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# Episode 5. I am regretful

After finishing the meal, the female party members returned to their rooms with strange expressions on their faces, while Ronan and I remained seated.

For the future work, I have work to do with Ronan.

“I’m sorry, bro. Because I made you worry for no reason. It’s all because I’m lacking.”

“Why is it your fault? ”

Ronan took advantage of the regret he felt towards me and gaslighted me into cooperating with them.

In fact, I accepted their offer of surrogate pregnancy and tried to investigate their sexual orientation, citing various reasons.

Because it was all the cornerstone for my desires.

Last time, I talked about my past and said that I didn’t think anything of my family’s indifference.

Of course, I am sincere, but I am also human, so in such situations, negative emotions tend to arise little by little.

I thought I was used to loneliness because I lived as an orphan in my previous life, but perhaps the anticipation of having a new family in my new life had dulled my heart a little.

In addition, since being awarded this territory five years ago, I have been under a lot of stress due to constantly focusing on the development of the territory.

When I was reincarnated into this world, I was determined to spend the rest of my life comfortably, playing and eating, but when I looked back on my current self and couldn’t even rest properly because I was so busy with my spiritual affairs, I felt a sense of shame as to why I was reincarnated for this reason.

Even after his reincarnation, he has never hugged a woman.

… … Yeah, fuck. It’s a pity. Sympathy.

In the past, I was kidnapped as an experiment and was so busy fighting on the battlefield to become stronger that I couldn’t even think about meeting women.

After becoming a duke, I couldn’t do anything because I was so busy with the estate work.

If you’re a duke, shouldn’t you just grab a woman from any territory?

The maids in the mansion are a bit sloppy because they are employed and I have to see them every day, the looks and body of the local residents are not to my taste, and the prostitutes may lower my social reputation, so I pass.

To top it off, I was worried that my dragon sleeping in my pants (hibernating for 25 years, new, 28cm when angry) would rot and crumble like this.

Then an opportunity came.

At first, I was almost driven out of my mind by that crazy proposal, but after thinking about it, I realized that if it was beneficial to me, it would be beneficial, and there was nothing that could harm me, and as Sebas said, I thought I could now live a slightly selfish life as I wanted, so I made the proposal. was accepted.

I like being able to hold beautiful women without worrying about other things, and I like them being able to feel the ultimate pleasure in my arms, so isn’t it better for a sister and a better brother-in-law?

What is Ronan good for? uh… … well?

On the other hand, he thinks it’s because of him that I lived this life, so wouldn’t it be good to be able to atone in his own way?

“To be honest, I can’t say that the method you mentioned is correct, but it is probably the most efficient method for now. Having to hug someone else’s lover means breaking the beliefs I’ve held, but I can do that because she’s my real brother and not anyone else.”

Yeah, no. There is no such thing as belief~

“I understand the situation you are in and how you entrusted me with this role, so there is no need to say more. No matter what, I will do my best at my job.”

“Hyung… … .”

“If you’re really sorry, try persuading your girls to be more proactive. Wouldn’t it be better for you and them to finish the work quickly?”

“Yes, okay. Thank you, bro.”

I think this guy feels extremely guilty about me hugging his girl. There is no such thing in particular.

Well, it worked out better.

If you actively gaslight Ronan’s feelings now, it will be easier to succeed with your plan later.

I’m sorry, Ronan.

But the reason I ended up like this is because you, the warrior, are also responsible.

Can you understand?

* * *

“Now that I think about it, who are my parents?”

“Huh?”

“How are your parents? Aren’t you here to meet me?”

After that, we kept asking each other about our current status, and suddenly I became curious about the situation of my parents in the capital.

He must have never thought that a question would come out of my mouth asking how my parents were doing, so he just stared at me with his eyes closed.

“How are your parents doing, dude?”

“Ah… ”

Although the title ‘Hero’ is one of many, it is a title that even the parents of a warrior cannot take lightly.

As a person who gave birth to a warrior, wealth and power are natural.

Ronan must have defeated the Demon King. By now, he has been given the rank of earl or higher and is living the rest of his life comfortably.

“Uh… … I visited him once last time, and he told me that my contribution was recognized this time and that I was promoted to the rank of marquess. But I couldn’t meet my mother because she said she had a bad cold, and I only saw my father’s face for a moment. After that, I have many appointments with other nobles… … Everyone seemed fine other than looking a little tired, perhaps because of the frequent calls and visits wanting to connect with our family?”

“Hmm… … Really?”

Well, whatever. My son-in-law will become a warrior and defeat the devil, and I will be able to live the rest of my life whining.

There is no disappointment because I did not expect anything.

Anyway, if you catch a cold at that age, it won’t be easy to get over it… … Anyway, sell the name of the hero, get good medicine, take it, and you will get better quickly.

* * *

The Maxwell family, which produced Ronan, the hero who defeated the Demon King.

In a small room that did not match the reputation of the Maxwell family, which had recently been awarded the rank of marquess in recognition of its merits as a warrior, a woman was sitting on a chair looking out of place, looking out the window.

“Madam… … .”

A low voice came from behind the woman.

Maxius Maxwell, the head of the Maxwell family, spoke to his wife, Ceria Maxwell.

“The flowers were blooming beautifully outside. Why not just stay in your room, so why not go out and take a walk?.”

“… … … ”

“Seria… ”

However, despite her husband’s earnest requests, the woman did not move and just stared indifferently out the window.

“… … I have a lot of work to do, so I’ll leave today.”

“… … .”

Even the moment Maxius turned around and left, the woman’s gaze was only directed out the window.

“Please take good care of my wife while I am away.”

“Yes, matriarch.”

Maxius asked the maid who was waiting outside the door and went to the office.

It’s already been 5 years since my wife suffered from aphasia and locked herself in her son’s room.

‘ha… ‘How did it end up like this?’

Twenty years ago now.

Mr. and Mrs. Maxwell gave birth to twin brothers who won’t hurt even if you put them in your eyes.

Among the couple’s twin children, Kane, the older brother, was the less demanding child.

To put it in a good way, he was a child who grew up early, and to put it another way, he was an easy child to raise.

There were times when he looked at people with indifferent eyes, but the couple thought it was just the child’s personality and didn’t think it was a big deal.

However, everything changed from the moment he received an oracle at the church he went to for the baptism of his two children, telling him that his younger brother Ronan was the warrior who would save the world.

Faced with the enormous wealth and high power they received for the first time, the couple began to focus their attention only on Ronan, who had received the fate of a warrior.

Although it was a little disappointing that no oracle had come down to his older brother Kane, it was okay.

The couple was reassured by the sight of Kane supporting his younger brother with his usual indifferent eyes, as if he knew this would happen.

Because he’s a smart kid.

Because he is a very considerate child.

One day, they gradually withdrew their interest in Kane, citing different reasons.

“Count! A demon has invaded the mansion! It appears that the purpose was to kidnap the masters! The second master awakened his strength and dealt with the intruders safely, but… … The first master… … .”

The couple, who had been summoned to the imperial court for a warrior-related matter, immediately rushed to the mansion as soon as they heard the shocking news delivered from the mansion.

What they encountered was a mansion ruined by an attack by demons and Ronan’s room half-destroyed in the aftermath of the awakened power.

And the first one who was nowhere to be seen was Kane.

The count and his wife urgently requested the cooperation of the Imperial Knights to search for Kane’s whereabouts, but they received a refusal.

It was a formal answer that the Knights were currently busy preparing for an expedition and could not afford to recruit personnel, but in reality, it was a decision made by the leadership who knew that Kane had not been given an oracle and did not want to waste the imperial budget and manpower on an ordinary Count Yeongsik.

Afterwards, the count sent several letters, but the already rotten imperial family ignored all the letters and only planned to use the warrior to increase their authority.

Eventually, as time passed, the count and his wife gave up on finding their son, thinking that Kane, who had been kidnapped by the demons, would not return alive, and the kidnapping of the warrior family, which had been on the rise for a while, gradually faded from people’s memories.

As time passed, on the day of the new duke award ceremony, the couple could not hide their astonishment when they saw the face of the man receiving the duke title from the emperor.

The fierce-looking man with fine scars and sharp eyes was Kane, the first son they had been looking for.

Although his overall appearance was very different from when he was young, the couple felt that he was their son, and they hurried away as soon as the ceremony was over.

My son, who I thought was definitely dead, is alive right before my eyes!

I was so shocked by the news that I had been kidnapped by demons, and how angry and despairing I was at the imperial family’s decision to give up the search!

In particular, the Countess fainted when she heard the news, and was so deeply hurt that she could not eat or drink for several days.

Since then, she had always blamed herself for losing Kane, but the reunion with her son drove her crazy.

“Kane, Kane!”

As soon as the ceremony was over, the Countess hurriedly followed her son, who was heading somewhere.

Where have you been so far, and have you been eating well?

The Countess, who had so many questions, grabbed her son’s wrist.

Pak-!

All that came back was a face that strongly shook off his hand and frowned at himself as if he had seen something disgusting.

My son quickly left without saying goodbye, his face distorted with anger.

I couldn’t bear to hold her.

* * *

Ceria immediately returned to the mansion with the excuse of not feeling well, wandered around the mansion in a daze, and unknowingly walked into Kane’s room.

Entering her son’s room, which had always been kept clean by the couple’s orders, she looked around the room and suddenly realized something.

I couldn’t remember.

What kind of food did Kane like to eat?

What was Kane’s favorite object?

What was the dream Kane wanted to achieve?

More than anything.

What kind of face did Kane make when he smiled at him?

I couldn’t remember.

“Ah… … ah… … .”

How much did you find? How long did I wait?

How much the mother looked forward to seeing her son.

How much I hated it. How disgusting it must have been.

How much I must have hated to see the mother who abandoned her son.

“I’m sorry… … My son… … Mom… … Sorry… … .”

The Countess, suffering from guilt about herself, locked herself in Kane’s room suffering from aphasia from then on.

Now, 5 years have passed.

In Kane’s room, he reminisces about the few memories he has with his son and draws pictures to keep those precious memories from being forgotten.

“… … .”

From time to time, all she could do was look out the window in her room and look at the north, where her son would be, in silence.

* * *

“Then, have you ever met your parents?”

“Huh? … … uh. I saw it once. When I become a duke.”

Just thinking about that time makes me feel dizzy… … .

I was on the verge of pooping, so I was going to the bathroom when my mom suddenly caught me and almost made me cum in my pants.