episode_0011
by fnovelpiaI was surprised by Shin Yu-jin’s sudden reaction and looked at her with incomprehensible eyes.
Because I have never seen Shin Yu-jin so surprised after talking to Kim Ye-rim on the phone for 14 years.
This view of mine was natural.
“What’s wrong?”
Shin Yu-jin answered my question by shaking his head as if it was nothing.
Shin Yu-jin sighs deeply after finishing her phone call with Kim Ye-rim.
To say it’s nothing is a reaction that clearly has something to do with it.
Are you saying you can’t tell me about women’s conversations? Well, there is no reason to know.
A little more time passed and it was time for lunch.
“How about kalguksu for lunch?”
“ Kalguksu? Good. But I have to go buy ingredients.”
“Just go buy it.”
“Buy with my card.”
“I’ll just live there.”
“A twenty year old says where is the money? You spent money on buying food yesterday too.”
Since I spent a lot of money last night, I don’t want to make Shin Yujin buy anything until lunch today.
Even eating breakfast and lunch wasn’t enough, so I made it myself.
“Then you have a lot of money?”
“I have enough money to live 3 years longer than you. Let’s go together.”
“Why? Because you’re worried about me?”
“To monitor whether I buy anything other than ingredients with my card.”
“Hey, don’t you trust me?”
“At least I can’t believe it for sure.”
“Kabi. I was going to buy beef and eat it with Yerim for dinner.”
“This is why I won’t let you go alone.”
So, I went to the supermarket near my house to buy groceries with Shin Yu-jin.
I don’t know how long it’s been since we last went shopping together like this. When the married life that I was accustomed to continued, I always gave my cards and did not follow suit.
“Ah, that’s right. I have to buy milk because I don’t have any at home.”
“Now that I think about it, I really liked milk.”
The moment I tried to pick up the milk that was placed at the front of the shelf, Shin Yujin slapped my hand and prevented me from picking it up.
What, why are you doing this all of a sudden?
“When buying milk, you have to buy the one at the back. They are usually displayed in chronological order by date of manufacture.”
“Was there something like that?”
“Ugh, you only know that if you’ve seen the groceries in person. You don’t know because I always do the shopping.”
After that, Shin Yu-jin’s grocery shopping method continued.
Things like how to choose fresh vegetables, or even 1+1 isn’t always a good thing.
It’s amazing that Shin Yu-jin has been shopping for groceries while paying attention to so many things for such a long time.
If you’ve been shopping this way, shopping for groceries wouldn’t have been easy.
“I was buying ingredients for kalguksu, but it took longer than I thought.”
“This is why it always took me so long. But you were complaining and asking why you came so late.”
“That’s… Sorry. I did it because I didn’t know.”
“It’s good to admit that you were wrong.”
It was a moment when I realized once again how indifferent I had been. And it was also the moment when I realized how much of a piece of trash I was.
Obviously, marriage is about being together and making time together.
Nevertheless, at some point, we forgot about spending time together and lived without thinking about Shin Yu-jin at all.
Of course, I thought Shin Yujin would do the same, but…
Looking at it like this now, it seems like it wasn’t like that at all.
Upon returning home, Shin Yu-jin immediately prepared lunch, and after some time, the kalguksu was completed.
Of course, the kalguksu made by Shin Yujin.
It gave me the ultimate taste.
“Are you okay?”
“Yes, it’s delicious. Really.”
“When you’re home alone, don’t just boil ramen, eat it properly.”
“I don’t know how to make or eat anything.”
“Ah, that’s right. You were terrible at cooking.”
As I continue my married life with Shin Yu-jin, I have become able to make several more foods than I did before, but even those cannot compare to the food Shin Yu-jin made.
To begin with, it’s a hassle to cook and eat when I’m alone.
After eating lunch and spending some more time, Shin Yujin began preparing to return home.
“I’ll go now. I was thankful for yesterday.”
“Okay, goodbye.”
“That… I’m sorry. He suddenly called me and asked me this.”
“If you’re sorry, please buy me some charcoal grilled ribs later.”
“Wow, you son of a bitch.”
“Yes, you are more of an asshole.”
“Are you an elementary school student?”
“He must be an elementary school student who is older than you.”
After exchanging friendly words, Shin Yu-jin left our house.
***
When I returned home, I put down my luggage and stayed in bed.
Even though it was only one day, I think it was a day where so many things happened in my life that I can count them on one hand.
“Ha… What did you really do?”
If I could turn back what I did, I would have done so without hesitation.
I don’t really understand it myself.
I knew it wasn’t going to happen yet. And I also knew that even if it did regress, there was no guarantee that it would happen in the future.
Nevertheless. Even though I know all that.
I couldn’t calm down the anxiety I felt when I was home alone.
I feel like someone is coming to my house. I continued to feel anxious, as if someone was watching me from somewhere.
At that time, Han Yu-chan’s face naturally passed through my mind.
I couldn’t figure out why. It just kept popping up and lingering in my head.
That’s why I instinctively tried to dial Han Yu-chan’s number, but the words I said without thinking last night became a shackle.
I wish I could just say it briefly.
“I really don’t know why I married you.”
The words Han Yu-chan had said before returning suddenly came to mind and I became irritated.
Even though it’s already happened and there’s no reason to worry since they’re no longer a couple.
It was impossible to bear it.
I also felt guilty about the words I said out of emotion, so I tried to endure it alone, but I just couldn’t.
I thought countless times that I couldn’t do this and that nothing would change even if I did this.
My hand was naturally pressing Han Yu-chan’s number.
Because I was reminded of something from the past and felt comfort and warmth just thinking about it.
Even though the only feelings I had left were a few emotions, Han Yu-chan cared about me and took care of me as if it was his business.
When Han Yu-chan came to my house, I instinctively ran up to him and hugged him without even thinking about it.
After I hugged him, I realized what I had done, but I couldn’t get out of his embrace.
Because I was that relieved.
I was really grateful for Han Yu-chan’s actions and heart.
I wasn’t thinking about dating again, but I thought that the only person who knew me best and cared for me was Han Yu-chan.
“Never do this again. Never again… ”
He told me to come to his house whenever I was alone, but this probably won’t happen again.
Should I call it self-destruction or guilt?
Anyway, I feel such similar feelings intensely.
“Eujin ahhh!!”
While I was thinking about various things, I heard Yerim’s voice coming through the front door.
When I heard the voice and came out, I saw a very shiny face with a bright expression.
Looks like you had a good time with Hojin.
“Are you here?”
“Oh, our Eugene!!”
Yerim suddenly runs up and hugs me.
Yerim tended to have a lot of skinship, especially when she was in college.
“Did you stay at Yuchan oppa’s house because you didn’t want to be alone?”
“Ah, that’s right. And what if you say something like that? Yoo-chan was surprised when he heard me scream.”
“Honestly, I’m curious. They say a man and a woman are alone at home, how can you not ask that?”
“I told you. We’re not dating yet.”
“Aren’t you lying to us?”
“Why do I lie like that?”
Trying to show that they were closer, I think it aroused strange suspicions.
As a result, I ended up having a real fake relationship. If that happens, it gets quite complicated.
“Then why don’t you turn it around a bit? If I say it out loud, no one would be surprised.”
“Sex is called sex, what do you say?”
“You really need that mouth!!”
“Hehe. I understand. By the way, I think Yoo-chan has a lot of patience.”
Was he very patient?
From what I remember, that person was…
He was a person who wanted to do whatever he wanted. Of course, I also listened to such requests because I liked it.
If he had been a very patient person in the first place, he wouldn’t have brought me home 14 years ago and done it.
When I think back, I think we were quite hot until the beginning of our marriage.
As long as we make eye contact, we’ll do it. I wanted to pass the time somehow, so I even went to my own public lectures.
“Did anything interesting happen at Yu-chan’s house?”
“Fun thing?”
If you say it’s fun, it was there.
How would you say that? The moment you say it, it’s obvious that strange questions will come asking you if you really didn’t do it.
“Huh? Looking at it, I guess something was there?”
“There was none.”
“There was. Tell this girl in detail.”
“What about you? His birthday is 3 months later than mine.”
“I’m curious. huh? Eugene ah.”
“If you try to ask one more time, I won’t make you any more meals.”
“… It’s disgusting.”
Aside from that, it was a good time.
Because I was able to feel warmth and have a bit of a comfortable time.
Of course, this will never happen again.
I think that’s polite to each other and that’s right.
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