Episode 129. Daily Life (3)

“Winnie.”

I hear his voice.

“Winnie.”

I hear his voice.

“Winnie? Open the door.”

I can’t open it.

“Winnie, what’s wrong? Let’s talk face to face.”

I don’t even want to see his face. No, it’s not that I don’t want to see it. I just don’t have the confidence to face him and hear that story. The words can be heard through the door anyway, so if I really didn’t want to hear it, I would have gone inside the house altogether. But Winnie was still there, clinging to the door and listening to Edward’s voice.

“Winnie? Are you really not going to answer?”

“If you don’t answer, I’m going to force my way in. You know I’m strong, right?”

“…I don’t want to.”

Winnie answered with a choked voice, suppressing her tearful voice as much as possible. Edward, who was worried that Winnie might have gone inside, stood in front of the tightly closed door and felt relieved.

“Winnie. Why are you doing this? I have something to say, can’t you open the door for me?”

“…I won’t listen.”

It was a perplexing reaction for Edward. Why is she suddenly like this? It’s completely different from what I expected. I knew she was having a hard time, but why is she awake at this hour and refusing to talk?

But Winnie was half-terrified. Afraid that the words she least wanted to hear would come out of Edward’s mouth. The remaining half of her expectation, that maybe she had misread things, that she couldn’t confirm until she heard it directly from his mouth, kept Winnie rooted to the spot. Even though she knew that if he was really angry, doing this now would be even more toxic.

Reaching that point, Winnie brought up the words she had been preparing to say to Edward if she saw him. She was worried that she might be bringing up bad memories for no reason, so she couldn’t bring herself to speak. But Edward’s gentle words gave her courage. And once she parted her lips, speaking was easier than she thought.

“I’m sorry for trying to cast that weird curse on you back then.”

“…”

“I didn’t know any better back then. I didn’t know it would turn out like this, and back then, I just hated all men, but then I suddenly saw you, Edward, barging in.”

“Winnie, that’s…”

“I liked… Monica. You know that too. But now, I like Edward much more than Monica. No, I love him. I’ll never do anything like that again.”

As she spoke, her emotions welled up. Emotions that had reached their limit in an extreme situation overflowed from her chest and began to leak out of her mouth.

“I really, really won’t do that again. Heuk, I’m sorry…”

“Winnie. Open this up.”

But the more Edward said that, the more Winnie clung to the door to keep it from opening.

“I really won’t do that again. I love you, Edward. I’ll have the baby and raise it well. I’ve already thought of a name. So, so…”

“Winnie.”

“Please don’t abandon me… Heuk, heu-euk.”

Winnie, who had poured out all the thoughts in her head as they came, began to sob while holding onto the doorknob. It was a very difficult situation for Edward, who was listening to it through the door without even seeing her face.

“Hoo…”

Deolkeong-

“Hig!”

Winnie, as if to say she still wouldn’t open the door, went one step further and even locked something.

“Hoo… I didn’t want to use this method…”

Winnie tensed up at Edward’s voice, which sounded like he was sighing and getting annoyed. What method is he going to use?

“If you don’t open it… you know, right?”

Know what? What is he going to do? Winnie’s anxiety amplified with Edward’s one word, and she began to imagine all sorts of things on her own. What is he going to do? No matter how strong Edward is, can he forcibly open the door that is locked with that thick bolt?

Or… is he just going to leave? Abandon her? Saying he doesn’t like a woman who is being so annoying and bothersome? Even she thought it felt like that.

“Ah, no…”

Deolkeong, deolkeong-

Winnie, with trembling hands, unlocked the bolt she had just locked. Whether it was because her hands were trembling or because the bolt was heavy, it didn’t work as she wanted. Winnie, who thought it was an unnecessarily large bolt, cursed the bolt in her mind and barely managed to unlock it, and the door opened with a bang.

Kong-

“Ayat!”

Winnie hit her forehead on the suddenly opened door. Because of that, she fell backward and sat down on her butt, and Edward’s figure, who had come straight in through the opened door, came into Winnie’s eyes.

A height much taller than hers, a physique that was also much larger, befitting a knight. And straight eyes that were looking straight at her.

“Sorry.”

Winnie was flustered by the sudden apology. Why is Edward apologizing to her? She’s the one who did wrong? Winnie was so flustered that her tears stopped flowing.

“I’m sorry for making you anxious, Winnie.”

At Edward’s touch as he said that and pulled her into his arms, Winnie had no choice but to entrust herself to him. All the tension in her body was released, and the tears that had stopped flowed out again.

“Heu-euk… heu-heu-euk…”

When she wrapped her arms around his back and hugged him, Edward hugged her even tighter. With her face buried in his broad chest like that, Winnie sobbed for a long time. But it felt different from when she was crying alone. Winnie, who had released her tension, took all the strength out of her body with a sense of relief. It was as if she was entrusting her body to Edward, and he had to bear all the weight, but Winnie’s weight, which had decreased, was nothing to him.

“Heup, hu-eu-eu… huu… hikkup!”

Winnie, who had calmed down, regained her senses and as soon as she fell away from Edward, she began to hiccup. Edward, who still had her trapped in his arms, looked at her with loving eyes and said.

“I’m sorry. I reacted strangely for no reason, and made our baby’s mom worry for no reason.”

“U-eut… hikkup.”

“So, what’s the baby’s name?”

“Ah, I’m not going to tell you.”

“Why? Then what am I supposed to call it?”

“It’s still, a nickname… I’ll tell you later.”

When he hugged her tightly, he felt that her lower abdomen was a little more protruding than before, unlike before. Edward was just more sorry because he was confused whether this was because the baby was growing or because Winnie was thin. If I had known she would have such a hard time, I would have come a little earlier. No, I shouldn’t have gotten angry about something that didn’t even happen in the first place.

Looking at Winnie, Edward made a firm resolution. Don’t needlessly jump to conclusions and place blame on things that didn’t happen this time. The things that happened before the regression were all gone a long time ago, starting from that day. Even if he hated Winnie for things she didn’t do, it would only lead to uncomfortable results for him and Winnie.

‘…And for Monica too.’

“…Smells like cigarettes.”

Winnie frowned. Edward quickly apologized, wondering if she didn’t like this either.

“I’m sorry for smoking. Just one cigarette, I only smoked one cigarette.”

“Only one here, but you didn’t smoke a lot when I wasn’t looking, did you?”

“Really, this is the first time in months.”

“…”

Winnie glared at him suspiciously, but there was no way she could find out anything. She could only smell his body odor, which still felt like a good fragrance, even though it was slightly mixed with the smell of cigarettes. Winnie turned her head slightly and said dissatisfiedly.

“You promised me you’d quit…”

“I didn’t even smoke half of it just now. And I threw it away right away.”

“…Okay.”

But Winnie still looked dissatisfied. Edward kissed her to change the subject.

Jjok-

“Winnie. I missed you.”

“M-missed me.”

Why is my heart fluttering for no reason at the words of a playboy who always smokes cigarettes? Still, it was a very pleasant thing to hear. But Winnie still had an unresolved problem in her heart.

“Really… did you miss me?”

“Of course. I kept looking at you even when we were eating earlier. It was so hard trying to peek at you without Monica noticing.”

‘Was that really the case…?’

In her memory, Edward had never looked at her even once. Are those words really true? Anyway, rather than an unverifiable truth, there was something she definitely had to ask him.

“…But why didn’t you come to see me even once for five days?”

“Th, that’s…”

Winnie’s eyes narrowed again, and Winnie hit Edward’s chest.

“…You don’t have time to come see me, but you see Vera unni every day! And on top of that, you’re adding more women!”

‘She saw everything.’

Edward guessed that Winnie had only come into the castle for lunch today, so she must have been looking through that telescope or something again. Winnie kept hitting Edward, but he didn’t deny it or apologize, but because she didn’t have much strength, it didn’t hurt Edward at all.

“Eueu…”

Edward looked at her with a mischievous expression. She felt slightly resentful at that appearance, but Winnie’s feelings melted away as soon as Edward took out a ring from his arms.

“I was a little late because I was waiting for this.”

Episode 129. Daily Life (3)

Kkulkeok-

“Why are you dawdling so much today?”

“D-dawdling! You’re saying all sorts of things.”

“Then I’ll say you’re creeping around.”

Dawdling… Certainly, even Monica felt that she was different from usual. Simply walking from the desk where she was doing her work to the bed in the same room – of course, the room was a bit big – was not easy.

As usual, she would go to the bed, quickly wash up first, and roll around in the blanket. When Edward came back after washing up, she would touch his jaji with her hands and feet, satisfying Edward’s sexual desire and falling asleep. The daily life that she had thought was just an ordinary married couple’s relationship felt too much like a child’s play.

Where is the act for her satisfaction in that series of actions? Of course, she wasn’t dissatisfied with that life. She was the one who led all the processes there, and the kind Edward just followed her words without any complaints.

But after the abstract concept of ‘having a child’ materialized and appeared in the form of her friend, Monica also realized the desire that was inherent in her. And not a light act of handling sexual desire without any substance, but a real relationship… She became curious.

Tuk-

“Hit!”

“I’ll wash up first today.”

“O, okay. Ueung.”

Just knowing something she didn’t know, why does it feel so different? No, it’s not like she didn’t know about pregnancy at all… But still… It’s like she got to know it properly. As she suddenly began to realize it, she was tensing up her whole body sensitively to Edward’s every action.

Just now, he just tapped her once with his finger to call her, as usual. It felt like goosebumps were rising all over her body. All the nerves in her body were on edge, and her whole body shrank from the shoulder that was touching him. It was a flustered feeling, but it was also a tense and subtle feeling.

Her heart is beating fast. Waiting while sitting on the bed with all sorts of thoughts, Edward washed up and returned at a fairly fast speed. Seeing Edward with his hair wet and moist and not even thinking about covering his body now, Monica, whose face turned red, ran out of the room as if fleeing.

“I’ll be back…”

Avoiding Edward who had returned after washing up, Monica headed to the bathroom with her clothes. The cold air in the hallway leading to the lord’s private bathroom seemed to calm her down a little as it touched her skin.

She enters the bathroom, where the steam is still seeping out, not long after Edward used it. Feeling the floor that was not dry, she poured water on her body. The warm water seemed to calm her down as it wrapped around her body.

‘Why are you doing this, awkwardly.’

She was shaken to an extent that was surprising even to her. At this rate, she’s like a virgin who hasn’t even gotten married. Of course, she is a virgin who is keeping her chastity because she has no experience having sex with a man… Still, she didn’t want to admit it from the standpoint of someone who was married.

Because she plans to take one step further than usual today, she washed her body several times more carefully. She wondered if she smelled strange, so she used expensive soap generously all over her body, and wiped it carefully.

‘…Isn’t this the one Edward used?’

Before using it, she remembered the subtly moist texture of the soap. Her face turned red and she felt subtly embarrassed thinking that the one that had roamed his body was touching her body, but Monica stubbornly did not stop washing with soap.

‘We’re a couple. This much is nothing.’

Monica rinsed her body with a face that was quite red, perhaps because of the heat in the bath. Monica, who had cleaned her body, picked up the clothes she had brought to change into and was flustered.

‘D, do I have to wear this?’

She had boldly brought it with the determination to try it today, but… She was scared and embarrassed to actually wear it. She never thought she would wear something like this… Moreover, she, who has good action and drive, had already predicted that this situation would come and did not bring any other underwear. In the end, she slightly blamed her past self and wore that underwear. She couldn’t walk down the hallway wearing only a negligee that was no different from being naked.

Holding her trembling chest, she put on her clothes. Because the negligee was so thin that it seemed like everything inside was showing, she took out a large towel and wrapped it around her body. Monica, who gained confidence with one towel, left the bathroom.

Beolkeok-

She opened the bedroom door and approached Edward, who was lying comfortably on the bed. Edward, with a familiar expression, opened his gown. And Monica placed her hand on the revealed huge thing.

Seuk- seuk-

It’s not as fast as it is not yet wet, but it gently and kindly strokes his thing. The jaji that had been half-standing grew rapidly with her touch and became the figure she knew. Why is it so embarrassing to touch it with my hands? Every time the throbbing jaji, like a blood vessel, shook her fingers and palms, her heart and will seemed to shake together.

Sitting obediently on her knees between his legs, she stimulates his thing with both hands. When she slightly raised her head and looked up, she could see him closing his eyes and comfortably feeling her touch. Edward had a habit of slightly twitching his brow more frequently before he ejaculated. Monica knew that fact so clearly after several times of sleeping together.

Today was no different. The furrow between his eyebrows was getting deeper and deeper, and Monica could easily tell that he was about to cum, so Monica quickly took her hand away. At the gaze that looked at her as if she was dumbfounded by the suddenly cut-off stimulation, Monica, who had shrunk slightly, said in a barely audible voice.

“Can’t we… put it in today?”

“…Suddenly?”

“No, just…”

Why is it so embarrassing when it gets dark? No, it was embarrassing to even talk about things related to this issue itself. Nevertheless, she squeezed out all the courage she had and asked, but when she got such an unwilling answer… Monica couldn’t help but feel very intimidated.

“You said it hurts, it seems like it would be too much, so you said you wouldn’t do it.”

“That’s true, but…”

She remembered the day she tried her first insertion. She was definitely trying to put it in, but her boji couldn’t accept it, so she stopped. Maybe that’s why her husband is so passive.

“I feel like it’ll work today…”

So she wanted to change it. If she wants to get pregnant, isn’t it something she has to do anyway? The baby will come out of there, so her husband’s thing, which is smaller than the baby… probably smaller, should be able to accept it, of course.

And her constantly beating heart was exalting her with an unknown confidence that she could do it. Whether it’s the instinctive desire for reproduction to have a child, or the desire not to be left behind by her friend – although she’s already been left behind – she doesn’t know if it’s the desire to follow. But her heart, which was beating so hard that it felt like her uterus was pounding below, was saying that she could do it.

So she said to him.

“Winnie is pregnant.”

“Puhup,”

Monica was satisfied with his appearance of spitting out the water he was drinking in surprise. After all, it wasn’t just her who was sensitive. Anyone would be embarrassed and nervous like this if they heard unexpected news.

“You’re the only one I told, so don’t go ahead and pretend you know before I tell you.”

“Uh, um. Okay. That’s something to celebrate.”

“Hearing that story, I also… I started to think I wanted to have a child.”

Tuk-

She threw off the towel that was covering her body. Underneath it, she also threw off the negligee that she cherished as pajamas. She, who was between Edward’s legs in her underwear, said to Edward.

“Today… please put it in.”

“…”

She felt like she was going to die of embarrassment at Edward’s gaze that was blankly looking at her body. She had touched Edward a lot so far, but Edward had hardly touched her since that shocking first night when she was knocked out by his finger. In the first place, there wasn’t much to see. He was satisfied with just cumming and being satisfied.

So even more, she was embarrassed to show off her underwear that was no different from not wearing anything. If a hole is drilled in the most important part and it’s visible, how is that underwear? It was a design that didn’t cover any of the pink parts of her body, as if only the important parts of her chest and below had been cut out. At least the bottom part had small beads like pearls connected along the crack, that was all.

‘Why isn’t he saying anything…’

Did I wear it for nothing? Monica thought, turning her head in embarrassment. Her mother gave it to her saying she didn’t need it anymore. Seeing him staring like that, it’s not that he’s not interested, but she couldn’t know his reaction, so her head was a mess with anxiety. In the end, she gave up thinking and said the most direct thing.

“I want to have your child. Please impregnate me…”

And because that’s not something you can do alone. She asked for help from her husband. To her husband, who had not said anything special, saying that he respected her wishes until now. And Edward…

“…Okay.”

He did not refuse her request.