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After eating my second bite of pork cutlet, I had a panic attack.

The princess returned to her bedroom alone, and only after completely closing the door did she shed the tears she had been holding back.

“I’m sorry, hero… … .”

-Roaring again.

Anorexia. A disease that makes you increasingly thin because you can’t even eat food properly.

The vision was very special to Elizabeth, who suffered from the disease and was on the verge of death.

A man who is handsome, kind, and good at cooking, who generously showers himself with the miracle of making even a severed arm grow back. What woman wouldn’t like this?

She recovered day by day next to Sihyeon.

The lethargic face gained vitality. For the princess who was losing interest in everything, the presence of the warrior suddenly became a source of vitality in her life.

The thin cheeks and shrunken breasts due to malnutrition have returned to their original state. It was good news for her, who had lost her confidence as a woman.

When Sihyeon felt embarrassed when her chest touched, she even laughed for the first time in a long time.

… However, he came back after practically telling him, ‘Let’s never see him again.’ How could it not be heartbreaking?

Elizabeth sobbed softly in her private bedroom.

“Sorry for being such a princess… … .”

What came out of the corner of his twisted mouth was self-torture tinged with an inferiority complex.

That was the fundamental cause of the depression that was eating away at the princess’ heart…

——I don’t know, but the reason she suffers from anorexia. It was self-loathing that she was not suitable for the position of princess.

The origins of that self-loathing date back to 10 years ago, when the Demon King’s army began to invade the human world.

A sudden invasion by the devil’s army. The previous king fell ill from the shock and eventually passed away.

The princess’s mother, Artemisia, quickly took over the throne and began to rule the kingdom.

The once peaceful kingdom had suddenly become a state of war.

… And, the king, who inherited the crown at the age of only 29, displayed tremendous abilities.

Hired a large number of talented people, including Arthur. It gave me strength.

Those talented people comforted a kingdom that was almost in a panic and became the driving force to hold on somehow.

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Even nobles who were trying to escape to other continents were captured and united with his charisma. As one under the noble mission of opposing the devil’s army.

There were countless other things she did.

The king ruled so brilliantly that he deserved to be praised as a great soldier that will go down in history.

———But paradoxically, that struggle became an opportunity for Elizabeth to become mentally ill.

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As the king’s evaluation rose, expectations for Elizabeth increased.

It was too much of a burden for her, who, unlike her mother, did not think of herself as outstanding.

Carrying realistically impossible expectations, she became discouraged day by day.

Nevertheless, I tried hard to somehow live up to those expectations.

Feeling burdened by the increasingly bleak war situation and the ever-increasing expectations for myself, I fell into self-loathing and depression, thinking, ‘Why can’t I do like my mom?’

… Almost 10 years.

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However, six months ago, an incident occurred that ultimately broke Elizabeth’s heart.

At that time, it was an emergency situation where the Four Heavenly Kings attacked the front line.

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She attended an emergency meeting with the king and several senior nobles and ended up eating together in the Great Hall.

Elizabeth was shoving food into her mouth, feeling burdened by the subtle gaze.

I force myself to take a bite of food that feels like grains of sand out of nervousness. And two mouths…

but,

-Suddenly!

-Your Majesty!! It is said that Sir Arthur has suffered a crushing defeat!!! He even lost his arm… .

-What!!!?

As soon as I put the second bite into my mouth, a messenger suddenly rushed over and delivered the sad news.

One of the reasons the kingdom was able to survive. News that Arthur was defeated and even lost his arm.

It was enough news to shock everyone.

In a way, it was only natural that she was taken aback.

-Push!? Big, big.

-… !!!

She was completely shocked.

Freshly chewed, chewy food splattered ungainly across the plate.

and.

-… … Big, big. It looks like Her Royal Highness is very embarrassed.

-Well, that Sir Arthur… .

The eyes of those around her are drawn to such a princess.

It was a gaze that was difficult for her to bear, as she had maintained the manners of a princess even when eating in order to somehow live up to the expectations of those around her.

Even though the incident was an incident, no one criticized it as dirty…

‘The princess is dirty… That gaze, dripping with heart, was like a dagger to the feeling of entitlement, ‘I am not qualified to be a princess.’

This was the moment when Elizabeth, who had been struggling with depression for 10 years but had tried her best, finally broke her heart.

After that, she could only eat one bite.

When you take the second bite, that moment comes to mind, and at the same time, the burden and sense of entitlement you have felt until now and the fear of not being able to live up to everyone’s expectations come over you.

The severe panic disorder caused by the trauma eventually turned into anorexia and slowly killed Elizabeth.

-dump.

“I’m sorry I’m not as strong as Sir Arthur… … .”

But what about Arthur, who was similarly discouraged?

Unlike Elizabeth, who had her arm cut off and spent every day looking dead, didn’t she come to her senses in an instant?

Every time Arthur smiled next to Sihyeon, his sense of entitlement grew more severe. To the point of ugly jealousy.

The meal in the Great Hall was an attempt to somehow try to be like Arthur and overcome my trauma.

however… The courageous step she took was soon swept away by panic attacks and returned to nothing. No, on the contrary, it has regressed.

Elizabeth’s heart was broken once again.

“I, I… … .”

Therefore, the princess shook off the vision and locked herself in her bedroom again.

I blame myself for my own weakness, not being able to even eat a single food.

Her despair turned into sobs and hit the bed heavily.

—however,

-Knock knock knock.

-Princess? Are you there?

“… … … ?”

The heavy atmosphere in the room suddenly changed when a light knock sounded.

From the friendly voice, I guess it was Sihyeon who knocked on the door.

Elizabeth stopped sobbing and quickly wiped her face.

It was because I didn’t want to show him any more of my ugly side.

‘I told you so much not to come, but why are you doing this to someone like me… It won’t work. I have to get angry and kick them out.’

The princess was thankful and also sorry for Si-hyeon, who came despite her threats, so paradoxically she decided to pour out bad words.

Wearing a mask of forced anger, she threw open the door.

-Suddenly!

“Hero, I mean… … !!!!!?”

“Ah, there you are.”

“Yo, yo, hero!!!?”

However, the mask came off in an instant as soon as he saw the scene in front of the door.

Because, there stood Sihyeon, dressed very defenselessly.

… He didn’t even dream of it, but clothes that reveal the thighs are clothes that only lovers wear in bed.

Elizabeth’s heart pounded loudly at the sight of the slutty clothes that matched her decadent eyes.

The despair that had been gnawing at her mind just moments ago disappeared in an instant.

“Well, well, what are you wearing… … .”

“Where… Oh, if you don’t mind, can I call you Elizabeth?”

“What!!!? Oh, no. It doesn’t matter… … ?”

“Thank goodness. Elizabeth, can you step aside for a moment?”

“Uh, uh, yes… .”

‘You called me by my name… ? what? ‘Are you really here to do this with me?’

Elizabeth awkwardly retreated with the illusion of sexual desire typical of a virgin.

Sihyeon smiled brightly and tapped the door with her thigh to open it wide.

It was natural that her eyes turned to his exposed thighs.

‘Wow, wow…’ and… … .’

“Where… .”

-Twitch, twitch.

‘… … … Wow.’

While Elizabeth was staring at him, unable to breathe, Sihyeon twitched his buttocks and started carrying something.

What he held in his hands were steaming plates of food.

“Are you hungry because you didn’t eat earlier? I’ll prepare it for you in a moment.”

-clatter, rattle.

Plates of food loaded on a serving cart that had been manually dragged to the inner palace filled the table in the bedroom, carried by Sihyeon.

Unlike the focus on one dish so far, there are plates filled with a variety of dishes.

Elizabeth came to her senses only after the last basin of water had been placed on the table.

“… Big, big. Huh. Hero, what on earth are you doing dressed like that? Did you forget I said you’d get angry when you came?”

“Even when I get angry, I still get angry, Elizabeth.”

“Uh, uh… .”

‘Every time I call you by my name, my heart becomes weak… .’

I tried to spit out harsh words, but every time my name was called affectionately, like a lover, my heart grew weaker and I ended up giving up.

She sighed, feeling helpless.

“… I just ate, so if I take just one bite, I might throw up, right?”

“It’ll be okay. You spit out everything you ate earlier, right?”

“… … okay. I’ll see if I eat it.”

Resigned, Elizabeth slowly sat down at the table.

A table filled with dishes full of dishes.

For the first time, her eyes were fixed on the dish, not the vision.

… No, more accurately, it was fixed to the tableware.

“This… ?”

“It’s called chopsticks. Please use those today. You can write it like this.”

What was put on the table was not the familiar pile of cutlery, but just a pair of chopsticks.

Even though he knew that there was no way Elizabeth could use it well, Sihyeon naturally started teaching her how to use it.

It clings tightly.

“Put this between your thumb and index finger… .”

-Kkook.

“… … … !!!!!”

‘Go, my chest is on my back…’ … !!!’

Si-hyeon extends his arms and holds Elizabeth’s hands as if to hug her from behind, and corrects her chopstick holding technique.

Because he was captivated by his flat breasts, which were on a different level from that of women, the results of his education were not very good.

“You can do it like this… ?”

“That’s enough.”

‘You don’t have to be good at using chopsticks to eat well.’

From the way she held the chopsticks like a harpoon, I could not sense a single etiquette that Elisabeth had maintained until now.

In the first place, the etiquette of eating with chopsticks does not exist in the kingdom, so it would be meaningless.

anyway. Holding chopsticks, she returned her gaze to the table piled with numerous plates.

and…

“… But what kind of food is this? Why are there so many raw vegetables?”

“Hehe. You said pork cutlet was the most delicious, right? It’s a food that goes well with that pork cutlet.”

‘I should have looked into it when I first heard that the Eggs Benedict was greasy. Princess, you actually have a taste for men.’

Sihyeon’s eyes drew a half moon.

It was a smile filled with joy as he introduced the food he was most confident in.

“This is called ‘Jeyuk Ssambap Set’”

‘Then the answer is Jeyuk, Am.’