episode_0003

So my time passed faster than I thought.

After graduating from elementary school and middle school, I was about to give up on going to college because I was waiting for my high school graduation. Naturally, I did not have enough money.

I was exempted from military service, applied for a “defense industry company” and a “work-study parallel system” that allowed me to get a job and go to college at the same time, and was miraculously accepted.

Of course, I didn’t do all of this alone.

It was recommended and promoted by my homeroom teacher, who knew all about my family history. Of course, I wasn’t the kind of pathetic person who would miss this opportunity, so I immediately made it my own. It’s natural.

Because of this situation, I had no choice but to naturally distance myself from the things that everyone else did, such as dating, friends, and drinking. Even when I encountered it, it felt like it was just a luxury and an unnecessary thing in the distant future of my life…

no..

The accurate expression was that I was not easily allowed to even feel and enjoy such things in the first place.

just..

Looking at my mother and father working hard day and night for over 10 years, I just wanted to help the family and make their life more comfortable by adding a little bit. Because that’s the kind of person I am. Foolish guy…

I had to get to work by 8 o’clock at the company, which I could only reach by driving for an hour by public transportation, so of course I always had to wake up at 6 a.m. To make matters worse, I had to leave work at 9pm and stay out for more than 15 hours a day, so I was always exhausted when I got home and was prone to passing out.

Of course, it was an incredibly tiring and endlessly difficult day.

The reason my father was snoring so loudly was because he was extremely tired. It was only now that I realized for myself.

However, while I was proud of my appearance, I also knew that my parents looked at me with pity.

In order not to give such a heavy heart, I lived each day with more strength, and before I knew it, five years had passed.

＂Time flies so fast..＂

Studying when others were having fun, jumping on my feet when others were resting, getting scolded by my boss, etc. There were various things going on, but I was exempted from military service a long time ago and also graduated from a 4-year day college early this year. Is there something… the feeling of letting go of the heavy burdens of life that have been piled up for so long?

Of course, at that moment, I was happier than anyone else. The sense of freedom from atonement I felt for the first time was refreshing.

Moreover, the company highly regarded my sincerity and work-handling ability and gave me the title of “assistant manager” at the young age of 25, five years after joining the company.

I felt like everyone accepted me. That’s why I couldn’t help but feel so excited and happy at this moment when all my efforts over the past years were bearing fruit.

The moment when a turning point in life finally begins in a life that was not wealthy…or perhaps even more difficult.

just as expected. The fate of an unexpected and inevitable choice was slowly approaching.

Did someone say…

When everything is going well… when I feel confident that I know everything… isn’t that when it’s the most dangerous?

But… I didn’t know.

***

As he was promoted to assistant manager at the youngest age in the company and had already received a bonus, his excitement was already directed towards his family.

Thanks to this, my mind was filled with anticipation as I thought about having a nice meal with my parents. I can already picture it in my mind. Seeing my parents jumping up and down with joy…

＇Should I eat beef, which my mother likes?＇

Of course, I keep this sacrament a secret from my parents.

Thinking of my parents, who would surely be very happy, I quickly got ready for work and arrived at the crosswalk in front of my house at 9 PM, as always. My steps are lighter than usual.

Ususoo..

＇Suddenly it’s raining?＇

I hurriedly packed the umbrella in my bag and quickly opened it.

As I was waiting for the signal, a harmonious family passed by me, laughing and chatting with a very happy expression, perhaps talking about what they had eaten out for dinner that evening.

‘Is it eating out?’

The children’s parents naturally warn them to cross when the green light turns on, and the sisters look at each other, smile, and then nod.

Belt… Belt… Belt…

After a while..

As soon as the green light on the crosswalk came on, the children showed happy, worry-free smiles and began to run forward vigorously.

‘You look happy..’

Perhaps because they knew it was going to rain, the children’s boots and raincoats looked cute and fresh.

‘Come to think of it… I’ve never used boots or a raincoat before…’

If my father’s business had been successful when I was young, would I have been able to have such a leisurely childhood? With that absurd thought, I move my feet, which are light but heavy at the same time. Only the quiet sound of traffic lights illuminates the path for those at this crossroads.

Belt… Belt… Belt…

Looking at those children and their parents, I think about the last time I had a meal out with my family and silently head out.

Turf.. plod.. plod..

Did you want to go home quickly today? Walking faster than usual felt lighter and more enjoyable than ever.

The distance was close enough for the children to form a line next to me, and perhaps not wanting to lose out on my walking pace, the children began to run even faster.

“I’ll go faster!”

“Mom told you not to run!”

The angelic smiles of children who always look happy.

The moment my eyes were focused on the children’s expressions…

“Oh, no!!!”

As I heard an urgent voice coming from behind, my eyes instinctively turned to the roadway. I did it just in case. I never thought such an ordeal would come to me…

Buaaaa!!

just as expected. A car was making an exploding noise and accelerating without slowing down, rushing straight towards me and the children. It seemed so fast that there was no intention of slowing down.

In that split second… numerous thoughts had already begun to cross in my head.

To make matters worse, the body is facing forward and cannot be pulled back.

‘Should I run while holding one of the two?’

‘Then.. what about the other one?’

Even though I was an adult, having two children around 7 years old was too much. There was no time to even think about this in the first place.

Even at this moment when I was thinking this, the distance between me and the car was becoming smaller and smaller. I was going crazy.

The trembling sound of the engine that is quite rough and urgent…

The trembling of his heart that was in sync with him was telling. ‘Move..!’

If I ran alone, pushing away the children passing in front of me… I didn’t know if I would be able to survive.

But why?

When that thought occurred to me, my body was already moving in an instant, and my hands were towards the backs of each sister.

Tung!!

just as expected. After a while, I came to my senses and started to feel like I was floating. The faint feeling that came after the dizzying pain wasn’t that bad.

sick??

Is it painful??

It didn’t feel like this.

It was just a peaceful feeling of my body and consciousness moving away, as if my soul was in the process of escaping and I could not feel any sensation.

But I couldn’t lose consciousness like this.

Even if it’s just to go to my parents who have been living with only me in mind..

‘I have to wake up…’

Drop.. Drop..

The blood dripping down my face feels cold as it mixes with the endless rain. It was clearly evidence that consciousness and senses were alive.

However, against my will, my entire body became limp as if I had entered a warm bathtub, and the rough voices of the people who rushed towards me and spoke with serious expressions gradually began to be heard only faintly.

‘Are the children safe?’

＇Mother.. Father.. You must worry a lot about me.＇

‘You’ll be able to stand up soon…’

‘When we wake up, it’s been a while since we go out to eat…’

I tried to smile, but the smile was not visible due to the large amount of blood flowing from my mouth.

In a life that was both exhausting and difficult… the moment when the difficult flowers were finally about to bloom…

God pulled out the stem of the flower. No… I cut it off cruelly. So that it cannot rise again or bloom again.

The crimson blood flowing through the field of vision dyes the world red. I wanted to believe that these were tears. Those deep tears accompanied by strong emotions…

A feeling of injustice that suddenly comes rushing in. It’s a feeling I’ve felt for the first time in my life. It was only at the last moment that all of my resentment towards the world began to awaken the inner reason that had been deeply tied down.

Because I guessed to myself that I wouldn’t be able to survive if I didn’t do that.

＇Fucking life..＇

No matter how difficult or overwhelming it was, I lived without blaming anyone, so I hoped that this cry, the first and last thing I thought of, would reach the person who made me like this.

***

{I accepted the memories of my past life.}

{Intelligence+1} {Magic Power+2}