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# Episode 7. I wish I had two fathers

“Think of me as your dad and treat me comfortably.”

dad.

The one whom Seira always resented.

The one whom Seira always longed for.

The moment she heard those words, Seira’s eyes shook.

“Ah… … sorry. Did you touch on a very sensitive issue?”

“Oh, no… … The duke probably didn’t know, and there are things I didn’t tell you… … .”

When Kane spoke in embarrassment, as if he had made a mistake, Seira waved her hand and said it was no big deal.

“Fact… … My father died when I was young… … Because I don’t know what it feels like. It’s because I don’t know how to respond to someone asking me to treat them like a father.”

“… … .”

“I like the word father… … I have feelings that I can’t say anything about. The education of saints was very difficult in many ways. I was very lonely too… … Maybe that’s why I really hated my father, who left me alone. However, on the other hand, I also wanted someone to open that door right away and come rescue me… … Isn’t it strange that I hate you but want you to save me? haha… … .”

Seira mocks herself and smiles bitterly.

I looked at her smile and told a story.

“I feel like I know somehow.”

“Yes?”

He looked at her questioningly and continued speaking.

“You know, right? That I was kidnapped by demons when I was young?”

“Ah… … I’ve heard of it. The demons tried to kidnap the hero and the duke, but only the duke was kidnapped… … .”

“That’s right. At that time, I had no power, so I had no choice but to be kidnapped. After being kidnapped, he was locked in a small prison to be used as an experiment. What could a normal kid do there? All I can do is say I’m scared and beg for help.”

In reality, I was very busy secretly escaping, finding Gido, and saving people.

“I also resented my father a lot. They said they kidnapped me for giving birth to me so helpless. He said he didn’t come to save me because he was worried about his brother, who was a warrior. Still, I had expectations. ‘But he will still come to save me’, ‘He will be sad that I am gone.’”

“Duke… … .”

“Well, in the end, I was barely able to survive while the inside was collapsing in the aftermath of the experiment. It was a bit of a shock to hear later that I was already dead in the empire.”

“… … sorry. I think I said something unnecessary and brought up a painful memory… … .”

I looked to the side and saw Seira looking down at the floor with an expression as if she was about to shed tears.

Anyway, perhaps because she is a saint, she sympathizes well with me.

Is that big thing a sympathy pocket?

“I am sorry. It’s already happened. Besides, my biological parents are still alive. If you think about it, shouldn’t I be more sorry for saying this in front of you?”

I said it as a joke, but now that I think about it, it’s like tea-bagging a child whose parents are missing by saying that my parents are still alive.

I’m so sorry?

“What is that… … .”

She looked at me as if I was dumbfounded, but judging by the small smile on her lips, I guess the joke I just made went well.

“That’s what I said, but the bottom line is that you don’t have to think of yourself as strange. Having feelings of love and hate together is more common than you think.”

affection and hate.

Love and hate are strange emotions that are difficult to coexist, yet easily melt into each other.

Even when parents and children criticize each other, calling each other terrible parents and ugly children, it often happens that they leave a small space in their hearts to forgive the other person.

Blood and blood are much stronger than people think.

“I think that a father is someone who quietly leans on his shoulder and allows his child to rest for a while when he collapses from exhaustion. Therefore, it is natural for you to blame your father for ignoring your pain. There is no need to put any guilt or denial into it.”

“Duke… … .”

“Besides, even though I’m like this, I’ve been through most of the hardships before birth. It can prevent not only rain and wind but also typhoons and natural disasters.”

Still, I can’t stop you from being possessed in another world. That’s what happened to me already.

“Compared to others, I look a bit fierce, but I am also strong in my own right? The nickname Guardian is Gosto… … No, I didn’t win it through poker. Your shoulders are big so it would be very comfortable to lean on, right?”

“That’s right, hehe. I’m sure your shoulders are twice as big as mine, right?”

“Anyway, saying this is… … If it is uncomfortable to become close between a man and a woman, let’s gradually become closer as a father and daughter. It’s the way of the world for a father to step in and help his daughter when she’s having a hard time, so don’t feel pressured.”

When I held out my hand to say thank you, Seira stared at my hand for a moment.

“Maybe it’s because it’s been so long, but my father’s face is now blurry… … Surely that person had hands this big.”

Saying that, Seira smiled as she held my hand.

“Then… … Take care for now, Duke… … No, temporary dad?”

“A daughter at this age… … I can no longer deny that I am called an uncle.”

Seira’s hands were warm and soft, as if holding a cloud in the sky. If I lose my mind for a moment, I want to keep touching it.

“Are you okay tomorrow? I want to go on a date with my father and daughter.”

* * *

[SIDE. Ronan]

Late at night, I couldn’t sleep in the unfamiliar environment, so I left my room with the intention of going for a walk.

Although I have become a hero and defeated demons and demon lords, I have never been as nervous and anxious as I am this time.

I know.

How crazy it is to ask one’s own brother to impregnate his lovers.

My older brother, who is called a guardian and a hero who saved the lives of many, would make that kind of expression towards himself.

But the weight of the word warrior is too great.

It would be nice to have a happy ending, simply saying ‘the devil was caught and everyone lived happily ever after’, but that was not the case in reality.

Because there were so many wolves who coveted the power of the warrior who defeated the Demon King.

Dozens of marriage proposals come in every day, and even the imperial family shows moves to take over the youngest princess.

No, he’s still 7 years old! Dying? Socially!

Therefore, I wanted to put these marriages to rest by making it a fait accompli with the party members who became lovers, but due to the devil’s curse, I cannot sleep with them.

Recently, the pressure to get results quickly from the temple, magic tower, and elven tribe they belong to has been increasing, and I can see that the faces of the girls who were already putting all their effort into lifting my curse are getting worse by the day.

But to explain my current situation, I have to explain the curse placed on me.

If that happens, not only will he lose his value as a warrior, but if it’s serious, he could be accused of heresy and executed for having a plot to create another Demon King.

Even if he is a hero who saved humanity, he is still dangerous to humans as long as he has that potential.

As I pondered over and over again, I remembered the existence of my older brother.

Not long after leaving the expedition, I was very surprised to hear that the illegitimate son of the imperial family rebelled against the corrupt imperial family and became emperor.

As a follow-up to that news, I heard that the person called the guardian of the empire who received the Duke’s title at the award ceremony was my own brother who was kidnapped by demons a long time ago. I couldn’t believe it, so I checked it several times.

I was very happy that my brother was alive, but I was also worried that he might be blaming me.

There was no way my older brother, who had already been compared to me and alienated from the family, would have any good feelings towards me, who survived alone.

Meanwhile, at some point, a top party appeared that anonymously sent support items to our party.

Usually, when sending support to a party, they make a condescending statement by clearly revealing their affiliation to clearly determine the favor, but the top party simply delivers the goods and walks away without revealing anything.

It was a great help to our party as the quantity and quality of the items provided was much higher than that of other places.

I was very curious about the identity of the person who supported us without any compensation, so I approached the person at the top and earnestly asked him to tell me the owner of the top.

The person on the top, who had flatly refused at first, eventually revealed his identity to me after my repeated earnest requests, and when I heard that the person who was the owner of the top was my real brother, I felt an indescribable joy.

When I was young, I remembered the image of my kind older brother who always supported me, and the fact that my older brother, who must have been going through a harder time than anyone else, did not hate me washed away all my guilt and brought tears to my eyes.

‘If you’re like that, I can trust you.’

While returning from a walk with that thought in mind, I noticed fire leaking through the cracks in Seira’s room.

‘If you were Seira, you wouldn’t stay up this late at night, right?’

As I approached her room, wondering if she had fallen asleep with the light on, I stopped momentarily when I heard a man’s voice.

As I approached the door without any trace, the voice I heard more clearly was my brother’s.

‘I said I suggested it…’ … ‘You’re already in a relationship?’

I knew it would happen someday, but at the moment I was taken aback by how much faster it was progressing than expected.

“Think of me as your dad and treat me comfortably.”

“Anyway, saying this is… … If it’s uncomfortable to become close between a man and a woman, let’s gradually become closer as a father and daughter.”

I felt both relief and shame in the words that followed.

‘Even though he’s still young, he still thinks of me as his father… … ‘I guess you didn’t want to put a burden on them like that.’

As I reflected on how foolish I was and didn’t realize my brother’s true intentions, I was able to feel respect for him again.

After leaving the door where I heard a relieved and angry voice, I returned to my room and thought.

‘okay. My brother is trying so hard, but I can’t just sit still. Lilina Fine still seems to be having a hard time with her brother, so I’ll have to step in and help them feel better.’