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[Episode 5] – My Taste

The moment she opened her eyes, Elise felt that her body was different than usual. Her body didn’t move as she wanted, her whole body was sore, and her forehead was boiling with heat.

Perhaps it was because of the letter I saw yesterday. Elise thought so and drank water from the glass next to the bed to soothe her dry throat. Only then did Elise come to her senses and recall yesterday’s events.

‘Mother…is she really trying to sell me out?’

Elise couldn’t read the actual contents of the letter. However, by piecing together a few words she could read, she was able to infer the general content of the letter.

The fact that her mother was thinking of selling her to become the second wife of a nobleman.

Although it wasn’t written directly that she was selling it, it did say that she was worried about it until the debutante exhibition. That alone was enough to make Elise tremble with anxiety.

Elise, who was raised by maids, knew what would happen if she married into the hands of a nobleman as a second wife or concubine. No one liked to gossip about noblemen as much as maids did.

Although it was a bit exaggerated, the rumors Elise had heard were not false. Most of the nobles who bought concubines were full of crazy, abnormally sexual people.

I’ve heard that there are people who like to hit, and people who like to watch animals mate because they are old and can’t do it themselves.

Elise remembered seeing the maid flutter her body as she said, “I’d rather bite my tongue and kill myself than become a nobleman’s second wife.” The maids who heard the story laughed in agreement.

After reading the letter, a sense of anxiety surged through her like a tide. Elise was lost in all sorts of thoughts and couldn’t sleep properly. When she woke up, her physical condition was the worst it’s ever been.

I had to get up quickly, but because of my dizzying vision, I couldn’t get out of bed and time just passed. I didn’t even know how much time had passed, and as I was groaning in bed, there was a knock on the door and someone poked their head out.

“Elise?”

“Sister Sylvia..?”

Sylvia looked at Elise lying on the bed, then ran into Elise’s room and placed her hand on Elise’s forehead. Sylvia frowned and sighed as she felt the blazing heat.

“Are you in a lot of pain? Your forehead is throbbing.”

“No…it’s okay…”

“It’s okay! My hands are hot!”

Sylvia was quick to get angry, but her expression was filled with concern for Elise. Sylvia always put her younger siblings before herself. It had been a long time since Elise, who was not related to her by blood, was included among those younger siblings.

“…I’m sorry for yelling. Just lie down for now. I’ll go talk to your mom. I don’t think your mom will say anything these days. No matter what you say, I’ll ask you to do something. ”

“Thank you, Sister…”

“Thank you. I’m resting.”

Sylvia straightened Elise’s blanket and went out of the room. Elise, who had covered her shoulders with the blanket, slowly closed her eyes, exhaling hot air. As she lay still, a cool sense of anxiety began to rise from the tips of her toes.

‘Is Mother really thinking of selling me? Why? Because I’m her father’s daughter? Then why is she suddenly being kind to me? Is she being kind to me for the last time since I won’t be seeing her soon?’

I was happy that my mother had suddenly become kind, but now I began to doubt her kindness.

Elise knew that she would soon be making her debutante. She had expected it would happen as early as this year. Sylvia was 20, and Lily and she were both 19, so it was normal for them to make their debutantes around that age.

If I were to become a debutante, would I be sold as a concubine to a nobleman? I had heard about marriage so many times since ancient times that I had expected it to happen. However, I had never thought about being sold.

The ending of the concubines that the maids had spoken of came to mind.

Elise hated her mother, but she loved her more than that.

I wanted to confront my mother about this right away, but I knew that if the contents of the letter were true and that she was being forced to be kind to me because it was the last time, I would break down.

What should I call this feeling? I love you, but I hate you. If you’re going to do this, why don’t you just stop being kind to me? If you’re going to do this, why don’t you just continue to hate me? Even if I’m hated, I’d be happy if I could just stay by my mother’s side.

A terrible sense of anxiety began to eat away at Elise. Starting from the tips of her toes and fingers, she felt a creaking sensation as if bugs were crawling on her body, and Elise shuddered.

‘I want to forget.’

Elise thought of a way to forget her anxious feelings in an instant. Since she had nothing to do today anyway, she would probably just end up rolling around in her room.

“…shall we do it?”

This was the best way to get rid of anxiety. After it was over, I felt empty, but while I was doing it, I could forget everything and focus only on pleasure. Elise assumed her usual posture while fantasizing.

Lying on her side and putting her fingers between her thighs, she felt even better because she felt the pressure from her body weight. This was the position Elise used to comfort herself. She familiarly placed her wiggling fingers over her underwear.

Sadly, the subject of her delusions was ultimately her mother. She must have known that this anxiety was coming from her mother, but Elise still thought of her mother and her fingers crawled inside the underwear hanging on her pelvis.

Even though I loved her so much and hated her so much, I couldn’t forget my mother’s image. Rather, it felt like it was becoming more vivid and engraved in my mind.

Elise began to feel love and hate for her mother. The problem with love and hate is that love always comes before hate, but Elise still thought that what she was feeling now was love and hate, not hate.

It was embarrassing to comfort myself in broad daylight, but once I started, I couldn’t stop. In fact, if I thought I could do it from broad daylight to night, it wasn’t such a bad thing. I could fill my head with my mother all day long.

He put his hand on her underwear and rubbed the crack along the thin fabric in a circular motion. He rubbed the soft piece of fabric against his skin, wetting the underwear. He heard a sloshing sound and reached out to the damp spot, bending his back and hastily rolling his body.

The underwear was already soaked with love juice and was soaking wet. When Elise carefully spread her legs, the underwear soaked with love juice and stuck to her skin, sticking to her there. The clitoris, which had not been touched yet, slowly rose above the underwear as if asking to be touched.

“Haha…uh-huh…uh-huh..!”

I slowly drew a circle with my clitoris, and a moan escaped me, and I bit my lower lip. There was no one to hear, but it was broad daylight. I bit my lip and swallowed my moan, thinking that someone might hear it through the sunlight streaming in through the cracks in the shaded windows.

Swallowing a groan, the pleasure began to spread further down my spine. My reason melted away and the more I rubbed, the more the wet area became.

He couldn’t stop the action that had already begun. Now, he took off his underwear and panties, and concentrated on the action while naked under the blanket. When he took off the blanket, his half-naked body was completely exposed.

“Ugh…yeah…sob…!”

Her body gradually became stiffer from the stimulation, and her fingers became faster and faster. Her face was already buried in the pillow, and all her nerves were focused on the pleasure. With each movement of her fingers, her mind became increasingly blank, and her vision became blurry, shaking Elise.

A dizzy head, hot breath, and a feverish body.

As we become more and more obsessed with seeking only pleasure,

“Elise..? Are you in a lot of pain? Why are you groaning like this..?”

Her mother’s murderous voice seemed to drain all the blood from her body. In an instant, her excitement subsided, and her face, which had been flushed red with excitement, suddenly turned pale. She slowly raised her head and looked to the side. The finger she had stupidly inserted underneath remained clammy.

Elise didn’t want to believe it. She closed her eyes tightly and prayed desperately that this situation was a lie or a dream. However, when she looked up at her mother’s face, she told her that this whole situation was real.

Fortunately or unfortunately, my mother had no idea what I was doing. She just wiped my forehead with the wet towel in her hand, seemingly clueless as to what I was doing. The cold towel gave me goosebumps when it touched my skin.

“Are you in a lot of pain..? Should I call a doctor..? What should I do… Will this medicine work..?”

“Oh, no…it’s okay…”

“Are you okay? I’m covered in sweat…Would you like to take off the blanket?”

“Oh, no! It’s okay! I’m just a little cold right now!”

As I shouted out in embarrassment without realizing it, my mother’s eyes widened in surprise. My mother looked surprised for a moment, but then she let out a small sigh and sat down on the chair next to her and took out the fruit she had brought.

“…If you’re sick, be sure to tell me. Can you eat some fruit? You’ll get better if you eat a little bit.”

“Uh,uh…yeah…”

Fortunately, maybe it was because I covered it with a blanket, or maybe they were pretending not to notice.

I couldn’t raise my head because of the shame. My mother slowly began to peel the apple she had brought with a knife. The apple, which was peeled with a crunching sound, was shaped like a cute rabbit.

“What do you think? Isn’t it pretty? I showed it to the kids and they were amazed.”

“This is pretty… This is the first time I’ve seen it cut like this…”

“Hehehe… I’ll tell you guys later. Next time you have to peel fruit, try cutting it like this. It’ll be prettier.”

When I saw my mother smiling brightly while showing me the beautifully cut apple slices, I felt all sorts of emotions. I had something to say, but I couldn’t open my mouth. Was it because I was caught comforting myself? Or was it because I was afraid of hearing the truth from my mother’s mouth?

As Elise stared blankly at the apple slice in her mother’s hand, her mother held out the apple slice to Elise. As if telling her to quickly take it with her hand and eat it. However… Elise’s hand was now soaked with love juice.

Still, since my mother kept handing me apples, I couldn’t refuse, so I took my hand out of the blanket and took the apple. Then, the apple slices in my hand became even stickier as they mixed with Elise’s love juice and juice.

‘…I guess I can’t eat it.’

It was a pity because it was an apple that his mother had peeled for him, but there was nothing he could do.

“Aren’t you going to eat it?”

“Oh, no…I’m not hungry right now…”

“…Even if you don’t have an appetite, you should eat a little. That way, your body will get better.”

I know that, but… I couldn’t eat this. It’s both sanitary and ethically problematic. As I was making excuses with a bashful smile, my mother let out a small sigh,

“Give it to me. I’ll cut it a little smaller.”

“Huh?!”

He snatched the slimy apple from Elise’s hand. It happened so quickly, and it was so slippery that she couldn’t even hold it. The slimy apple that left Elise’s hand returned to her mother’s hand in an instant.

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Without a moment to stop, the sticky apple went straight into my mother’s small mouth. When she couldn’t fit the large fruit in her mouth, half of the apple popped out of my mother’s mouth. The sticky juice and juice began to glisten and spread on my mother’s lips.

My mother’s small mouth swelled as if it was about to burst, and with a squeak, the apple split in half. My mother slurped down the apple she had cut in her mouth and swallowed it all.

The sight of her tongue licking her lips, which were wet with juice and love juice, was sensual. My mother simply smiled brightly as if it was delicious and said, “Yes. It’s sweet.”

‘…I’m going crazy.’

How can someone be so seductive? Every single action of my mother’s was so sweetly seductive that I wondered if she was doing it on purpose, even though I already knew everything.

After peeling the apple, her mother cut it into small pieces and placed them on a plate. Then she stabbed it with a fork and put it in Elise’s mouth. Elise slowly opened her lips, which were trembling with excitement, and chewed and swallowed the apple her mother had handed her.

Is it because I’m too excited?

“How is it? Is it sweet enough?”

“…yes.”

Contrary to what my mother said, I felt no taste at all.