episode_0011

“You’ll take care of me..? Camilla..?”

When the words that she would take care of him came out of her mouth, Raon looked embarrassed and asked back.

Of course, it wasn’t that he didn’t trust her. Although it was a short time, during the days he spent with her, she never tried to harm him even once, and before that, Camilla seemed to trust him, so he wasn’t too worried.

‘I’m sorry to ask you to take care of me…’

He hesitated to accept her offer, fearing that he might become a burden.

His condition was so bad that he couldn’t even say in empty words that he was okay.

My body felt as if it had become a ball of fire itself, and it took a lot of strength to even move my body. Even if I managed to get up, everything I could see was moving and writhing without maintaining its original shape.

He couldn’t even move his body properly due to a bad cold and headache, so he had no choice but to lie down on the sofa without getting up.

“What on earth happened to you to get such a bad cold?”

Camilla asked, placing her hand on his reddened face.

“…….”

Until just a moment ago, he had been answering her questions well, but now he deliberately avoided eye contact and turned his head as if he had not heard her words.

The reason is.

‘I can’t tell you that I jumped into the cold water to calm down because all I could think about all day was Camilla!’

Because the reason he caught a cold was so trivial and embarrassing.

He couldn’t help but feel sorry for her and leave her, and he couldn’t help but feel bad about his shameful behavior and catch a cold.

So he pretended not to hear her words, turned his aching body, avoided eye contact, and soon told her the reason, which was a bit of a lie.

“That’s… I guess I got hit by a lot of cold wind the day before… Is it because I stayed outside for too long yesterday…? Ahaha…”

Raon told the reason with a little bit of a lie mixed in.

It wasn’t a 100 percent lie. One of the reasons he caught a cold was because he had been exposed to the cold night wind for too long.

That’s why he lied to her and hid the shameful truth.

“I see… It was definitely a bit chilly last night.”

Camilla, hearing his words, looked at him, believing his words as if they were ironclad.

Was it because of her absolute trust in him? She believed Raon’s words without any doubt, and he felt a little guilty seeing her like that.

‘While taking care of Raon… I want to wipe away his sweat and see him sleeping soundly…!’

If he had the ability to read her mind, he wouldn’t have felt guilty at all.

At first glance, when she said she would take care of others, it seemed like she was willing to devote her time to serving others.

The reason she nursed him was because, upon seeing his defenseless state, a desire to take care of him arose in a corner of her heart.

So, she made a subtle appeal to him, although not too blatantly, that she would continue to take care of him.

“Then… can I ask you to take care of me? I’m not feeling well…”

In the end, he decided to take care of her for just one day.

“Okay. Then, just rest here for a bit. I’ll prepare breakfast and a towel to cool you down.”

So she started taking care of Raon and went to prepare cold towels and breakfast to help bring down his fever.

Left alone in the living room, he stared blankly at the ceiling and closed his eyes as if lost in memories.

It occurred to me that I was being cared for by Camilla.

A long time ago. A dusty, nostalgic memory buried in a corner of my memory.

That day was the same as today. My whole body was feverish and I couldn’t even move as I wanted. All I could do was lie on her bed and writhe in pain.

The affectionate hands that had been worried about me stroked my head.

It’s familiar and I miss it… but now I can’t touch it.

The hands of my beloved family.

In my memories, my family held me and took good care of me when I was struggling with a cold. They never left my side for a moment until the sun set and the moon filled the void.

My parents looked at him with worried eyes as he suffered, then grabbed his hand and said,

“Raon.. Are you having a hard time…?”

“Mom… It hurts so much… It’s so hard…”

“Our son… I’ll cast a spell for you so you won’t get sick. If you just cast this spell, all your son’s pains will go away.”

“Really…?”

“Yeah, really. Have you ever seen your mom lie?”

“No…”

“Do you trust Mom?”

“Yes.. I believe you..”

“Then Mom will recite a spell so that our Raon will not get sick anymore.”

[pat pat]

“Mom’s hands are healing hands~ All the evil spirits that torment our Raon, fly away far away~!”

In my memory, my mother always held my hand, stroked it gently, and spoke.

May all the pain fly away far away.

Then, strangely enough, I felt like the pain was really getting better.

The headache that had been bothering me disappeared and my trembling body gradually became calm.

So I closed my eyes and fell asleep. My memory ends with this scene.

It was a memory that came to mind after a very long time.

Precious memories with family that I don’t want to forget.

Images that remain in a corner of my head that I can no longer see or meet.

If only I had noticed it coming a little earlier that day… if only I had noticed that something wasn’t right.

Could we have reached a different result than we did now?

Every night I close my eyes with this thought in mind.

My father, who risked his life to protect me when I was weak, and my mother, who hid me in the basement, trembling hands.

I wonder what it would have been like if I had been a little stronger and braver.

It’s always been like this.

I open my eyes, lost in memories of the past that I cannot return to and regretting things that cannot be changed.

Because once upon a time, my day was a constant repetition of this every single day.

But for him, who hadn’t been able to dream of a family lately, this was also like a small gift.

He woke up as the vivid images of that day began to blur.

‘I was sick… so maybe the memories of that day just came to mind naturally… It’s been a long time since I’ve remembered it’

When he woke up, he felt his eyes getting moist and came back to reality.

When he returned to reality from his warm memories, a cold reality would be waiting for him.

However, when he woke up from his dream, he could notice one thing that was different from usual.

It feels strange in my hand.

As if… like a scene from a dream, someone was carefully sweeping his hand away.

A feeling that is both familiar and unfamiliar.

A mysterious sensation that felt like longing was felt at the tips of his fingers, and when he opened his eyes, feeling a sense of urgency.

“Don’t be sick.. Don’t be sick..”

At some point, she came up to him and, just like in his dream, smiled gently and stroked his hand.

“………”

Raon couldn’t open his mouth when he saw her like that.

It was only a fleeting moment, but in that moment, the image of his mother taking care of him in the past flashed through her eyes.

There were many things to be afraid of and many things to be afraid of.

Just having you by my side made me feel like I had the world.

mother..

The way you always looked at me with a gentle smile and gave me your warmth.

For a moment, Camilla’s appearance overlapped and he felt as if his mind was clearing.

Raon opened his eyes and looked at her silently.

He seemed lost in memories, and he was caressing her hand and reciting a spell while being careful not to wake himself up.

He looked at her with a smile at her appearance.

He thought it would be nice if time could just stop like this.

‘Mom… My throat is sore..! I’m about to cough!’

He began to feel a tickle in his throat, preparing himself for a cough.

Raon could feel instinctively that this was by no means a small thing.

So he tried his best to block out the sound by straining his throat to prevent it from escaping as much as possible.

“Callok!”

He eventually couldn’t stop the coughing sound that was about to burst out.

“Ah….!”

Camilla looked at him with startled eyes when she heard his loud cough.

“……….”

The two looked into each other’s eyes and exchanged awkward glances.

“Ewww!!”

Camilla, who had been staring intently into his eyes, fell backwards in shock as if she had seen a ghost, wondering where the bear had gone when it was destroyed.

“Ah…”

Raon looked at her as she fell backwards and thought about whether he should reach out and help her up, but he didn’t reach out in case something else happened.

As she fell backwards and looked up at the ceiling, her face turned even redder than his, who was complaining of a headache due to his cold.