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Upon becoming a high school student, I yearned to live freely.

However, reality was harsh.

We had to repay my father’s severe debts.

The debts burdened our family.

My older brother and sister left home, saying they would earn money.

Looking at me inside the house, my mother expressed her desire to kick me out.

I was barely getting by, working part-time at a convenience store and contributing 200,000 won monthly towards household expenses.

While living like that,

“It’s time for you to leave.”

After my mom started dating someone, she told me to move out.

I had planned to graduate from high school, not go to college, and work from home.

But now even the home was gone.

Fortunately, I had saved some money from high school, enough to cover the deposit and rent.

Thinking about this and hearing from an old high school friend, Jihoo, who was moving to Daegu, I considered living there.

Without any plan, I headed to an unfamiliar area.

Meeting Jihoo, having various conversations, and finding a place to stay.

To pay the rent, I had to work part-time again. I also needed to prepare for employment.

Who would hire a high school graduate with no qualifications?

Seeing Jihoo after a long time, I felt a barrier between us.

He had graduated from college, had plans for employment, and even parental support.

Unlike me, who just stayed at home reading web novels.

Should I try writing too? With this thought, I slept in the morning and wrote novels on my laptop when the store was empty at night.

Day by day, I wondered,

“Why am I doing this?”

Struggling to pay rent, facing piled up electricity, gas, and water bills.

Every time that happened, I apologized to Jihoo and sought his help.

I promised to repay him someday, but he reassured me it was okay.

I even started feeling like a burden, but the pressure to succeed weighed heavily on me.

Working at the convenience store was all I had.

“Jiwon, I’m sorry, but we might need to replace you starting next month.”

It was a sudden dismissal notice.

The reason given was that the convenience store might close, so they only needed me for one more month.

If I got fired from the store near my home,

Where else could I work?

I briefly considered challenging full-time employment, but with no qualifications as a high school graduate, there was nowhere willing to hire me.

Would life have been easier if I were a woman?

Maybe I could have lived comfortably by snagging a good man or using my looks to make money on Twitter.

Now, I was even starting to get angry about my gender.

Just… Just because of me, I thought.

Stepping back, I tried to sleep, thinking maybe I should have been born a daughter.

Before falling asleep, I found myself crying.

My eyes wouldn’t open easily.

“My body feels heavy…”

As I got up, I felt a weight in my chest.

Rubbing my eyes, I tried to wash my face and write, but then…

“What is this?”

Looking in the mirror after washing up, I saw an unfamiliar woman staring back at me.

“What the hell, who are you?”

I touched the mirror, kept asking who it was, mimicked its movements, and even slapped my cheek.

“Ouch… It hurts. And it’s heavy.”

The most shocking thing in front of my eyes was…

Breasts as big as my face!

They say the world isn’t just about breasts, but these seemed big enough to be everything.

They were larger than what I’d seen in anime. To think such weapons were attached to me.

I immediately checked my Big Magnum, lifting my panties to confirm.

“It’s gone… My Big Magnum!”

My 16-centimeter pride, enough to proudly say “Black people, oh yeah, Korean good!” has disappeared.

That was all I had… Even my source of pride is gone now.

What should I do about this?

I returned to bed and tried to stay calm for now.

“Let’s just hit the sack first.”

I decided to utilize the most sensible method.

I tried to turn on Hitomi on my smartphone and have a happy time, but…

“Oh.. Did I f**k up?”

Once something is gone, it can’t be retrieved.

There seems to be no way out of this; I don’t know what to do.

If I want to feel good, is this the only way?

So, I pulled down my panties and started slapping my lower abdomen.

I tried to experience a new concept of hitting the uterus to stimulate it, but all I felt was pain in my abdomen; there was no pleasure beyond that.

I’m not into masochism or enjoying being hit.

Now, quietly sitting, I pondered what to do next while staring at my smartphone.

There was no immediate solution, and no one to help.

Even if I contact my mom, she won’t help in this situation.

If my siblings see me like this, they’ll probably ask who I am before offering any help.

The only people in my contacts are those I met online.

“Kang Ji-hoo?”

Ji-hoo was there.

Although we hadn’t been in touch for two months, it felt awkward suddenly reaching out.

But he’s the only one who might help.

Seems like there’s no other choice now.

– Hey, did I mess up? lol

I sent it without panicking.

– ?? What did you do?

Ji-hoo texted back, seemingly concerned about my actions.

Even if I explain via text, he may not understand.

I need to get him to come over.

– Come over for a bit, I’ll show you something fun.

I managed to call Ji-hoo, and he said he’d come right after school.

While waiting, I took out a One Piece manga and started reading.

After a few hours passed, I heard the door unlock.

The front door opened, and Ji-hoo saw me…

“I’m sorry.”

He slammed the door shut and left.

It seemed like he was taken aback by my current appearance.

I quickly caught up to Ji-hoo and explained the situation.

Initially surprised myself in this situation.

Ji-hoo seemed to continue suspecting me.

“You made a fake onahole in fifth grade!”

I mentioned Ji-hoo’s embarrassing past.

I’m not even sure if it was fifth grade.

He must have said it while drunk, so it might not be entirely true.

I vaguely mentioned it, thinking it might be somewhat accurate.

“F**k, you’re Kim Ji-won?!”

Luckily, he believed I was Kim Ji-won.

And what the hell happened here?

I asked how I turned into a girl.

I was genuinely curious.

I have no idea why I suddenly became a girl.

I just said it happened and joked about changing my name since I look so pretty now.

“Jiwon? Call me Kim Eve~”

“Kim Eve, seriously, what the hell happened?”

Ji-hoo seemed too casual with me.

He’s had a sense of gender equality since high school.

He seemed quite ruthless.

As we continued talking,

my stomach started to ache.

Not exactly pain, but more like…

“Ji-hoo… I’m hungry.”

It’s hunger.

I realized I hadn’t eaten anything all day.

Seeing me like that, Ji-hoo sighed and ordered black bean noodles for me.

Maybe things will change if I eat some black bean noodles. With that thought, I decided to try the black bean noodles Ji-hoo ordered.

About 30 minutes later, the black bean noodles arrived at the house.

I intended to think while eating, but somehow, instead of sweet and sour pork, they brought fried dumplings, and only six of them.

Disappointed, Ji-hoo told me to eat the dumplings.

I almost called him “hyung” but managed to hold back.

Thinking this way, I asked Ji-hoo what we should do while eating black bean noodles together.

Should I use a woman’s body to scout out convenience stores? The thought crossed my mind.

Or should I do something more extreme to earn some extra cash? That thought even occurred to me.

I even considered selling stockings, but maybe I shouldn’t go that far.

As I pondered, munching on black bean noodles.

Looking at Ji-hoo’s face, I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.

If my friend were caught doing such things on social media, I’d cut ties immediately.

So how should I make money moving forward?

Contemplating over a meal.

Today, the black bean noodles tasted exceptionally delicious.

Finishing the noodles and clearing the dishes.

Ji-hoo said he had to head back first.

Honestly, I wish he could stay a bit longer.

Having someone around gives a sense of peace, at least.

I wish he could stay a little longer with me.

Ji-hoo is a proper member of society.

Even though he’s still a college student, he’ll soon be job hunting.

I shouldn’t hold him back.

“Okay, goodbye. Let’s hang out again soon.”

“No, you should be the one to reach out.”

Just in case things get serious, Ji-hoo told me to take a hot shower today, but…

“Our gas got cut off at home, so there’s no hot water.”

Upon hearing my words, Ji-hoo simply let out a sigh.