episode_0009
by admin-Tadadak.
The training ground.
To be exact, it was a dark training ground with even the lights off.
Assassination.
That’s what I learned.
Even now, they are conducting tests on the herbivore to see how well it has been cooked.
‘Two targets.’
-Pot, pot, pot.
Mind, chest.
Throw the trophy at exactly one location.
and….
Read the movements of the lady standing somewhere.
Read the opponent’s movements and kill your own.
That’s the basics of assassination.
The appearance of the enemies currently deployed was also all arranged according to the initial stage.
then.
‘Right near the deployed enemies.’
There will be a madam among them.
however.
‘Why do I feel a presence…?’
It’s not that place, but it feels like it’s further away?
‘Then first… . Disturb my position and then point the knife at Madam… .’
The moment you throw it like that.
-Pot.
“Found.”
It was clearly a training exercise designed with a sudden attack in mind.
But, this kind of behavior.
It was definitely something that could happen.
‘They changed the training content so suddenly.’
Of course, that worked.
It’s already been two years since I started practicing like this.
Because I’ve been learning almost in a practical way since I was 6 years old.
-Chae-Ang!
“Ugh… .”
He quickly blocks the madam’s sword that suddenly rushes at him with his assassination sword.
“There are more ways to hide your presence.”
-Chaeng, Chaejaeng.
Even though it was called a day-defense sword, it still hurt when it hit me.
‘It doesn’t really matter if I’m sick, but it’s a problem if I can’t move… .’
Even if it’s correct, it’s better to correct the part that doesn’t have a big problem, if not… .
-Percussion.
Or just block it like this.
“You said it was basic for assassination.”
“You probably don’t practice on a regular basis, right?”
They exchange leisurely conversations and even exchange swords.
There are many things to feel from Madam’s sword.
A feeling that could be called affection… .
Or a feeling of sadness that I can’t explain.
When I feel them, I can’t find the emotion to respond.
Because they are not inside me, they lie somewhere outside of me.
You can’t put it in a sword.
-Percussion.
‘I thought this boring class would be over if I blew up the weapon.’
Of course, it seems like it’s still a long way off before I have the strength or ability to do that.
It seemed like it would take several days even in this state.
“Yeah, that’s what you said. But there’s still something missing from the sword.”
“Is that a problem?”
“Yeah. That’s the problem. You can’t see the way of the sword itself. What’s the point of learning the basics and reading the way of my sword? You don’t know your own way.”
-Knock knock. Knock knock.
Even while exchanging swords several times, I am not pushed back.
but.
“You don’t know your way, so look at this.”
-Percussion.
Madam’s sword follows me exactly where I was trying to strike.
“Because I swing my sword only to match the herbivore, it reads like this.”
“… .”
It’s certainly fascinating to see something like that.
Seeing the thought of ‘stupid’ flowing out of her sword makes me think there really is something there.
The reason I ultimately wanted to wield a sword was nothing special.
I just swung it because it was work.
What’s so important about that?
“You still don’t know.”
-Percussion!
She eventually knocked my sword away.
“Should I explain a little bit to our stupid Yeon-i?”
My body flinched involuntarily as the sword flew away in an instant.
But apart from that, my heart momentarily calmed down at what the madam said.
‘… This happens often when I’m in front of you, madam.’
Well, apart from that, the fact that he is a good teacher hasn’t changed.
Even if it takes a long time, when I spar with other people, there are more cases where I win by an overwhelming margin.
‘I only gave direct guidance one day out of seven days…’
Still, I can compete on equal terms with most of the upper-level players.
That says it all.
‘Of course, I often got yelled at by other people with almost jealous looks, and the invisible bullying got a little worse.’
“What’s the problem?”
I asked because I didn’t understand.
It never really hit me why that was a problem.
“Now, let’s see. If you don’t know the sword you want to swing, the sword won’t have the direction you want, so you’ll only swing it in the same direction.”
“… ?”
“Okay, then I’ll do the same as you.”
-Fit.
Her sword cut through the rag neatly.
“… ?”
But something was strange.
Really, I couldn’t see anything from her sword.
Rather, it was honest.
It was so honest, I couldn’t see anything.
Is that what it means to be transparent?
“Did you feel something strange while watching it?”
“Yes.”
“Yeah. That’s your sword right now.”
“… !”
“What you want to do, how you want to do it.
It’s just that it’s so transparent – that’s what’s blocking it.“
“… . I never thought of that.”
“Yeah, that’s been the problem so far. You have to find what you want to do. You have to put it into a sword.”
“… … . Is that really that important?”
“What is your role? What are you being raised for?”
“I am a soldier.”
“Yes, you are a soldier. How long will you continue to deal with these rags? How long will you remain superior to those in the upper class?”
“… … … .”
Her words left me speechless.
I was a soldier.
You never know when or where you will die, and even if you learn everything, you will eventually be pushed out by your superiors.
I… didn’t know that I might die on the battlefield someday.
‘… That’s what I want.’
So does that mean I have to include it?
“… . I understand to some extent.”
-Fit… .
Swing a sword that has no blade.
however,
Just that.
-Crispy.
The rags were loosened and torn apart.
How do I want to die?
The answer to that is unknown.
But I can go anywhere to die.
Whether fighting or going anywhere.
I just don’t want to put that burden on someone I know.
Well then, I wish I could sleep peacefully forever.
I wish that was the death I could give to my opponent.
-Fit.
One swing.
A single swing should have taken the opponent’s life.
That was the only way to put the opponent to sleep peacefully in a single moment.
I wish I could do that myself.
I can’t do that myself.
…death was something that others, those who were meant to receive it, had to endure.
It is something that must be given by others.
Time, or whatever.
If I do it myself… .
I learned that it is a sin.
I didn’t want to protect it.
On the contrary, it felt like something I had to keep.
Something inside me seemed to be screaming at me that it was the only thing I couldn’t let go of and take away.
‘It would be foolish to throw it away.’
in.
That voice was still heard.
“… . You-”
“… .”
“… . Okay, if you found a way, that’s it. Should I go back now for today?”
“Okay.”
… . Now I have to wait another week.
To end this boring fight.
I noticed the sword the kid had.
It was beautiful swordsmanship.
Just one sum.
Just one sum, the sword he had, vividly portrayed what he desired.
“… .”
Thinking about it and rewinding it, the thoughts that sword had were just so much.
So much.
Because it’s heavy.
… . I feel like we made that child like that.
Because I should be thankful that the child didn’t die.
That pitch-black darkness made me… so miserable.
“… . I have to say this.”
You should tell that person too.
One day, that child might suddenly die.
If I die, then… .
“You, talk to me right now.”
“… . Now? If it’s about children’s education, let’s not talk about it anymore-”
“I’m done teaching the child martial arts.”
“… . I thought it took a long time for you to teach me, but now it’s over? ”
“Yes, it’s over. But that’s not the problem! The kid is trying to die!”
“… … . What?”
Baek Han-do didn’t seem to expect something like this.
“… … . What does that mean?”
“To be more precise, that is what the child wants in his sword.”
“… … . That is, that is so.”
“Yes. That’s what that child keeps wishing for. Belief… That’s what’s becoming that.”
“… … … .”
I know that too.
That people can’t do that.
That is what it means to be someone who wants that kind of thing… .
It meant that he was a person who continued to despair and fell to the end.
Normal people.
If you are a living person, you think the opposite.
‘How should we live?’
The sword is what contains that.
Yeah, just like Han-i did.
“… … … Really, I… that kid… . Like that… .”
-Cracked.
“Really, really… Was there no other way?”
“… … .”
Baek Han-eun, my husband, just stared at the paper quietly.
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