Chapter 85: Things that never change (2)

It had already been two months since I regained consciousness and found myself in the capital.

Laura quietly closed the window, watching Seira who still couldn’t wake up.

Winter had passed and spring had arrived before we knew it.

Was it called a cold snap?

The weather, warm and then cold again, wouldn’t be good for a patient’s body.

Thinking that, she looked at Seira again.

Come to think of it, Seira had spent most of this year just sleeping.

Fortunately, there were no injuries that would endanger her life, but she still couldn’t help feeling uneasy.

If you think about it, it’s all my fault.

Laura took Seira’s hand and shed tears little by little.

Why did I do that?

Why did I feel jealous of Seira and prevent her from using magic?

Thanks to that, all the shields and trap magic I had painstakingly prepared disappeared, and Seira was repeatedly kicked in the lower abdomen by Baek Minjun.

Apologizing now doesn’t change that fact.

In the end, she can only think that it is entirely her responsibility that she lost the baby.

Knock- knock-

The sound of knocking was heard, and the door to the room began to open.

The number of servants was kept to a minimum in case it would be noisy, and there were only a few people who could come in without Laura answering.

Therefore, Laura simply looked at Seira, without turning around or saying a word.

Someone’s hand came up on Laura’s head.

A hard hand with calluses, not befitting a noble lady.

It must have been Natalia.

“Is Seira going to be okay..”

“..She’ll be fine.

Seira isn’t weak enough to be broken by something like this.”

Natalia answered Laura’s question in a weak voice instead of a confident one.

As a noble Saint who can give her life for someone, her will is stronger than anyone else’s, but can she even recover from the shock of losing her beloved baby?

Natalia herself couldn’t be sure.

In the end, this is what happened.

Because of her incompetent self, Seira was kicked in the stomach by Baek Minjun, and she could only watch as Ariel killed Oberon and created the contamination pit.

The Hero handles the sword even better now, what value is there in a woman like me?

Like Laura, Natalia couldn’t escape from guilt.

“…”

Words were no longer needed.

Even if they talked more, it would only touch each other’s wounds.

They simply remained silent and examined Seira’s fallen body.

The priests and nuns said that her body was screaming because she used a great power that they couldn’t handle, but more than that, the dark red bruise on her lower abdomen felt so pitiful.

With such a serious injury.. there’s no way the baby in her womb would be safe.

In fact, the nuns said that they couldn’t feel any other life inside Seira’s body, and that definitely meant a miscarriage.

The life that should have been born someday disappeared without even seeing the light of the world.

If Seira wakes up, how should I apologize?

I wish she would resent me, but this Saint, who is so foolishly kind, would pretend to be okay and comfort others.

That’s why the two of them couldn’t gather their courage, and then they began to feel someone’s presence again.

“Is it the Hero..”

“…”

Until recently, the dark circles under his eyes had been disappearing and he looked better, but in the end, the darkness fell on his face again.

Some people who didn’t know the situation felt a strange charm because of the decadent beauty, but it didn’t feel good to the Hero’s party members who were by Seira’s side.

And Laura and Natalia couldn’t say anything, being conscious of Kim Suhyeon.

They still thought that the baby had died because of their mistakes.

Kim Suhyeon, who listened to the explanation from the nuns and grasped the approximate situation, pondered for a while and finally opened his mouth.

“Guys, I have something to tell you.. Can we move the place for a while?”

“What do you mean, something to tell us..”

They couldn’t hide their uneasy feelings, fearing that Kim Suhyeon would hold them responsible for Seira’s miscarriage.

And more than that, they felt self-loathing.

Even in this situation, I can’t face her properly and apologize?

That thought was eating away at her heart, and Kim Suhyeon, who couldn’t possibly not know that fact, decided to tell his companions Seira’s secret after much deliberation.

“Actually, Seira.. isn’t from this world.”

The story of how she was abused by her parents and locked up in her room since she was a child.

The story of how she was sexually assaulted and afraid to be alone with a man.

The story of how she was summoned to this world seven years ago, at that young age, and has been playing the role of a Saint.

The story of how she didn’t receive a proper education and knew that a baby would be born even if she only slept with a man alone.

Therefore, the fact that the miscarriage is not true, and that it is all Seira’s imaginary pregnancy.

It was a past that Seira wanted to hide, and so she didn’t want to tell anyone, but it was something that couldn’t be hidden even in this situation.

And Kim Suhyeon decided to move to a small shop where there were no people so that the servants could not hear this story, and reveal everything.

On the way back after moving the place and listening to Kim Suhyeon’s explanation, Laura and Natalia couldn’t say anything in the streets of the capital.

A face like a talented artist had carved out of marble, and a kind personality made up of self-sacrifice.

Could anyone have imagined that such a Saint would be summoned from another world, even from the same world as Kim Suhyeon?

Moreover, the more they listened to the explanation, the more they clenched their fists at the miserable past.

To think that there are such cruel people in the world who treat their children in that way.

They could only regret the fact that they couldn’t go and punish them right away.

“Imaginary pregnancy, that’s a blessing in disguise, but..”

In fact, Seira was not pregnant.

It was all a misunderstanding that occurred because she was so innocent that she had no knowledge of s*x at all.

But at least Seira would have believed so, how could they say that it was all fake.

The two people returning to Seira’s mansion were at a loss for words.

“We have to.. tell her, right?”

“Probably..”

But they can’t lie.

If they don’t say anything, Seira’s inner wounds will only fester more.

Laura and Natalia hardened their resolve, leaving Kim Suhyeon, who said he had something to think about, in the store.

And at that moment, a servant running from afar.

She was looking for Laura and Natalia, forgetting that she wasn’t wearing shoes.

Could it be that something happened to Seira?

Thinking that, their expressions hardened, but they clearly heard the servant’s voice saying, “S, Saintess! The Saintess has woken up!”

“Is that true!”

“Yes! It’s been so long since she regained consciousness, so I’m a little flustered, but.. Ah, don’t just stand there, go see her quickly!”

Thank goodness.

Thank goodness.

They didn’t know how to explain to Seira that there was no baby without hurting her feelings, but Natalia and Laura’s faces were filled with bright smiles, enough to put aside such thoughts for a while.

The season is already spring.

Seira, who lost consciousness in the winter, has finally woken up.

But that was only for a moment, Laura and Natalia, who hurriedly entered the mansion, soon realized how naive their thoughts were at the groaning sound that was heard.

“Ugh..

Ah..

Hic..

Please!!”

“Seira..?’

Her mouth was filled with groans of pain, and clear water was flowing from her eyes as she forcibly attached holy fire to her body.

Seira said that she had reached out to the Demon King’s power to save everyone in the White Haze Forest.

Then that action is obviously..

“Ah, what are you talking about?”

They immediately opened the door and entered, and Seira, surprised, made excuses that nothing was wrong.

However, Laura and Natalia had the scene from just now clearly imprinted in their eyes, and they could guess how mentally ill Seira, who thought she had lost her baby even though it was an imaginary pregnancy, was.

Moreover, the strange voices of conversation that echoed in the mansion before she burned her body with holy fire.

Who in the world was she talking to?

Unlike Laura, who was constantly crying and apologizing, Natalia, who kept thinking of the worst-case scenario, barely asked a question with trembling lips.

“Seira, who were you talking to until just now..”

“..You don’t have to worry about that.

What Natalia is thinking didn’t happen.

Rina, Rina is still inside me.”

Seira, looking at a small hand mirror, said that Rina was still inside her.

But there was nothing but Seira’s face in the mirror, and there were only a few fools who didn’t know who that name was referring to.

“Ah…

Rina, you mean…

The First Saint…”

Rina, the first Saint and a legendary figure who sealed the Demon King with the Hero 300 years ago.

One of the saints who spent her life working for the poor and caring for those who were orphaned or lost their property in the war with the Demon King.

Although she is from another world, Seira is also a Saint who has lived in the Holy Kingdom for a long time, so it wouldn’t be strange if she used that name as the baby’s nickname.

Natalia lost strength in her legs and sat down.

Laura couldn’t stop crying, and even started to gag.

How in the world can they tell Seira the truth, who is now seeing hallucinations, even though it is an imaginary pregnancy?

They couldn’t muster the courage at all.

“Yes, as you can see, Rina is living inside me.”

“I’m sorry…

I’m incompetent…

I’m really sorry..”

“Baby…

Baby…

At least to Seira, it was real…”

Laura and Natalia, who could still only shed tears.

Seira, who was quietly watching the two of them, suddenly began to shake her shoulders with a groan of “Ugh!”.

Then, a hand going down towards the bottom.

Could it be the aftereffects of using the Demon King’s power?

Thinking that, Seira, who had lowered her head for a while, returned to a peaceful atmosphere.

“Hehe, I’m saying strange things too..

I’m sorry.

Were you very surprised?”

Her voice was kind to begin with, but now it had a more antique atmosphere.

The hand that was going down stopped at her lower abdomen, which would be bruised.

“Seira..?”

“Please pretend you didn’t hear me even if I say strange things sometimes.

It’s just, there’s a reason I don’t want to talk about it.

Oh right, I haven’t woken up in so long, I need some time to think alone…”

“Ah, I understand.”

“Seira..”

“Hehe, thank you.

Really..”

And Seira, saying that she wanted to be alone, politely requested Laura and Natalia to leave the room.

An atmosphere that feels difficult to refuse, an atmosphere that is like watching a skilled noble lady.

The two people had no choice but to leave the room, but they couldn’t hide their shock at Seira’s voice that was soon heard.

“Unnie..

Who is Seira talking to..?”

“…”

Natalia didn’t answer Laura’s question.

After all, Laura didn’t ask the question because she wanted an answer.

Although it is an imaginary pregnancy, Seira, who has a miserable past, really thought she was pregnant.

And she even named the baby Rina.

But what was she thinking when she was kicked in the stomach by Baek Minjun and saw the bruises on her lower abdomen when she woke up?

Seira has lost her mind.

To the point of seeing hallucinations of her baby named Rina.

The atmosphere changed with a brief groan.

Perhaps she realized that the time she could maintain her sanity was not long, so she asked them to pretend not to hear her even if she said strange things sometimes.

Laura and Natalia, who were frozen in place, had no tears left to shed.