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From a certain point on, Joo Yena’s dream was set to just one thing.

My small hope was shattered before my eyes and came back again.

It was only a few seconds, but it was a despair that I hope I will never want to experience again.

‘Precognitive dream… … .’

A precognitive dream is a dream in which future experiences come to mind in advance.

Or is it something similar to a precognitive dream?

There is no guarantee that the incident will actually occur, but if there is a note in the mailbox with “I’m sorry” written on it –

Yena ordered the housekeeper while wiping a trickle of blood from her lips.

“… The food is ready. Tell driver Choi to prepare the car right away.”

There is no time to eat leisurely and tie up your hair.

We have to head to school right away.

I was planning to walk today like in a dream, but there’s no way I can delay!

“Yes? There’s still a lot of time left… … .”

“I have a favor to ask-.”

“Ugh. I understand.”

She briefly dismissed the woman who opened her eyes wide.

Although he wasn’t arrogant, he had a strong will, so the helper quickly agreed.

I quickly grab the postcard in question from the mailbox and get into the Mercedes Benz that had just come out of the garage.

“Would you please go to school as quickly as possible?”

“Yes.”

“Well, you can break the signal if necessary. I will give you special permission.”

“Oh, no. If you fall down, your nose will reach… .”

Actually, it takes less than 10 minutes by car.

Yena didn’t bother to answer.

When I took the postcard out of the mailbox with my hands shaking and turned it over, I saw three letters engraved in print. Ah, as expected.

“Sorry”

Originally, when a similar conflict arose, Shin Jeong-gyu, who was unhappy with his family’s situation, bowed first, so it would have been thought to be a sign of reconciliation.

―What if this is a message of eternal farewell? What if foresight becomes reality?

It bothers me that Jena wrote it on a German tourist postcard that she gave her childhood friend as a birthday present in elementary school.

Did you want to send your last words on the postcard I gave you? Who do you want to harass for the rest of your life?

That’s stupid. So foolish and back off.

‘What are you sorry about? you idiot. You just have to stop doing things that make you feel sorry for me… .’

I tried to cover it up with carefree thoughts, but my nail-biting habit, which I had killed, came back.

For whom have I worked hard?

I desperately tried to improve my appearance and refine my culture.

However, the other person didn’t like it because he didn’t put in as much effort as he did, so friction arose. It would have been okay if things changed in the future… … .

-Why do you want to die?

‘I don’t understand…’ Why – are you trying to run away instead of keeping your promise?’

I only heard a few words yesterday?

They just closed down the club room and banned people from playing musical instruments?

She was being scolded by a kid who was only in first grade – although he was overall taller than her?

There are not many lives.

I know very well that people won’t die for such trivial reasons.

I want to hear the reason directly.

Hoping the car would arrive at school quickly, she reflected on her lifelong promise.

-I won’t leave you to die.

***

It’s the perfect weather to die in.

While lazing around at the save point I returned to, recalling a famous line from a certain movie, a question suddenly arose.

“Now that I think about it, you said you can buy things with suicide points, right?”

[The constellation ‘The opposite of the one who lives is suicide’ answers in the affirmative.]

[Would you like to check the items you can buy at the Suicide Shop? -Y/N]

Suicide Point, Suicide Shop… … .

It’s a name that puts you in a good mood just by hearing it.

[I wonder if the constellation ‘the opposite of the one who lives is suicide’ should be changed to ‘you have to die to live’, which is a synonym for suicide.]

That’s a risk to originality.

This guy, is he doing this on purpose?

“Stop talking nonsense. I want to check the item.”

[Suicide Shop ▽]

Dagger 10pt

Viper 20pt

Deadly poison (asymptomatic) 20pt

Deadly poison (symptoms) 20pt

Pistol 30pts

Hated Medicine (2 hours) 50pt

… …

It’s full of really malicious items for suicide. In particular, how do poisonous snakes arrive? Ugh.

For me, it’s all the miscellaneous things I don’t need right now.

I drank grape juice from the vending machine through a straw and clicked my tongue. It’s useless.

[The constellation ‘Suicide, the opposite of the living’, protests that there are pretty flowers and accessories.]

[Excited. How about giving her a gift to commemorate their upcoming reunion? When I saw it with my own eyes, it was a beauty that did not match its owner… The Constellation says.]

[The constellation ‘The opposite of living is suicide’ also supports the form of true love, not just twisted love!]

My face naturally frowns at the constellation’s emblem that has been drawn so neatly.

Aside from pretending to be cute by using the third person,

Not only is that not the mood right now, but I’m definitely not a psycho who gives people bottles and medicine. furthermore-

“It’s not that I don’t like it, but I said I don’t like it.”

I just hope you pay the price for looking down on me for so many years.

If I were to be specific, it is a feeling closer to longing.

The cute Yena who followed me around when I was young is no longer there. Nowadays, Joo Yena is an outsider who is difficult to approach and is less than a friend.

‘but.’

At least Jena was clearly very shaken by my death.

I feel like something stuck in my heart has melted.

Even if I am always ignored, I can make her focus her attention on me at the moment of her death.

Isn’t this a privilege that not everyone can have?

‘feel so good.’

okay.

Because I trust Yena, I am waiting here.

***

It’s still too early to go to school.

As soon as I got out of the car, I ran into an unexpected person at the school gate.

Slightly tanned skin and a flashy blonde hair that was forcibly bleached, unlike Jena’s natural blonde hair. I’m a third-year senior who’s been clinging to me persistently lately!

‘this person. You always wait for me to come… ?’

Wasn’t it a coincidence!? disgusting.

“Yenaya. Why aren’t you answering the phone? haha. I let my hair down. Actually, it was a style that only kids would do. It suits you.”

– Kids style-? I almost got angry, but I held back.

I haven’t solved it yet because there are people who liked it.

I couldn’t let one of the gangsters hold me back, so I tried my best to smile.

“… I’m going.”

“Let’s go to karaoke together today-”

“Aha, haha. We’ll talk later.”

“Yenaya. Am I about to sulk a little these days? Don’t do that.”

A man who naturally grabs Yena’s white wrist and fawns over her.

It was polite and gentle, unlike the rough touch I had received yesterday, but it felt like an unbearable stickiness.

Twist it out immediately. Yena, who studied judo for a while, can easily shake off the hand strength of an average man.

“Let go! I said I had to go!!”

“Huh? Why, why? Scary.”

The senior was taken aback as he shed his pretense for the first time, his dark blue eyes flashing. This must be your first time seeing something like this.

Taking advantage of the opportunity to push away, the blonde girl starts running.

The destination is the rooftop of the old building. It’s an old place, so it’s probably not locked.

If it were now, it would arrive earlier than the moment in the precognitive dream. It has to arrive.

I run up the grimy stairs. When I open the iron door just above the 5th floor, the cool morning breeze and sunlight shine through, blinding my eyes.

‘Really.’

As the idea gradually formed, a tall black-haired male student was sitting blankly on top of the ventilation system. No, are you talking to yourself?

Shin Jeong-gyu, her childhood friend of the same age, was here.

The atmosphere is more gloomy than usual, so it is not easy to talk.

Next to it, bags of bread and cartons containing juice were crushed and lying around like the Last Supper.

“What is it.”

“Ha… ha… . You. What are you doing here so dangerously!?”

As Yena curses while panting, Gyu-kyung frowns and comes down to ask.

“Dangerously?”

“Don’t you know that if an accident happens, it’s my dad’s fault as the chairman? You have a lot of intentions to cause trouble-.”

“… What do I care?”

I clearly saw a look of hesitation pass over Jeong-yu’s face as he asked, ‘What does it matter?’

The Shin family has been indebted to Yena’s father for generations, so they cannot treat her carelessly.

“Sir, it doesn’t matter. Don’t you see that entry is prohibited? Go back to the classroom.”

He points to the no trespassing sticker attached to the iron gate.

I know it’s not famous. But there is a reason.

Gyu-gyu approached her leaning against the iron gate and pushed her hard with one hand, preventing her from moving.

“Ugh, ugh. It won’t fall!?”

My face becomes redder as I face it for the first time in a long time. The result is 99% anger and 1% embarrassment… she believes.

“Joo Yena. Since you closed the club room, I just found another place to go for lunch. Isn’t it possible?”

“-Are you stupid? Of course not! This place is closed as of today. Be quiet in class. Don’t cause trouble!”

When he heard that, he smiled bitterly and let go.

As expected, you’re still weak at pushing, huh? thank god.

“You always eliminate my place. I understand.”

“I understand… Wait, do you have a cut on the back of your hand? Did you cut it with a knife? Why-?”

I clearly saw the scar on the back of my hand with a knife.

I think it must have been very painful… … .

“You had a blood stain on your lip. Did it burst? At least apply lip balm. I’m going.”

Ugh. Did you see it in that moment? Also, staring at your lips?

Yena feels shame as she touches her lower lip.

When she saw the lonely back, she immediately came to her senses.

“Hey, Shin Jeong-gyu. Just listen to what I say and go!

“… … … … ”

“I’m sorry.”

I closed my eyes tightly and wrote three words that I didn’t want to say.

Sorry –

– Those words were a trap that would continue to hold her back in the future, but Yena didn’t know it yet.