episode_0010

“That’s… …, ha… … .”

Han Ji-hyun seemed like she was going to say something, but then hesitated because it was too difficult to speak.

“Kkeuha… … .”

Then he downed the alcohol in one shot.

This was the first time that Han Ji-hyun and I had a drink together and had a shot.

“You really can’t run away?”

She said this, holding my two hands tightly as if to restrain me.

“I won’t go.”

I answered with a smile.

“That’s… … , I have a unique taste that others have a hard time understanding… … .”

Han Ji-hyun started talking while looking at my expression.

“I’ve never told anyone in my life, except for one really close female friend… … .”

“Okay. I won’t tell anyone. Just talk to me.”

“Yeah… … , ha, this might be really hard to understand, but I, there are things that guys usually do to their girlfriends… … ?”

“For example?”

“For example… …, opening the car door, pulling out the chair, giving a bouquet of flowers, giving a ring… … .”

“Yeah.”

“That’s not something I want to receive from a man… … , I want to do it to a man.”

“What… … ?”

It was a taste that did not match her feminine appearance at all.

I imagined the things she said.

When I get in the car, instead of me opening the door for Han Ji-hyun, there’s a scene where Han Ji-hyun opens the door for me…

It was okay up to that point. I could just think of her as a good girlfriend.

But, according to Han Ji-hyun, she wanted to put her seatbelt on me too.

I also imagined a situation where Han Ji-hyun bought me a bouquet of flowers and I received it and was happy about it.

Ahh… … , that seemed a little embarrassing.

Of course, if there is an award ceremony or something to celebrate, a woman can give a bouquet of flowers to a man.

In reality, it’s rare for a girlfriend to give a bouquet of flowers to her boyfriend.

But, as she had worried, it wasn’t so strange a taste that she wanted to run away.

It was a bit unusual, but my taste was such that I thought, well, that could be the case.

As a man, I don’t do that to my girlfriend.

If I were to experience all that on the contrary, I would certainly feel a little embarrassed and ashamed…

Since I really love Han Ji-hyun, I thought it would be worth enduring that much embarrassment.

“It’s not that weird, is it?”

“That’s… … , right now I’m just saying that I’m really, really weak… … .”

“Then what is higher?”

What? Can anything be higher?

I asked nervously.

“Uh… …, buy me a hairpin… …?”

“Um, is that okay? Can I just receive it?”

“No… …, I should buy a hair clip for women and put it on my boyfriend’s head… … .”

“What… … ?”

You want to buy your boyfriend a women’s hair clip and have him wear it?

Oh, this is a bit… … .

I’m starting to feel a sense of crisis.

“Is that right… …?”

“This, what stage is this… … ?”

“Step 1… … , but… … .”

“Then are there things stronger than this?”

“Yeah… … .”

omg…….

Deep inside my heart, I started to scream, “Emergency!”

No, it won’t work.

If you want to continue meeting the super beautiful goddess Han Ji-hyun and the Han Ji-hyun I love,

If you want to progress to a dating stage and do more things together,

I absolutely had to persevere.

It’s okay, it’s okay for now. You can do it.

Hairpin, just putting it on once is enough.

I made up my mind.

“2… … , what is step 2?”

I asked in fear.

“Bracelet… … , Wearing… … , For women… … .”

She spoke to me with a very worried expression on her face.

“Jewels… …, fancy things with… … ?”

“Yeah… … .”

Ta-da.

My heart sank.

You want me to put that on?

You like that kind of thing… …?!

Why is that a good thing?! It’s definitely weird… … !

Without realizing it, I almost asked Han Ji-hyun, “Why do you like that?”

But, to begin with, he said that his taste was strange, and he thought he would run away if he said it, but he forced him to say it.

Asking her about it would only turn out as she had feared.

I barely managed to keep my shaky mind in check and swallowed the question I almost asked her.

“Ah… … , you want to give your boyfriend a women’s bracelet as a gift? You want him to wear it.”

“Yeah… … .”

“That… …, and the next steps… ….”

I was afraid that if I heard more, something even more horrible would come out, so I couldn’t ask for more details.

“Just… … , think about the things men want to do to their girlfriends… … .”

Han Ji-hyun said, embarrassed.

I wondered what that might be.

I’ve never been in a relationship before, and I’ve never even thought about it, so nothing really comes to mind.

Taking the princess to bed in my arms… …?

“By any chance… …, do you want to hug the princess?”

“Yeah… … .”

Oh… … , there was this too.

I gradually realized the seriousness of the situation.

It was a whole different matter than simply opening a car door, pulling out a chair, or giving a bouquet of flowers.

Having to wear things that were clearly women’s items was a blow to masculinity.

It’s horrible to have to be held by your girlfriend like a princess.

Besides, it seems like they want to do things that are even more extreme than those… … , it was seriously a big deal.

“That… …, that’s not to say I always want to play the role of a man… …, but just when I play with that… …, if only then I could be happy… ….”

Han Ji-hyun held my hand tightly and spoke with an embarrassed expression.

“Normally, she’s just an ordinary girlfriend, doing whatever her boyfriend wants, and only briefly hanging out when he wants to… … .”

That was a blessing in disguise.

If you had to play the role of the man and me the woman all day, it would have been so hard.

“I’m not blaming you for liking this kind of stuff, I’m just genuinely curious. Why do you like this kind of stuff? Since when have you liked this kind of stuff?”

“That’s… … , when I was young, I watched dramas where guys were nice to girls, and strangely enough, instead of wanting to receive those things from my boyfriend, I wanted to do those things to my boyfriend.”

Han Ji-hyun spoke with difficulty.

“So I found out. I have a bit of an unusual taste… … .”

“Then what… …, in dramas, when a boyfriend proposes to his girlfriend and puts a diamond ring on her head, you must have thought that you wanted to do that to your boyfriend, right?”

“Yeah… … .”

“Then what if you meet a feminine man? They won’t mind if you wear a woman’s hairpin or a woman’s bracelet.”

“That won’t do… … .”

She said firmly, as if her taste was certain.

“This is… … , since my taste is unique, the conditions for a perfect match are very picky. I’ve already decided everything since I was young… … , what kind of person they should be… … .”

“What kind of person should I be?”

“First of all, if you’re the kind of person who does it because you like it, then you shouldn’t do it. Then, you’re not doing it for me, but because you like it… … .”

She continued talking.

“So you can’t be feminine. You have to be manly, but at the same time, you can’t get mad when I ask you to do this, so you have to seem nice. And since you have to be manly, you can’t be too skinny… … .”

She started to say a lot of things, like voice and feeling.

Only then did I,

I could understand why she showed no interest at all when all the hot guys approached her.

If a man didn’t meet all of these criteria, she wasn’t interested.

“What should I do… …, I was born with such a strange taste, my life is ruined… ….”

She explained to me, and then she started crying, as if all the sadness she had been experiencing exploded.

“Other girls have easy boyfriends, but I’ve never been able to have a proper relationship because of this weird tendency. It’s so hard to find a man who has all the qualities I want, and even if I do, who would do all these things for me… … . The things I want to do for my boyfriend are all things that men hate… … .”

She cried sadly.

“Other kids are just dating normally… … , I want to have a normal relationship like them… … , I’m screwed… … . I’ll never be able to date anyone in my life, and I’ll never be happy with anyone… … .”

Even though I tried to comfort her, she cried even more.

“People around me say I’m pretty and they envy me, but I’m not happy at all. I’m actually jealous of everyone else, and I’m unhappy. Why was I born with such strange tastes, why only me… … How should I date and live… … I want to be happily in love and get married… … . It’s impossible for me… … .”

She couldn’t stop crying.

I didn’t know what to say, so I could only quietly pat her shoulder.

“How many things do you want to do?”

I also had a strong desire to continue being with her.

I also felt sorry for her, who was unhappy because she couldn’t have a happy relationship due to her unusual tastes.

I wondered how far a man would have to go to make her happy.

“I’ve written it all down since I was little. Here it is… … .”

Even as she cried, she picked up her phone and opened a notepad.

Are you even carrying around a note with you? … . You must have really wanted to do it.

“101 of them… … .”

She sniffled and shoved her phone at me to show me the list.

Oh my… … , there are 101 of them?

I was afraid that there might be some hellish play on that list,

I haven’t looked at her wannabe list in detail.

“Ever since I was young, I decided that I wanted to marry a man who would do all of these things for me.”

She said, wiping away her tears.

“But how do you find someone like that… … , when you hear that, you want to run away… … ? If you keep asking a non-feminine man to do feminine things, what man would like that… … . I know. That’s why I’m sad. Because I know I can’t be happy… … .”

She said, putting the phone away.

“I’ve barely found one older brother by the time I turned 20. I might never see him again… … .”

She said, sobbing.

“I’ve always waited to meet a man who has the conditions I want, so when I first saw you, I immediately felt that you were the one I was looking for. You had all the conditions I wanted. So I liked you as soon as I saw you… … .”

She continued talking.

“I finally found someone I felt feelings for, so I wanted to have a happy relationship… … . I was really happy for 3 months thanks to you, oppa. Thank you… … .”

Because Han Ji-hyun told me about her unique taste,

It seemed like he was somewhat prepared to break up with me.

Han Ji-hyun’s pretty face, as she spoke to me like that, looked so sad.