episode_0007

As if heaven had answered my earnest prayers, my good relationship with Han Ji-hyun continued without interruption.

Objectively speaking, the difference in class between her and me is too great.

To be honest, I was very anxious that this one-on-one date with her would end soon.

I was afraid that she would lose interest in me quickly, get tired of me, and stop coming to see me.

But after class, she always asks me what I’m doing today and if I’m busy.

If he wasn’t busy, he would always contact me first to hang out with me.

When I walk down the street with her, several times a day,

Very handsome men approached me and asked if I was their boyfriend.

Whenever I told them I wasn’t their boyfriend, they always asked for Han Ji-hyun’s number with a relieved expression.

Every time, Han Ji-hyun resolutely rejected all of their requests.

“Why don’t you like that guy? Isn’t he handsome?”

Every time that happened, I wondered and asked.

“Not really.”

She answered firmly.

“Eh… … , he must be the most handsome guy in this neighborhood.”

“Well.”

She was resolute.

Is it because I’m in the acting department…?

Since the acting department is full of students who will become male actors in the future, are you not impressed by the fact that there are more handsome people there?

Then, why do you hang out with me?

Honestly, it’s miserable to think like that, but

Objectively speaking, wouldn’t it be more fun to hang out with those handsome guys than with me?

But why doesn’t Han Ji-hyun have friends or lovers with any men other than me?

But why do you stick so close to me and always look for me?

“It’s annoying to reject me every time, so why don’t you just say I’m your boyfriend?”

Han Ji-hyun spoke to me with a pointed expression.

“How can you do that? If rumors spread that I’m your boyfriend, how much of a loss would it be for you?”

“Why am I at a loss?”

“Don’t you look in the mirror?”

Finally, I got frustrated and asked.

“See?”

“You’ll know when you see it. How can you date a guy with this face?”

I said, gesturing alternately with my hands, Han Ji-hyun and my face.

“What’s wrong with your face?”

“If you say you’re dating me, people will think I’m a rich tycoon or that I’m dating you by blackmailing you by taking advantage of your weaknesses.”

I answered with a snicker.

“You’ll hear a hundred times from all the women and men around you, “Why are you dating that kind of guy?” You’ll be the loser. ”

Although I felt bitter inside, I smiled and continued speaking.

“You’ll probably become a celebrity in the future, but it would be a loss to have a record of your past lover being this kind of man.”

“It’s not a loss.”

She answered, but I didn’t listen carefully because it was clear that it was just empty words.

I continued these meetings with her for several months.

During those few months, I had a few drinks with Han Ji-hyun at a bar near the university.

Every time that happened, everyone, from senior male students in the same department to male students in other departments, would rush to Han Ji-hyun while drunk, trying to talk to her even just once.

Even though I was sitting alone with her, she didn’t seem to think I was her boyfriend.

There were also many people who took numbers or made work.

Rather than telling them one by one that he was my boyfriend and then kicking them out, I decided to take Han Ji-hyun to a quiet bar.

It’s a bit far from our university, so students from our school won’t come.

It was a place that was difficult for college students to visit because the prices were high.

I wasn’t unattractive, but I was also not broke, so it wasn’t a big burden.

“Shouldn’t you have come here earlier?”

He clinked his glass with hers and asked her.

Because it was a high-class bar, I was able to drink in a private space where not only other customers but also the bartender could not see me.

Now, I don’t have to deal with men who come to me drunk to see Han Ji-hyun’s crazy beauty. It’s much more comfortable.

It would have been more comfortable if we had been drinking together in places like this from the beginning, but when we weren’t as close, it was a bit burdensome to do so.

This is because places like this are usually empty and have no CCTV, so they are often used by couples to show off their lovey-dovey behavior after getting drunk.

Because I was drunk and no one was watching,

I knew that kissing was a given, and that affectionate acts such as putting hands on each other’s chest or genitals were also frequent.

Of course, I just know about it, I’ve never done it…

To begin with, it was my first time coming to a place like this with a woman, let alone a man.

Anyway, since it was a place for such secret meetings, I didn’t suggest going there to have a drink from the beginning because I was afraid that people might think I was strange.

But we’ve eaten together, watched movies together, and had drinks together many times, and now I’ve become close enough with her.

I brought her here today because I thought we were now close enough to be trusted.

“Much more comfortable.”

Han Ji-hyun, who has become so close to me that she can no longer speak,

He seemed very pleased that I brought him to this bar.

The cheapest bar was 200,000 won a bottle, but it didn’t matter.

People who like idols spend millions of won to attend fan signing events where they can talk to the idol for about a minute.

To me, Han Ji-hyun was an idol. No, in fact, Han Ji-hyun was prettier than the top idols.

I was walking around the city with Han Ji-hyun and happened to see a celebrity at a department store that day.

But objectively speaking, Han Ji-hyun was prettier.

People who were completely focused on that celebrity also glanced at Han Ji-hyun every once in a while.

If Han Ji-hyun officially debuts as an actress and becomes a top star, it is clear that she will become a celebrity of a higher rank than him.

Because that was Han Ji-hyun, she was more than just an idol to me.

Some people spend hundreds for one minute,

In this blissful place where I could drink alone with her, I didn’t regret spending any amount of money.

“Next time I drink here, I’ll buy it.”

Even then, she apologized and said she would buy it herself next time.

“No. I invited you here, so I’ll buy everything you drink here.”

I’ve known for a long time that she’s not playing with me to get what I want,

I didn’t regret spending any money on her.

In the future, Han Ji-hyun will become more successful and famous as a celebrity.

If that happens, I might not have another chance to drink with her like this.

Of course, I just hoped that this relationship with her would continue.

But not the current Han Ji-hyun,

When I think about it calmly, I don’t think it’s very likely that Han Ji-hyun, who has become a top star, will continue to talk to me like this.

I had to enjoy this ecstatic moment with her, which might never happen again.

After a drink or two, my mood became hazy and the atmosphere became more relaxed.

In that state of excitement, the face of a beautiful woman swaying before my eyes doubled my ecstasy.

I’ve had the experience of being alone with Han Ji-hyun a few times, but I’ve never had a chance to drink in a place like this where we’re alone.

It was a strange feeling to be in a place with just the two of us, even drinking alcohol.

And then I started getting confused.

Is it really true that the relationship between us, who even drink in such a secret place, is just that of a senior and junior?

Or maybe it’s more than that.

Considering the gap between her and me, it would have been normal if there had been no room for even a shred of difference.

But she and I have been hanging out together too much these past few months to be just seniors and juniors.

She would come to see me after class, and we would eat together every day and go out to play together.

Even on weekends when I didn’t have school, she would call me, and that’s how we ended up having more of a date.

Even because she said she wanted to go see it, we went to see the cherry blossoms together at the cherry blossom festival.

We also went to the beach together and watched the fireworks festival.

We were drinking at a bar like this, where time alone was guaranteed, and where it was rare for seniors and juniors to come together.

Even though I tried not to get confused, I just couldn’t help but get confused.

It was risky to bring up this to Han Ji-hyun.

Just like now,

If I had not said anything about our relationship, there was a good chance that this good relationship would continue.

If I had asked her about our relationship for no reason, she might have felt uncomfortable with me.

But I still wanted to ask.

Are they just senior and junior, or are they just a crush?

We couldn’t continue on like this, vaguely.

I really wanted to know her mind.

“That… ….”

I opened my mouth with difficulty to ask her.

Even that was possible because it included the courage gained from being drunk.

“Huh?”

She answered, looking at me with a slightly drunken expression.

Even that expression, with her slightly drunken eyes slightly squinted and smiling bashfully, was so beautiful that it made my heart pound.

“By any chance… …, what do you think of me?”

I asked, holding back my trembling heart.

“What… … ?”

“Ah… … , I wouldn’t have thought of that, but honestly, there are a lot of things we do just the two of us, right?”

I kept talking to Han Ji-hyun.

“Of course, it’s something you can do with just an older brother you know or a close older brother… … , but you don’t usually go to the cherry blossom festival with an older brother you’re close with. You don’t go to the beach to watch the fireworks festival with just the two of you… … .”

She listened to me quietly and said nothing.

“So, let’s just make it clear… … . If you think of me as just a close older brother without any rational feelings, then no matter what we do together in the future, I will never be confused.”

I spoke to her seriously.

“I’m asking this so that I don’t burden you and to make sure that our relationship is okay. Let me know. If you just tell me for sure that you don’t have any romantic feelings for me, I’ll continue to adjust to that kind of relationship in the future.”

“So, you’re just curious if they’re just close siblings or if they’re in a relationship?”

“Yeah.”

She heard everything I said, and when she asked me directly, she started to get even more nervous.

It would be difficult for me to have a relationship with a goddess like Han Ji-hyun, but I still needed to make the relationship definite.

Of course I’d be sad if you said you had no feelings for me, but that was normal.

In fact, it didn’t even make sense for me to hang out with Han Ji-hyun like this.

If only she could confirm that she thought of me as just a close brother and sister,

From now on, even if I were to spend more than just the cherry blossom festival with her, I only asked so that I would never be confused into thinking that she might have romantic feelings for me.

In fact, I hate the fact that I, who has no way of being romantically involved with her, keep mistaking my relationship with Han Ji-hyun.

Before things got any worse, you might have just wanted to hear her say no out loud and feel better.

If she could draw a sharp line like a knife, I thought I could finally let go of those ridiculous expectations and foolish thoughts.

“I was already in love with you from the day I first saw you in the club room?”

She answered me.