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Afterwards, numerous people came, but thanks to His Majesty’s guards, he was able to avoid them and safely get into the carriage.

“… I’m tired.”

After letting the shaking take over for a few minutes, I regained control of my mind, and before I knew it, the sight of a downtown full of bars came into view.

How many hours had I spent with my face buried in the darkness between my knees? Before we knew it, the downtown area had become a shambles with drunken adventurers and thugs making a fuss.

“The head of the family… ”

The coachman, who understood my inclinations and had no habit of saying unnecessary things, opened his mouth.

“What’s going on?”

“I guess I have to go back.”

“What is the reason?”

“Judging by the commotion, it looks like a fight broke out between drunks in front of this place. If I get caught up in something like this, the head of the house will become a nuisance to me, so I think it would be better to go back even if I arrive about 15 minutes late.”

“I will solve it myself.”

“This is the work of trash. The precious head of the family needs to step forward… ”

“It suits me quite well.”

After getting off the carriage, I made my way through the crowd and checked the source of the commotion.

“Indeed.”

A large, drunken, muscular man and a pretty-looking female adventurer were committing violence against each other.

“They may be barbaric, but they are both strong warriors.”

They were fighting by holding each other’s collars and honestly punching each other in the face without evading or raising guard.

I was fighting in a pretty hot and respectable way, but the problem was that I sweated a little today. That’s why I wanted to go back and wash my body even now.

“Up to there.”

“Huh?”

“What is this weakling?”

“Both of you should stop fighting and go back. The carriage has to pass by.”

I conveyed my business succinctly.

“Why should we follow your orders?”

“… The fire in the fireplace was a little strong.”

“Is this crazy?”

I wasn’t crazy. It was just that the fire near the fireplace was strong and it was a little hot, so I was sweating a little, so I just wanted to go back and wash up as quickly as possible, even if it was just for 5 minutes.

“Why stop the fight and go back? Do you think it will be easier said than done?”

“It’s simple. After stopping your hand, turn around and leave.”

Everyone was looking at me with strange eyes.

“Do you not know how to turn your head or walk?”

“This crazy guy is really… !”

The muscular adventurer glared at me with a face full of anger. Is that look on your face caused by anger?

If not, is it because of the alcohol they drank? It doesn’t really matter which one it is, but I was a little curious.

Of course, either way, I could roughly predict what this person would do next, so I decided to warn him.

“I really like your opinion of me. But just know for now. If you use violence, I also have to use my hands to protect myself.”

“If this bastard is crazy, he will be very crazy! Why the fuck are you coming to the fight and fighting!!!”

As expected, he swung his fist at me and I also raised my left hand and caught his fist with my palm.

“Quaaa!!!”

Well, if it were natural, it would be a natural reaction.

“… Didn’t I warn you? I will also use violence.”

It would be natural for anyone to sob like that if their right hand exploded. On the contrary, those who can remain calm despite losing their hands are monsters who are far from humans.

I don’t like this kind of violence. Rather, I couldn’t understand anyone who liked such meaningless actions.

“Fuck my hand! Fuck my hand!!!”

“You ruined your means of making a living.”

I put some gold coins in his pants pocket.

“From now on, try to find something that involves holding something other than a weapon.”

I opened my mouth again to the astonished crowd and his fighting partner.

“Please ask me again. Get out of the way.”

Was the weight of the blood-soaked words different? Everyone was listening to me with different expressions than before.

“I’m not in a good mood right now.”

The night wind was cold and I was sweating, so I could say that I was in the worst mood.

“I recommend going home quietly like this. For me and for you too.”

I only said that because the night wind was cold. Moreover, as the banquet was coming to an end, other nobles’ carriages would also come here, and it was clear that it would be more troublesome if they got involved with them, so he gave his own warning.

If you delay longer than “, it will be a bit annoying in the future. Please be kind so I don’t have to go through any trouble.”

It was a bit annoying for me to stop the angry nobles. However, he could not turn a blind eye to those who could be punished by the nobles for blocking the road while drunk and fighting.

So the best way was to prevent it before it happened.

“Oh, I understand!”

They quickly disappeared somewhere, taking their injured colleague with them. I don’t know if these people are actually colleagues, but since they are probably members of the same industry who drank in the same downtown area, I categorized them as such.

“… I became more tired.”

I trudged back to the carriage, leaned my head against the carriage window, and passed the time in vain.

How much time passed like that, with my eyes open and my body left to the shaking? The carriage stopped and the driver opened the carriage door.

“Good job.”

“No, matriarch.”

I went back to my office, swallowed a few painkillers, and tried to fall asleep. There is no better way to spend the little time left than by sleeping.

“Raul!!!”

I almost had tears in my eyes.

The reality of not having the freedom to carry out even a small care plan was a little sad. I don’t know if the sadness stems from the coldness of this reality where no one calls me oppa.

I don’t know. As always. Now I can’t even recognize the cause of my emotions.

“What’s going on?”

“What happened… ? Is that what you’re going to say to me now? I really don’t get it?”

“I don’t like being coy. It’s not a relationship where you can be cute and ask questions about things you already know. If you haven’t figured it out, let me make it clear. I asked that question because I really don’t know.”

“Oh yes… ?”

My sister laughed for a moment as if she was dumbfounded, and then glared at me with her usual hateful eyes.

“Yes. Raoul Bergé. He suddenly decided to hand over the position of head of the family to me… ?”

“Yes. It looks like you listened without any problems.”

“Suddenly without telling me in advance? Don’t you think about how the listener feels? Have you ever thought that it could be sudden?”

“What’s the problem?”

I couldn’t understand. I honestly couldn’t understand.

Why on earth is Liesel so angry? No matter how hard I tried, my stupid brain couldn’t figure out the answer.

“Isn’t this what you wanted? It simply brings forward the sequence of events that would have inevitably happened. But why do you say it’s sudden?”

“Speak so that they can understand! Yeah, I think I’ll go crazy because of that idiotic way of speaking!”

“Didn’t you want me to die? When I die, the position of head of the family will inevitably be yours, Liesel Bergé. I don’t think you’re so stupid that you don’t know that. Because there are few people who wish for my death as much as you.”

Doesn’t everyone imagine what they will do after achieving their dream? If your dream is to become rich, isn’t it better to think about what kind of house you want to buy once you become rich? If your dream is to marry a beautiful woman, isn’t it human to even imagine what you will do after marriage?

I just accelerated the process a little. Why am I not happy?

“… Ah.”

I’m a pretty stupid guy. I can’t believe I finally realized the problem.

“If the key is whether or not my death is essentially carried out… ”

“Hey!”

Liesel grabbed my collar roughly.

“That’s not what I’m talking about. No matter what I wanted, it doesn’t matter one bit now… !”

“My thoughts are a little different, but I respect their values.”

“You’re asking why I didn’t tell you in advance!”

“Indeed. Was it something like that?”

If so, it would be ideal to give an answer.

“I hate the what if assumption, but I guess I have no choice but to use it. Please ask for understanding in advance.”

I hated it because there was no such thing as a waste of time making such assumptions. However, in order to provide the most valid answer for the current situation, such assumptions had to be used inevitably.

“If I had spoken to you to convey that fact.”

Just because I am myself doesn’t mean I haven’t made such plans.

But I was afraid.

“Would you or your mother stop and listen to me?”

I just didn’t want to actually experience it because I knew the answer better than anyone else.

“… If my assumption is wrong.”

“…”

“I immediately kneel down and apologize for my rudeness. How about Liesel Bergé? Have I been rude to you?”

“……”

“I will accept that silence as denial and move on. Any objections?”

This time too, Liesel was silent. Or should I say it was frozen. I’m stupid and don’t know that either.

“See you again.”

I left the silent woman behind and walked towards my office.

When I opened the door to the office, the crow locked in the cage flapped its wings and spoke happily.

“Hey, very well said! Those kids need to be punished very well so they can’t make fun of their mouths!!!”

“What are you talking about?”

“Didn’t you tell him to shut up like that?”

“I just asked the question with really pure intentions. Rather, I’m just sad that the conversation ended like that.”

“… After all, you are not normal either.”

“I think I’m normal.”

Ignoring the crow’s criticism, I opened the pill bottle, took out a handful of painkillers, and swallowed it.

“Because it’s natural not to criticize people you don’t hate.”

I didn’t hate my family. Just as fire is hot and ice is cold, I just thought that they were just people like that.

Just as no one gets angry because the fire is hot, I also don’t get angry with my family.