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I left the orphanage, leaving the saintly woman behind.

As I was vaguely walking down the street, I thought back to what had just happened and smiled.

‘I got angry without even realizing it.’

I originally didn’t intend to do this.

We were just talking and were about to break up.

But when I saw her denying and belittling herself, I couldn’t bear it.

‘It’s really hard every time I see people like that.’

I am confident that I can understand her feelings because I too have experienced it.

However, because of her experience, whenever I saw people like her, apart from respecting them, I felt sorry for them.

Some people might look at that and say it’s pathetic.

The saint, God’s representative, will laugh at the pessimism of herself.

But I don’t think so.

If you are there enough, you will experience it.

People grow based on the experiences they have had.

I can say this with certainty because I experienced it myself, felt it again, and eventually grew.

Anyone who is in that position will experience this.

We have a mission to save the world.

To put it simply, it was glorious and something many people wanted.

But if you know the weight of that position, you can never do that.

Although it brings great honor and glory, it also comes with an equal sense of responsibility and mission.

Those who truly have the qualifications to become heroes are weighed down by that sense of duty.

Because many people’s lives are at stake in his hands, and if he fails, humanity will perish.

When the fate of this dimension hangs upon them, what being would not be crushed?

If there are such beings, they are simply unqualified people who are blinded by the words honor and glory and do not realize the true meaning of the position.

‘So she can be in the position of a saint.’

From what I’ve seen, she knows where she is better than anyone else.

Knowing how important the position she held was, she was weighed down by the responsibility.

And I couldn’t bear to leave her like that.

‘It’s just words.’

Because of that, even though I couldn’t shake everything off, I wanted to shake off a little bit.

We’ll find out the exact details tomorrow.

As someone who has already taken on a huge responsibility.

I really hoped that she would overcome it well.

***

-You are also a wonderful person.

– That’s correct. As the saying goes, the standard for a great person cannot be set arbitrarily. However, there are people who anyone would think were great and wonderful people. And such people are people like you.

-Sacrifice for others. Although it is a simple word, it contains a lot of meaning. Dying for someone, acting for someone, and helping someone without anything in return. It is included in the term sacrificing others. And we call those people great, cool, strong people.

-In that sense, you are a wonderful, cool, and strong person.

Irene sat blankly, looking at the sky and thinking about the words he had just said.

He was a person who knew his true identity.

At the same time, she was also someone who looked at a side of herself with purity, not just as a saint.

‘… ‘

The position of a saint that many people envy.

He saw that I was in such a position and was so pessimistic about myself, and he told me that I was a wonderful person.

It was my first time.

That’s what I heard.

Even when I became a saint and when I became a warrior party.

He earned the respect and envy of many.

All I did was receive a lot of jealous and envious looks.

I had never once heard that he was a cool and great person.

But it wasn’t unfair or anything like that.

Because I had never thought about it that way myself.

If you ask me why, Irene will answer like this.

‘I am… Because she is a pathetic person who feels burdened by her position as a saint… ‘

The position of defeating the devil and saving the world together with the hero.

The fact that the lives of so many people depended on her was such a heavy burden for her.

I wanted to get over it if I could.

Because it was a huge burden that I could not bear.

I wanted to run away.

I wanted to spend a comfortable life with the children at the orphanage like I did before I became a saint.

A life where you can chat and laugh comfortably with your children without any worries.

I had wanted that for a long time, and I wanted to give up my mission as a saint.

I have that kind of mindset.

How could someone like that be a cool person?

Irene thought it didn’t make sense.

I left everything and tried to run away.

I tried to give up everything.

Would she be qualified to be a saint?

Irene felt a variety of emotions intermingle with the monologue she spoke.

The place where you want to throw away, run away, and give up.

In the end, the sight of myself holding on felt ridiculous.

‘That’s right… I can’t give up… ‘

The reason she can’t give up even though she feels like she wants to deny everything and run away.

This is because the lives of many people depend on what you are carrying, and because someone believes in you.

Since I am in this position whether I want it or not.

Some believe that she will defeat the devil together with the warrior.

Some people firmly believe that she will save them.

Such faith is the ideal to come.

She was in a position to live up to those expectations.

Because of that, she still holds the title of saint.

however.

‘it’s hard… ‘

It was still difficult.

The thought of wanting to run away and give up everything was always there in the back of my mind.

I was still busy belittling myself and looking at myself negatively.

however.

-You are also a wonderful person.

Everything changed with one word from him.

Just one word, neither long nor short.

Although it was just one word, she felt many things in that single word.

I felt like my efforts were understood for the first time.

I feel like he understands the weight of mission and responsibility he carries.

Irene was so thankful for him.

The sight of him not only being understood, but also understanding the deepest part of my heart that I thought no one would understand, and shouting that he was cool…

She is so… Thank you.

“Ugh… ”

The burden and responsibility that I only felt inside.

They gradually disappeared along with the tears that gathered around my eyes and flowed down my cheeks.

I felt like the burden I was carrying was lifted just by the fact that someone recognized it.

Irene shed even more tears as she felt emotions for the first time in her life.

“Ha… Ugh… ”

Even if you try to wipe away the flowing tears and hold them back, they will burst out again.

The emotions she was suffering from all this time were as full and huge as the tears flowing out of her eyes.

My hands were shaking and my body had no strength.

Because I was not used to this feeling of being liberated from the burden that had been weighing me down.

She couldn’t move for a long time.

So it calms down to some extent.

Feeling the tears she had shed drying up, Irene thanked him.

“Thank you… ”

If we meet again someday.

I hope I can repay this favor then.

***

A heaven that only those who have accumulated good karma can come to.

L’Ren, a being who can be said to be the master of the heavens and the goddess of light, thought as she saw her crying representative.

‘Really… What should I do if the person leaving says so?’

Yucheon, who went down to help the warrior party in the underworld, was in a position to return to the heavens later.

When you think about that, you can’t stop a relationship from building up, but at least there must be a line.

But that line is crossed even before entering the party.

It really hurt me.

Of course, she had no intention of pointing out that Yuchun’s actions were wrong.

I felt quite sad every time I saw a child I cared about blaming himself, but I was able to solve that problem. The problem is how to handle the aftereffects when you finish everything and try to return.

The goddess sighed deeply.

“If this continues, even the Mana Hero will end up like that. flirt… ”

It was a fact that I was already worried about even as I let it go.

Even though Yoochun is no longer human, he is a deeply affectionate person.

To some extent, I expected this situation to come.

But when I actually saw the situation with my own eyes, it was quite something.

My eyesight was quite sore, and I had a strong feeling that something that was mine would be taken away.

I wonder if I should tell him to come back now.

Leren immediately shook his head.

‘That’s not allowed.’

She couldn’t see her beloved Ha-gye and her children suffering because of her personal feelings.

But seeing Yuchun flirting with other women makes me feel sick to my stomach.

“See you later.”

Later, when Yucheon came back

She promised in her heart that she would scold him to her heart’s content.