’m fine.”

“Yes. Come with me. Honestly, thank you for suggesting it first when there were so many people there. Joo Yena.”

She pursed her lips in a tone not only of joy but also of a hint of anxiety.

“… Hey. I thought about it carefully. On top of going to Sunfield. I have something to tell you this weekend-.”

“No. If you have something to say, say it here.”

“I thought the atmosphere would be good then. Are you sure we should go together?”

As long as there are no special problems, it is possible to tolerate suicidal behavior for several days.

‘Is it an illusion?’

Yena’s Bangle – A moment of fraud flashes through her blue eyes.

When I encounter it again, it quickly disappears, leaving me feeling confused inside.

She extends her ring finger as she goes down the stairs before me.

“Got it!? Do you have to keep your promises?”

“… Yes.”

***

Yena and I felt like it was quite a long time since we had died three times, but it was in the morning before class started.

The save point was set to the end of the conversation a little while ago.

As I lifted my bag and headed toward the classroom, letters began to appear before my eyes.

[The constellation ‘The opposite of the one who lives is suicide’ is ‘Oh, that’s a bit harsh. The answer to ‘Hey haha’ was derived through big data.]

“What is big data? It’s just what you want to say.”

It went underwater for a while and only now is it finally popping out.

[The constellation ‘The opposite of living is suicide’ supports the schedule in three days, which will be the first date in the user’s life!!!]

[(Fanfare~)]

“It’s not a date, and it’s not the first time in life.”

[Stop the damn thing]

The trivial chatter is over now.

I am thankful because I am putting to good use the abilities this guy gave me. However, at least I cannot believe that he is a good being.

“… I got one. You can’t read my old memories. Something was strange.”

Aside from being attached to me, they don’t really know me.

First of all, it is clear that it is not an omnipotent being. Sang Tae-chang remains silent as if he has hit the nail on the head.

Gather momentum and ask the next question.

I remember that a new window was added along with the suicide point.

“When I fell and died this time, it said I had developed resistance. What is ‘tolerance’?”

[+1 resistance to falling to death is granted. Immunity increases the chance of not being able to die in that manner. Think of more creative ways! Additionally, the user’s tolerance can be rented to ‘someone who wants to scold them’.]

Rent resistance… … .

[Suicide Shop has been updated! Please check later.]

Well, okay. Let’s move on.

What’s really important is the next question.

“Aside from my own will when returning to the save point, why did you hide the fact that Yena will be forced to return when she dies?”

[The constellation ‘The opposite of the one who lives is suicide’ says they forgot to explain it.]

The status window that I am trying to skip as if it is not that important.

There is still 100% control on my part.

However, now that I know this fact, several possibilities come to mind.

-Obviously dangerous.

Of course, it’s natural, but Yena must never know that I’m coming back with her.

And even if you find out, you shouldn’t be too broken.

―It’s a cliché, but I didn’t know that at the time.

A deluge of bloody dates.

***

When Yena was young, Shin Jeong-gyu was a hero she blindly admired.

It’s a bit pathetic after a while, but… … I thought of him as a person who needed to be led.

It’s scary, it’s the first time I felt scared of him.

I felt relieved the moment I was hugged. I’m so embarrassed… … I didn’t hate it.

It was sincere that I reflected on my feelings for him at the moment of being crushed by hardware.

I don’t want to see Jeong Gyu again, who is so scary that he seems like a completely different being.

‘ha… ha. I survived this time.’

The desperately put together proposal worked. Everything, I’m glad.

Of course, I will take him to the hospital someday. Mental illness must be cured immediately.

This belief is even stronger because of the passing of my mother who made an extreme choice due to depression.

I won’t die until Saturday.

Because I promised. He always keeps his promises, so I decided to make it clear.

‘You have to make a thorough plan. Huh, huh. If he dies again, neither I nor he can bear it any longer.’

After school, go to the cafe [Cujo] near the school.

The owner of this small cafe happens to be passing by and stops when he sees Yena with broken grass.

“Oh my, it’s Yena. what’s the matter? Is the coffee too bitter?”

This girl is about 5 or 6 years older than her, and she seems restless, perhaps because she has a loud personality or because she has a lot of worries.

“Oh, it’s not cancer. Sister Mia.”

Namia, 24 years old.

She had a heartbreaking story about her older sister who occasionally played with her and her childhood friend when she was young, and her parents opened a cafe for her because she couldn’t get a job.

To be honest, my coffee making skills are terrible, but Yena studies here with the intention of donating. Because there aren’t many people.

“Yes. It’s good to study hard, but don’t overdo it~.”

“Sister, I have something to discuss. I know Mia well because she has a boyfriend. This is just a what-if story, but let’s say I go to the shopping center with a guy on the weekend-”

“Wow, wow. I heard it from a lady. Did you really leave a love letter? That regular price?”

The housekeeper, how mean-spirited she is.

Yena bit her lip and did not bother to answer.

“It went really well. A lot of things happened, but at some point, it seemed like the two of us had a falling out. This girl is happy.”

The young owner of a cafe is rubbing his eyes and making a fuss.

“Mia, stop it.”

“Uh, but… Isn’t this his first time? A quiet kid lives far away, so he came all the way here.”

“Well, I told you to stop! Are you clueless!?”

“Can you please be quiet? right… It’s not like I’m using it alone.”

As she made a fuss, complaints were heard from the only customer other than her.

It was a voice filled with dignity, so their conversation froze for a moment.

“Guest, sorry for making noise~. Iced tea will be available soon.”

I know the identity of the voice.

As soon as Mia disappears toward the kitchen, Yena joins the table on her own.

“You… … . Hmm, it was you.”

“What is it? Do you?”

[Literature and Information Department] Jeong Da-hyeon, a member of the department. Former gangster.

I remember the hug that gave me warm comfort while handing me a note.

I wish we could have talked more… … I felt regretful.

-However, the words that came back were cold.

“Why are you acting friendly? A few days ago, I caught a star pod and threatened him. You said there was a picture of you smoking a cigarette, right? They also said they would remove the scholarship. Well, then I can’t go to school.”

“Huh? Just a moment-.”

What are you talking about? Did we reconcile?

No, that didn’t happen here.

The trivial conflict could not be erased with the giant eraser of Gyu-jeong’s death.

“It was force majeure. I don’t want to talk to you again. And I know, even though I’ve only met you in person once before.”

“… … … … ”

“It’s trash that passes responsibility onto others.”