Chapter 869: Dallae’s Diary (3)

『Today’s corporal punishment hurt much less. Maybe it’s because the bruises hardened into scars? The count of 50 was almost completed.

Maybe from tomorrow for about three days, I can spend the holiday without corporal punishment. For now, today I want to sleep in lazily. I haven’t even had such a daily routine for the past few years. I set the batting machine’s time in one-hour increments and refilled the balls to about 20. No matter how tired I am, I surely won’t sleep for more than 20 hours.』

『When I woke up after sleeping, all 20 balls from the batting machine were gone. How many more hours did I sleep there? For now, I did record that a day had passed. Because of extreme hunger, I also stuffed a day’s worth of food in at once.』

『While writing the report in my spare time, I realized I had almost written down all the information about the Geumhyang family. For now, I think I’ve written down everything I could, including the Geumhyang family’s secret structure and information about the servants used in the mansion.

If there’s anyone I deliberately didn’t write about, it was just one person. My younger sister, Geum Nari, who disappeared long ago, though I don’t live with her now.

I think she might be somewhere around Do Sihee, but her exact location isn’t clear. If that kid were here, my currently useless self would become useful again. If I get a chance to use my abilities again, this time I wanted to stick with that man, not Geum Jangmi. Although I don’t know if such a chance will come.』

『Although I thought about it a bit, I stopped writing information about Geum Nari for now. If it’s information he needs, he’ll probably ask for it separately. Maybe by unnecessarily writing information he doesn’t know, I could cause confusion.

And if I unnecessarily wrote information about Geum Nari, it might be hard to prove my usefulness. I don’t want to admit it, but that kid was definitely more competent than me. In fact, she was much more competent than that bitch Geum Jangmi. So it won’t do. If it were that ill-tempered bitch Geum Jangmi, maybe, but if that kid who has both a good personality and abilities is around, I’ll definitely be discarded as a useless woman.

It was so unfair that the capacity of my memory storage ability is full. If only I could appeal with this ability, I could prove my competence to that man. If I hadn’t been used by that fucking bitch Geum Jangmi, there would still be plenty left.

For now, one thing is certain: Geum Jangmi is now a rotten fruit. Even if I just submit the reports I’ve written so far to that man, it won’t be that difficult to oust someone like Geum Jangmi. The reason I followed the words of that ill-tempered woman until now was because she always won. I have no intention of cooperating anymore with a loser bitch who will soon be defeated.』

『The corporal punishment ended completely three days ago, but the wounds still ache quite a bit. The number of times I woke up tossing and turning in my sleep exceeded double digits.

Last time, that man roughly massaged my wounds while treating them. Actually, I knew there was no need to massage it that much if the purpose was just treatment, but I just kept my mouth shut. Rather than being in pain, it was better for the suffering to end quickly.

I wish that man would come back quickly and treat me. Actually, even more than the pain, being alone is harder to endure.』

『There are still two days left. I have to spend these two days alone in this space.

Even though I completed the required number of corporal punishments, I was so lonely that I operated the batting machine once. I took a pose as if my arms were tied to a restraint device and acted like when that man first gave me orders, and took a hit once.

After finishing the self-inflicted corporal punishment, perhaps because I took a hit after two days, it hurt terribly, but my loneliness did decrease significantly. But I don’t think I can do it again. At the very least, I should avoid getting hit in vital spots.』

『The first moment I received the week-long vacation, I was overjoyed, as if I could fly, but not anymore. I wish this wait would end as soon as possible. It was painful, lonely, and this space, where I was the only living thing, felt incredibly empty.

I missed that man. Actually, I wanted to see anyone, not necessarily him. He was clearly a hateful man who imprisoned me in this space and even tortured me, but somehow, I needed him desperately now. I’d rather receive more torture if only he could prove that I wasn’t alone.

When that man appears next time, I must prove my usefulness somehow. It’s because I’m useless to him right now that I’m being neglected, undoubtedly.』

『When the hell is he coming? It feels like over 140 hours have already passed. He’s not planning to come back after filling the entire 168 hours, is he?

To be honest, enduring even an hour is more painful now. I’ve slept so much that I can’t even sleep. I thought I was someone who didn’t feel loneliness. That wasn’t it. I just never had the time to feel it.』

『When are you coming, when are you coming, when are you coming, when are you coming, when are you coming, when are you coming, when are you coming, when are you coming….』

-Flap. Flap.

“…….”

『The paper I just read was the last page. It was the last page of the diary presumed to have been written by that woman, up until just before I returned to this room.

Furthermore, it was right after that I realized No. 2, who was panting while supporting my body in a bridge pose, was wearing a strangely joyful expression.』

“Haa, ha, haaah…. Nngh….”

“…….”

『…Seriously, this is absurd.』

『I already knew that the women from the Foundation are generally strange, but this woman was particularly extreme. Maybe on the same level as No. 1, or even more so.

Even that smiling expression wasn’t because she realized she was a masochist or anything; it simply meant she was happy to have relieved her loneliness. The descriptions of her inability to endure pain were repeatedly written in the diary.

However, the fact that she could endure such suffering and pain without limit if it’s to relieve loneliness actually made me certain that this woman’s sexual fetish stemmed from a desire for connection with people.

‘Last time, I thought my torture had broken her mind.’

Actually, that wasn’t the case. Her mental state was already broken from the start, and the cause was highly likely the Geumhyang Group or Geum Jangmi.

And after finishing the two-week training course, the place for her broken mind to rely on paradoxically seemed to have shifted from Geum Jangmi or the Geumhyang Group to me.

‘Come to think of it, in this woman’s sexual fetishes, I think there was an item called “Desire for Victory”.’

Since less than a day has passed since I checked No. 2’s sexual fetishes, the details of her sexual fetishes could be re-examined at any time.

In this woman’s perceived time, about 2 weeks might have passed, but in the outside world’s time, it’s only around afternoon.

If I check the contents of No. 2’s sexual fetishes, I thought I might be able to figure out how to handle this woman too, so I reopened the system window from earlier and checked.

『Sexual Fetishes: Desire for Victory, Desire for Honor, Connection, Desire for Recognition, Missionary Position』

…It seems like several items have changed significantly.

Before the change, I clearly remember it being written something like ‘Butler Harem’ or similar. Of course, this was only from a point shortly after capturing No. 2, but.

However, looking at Geum Dallae’s current sexual fetishes, those contents have completely disappeared, and instead, other desires have taken their place. It’s as if she’s trying to claim that the contents of the diary I wrote match her inner thoughts.

‘Connection and Desire for Recognition….’

Connection is the desire to escape loneliness, and Desire for Recognition is the desire to have one’s abilities acknowledged, I suppose.

These two elements, which didn’t appear when I first saw them, showing themselves now means this woman is desperate. To overcome loneliness and the desire to be recognized as a useful woman to me.

…Somehow, I got the intuition that if I utilize this aspect well, I wouldn’t have to put in as much effort to use this woman like a subordinate.

‘For now, if everything written in the diary is true, she’s probably already prepared to submit to me to some extent.’

To be precise, it’s just that the object of her submission, which was previously Geum Jangmi, has changed to me.

It’s highly likely that the desire called “Desire for Victory” that this woman possesses played a role. Even if she becomes a treacherous bitch, she must have the mindset of sticking with whoever wins.

And during the past two weeks of training, to satisfy her desire for victory, she seemed to have made the judgment that obeying me rather than Geum Jangmi would be better. I don’t know the process by which she made that judgment, but.

‘If she says she wants to stick with me, even though I locked her up and tortured her….’

Truly, for the sake of victory, regardless of friend or foe, she was like a mongrel bitch exposing her belly and lying down.

Although she’s not trustworthy, she’s the perfect personality to use solely for exploitation. Truly the perfect personality. The first step of my plan to destroy the Geumhyang Group using the two women was falling into place smoothly.』