episode_0007

“Sigh….”

The air feels different.

Perhaps I felt stifled without realizing it myself.

Passing by the trees becoming sparse in the garden where the sky is clearly visible.

The garden built on top of the building is quite cold, so I wrapped the blanket around me from top to bottom.

“Could you… come a little closer…?”

I tried to keep my distance from people, but since nothing changes that way, instead of just slightly speaking up, I pretended to look elsewhere from a noticeable distance to see people’s reactions.

It may seem a bit foolish, but it’s the best I can do.

“Sister, why are you sitting in a wheelchair?”

“Oh… um… because my leg hurts?”

Casually brushing it off while touching the leaves, I heard a sound of footsteps somewhere, and before I knew it, there was a girl in front of me.

But why ask such an obvious question when the wheelchair is there because of discomfort in the legs?

“Well… then…”

“Sujin! Hey! What are you doing! Let’s play hide and seek together!”

As the child hesitated, another girl appeared.

“But… sister…”

“?”

Why does it feel like she’s blaming me?

“…You’re really pretty.”

“…?”

This time, she’s looking at me with a puzzled expression.

“How are you so pretty, sister?”

“Um… what?”

The somewhat bold girl seems to be expecting something from me.

Confident and cute, it doesn’t seem to matter much, and she probably doesn’t know the right approach either.

“Um….”

Still, I should probably tell her.

She might not know what she thinks of me, but judging by her sparkling eyes, she probably wants to be pretty like me.

“Eat lots of vegetables. Just… finish your meals from kindergarten or school without leaving too much… eat what mom says is good for you… and that’s it?”

I quoted the common phrases mothers say.

…Our mother was not ordinary. My father prepared more meals.

“Ugh… Mom says that all the time….”

“Our mom isn’t as pretty as you because she doesn’t eat a lot of vegetables, right?”

“Um…”

If I say no, she won’t eat them. If I say yes, it feels a bit off…

Caught between Tahlula and Gabulgi.

“Here, nurse… Sister will explain well. Right, sister!?”

This should be handed over to the nurse. As I touched the hand holding the wheelchair, she reflexively responded.

“…Yes? Oh! That’s right, kids. Eating vegetables is good for your health and makes your face prettier.”

I unintentionally passed it off, but isn’t she too surprised?

“Umm… Mom…”

“Alright. Let’s go. Mom is calling. Thank you!”

The children nodded and turned back.

They’re cute, at least.

“Ugh… I don’t know anymore….”

Oh, I need to get up quickly too.

“Suhyun, could you help me up…?”

Getting up from the wheelchair is a bit difficult.

It’s lower than the bed, and I have to use my arms to push myself up with my legs outside, but it seems a bit challenging.

“Suhyun…?”

“…Sister.”

“?”

Suhyun seems to have malfunctioned again. Maybe there’s something wrong with me.

“You said ‘sister’… just now.”

“Oh… did I…?”

I might have slipped up for a moment.

Maybe I meant to say “nuna” but ended up saying Suhyun, or maybe I had to say nurse sister to the kids, so I said that.

“Just once.”

“Yes?”

“Just tell me one more time.”

I clearly said I would do it when I was discharged, but this is too much. It’s forced.

“No~”

“Uhh… I didn’t hear it properly… I didn’t even record it…!”

She was holding her phone tightly, making a ‘click’ sound so loud that it could be heard.

It’s terrifying for me.

“Um… Unnie, can you help me up?”

“Uh. Uh uh…!!”

Although Suhyun tried to take a picture of me with my arms spread out or tried to hold me, the phone did not work as the previous ‘click’ sound indicated.

“Oh… oh….”

“Just… just use mine. Is this position okay?”

“Uh… thank you.”

Now there’s only about a week left until discharge, what should I do about this person?

“Ugh… forget it.”

When she brought the cane, I felt like I could endure a little longer.

“Oong oong! So cute!”

Suhyun looks happy now. It feels like people around are avoiding her…

Maybe job satisfaction is at 500% for saying things like this.

“Oh.”

This also seemed to attract attention, and I started feeling like people were looking at me strongly.

Well, from the outside, I must look like a crazy person asking a nurse to take a picture of herself… that’s how it seems…

“Just call me unnie once more!”

Uh… is it the opposite?

“Kum… Unnie, let’s go quickly.”

“Hmm? Why… Oh. Um, okay.”

After Suhyun slightly turned her head and understood the situation, she turned off her phone and pulled the wheelchair.

Perhaps the feeling of embarrassment has already come to an end. Even in this situation, I was actually smiling.

‘I’m the crazy one in this hospital!’

“Pl… please send me the photos…”

“Got it~”

Unintentionally, I received the trembling phone in my hands with a laugh. It feels like I’ve gained a fan.

Trying to get an autograph from your favorite but finding it hard to get close, feeling your body tremble.

“Oh… it’s pretty.”

The photo taken with those trembling hands was perfectly clear without any blurriness.

I just wanted to touch a branch and feel the texture of the grass, but for some reason, the woman in the photo looked extremely mysterious.

Maybe I adjusted the settings well, so I don’t even feel like it’s me, which allows me to say strange things.

She just looks like a fairy.

“Uhh… Jiyu, don’t leave the hospital. I’ll take care of everything…”

“Hey. No. I have things to do outside too.”

First… I’ll go see Dad. Clean up the room, do the dishes, and make some stew.

The floor should be fine. I sent an expensive robot vacuum cleaner to my brother’s house because he complained about cleaning.

“Um… Can I have your number instead?”

“Huh?”

But I’m still more worried about my brother.

While there are things I can handle due to my father’s long-standing habits, my brother looks precarious.

“I… I want to ask about things I don’t know as a woman…”

“…Of course! Feel free to call me anytime!”

She asked for the number while holding the phone, but Suhyun quickly took it and entered the number.

♡Choi Suhyun Unnie♡

“……”

A contact that seemed like a spam text from a cheap game ad appeared in the contacts.

How much does this person like me?

“Please take care of it! Make sure to contact me!”

“Yes… Thank you, unnie.”

She seems ecstatic, trying to fix her phone by pressing it firmly with her hand.

It seems like she wants to check me with her phone right away.

*Click.*

“Ah!?”

It probably won’t be fixed.

***

“Uhh… what is it.”

My stomach gurgles.

Is it the lower abdomen or upper abdomen? This is below.

On the upper abdomen, it’s usually where the pain is, and on the lower abdomen, it’s where the signal comes from…

Why does my back hurt?

In reality, there was a warning.

Something sticky flowed out below, and since the panties kept getting wet.

Suhyun also said, “…menstruation?”

Urgently heading to the bathroom. I can’t express how great it is to be able to go to the bathroom alone now that I have to walk around.

Beyond embarrassment, I was truly embarrassed.

No matter how pretty one is, even a princess pees and poops.

That’s my conclusion. It smells and everything.

“Ugh….”

What is this burdensome sensation?

Now the pain has started spreading to my thighs.

Frantically searching for my phone to call Suhyun, but it seems like I couldn’t even think about bringing it due to the pain.

“Sister…!!”

It hurts so much. Even though I spat out something squishy from below, instead of feeling refreshed, the sensation became strange, and the pain spread throughout my body.

“Ugh….”

My legs are trembling. My head is spinning.

If I get up now, I’ll probably end up kissing the floor.

Engulfed in a feeling of organs twisting, I continue calling for Suhyun.

“Ugh…ugh…sister…!!!”

When you call her “sister,” Suhyun comes running even if she’s resting.

I’m sorry, but still, I feel like I’m going to die right now.

“You called!?”

“Here…! The bathroom….”

I hear footsteps, and a familiar voice speaks.

“My stomach hurts….”

“How does it hurt? You need to properly explain what kind of pain you’re feeling.”

“My lower abdomen hurts…and my waist and thighs hurt too.”

“…Ah. Did you check down there?”

At Suhyun’s words, I looked down.

“What…what is this.”

For a moment, a metallic smell wafted through the air.

The sight before me is gruesome…

Why…why is there blood?

“Umm…you mentioned briefly yesterday, right?”

*

“…Ah.”

Women’s day.

I didn’t know. I really didn’t.

It’s somewhat horrifying to think about again.

How do they endure this happening once a month, and for several days at that?

“Umm…anyway, try changing sizes after looking at it once. So just lie down for now.”

“Yes….”

The sanitary pad didn’t have the texture I had imagined.

Hmm…if I were to describe it, it feels like wearing panties with a wet tissue inside.

“By the way, ‘sister.’ That feeling is flying around over there. It feels so good.”

“Ugh….”

It’s irresistible. What can I do when the effect is so good?

“Sister!” If I say that, she’s already in front of me.

I only intended to use it when absolutely necessary, but the necessary situation has unfolded.

“Okay…I’m holding onto this. You’ll start feeling better.”

“Thank you….”

Holding a warm water bottle, I embrace it like a doll.

The shivering feeling has eased a bit.

“Ah…oh. Oh.”

“Oh. You shouldn’t sneeze!?”

“Eh…achoo…achoo….”

I was about to sneeze refreshingly, but I stop momentarily due to urgent words.

My nose tickles. It tickles a lot.

“You’ll regret it if you really do it!?”

“Ehh…ahh….”

It tickles….

“Achoo!!”

“Oh. You did it.”

Human desires are endless, repeating the same mistake.

“Uh….”

It’s wisest not to do what you’re told not to do.

All the strength goes into sneezing, and as the power returns to my exhausted lower body, I suddenly receive it.

Blood gushes up like reflux, the entrance is open.

“Ow…crazy….”

Squishing and spurting, my buttocks warm up and then quickly cool down again.

Accepting that I am a woman made me slightly fearful.