Chapter 93: Black Girl And The Monster

The recent trend, no matter what anyone says, is self-sufficiency.

It may be a little late, but I decided to follow that trend.

I realized that it was much better to outsource the despair rather than taking action and eating up the despair of magical girls myself.

‘Magical girls rarely despair in the first place…’

Haaam, I yawned and buried myself in the sofa.

If a magical girl doesn’t despair, I’ll throw in an element that makes her despair.

That’s why I came up with the idea of creating my own magical girl.

A magic that would bring me despair – no, despair girls.

‘Even the despair of humans would turn into despair that I can eat if I ride on the despair girls.’

It was quite difficult to find people who showed signs of potential.

They had to have the qualities of a magical girl, but they had to be filled with despair inside.

Honestly, isn’t that too much?

The fairies arbitrarily turn humans with the qualities of a magical girl into magical girls, but I’m just picking and choosing and barely making a despair girl.

“…It was nice when I was next to Emerald.”

To be exact, I should say it was when Tamako was next to me.

Anyway, after the period of trial and error, I’ve been receiving a fairly stable supply of despair lately.

It’s literally a despair beacon—no, it feels like a despair factory.

Since they’re all carefully selected talents that I personally go around, the yield wasn’t bad.

“…I’m back.”

“Yes, welcome.”

As the door opened, I looked at the human who came in listlessly—Kuroko—and smiled faintly.

It was really cute how he felt despair whenever he looked at my right eye.

Who told me to impulsively ask for my eye?

Well, it was a good thing for me.

The despair girl’s despair became my daily bread.

“It seems like something happened at school today.”

“…”

“I understand. Such insults aren’t things that can be taken lightly.”

Impulsiveness was important, but soothing them appropriately was also important.

If I completely lose my mind, it’ll be difficult in many ways, so yeah.

Anyway, I opened up a despair circuit at Kuroko, who was looking down at me with half-dead eyes.

There was no reason to just watch when there was delicious despair right in front of me.

“So, did you find the magical girl you were aiming for?”

“…Not yet.”

The way you searched for the magical girl you were aiming for every night was so admirable.

I could have told you the answer, but at that age, it was most important to find the answer by doing it yourself.

In the first place, it didn’t seem like you wanted help since you didn’t ask me.

“Akari.”

“Yes, go ahead.”

“With this power, you can really get revenge, right?”

I nodded lightly because I was confident that I could do it, even though I didn’t know the level of revenge.

Ah, but killing her would be a bit too much.

I didn’t want to lose the despair supply device, the despair girl, because of something like that.

“You’re not the first. If we meet again later, it wouldn’t be bad to ask.”

“Have you done this to other people besides me?”

“This kind of thing? When you say it like that, it makes it sound like I did something bad.”

It wasn’t pure kindness, but since she was helping with revenge, it wasn’t entirely a bad thing, was it?

Strictly speaking, the fairies were similar.

They go to humans who were harmed by monsters and offer to give them the power to kill the monsters.

This was actually much more moderate.

After all, none of the monster girls I created had ever killed a magical girl.

“Anyway, to answer your question, that’s right. This makes you the fourth.”

The first time, she said she lost her only sister to a monster who was running away from a magical girl.

What she wanted was her sister’s long hair—she wanted my hair, so I gave it to her without hesitation.

The second time, she was kidnapped by a group of monster followers, and after being treated all sorts of horrible things, she lost her life.

No, to be exact, I should say that he met me right before he lost his life and saved my life.

She wanted to survive and take revenge, so I gave her the time I had.

And the third was a human who was born as an orphan and had distrusted humans from the beginning.

For some reason, she wanted my clothes, so I gladly gave them to her.

They didn’t fit at the time.

“The fourth…”

“Why, do you want to meet?”

It wasn’t really a secret, so if she said she wanted to meet, I could have let her meet.

Well, judging from her expression, she didn’t really want to.

“No, I was just… surprised that there was another person like me.”

“Why, did you think you were the most unfortunate person in the world?”

“…”

There were definitely people like that among humans.

People who thought they were the most unfortunate people in the world.

But the world was big, and there were many unfortunate people.

It was really sad that this was only the fourth out of all those people.

‘The despair that comes from a person who believes they are the most unfortunate is the most delicious, yeah.’

As I was licking my lips inwardly, Kuroko pursed his lips.

Was he relieved that he might not be the most unfortunate person?

No, no.

That smile was a smile that seemed to say, ‘No matter how unfortunate you are, there is no one more unfortunate than me.’

See, as soon as I thought that, despair burst out in my head and I became depressed.

“But it’s okay. I can truly like you, even though you’re so unfortunate.”

“…I’m not kidding.”

“Are you serious? I prefer people who are full of despair to people who are full of hope.”

Since he really didn’t believe me, I decided to show him through my actions.

Come on, come on,

I’m saying that I like you, who is so full of self-loathing and despair that you don’t even have the slightest self-esteem or self-respect?

I stood up with a jerk and my feet landed on the sofa.

No, I knew they would land.

“Ah, chacha…”

“…Ugh.”

“You’re so kind, you.”

It was my first time walking around without an eye, so I guess it was a bit hard to keep my balance.

I smiled at Kuroko’s actions when he caught me when I almost tripped and fell.

His words may be aggressive, but his actions are honest.

To put it nicely, it was kindness that came out unconsciously, and to put it badly, it was a quality that could have made me a magical girl.

“If I hadn’t despaired, I might have become a magical girl.”

“Don’t talk nonsense.”

“Ouch.”

I made a slight joke at Kuroko, who was swinging his hand at my head.

His face was full of sincere contempt for magical girls.

I could handle it.

I haven’t fought a proper magical girl yet, but with that kind of mindset, I could easily defeat a mediocre magical girl.

“So, what should I do from now on?”

“Do whatever you want.”

“What is your purpose?”

“My purpose is just to watch over you.”

Oh, so I’m not just watching?

To use an analogy, oh, right. It’s like watching a subcontractor do his job well or not.

Of course, he won’t force them to do more work.

“Don’t lie.”

And Kuroko’s expression suddenly crumpled at my words.

There’s no way he’d give this kind of power away for nothing.

There must be some kind of ulterior motive.

I won’t believe him until I figure out his hidden intentions.

His eyes were filled with such meaning.

“It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe him.”

Trust wasn’t important.

What mattered was whether the person in front of me would do what I wanted.

And—

“I doubt it, but you know it too.”

There are beings in the world who send favors without any reason.

I didn’t say who it was, but it seemed like he reflexively thought of someone when I said that.

Of course, his face turned sour after a while.

“You’re not one of those people.”

“I know. You’re not a ‘human’ in the first place.”

“Why, are you a monster or something? Are you trying to eat me?”

“I won’t eat you. Humans aren’t that tasty in the first place.”

Of course, I could eat them if I wanted to.

Kuroko shut his mouth as if he realized something from the words that didn’t contain any joking.

It seemed like he thought that if he treated me with any more squeamishness, something big might happen.

‘I don’t really have any thoughts on this one, though…’

However, if there was one piece of good news in this situation, it was that Kuroko wasn’t taking his own life lightly.

Usually, people who are desperate tend to view their own lives as if they were flies.

It seemed that revenge had filled Kuroko’s empty self-esteem quite a bit.

“Don’t worry. I’m not a monster that eats just anything. And more than anything, we’re partners, right? Do I look like a monster that eats its partners?”

“…”

There was no answer.

It seemed like I looked like a senseless monster that eats its partners.