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Yena also had a cute time.

Not long after moving from Germany, he always used polite language in a derogatory way, and was very timid, so when he saw the Doberman next door, he hid his small body behind me.

If you played a simple children’s song on the flute, they would smile and clap their hands.

We were happy in elementary school.

However, the relationship that broke down in middle school could not be recovered.

It’s not that there was no contact.

If it weren’t for Jena’s father’s help, she would have already left her home in I City and gone to live with her grandmother. So is it even worse?

I can feel them looking down on me through their words and gaze. I try to control my behavior if I don’t like it.

I can endure it up to that point, but

The thing that makes me boil the most is that they sometimes pretend to be nice, as if they were being generous.

It becomes miserable to receive false sympathy from a childhood friend who was a coward.

‘Shit. In reality, they are looking down on you!’

I have no intention of narrowing the gap between the two now. It would have been better if the distance had naturally grown further.

Since she went to Nakwon High School, where Yena’s father was the president, her struggles were almost in vain.

Today, she filled the only oasis she found during a year and four months of gloomy high school life.

It has been a long time since I became a paper tiger, helpless to raise my fangs for a counterattack.

-Until something absurd happened to me.

The text in front of me blinks as if asking me to notice its existence.

[You can gain suicide points each time you commit suicide due to the effect of the skill “Knock Me Out by Suicide (EX).”]

[You can purchase ‘suicide tools’ at the store with suicide points.]

[In case of suicide, the save location can be determined arbitrarily]

‘Scold me for committing suicide… … ?’

I’ve heard of scolding someone for confessing, but this is the first time I’ve heard nonsense about scolding someone for suicide.

No, it’s over when you die anyway.

If I die, I will be the one who will be scolded the most. Your parents probably don’t have the heart to leave your son, who followed in his footsteps immaturely, at an early age.

―Above all, if you look into the abyss, you must not completely trust in strange things, as if the abyss were looking at you.

When I was young, a shaman that Jena and I encountered on the riverside once warned us.

Urban legend.

It is said that a lot of strange things happen here in I City.

There is a rumor going around that there is someone who reached a non-existent station and then disappeared like smoke.

There are people who suffer from nightmares that tell them that they will inevitably die.

There is also a saying that the pretty flower shop girl is actually a spirit who has taken the lives of several people.

It’s all a ghost story… … Hasn’t it actually happened to me?

It is even more suspicious because it takes the form of a status window that only appears in comics or web novels.

Has it changed to make it easier to read and operate my memories?

The status window buzzes and spits out text again.

[The constellation ‘The opposite of the one who lives is suicide’ feels sorry for your doubts!]

[(*´Д｀)=з You seem foolish for trying to miss the opportunity to become a genius.]

[foolish.]

I was annoyed by the status window that openly posted comments.

I heard harsh words from Yena, “If you can’t bear it, then you should die.” But there’s no way I could really die, right?

… Would it be worth trying if my suicide would remain an unpleasant memory for him for the rest of his life?

Anyway, he will soon forget about me and live his own life.

There is no such thing as courage to commit suicide in the first place. If I was going to die, I would have died in middle school.

The status window becomes chatty, perhaps due to the number of cases.

[The constellation ‘The opposite of the one who lives is suicide’ has sensed your desire to commit suicide. Everyone wants suicide as much as life!]

[The skill “Knock Me Out of Suicide (Ex)” is the most appropriate blessing for you, a coward. Would you like to confirm? Are you going to check it? I will definitely check it out.]

“… Do whatever you want.”

It’s so noisy.

I mutter as I lie down on the bed, which is large enough for me to use alone.

「Let’s punish myself by committing suicide (Ex)」 ▽

※ Skill description

Couples experiencing boredom often hear advice from those around them to keep their distance for a while.

The longer the distance, the more their deep yearning for each other grows.

The greatest distance is definitely the difference between life and death.

How shocking would it be to hear that a loved one has died? And what if you meet your dead lover?

Well, when they meet again, their love that has cooled will rekindle.

The skill “Kick me by suicide” returns to the designated save location when the owner commits suicide.

The recovery period is determined by the owner, and after committing suicide, you can observe the progress of the person you wanted to punish through your spirit body.

At this time, he/she also returns together.

-With all the regrets and loneliness that came with the period when the owner was gone.

Additionally, we become numb to the fear and pain caused by death.

Even if you burn yourself! Even if you fall into the water and your lungs fill with water!

It doesn’t hurt!

Let us remind you of your preciousness by committing suicide again and again.

—

I almost mistaken it for a cheerful flyer phrase.

You’ve completely lost your mind. this.

If the constellation that grants such blessings [the opposite of the one who lives is suicide] actually exists, it must be an evil god.

“… … Haha.”

The fear of suicide disappears.

I sigh and rummage around on my desk and pick up a rusty box cutter. I want to check the reality.

I close my eyes and cut the back of my hand with a box cutter, and blood flows out.

“It really doesn’t hurt.”

Oh, it’s true.

[Please use your skills to your heart’s content.]

[There is no limit to the number of suicides!]

[-You want your loved one to despair.]

lover? I’m sitting there laughing.

However, I don’t really hate Yena.

I just want to be reunited with my old ‘Joo Yena’.

Yena was not the bitch who put me down, but Yena, who smiled brightly when she listened to my songs and hugged me with gifts like a full ring and made me happy.

“I decided.”

From now on, I will show you the best suicide show.

They make me go through this again and again until they see me again. The moment I made up my mind, a star fell in the night sky.

It was a shooting star, a good omen.

***

I think I spoke harshly yesterday.

However, since Shin Jeong-gyu and his childhood friend’s condition are precarious, there is definitely something to interfere with.

Yena regained her composure as she tied her light blonde hair with the string she was holding.

‘huh. ‘Because I promised.’

Anyway, what happened yesterday is a common occurrence.

A small incident that both of us will quickly forget.

In the dining room, the housekeeper sets down the toast with eggs and hints about what she witnessed in the morning.

“Lady, when I was going to take out the trash around 7 o’clock, I saw a regular student putting something in the mailbox.”

“… That Shin Jeong-gyu? Really?”

My eyes, which had been drowsy due to sleepiness, suddenly open.

The corner of the driver’s assistant’s generous face rose like a crescent moon, wondering if it was a lie.

“Hehe. Isn’t this a letter asking us to become friends again? Check it out.”

“Really-! Please don’t tease me. There are a lot of upsetting things these days. right. Tell the driver that you will walk today.”

The lady doesn’t know that the two had a big fight.

One would assume that the reason he hasn’t stopped by my house in recent years is because he’s going through puberty, a time when men and women grow apart.

I put something in the mailbox… … .

It’s most likely just a utility bill-related receipt, but maybe… Yena quickly cools down her red face.

‘Nonsense. Me too.’

―When Kongdak held back his heart and opened the mailbox, he was surprised to find a postcard inside.

A photo postcard of the Loreley Rock on the Rhine River in Germany.

What would you write on the precious postcard she gave you as a birthday present?

Oh, really?

I quickly checked and the steam had leaked. Because only three letters were written in print.

Sorry –

It’s definitely the handwriting of a childhood friend.

The blonde girl carefully placed the postcard into her bag, gently raising her lips and showing her overlapping teeth.

“「I’m sorry」!? Hmm. Are you aware that you feel sorry for me?”

I would have accepted it just by saying it. I’m glad things are changing.

I sincerely hope that the child will stop acting out now.

Hurry up and get along with everyone and study. Again, and again… … .

As I was walking to school and delusional, disturbances kept coming from around me.

“Senior Joo Yena, hello!”

“Hello! Are you going to track and field training?”

“Yes! I never mentioned my club, but you know.”

-you’re stupid? I knew it when I saw the gym uniform. If you don’t know any better, don’t act like you do!

“Yenaya. Why aren’t you answering the phone?”

“Ah, ahaha. sorry-. I forgot.”

“After school, to karaoke-”

“… I have work to do today. See you later!”

-I blocked you so you won’t receive it, you stupid bastard. If you are a senior in high school, just study.

‘I’m exhausted.’

The girlish smile disappears and is replaced by a tired look.

Pretense is a troublesome thing. The people to whom she reveals her true nature are limited.

Yena is bothered by the people who talk to her every morning, so even though it is inconvenient, Yena passes through Gugwan-dong and enters the main building.

As I step into the shadow of the building, a sense of discomfort creeps in, as if I am trampling on a wriggling creature. Be ominous.

A figure stands out in the middle of the cast shadow. A shadow staggering like a scarecrow in a wheat field.

“What-!?”

The moment I look up because I have a bad feeling, it goes beyond the boundary and falls.

I felt something strange, but my eyes just followed it.

My senses were paralyzed for a few seconds.

―Puhuhuhhh!!!!

Yena’s mind returns to its original state with a dull sound, like a watermelon exploding after being hit by a bat.

Yellow lumps and red liquid turn into a paste and splatter onto my face.

The ‘something’ that fell right in front of my feet was a person.

No, it wasn’t just a person.

As the skull was shattered and shattered, I instinctively recognized the identity of the faller. A bad boy who has been through hardships and hardships together for 12 years.

The world before my eyes slowly turns dark blue.

“Uh, huh. Why you?”

He’s dead… … ? No, I said sorry earlier-

Is this what you meant by sorry?

Yeah, that’s right.

no. Not dead yet. Once you call someone and take first aid, it is clear-

“Why… … ?”

I’m at a loss for other words. The only word that lingers in my mind is “Why?”

Lee Seong, who managed to catch him, urges him to call 119. My trembling hands reflexively grab the cell phone in my pocket.

When the splattered hand reenters the pupil, the impact is equivalent to hitting the head with a hammer, and at the same time, watery gastric juice flows out from the lips.

“Ugh, why?”

“Why” this time was not something I said to my dead childhood friend.

These were what she said to herself.

Why did I keep telling him until the end-

The moment the darkness swallowed up the collapsing world, Yena’s consciousness drifted away.