episode_0004
by admin“You seem aggrieved.”
The instructor-like man, whose expression seemed to soften as if he had never made a shit-chewing expression before, looked at me and spoke.
No, then isn’t it unfair?
I tripped and fell for no reason.
“Master. As I always say, Master, you shouldn’t have feelings.”
“… .”
I never really understood that part.
I’m no different from other people, except that I’m a little stronger than them.
I couldn’t understand why he kept telling me to suppress my emotions every time.
“Today, we will train to kill our emotions.”
“Are you doing that today too?”
“Yes. You need to be much more insensitive than you are now.”
It was at a level that made me sigh.
-Slurp.
Sit quietly and assume a meditative posture.
Yet, my head was filled with questions.
Why on earth?
What on earth makes them act like this?
I felt like I could never understand their way of thinking.
“You should proceed with the feeling of letting all your emotions out.”
“Sigh… .”
Just sit still and let your emotions out.
Rather, I am just imagining it.
That didn’t change much though.
I feel like.
“You should think that they are not yours. Tie up the emotions that have come out, somewhere far away.”
“… .”
Do as you are told.
There were so many emotions tied up like this.
Now I even know where I am.
“Okay. Now open your eyes.”
“… .”
-slap.
The face turns.
You may call yourself a master, but isn’t this person just this man’s servant?
“… . It hurts.”
“How do you feel?”
“I don’t feel anything.”
“Good. I guess you won’t feel any more resentment from now on.”
“… Is that so?”
Actually, I think it was because there were so many cases where I was suddenly hit by that person.
Um… I don’t know.
“Okay, I get it. Is this the end for today?”
To be honest, I’m sick of it now.
I didn’t feel like doing anything anymore, I just wanted to lie down and sleep.
“Yes, that’s the end.”
“Okay. Got it.”
-Slurp.
Now I was getting up from my bed and going down to my room to get ready for sleep.
“I heard you’re going to learn swordsmanship and martial arts starting tomorrow.”
“Oh. I made a little mistake.”
“A mistake?”
-Swish, bang!
“I made this sound”
I took a pose and showed him what state I was in.
The man standing in front of me looked a little embarrassed, then chuckled.
“You are also Baekhan’s child. I was assigned to the martial arts.”
“You?”
“Yes. Even though it looks like this, he was a reporter directly under Baek Han-nim.”
“I’m not curious about that… What am I learning?”
“Ah, that’s… You should first find out what your master is talented at.”
“… . Really?”
“Yes. So tomorrow, just follow my lessons as you have done so far.”
“Okay.”
I answered like that and lay down on the bed.
“Are you in the main office?”
“Yeah.”
“… .”
I felt a slight sense of something watching me from behind.
Am I that weird?
“Okay, go to sleep.”
Actually, you shouldn’t sleep here.
There is a room I need to go back to and sleep in.
What does it matter where you sleep?
If I go back, I’ll just get hit.
There were more people who knew that there would be classes anyway.
I didn’t know at the time that private lessons were one of the reasons for the bullying.
The next day was.
Oddly enough, I woke up early and was able to go to my work assignment before getting scolded.
‘Was that a good place to sleep?’
I’m not sure about that.
however.
“Hey.”
“Yes.”
The biggest problem was right after class ended.
A man who was probably five years older than me blocked my path.
Other than the fact that it was bigger than I thought, I didn’t really feel anything special.
This person was the most senior person in the room I was staying in, and was given the role of leading us.
“Where did you go yesterday?”
“… The class ended late and the teacher told me to sleep in the classroom.”
“Shit.”
“… .”
“You want me to believe that?”
-puck.
“Hey.”
The giant started pounding my body.
“Believe it, believe it, you should do it!”
“… .”
“Don’t you know that I almost got scolded by the principal during roll call yesterday because you weren’t there?”
“I’m sorry.”
“Ha. What the hell. Even though other kids messed with you, I didn’t mess with you. And this is what I get in return? Huh?”
It seems like he got really scolded by the principal.
Looking at what’s happening now.
“I will correct it.”
Although I was just copying what adults said, it was my teachers who taught me how to use these words.
In the end, the people raised here were either soldiers or servants.
“Behave properly.”
“Yes.”
As I watched the owner of the room returning like that, only one thought came to mind.
‘I think things will get a little more difficult from now on.’
-Whew.
“… . The wind is blowing today… .”
I didn’t notice it until a little while ago because I was in the room, but the wind was particularly strong today.
“Ugh… . It’s hard to clean when the wind blows like this… . Tsk.”
Since it is impossible to clear the wind, let’s quickly finish the inspection and bring out the bread.
When the wind blows this hard, it seems like training and everything else would be impossible… .
“I’m just going to do basic physical training today!”
If you look at the lower classes, you’ll see that it’s not that easy.
The advanced class.
“Even if you can’t see, your opponent will attack you. So you have to know how to fight even against an invisible opponent.”
The instructor swings his sword while talking like this.
“The new recruits this time, grab a sword and swing it around.”
“““Yes!”””
A multitude of examples resound.
Of course, there aren’t that many people in the upper class… .
“A new superior will be appointed, so ask him to look for a suitable weapon.”
“Okay!”
“And trainee Baek I-yeon.”
“Yes.”
“You follow me”
“Yes.”
Just follow the instructor and walk down the road.
“I brought you, Deputy Commander.”
“Hmm. Thanks for your hard work.”
deputy commander?
Who is that? Are you talking about the person who teaches me?
“Go back.”
The voice is exactly like that person.
“Yes. You go in quickly too.”
“Yes.”
-Squeak.
I opened the door slightly and went in.
“Nice to meet you, Your Majesty. This is my first time greeting you in this capacity.”
“You were… the deputy commander?”
“Yes, that’s right. Then, let’s start with the harvest and cultivation.”
“Here?”
“Yes. Anyway, there is a separate sparring room inside the family home.”
“… .”
Even though they’re like that, do ordinary soldiers like us train in places like that?
“It seems you’re failing to control your emotions again, I can see it in your expression.”
“… . We’re going to do that again tonight anyway.”
“You know a lot.”
-Thump thump.
“Your Majesty.”
“Why.”
“… . No.”
He, who was called the deputy commander, quietly opened the door and followed the path out.
And along the way, something caught my eye.
“Hoo… .”
I felt more uneasy than I thought.
The fact that that child had to be raised like that.
Although I followed the instructions from my superior, I found it a bit absurd that he asked me to use meditation to suppress my emotions.
‘And it seemed like I was being bullied… and they ordered me to ignore the bullying…’
That child who is quietly following the road right now will learn martial arts right away and be raised as a warrior to protect my twin brother.
I’m not sure if that’s the right thing to do.
Because from the beginning, I was just an outsider who didn’t belong to either the collateral or direct lineage.
‘It was possible because my current wife nominated me as the next deputy commander, saying that I have outstanding abilities.’
If it weren’t for that, my current position would not have been possible.
‘Still, we have to do everything we can right now.’
Otherwise, it would be like putting a disgrace on those who trusted and entrusted me with their work.
“After… .”
It was the same as being tired… .
‘Once you tell me to do it, what else can I do?’
-Dalgrak.
Now it was time to teach the young master the martial arts.
At the moment when I was about to face him like that.
“… . Madam?”
There was one person here who shouldn’t be there right now.
‘Who is this person?’
Red hair and a cat-like face.
There was a person here whom I had never met before.
‘I clearly said I would learn martial arts here.’
Could it actually be someone else who is there to teach me?
Something piqued my curiosity and at the same time… .
One side of my chest started to hurt.
“… . Hello?”
For some reason, it felt like a voice I missed was coming in.
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