episode_0005

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The moment I felt the urge to fulfill my desires, I couldn’t bear it any longer and ended up taking sleeping pills.

It didn’t take long for the pills to take effect, and I was able to fall asleep.

“Did you realize that Ayung-jang was acting strange and tried to stop it out of consideration… It would be a shame if things ended so uninterestingly, right?

I’ll change the missions back to one per day. But I’ll tell you one thing! Rejecting a mission like this isn’t a good idea~

Things like imprints and statuses aren’t fully explained, there are hidden details… It’s better to maintain a clean status window! Ayung-jang has already become more difficult!

To help you regain your senses, I’ll show you some hidden options for a while~

It seems like it will start from today, have a good day! Oh, and Ayung-jang brought this upon themselves! Delusions and unfulfilled desires are a very dangerous combination, so be careful from now on~

To remind you to check your stats properly, I’ll make an exclamation mark appear next to the changed stats! Ayung-jang is quite stubborn… if I don’t do this, they won’t pay attention, right?”

“Name: Park Ayung

Nickname: Stubborn

Desire: 75

Status: !Unfulfilled Desire 3

Imprints: Desire Fulfillment – Public Heat 4, Body Odor 3, Semen Taste 1, Porchito 1, Groaning 1, Pleasure from Blood 1, Belly Button 1

Missions: None

Penalties: Sexual Desire 10, !Erotic Dreams 3, !Delusions 2”

[Unfulfilled Desire 3]

It is impossible to refuse sexual demands from others.

!! It is easy to become addicted to masturbation. It is easy to have delusions. It accelerates the rise of desires. If a man makes a move, desires immediately escalate to a heat state, and sensitivity greatly increases. Desires do not easily subside. It easily increases the levels of all ‘obscene’ penalties. Obscene imprints are very easily formed.

!! Next state – Heat

“Hoo… hoo… hoo…”

And as soon as I got up, I saw a message on my smartphone.

Even waking up feels quite unpleasant.

It feels like a lewd dream is forcing my body to react.

It’s as if my body is responding forcibly, as if being pressed by scissors.

In the dream, I masturbate in front of several men, spreading my legs wide open and squirting water, feeling disgusting to the point of not wanting to believe it.

Since the moment the unfulfilled desire arose, I gradually felt a wet sensation, wondering if women are normally like this, but this time it’s different.

It’s not just that I’m wet inside, but my clothes are completely soaked.

In that state, I keep repeating the motion of lifting my waist up like in a bridge pose, shaking my hips.

Attached to my waist, symbolizing my masculinity, is a dildo shaped like my penis when I was a man, which swings back and forth vigorously in the bridge pose, applying rhythmic pressure between my legs.

With each movement, a wave of tremors spreads through my body from my belly.

In my mind, I keep shouting ‘No, calm down, no’ for a long time before I can finally stop shaking my waist.

Even then, it wasn’t that I stopped myself, but rather that my small body’s stamina was insufficient, and I felt exhausted and collapsed.

Belatedly listening to the guy’s words and looking at the status window, I realized that the abnormality had become even stronger in that brief moment.

Indeed, it’s more dangerous now.

As soon as I wake up, my mind becomes hazy and memories of the sex I had as a man keep coming back.

Sex where I thrust deeply with a large penis, giving a beastly pleasure.

The woman’s body involuntarily responds to her imagination, squeezing and tightening her abdomen with invisible hands.

Perhaps this is the uterus? Every time it tightens, she feels something below her belly button being pulled up to the height of her belly button.

And feeling pleasure in that sensation, her waist trembles again.

“No… no…”

She tries to regain her composure.

No, humans have reason, they are human.

I am not an animal.

An abnormal state? Just because of this? I can endure it.

I can still handle it.

But at the same time, she clearly realizes.

Desire is truly not to be taken lightly.

Right, humans have the three major desires, right? Sexual desire, hunger, and sleep.

Sexual desire is a human desire.

So, it’s natural to find it difficult to endure this desire.

For purely human reasons, it is not because of the black magician’s whims, but for natural reasons, it is natural, beyond natural, to find it absolutely difficult to endure this sexual desire.

It is an unavoidable, natural, and physiological response.

A pillow appears before her.

Come to think of it, didn’t Jiae once say she didn’t want to have sex and begged for it in front of me? Clearly, like this, placing the pillow between her legs…

What was I thinking just now?

No, absolutely not, that’s masturbation.

I am a man.

I can never masturbate as a woman.

I will never succumb to such sexual desire.

Sexual desire? It’s just a desire.

It’s not like you’ll die if you don’t forcibly satisfy it like hunger or sleep.

To calm her mind, she grips the dildo wrapped around her waist with her hand.

And, and…

…she feels the firmness and the pulsing veins in her hand.

Slowly, she strokes her penis, the dildo, skillfully, gently, as if masturbating, delicately making a ring with her thumb and forefinger, moving up and down.

How wet is it, really? A few drops of the fluid that had been soaking her female genitalia flow down the dildo, making her hand move lightly like a lubricant and a strange sound vibrates through her hand into her head.

The pleasure of masturbating as a man comes to her like a hallucination.

She hadn’t done it well, but she had touched many women. Even though she was just holding the dildo in her hand, the pleasure of that time comes to her mind.

“Haah, haah…”

Squeezing the pillow between her legs, she rubs her two legs against each other. The soft pressure stimulates her female genitalia, and with one hand holding the bedsheet, she supports her body, while the other hand habitually grabs the dildo inside her pants and shakes it up and down.

The feeling of the large glans being tickled by her hand feels so good. She feels pleasure as her hand constantly scratches her palm as if asking for a tickle.

Yes, this is masturbation, but as a man.

Her hand didn’t touch her female genitalia.

Just shaking the dildo… it’s a mental masturbation.

![Acquired Trait: Sensitive Hand 1]

Her hand’s sensitivity increases.

“Ah, aah…! Ugh…!”

In an instant, her lower abdomen heats up.

No, something hot tickles right above her uterus.

The heat inside her abdomen increases, and more strength is put into her two legs. She twitches her toes while intermittently convulsing her hand holding the dildo up and down.

The pressure felt in her female genitalia is directly converted into pleasure.

![Acquired Trait: Heat Response 1]

She feels pleasure when the heat touches her sensitivity.

“Ah, ah, haah…!”

In her mind, something repeatedly strikes with a large rubber hammer.

It feels like striking in an unknown direction.

My waist involuntarily rises, lying only on my upper body, my legs raised like a ballerina on the bed, missing the pillow between my legs.

Clutching the dildo in both hands like a vice, I desperately shake it up and down, panting heavily without stopping.

…Huh? Wait, what? Acquired a mark? Acquiring a mark…?

“Uh, wha-what, why, a mark…?”

「Automated response system. Keyword recognized, retrieving stored message.

[A mark is something that can easily develop when unfulfilled desires accumulate~ To resolve it, you need to frequently masturbate to strive for good sex alone! It’s a system that’s been balanced, but Ayoung-chan seems to have already started the Very Hard Mode~ so it might be unnecessary knowledge, but remember it.]」

Could I really speak normally…? Some mechanical voice awkwardly imitates the voice of a magician.

Is it time to leave the room?

…So, that means I’m not watching right now…?

Suddenly, along with that thought in my head, my patience is abruptly cut off.

When I come to my senses, I find myself riding the pillow between my legs, shaking my waist like treating the pillow as a woman, just like when I’m a man.

“Ugh…hoo…hoo…”

Masturbating. Masturbating.

Masturbating that stimulates female genitals.

Masturbating with something other than my own penis.

Yes, desire is definitely not just a stat that accumulates.

You can release it through sex or masturbation.

If you don’t masturbate, it can lead to a worse state.

If you don’t resolve unfulfilled desires, more marks will accumulate, which is not good for me either.

So, logically speaking…masturbating is much, much more beneficial.

“Fuck, the sound!”

My head is going crazy.

I keep having lewd fantasies.

I can’t stop my hands.

Yet, I feel that this is wrong.

A humiliating defeat, submission.

Submission to this curse and the status bar, which I don’t know if it’s a system or what.

It’s something I can never accept.

Absolutely, I can never agree to it.

But, still…

“Hoo~! Hug~! Hoo~! Hoo~!”

So what am I supposed to do? My body moves on its own as if asking, “What should I do?”

It’s hot.

It’s too hot and humid, making me feel suffocated. Without realizing it, I pull down my pants, remove the belt that held the dildo, and even take off my underwear.

In my eyes, I see the gentle curve of Venus’s hill.

As the hot heat reaches the air, it strangely feels refreshing.

The constant flow of water tickling down my legs is ticklish.

In response to that ticklish sensation, my legs twitch and shake, becoming more sensitive to just touching the air.

As if the air could be a masturbation tool, just shaking it brings pleasure.

“Stop, stop, stop, stop…”

As if understanding, my waist nods up and down vigorously, refusing to stop.

The image of a woman I strongly desire shaking her waist for my penis.

My penis, my large penis…wanting to be deeply inserted and shown…

Mine…

A dildo resembling my penis enters my sight.

“No, no, no…”

I want to say no, but the image is forcibly drawn in my mind.

I start to fantasize.

Me, a man, riding on top of myself roughly, pressing down as usual…

I’ve always been curious.

What kind of mood is my penis in to enjoy this much? Just inserting it makes me make animal-like moans.

Why am I making such funny sounds?

I lower my gaze and look down.

A large and familiar shape, a manly, truly manly and cool… shape…

My, thing…

My heart pounds and my focus is off balance.

Everything around me blurs, and only the dildo is recognized by my eyes, a strange sensation.

When I come to my senses, I have already secured the dildo with a belt on the pillow, spreading my legs wide and sitting in a shameful posture.

“Hah, hah…”

It feels like the sound of squelching is felt in my stomach.

Squelch, I probably feel like this is squelching.

Every time my penis squelches and kisses the dildo, my stomach is enveloped in a buoyant feeling.

The feeling of something rising up.

The sensation of something being pulled up all the way to my head along my back.

“No, no, stop, no, no…”

My legs go down on their own and kiss the dildo, from the squelching that makes me feel dizzy for the first time, I briefly come to my senses every time my head hits.

Raising and lowering my waist, the sound changes slightly.

Little by little, the feeling is different.

A little more, a little deeper.

“No, stop, calm down, calm down… Ugh…!”

A completely different, strange sound tickles my ears.

Is this my voice? This bitchy, horny nasal voice?

My eyes have long lost focus.

I’m raising and lowering my hips in a position that looks like a chimpanzee using both hands.

I try to stop, but when I slightly pull back my waist, the tension is released and my waist goes down on its own again.

It’s a foolish thing to do.

It’s not like there’s anyone here, and yet I’m doing this, saying it’s not allowed.

Even knowing this fact, I can’t stop my waist.

“Ugh, ugh, ugh.”