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I gave up everything to win the heart of just one person.

My pride, my reputation, my worth, even my future.

But all I got in return was a disgusted reaction and a look that said they would never accept someone like me.

I laughed at the look in his eyes that told me everything was in vain.

Because from the beginning, I realized that no one had any intention of understanding what I was doing.

“It’s okay. I didn’t even expect anything from you in the first place.”

If you had listened to me just once, just once… If you had treated me fairly like you treat others, could our ending have been different?

I opened my mouth, thinking briefly about a future that would never come true, and thinking that all of this was meaningless.

“Aren’t you going to listen to my story?”

“It’s meaningless.”

“It seems like you won’t even listen to my story, let alone understand the context of the incident.”

“… … ”

I kept begging her to listen to my story until the very end, but she just stood there and looked down at me.

The moment I saw those emotionless eyes, I felt an intense sense of emptiness.

I blurted out harsh words that I would never have said in front of her.

“Then get out, you fucking bitch.”

*******

1. Favorite

[Don’t worry, I’m always on your side even if everyone points their fingers at you.]

As you go through life, a favorite person will appear that sticks in your mind.

In my case, it was a character named Elicia, the Princess of the North…

A cold and arrogant character, but a warm character to my man.

Even when the main character was betrayed by everyone and fell into despair with no end in sight, she was the only character with a single-minded ‘true heart’ who reached out to him.

Even though a small group of evil people did that, they often talked nonsense like, “The real reason is Lewen, the female protagonist, and she has a fiancé, so she should be eliminated.”

The original virtue of a true character was to reach out to the protagonist when he was at his lowest, so it was an absolute truth that Elicia was the true character.

‘Anyway, what’s important is.’

From the moment I first saw Elysia, I fell in love with this character and have done all kinds of fandoms.

Unfortunately, since the novels featuring Elicia are not extremely popular, there are no goods sold separately, so I had to make them myself.

‘About 20 items of goods were made like that.’

Unfortunately, I had no talent for art, but I had earned money by enduring the terrible corporate life.

I spend all my salary on outsourcing illustrations and use them to create goods. (I got permission from the artist.)

Although it was crude, I had made simple figures and cushions myself and had them all over my room.

‘And this isn’t enough.’

In addition to writing a fan fiction with Elysia as the main character and posting it on a novel website, I also sent the author a 57,000-character letter listing the good points about Elysia.

I poured my all into expressing my love to the extent that I can confidently say that I have never in my life shown this much affection to someone.

That’s why I’m Elysia’s fiancée.

To be exact, she was the fiancee, but due to her cruel and debaucherous nature, she ended up getting killed by the protagonist.

When I first realized that I was possessed by Damien, I was overcome with joy rather than vague fear.

‘Isn’t this a great deal?’

If my friend (or friends) heard my reaction like this, they would probably ask if I was crazy (I guess).

I was so happy that I could meet the character I had poured my whole life into and loved, and I was so happy that I became fiancé that I didn’t even notice anything else.

… To be honest, there was nothing to hear.

Anyway, the dark story ends here, but the important thing is that I have become the fiancée of a character I truly like, so I headed straight to Elysia’s office.

There was no plan or strategy for heading to her office.

The only thing that’s on my mind right now is the fact that after 5 years of fandom, I’ve finally met my favorite person.

So, I went into her office with the goal of just seeing her face and exchanging a quick greeting.

“You seem to have a lot of free time. I envy you. ”

What came back was an ignorance that seemed not even worth dealing with.

If it was natural, it was a natural reaction.

Before Elysia opened her heart, she was a character who drew a line and showed cynical reactions.

According to the description in the novel, there were quite a few people who were hurt by her reaction.

As someone who knows all the things she did to the protagonist and opened her heart to him, I accepted it with a smile because I knew how warm a character she actually is.

“Okay, good morning.”

“… … ”

Elicia looks at my face, dumbfounded at my reaction.

I calmly met her gaze, thinking that we were finally making eye contact.

The adjective ‘beautiful’ was so obvious that I ignored it.

Rather, I felt sorry for Elysia as I looked at the dark circles around her eyes and the pale skin that looked like she was not in good health.

‘It looks like work is hard.’

Due to the harsh nature of the North, there are too many things to consider, and because each carries a high risk, there is a tendency for work to be excessively concentrated in the hands of a few capable decision makers.

One of them is Elysia. Elysia has been recognized for her abilities since she was young, but at the same time, she has been eyeing the position of the head of the household, so she is always burdened with excessive work.

Seeing this, I quickly smiled again, thinking that if I helped Elysia, I might be able to gain her favor.

*

When I returned to Damien’s room, I could finally feel myself coming to my senses.

Until just now, I had been thinking that I had to go find Elysia, as if I was under her spell.

As I sat alone in my room and stared at the ceiling, thoughts of reason slowly began to creep into my mind.

‘… … ‘

I laughed in vain when I realized that my actions and thoughts were quite absurd.

Thinking about it, I realized it wasn’t all that bad, so I sighed and closed my eyes.

‘Once it’s been turned into ice, it can’t be returned even if you ask for it back, so you have no choice but to accept it.’

Regretting what happened won’t change anything.

I knew full well that the more I blamed myself, the deeper I would sink into the pit, so I decided to shake it off and started sorting out the situation by sweeping my hair up.

‘I am Damien Karsaril.’

He is a villain character who appears in the first half of the story, but is killed by the main character in the second half.

Until then, he was a character who had great influence and put pressure on the protagonist from all sides.

‘In the original, he had a very bad relationship with his fiancé, Elicia, and he was a character who considered her his possession.’

Of course, Elysia openly rejected and ignored that kind of nonsense, so nothing really happened.

The important thing was that Damian bullied Elysia like crazy because their values didn’t match up at all.

So, if it was the original, the relationship would have been at its worst, if not broken…

‘It seems that Elicia stopped ignoring me.’

I don’t know if it was luck or fate, but I could tell that they were still in a state before they started fighting each other, or in other words, that it had only been a short time since Damian had arrived in the North.

‘Then it might be possible.’

Salvation of the world? Returning to Earth? When I came to another world, there were elves with hearts as big as my head, dragons, and a saintess who liked me so much? Those things are meaningless, and all I need is Elysia.

So, for now, I decided to do my best to get Elysia to open her heart to me and thought about what I could do.

‘First of all, the character Damien is not rich.’

As the youngest son of a prestigious noble family, he had the advantage of having an abundance of money, enough to be engaged to the Northern Grand Princess.

At first, he was a bum with no skills, but in the middle of the game, he became a powerful enemy and stood up to the main character, so it seems that he was quite talented.

‘But I’m lazy and dissolute by nature.’

In the first half, the ability was weak and there was a characteristic of the protagonist getting hit every time.

In other words, it meant that if you put in the effort in the beginning, you could become someone who could be of help to Elysia.

I took note of this and tried to direct my efforts in a way that might be helpful.

‘In addition to this…’

He nodded, thinking that if we worked to make the North a better place to live, our favorability toward each other would naturally increase.

‘But all these things are something I’m trying to do unilaterally.’

It would be better to go through the process of becoming close as naturally as possible without showing it.

I wanted to become close with her quickly, but I also didn’t want to burden her, so I decided to approach her as slowly as possible and took a deep breath.

‘Let’s give it a try.’