I have Something to Tell You (2)

I have Something to Tell You (2)

It seemed that Sien didn’t understand well, so I tried to give a more accurate explanation.

Before that, I couldn’t speak because Sien blocked my mouth with hers.

‘……’

As if craving for the love she hadn’t received until now.

Without the slightest hesitation, Sien occupied my mouth with her tongue, trying to go even deeper inside.

Soon, it was evident that she was clinging to this without even breathing properly.

I kept patting her waist as if to soothe her.

But with each pat, she only flinched slightly and gently shook her hips.

She hugged me tightly, showing no intention of stopping.

‘This is troublesome.’

At this rate, it seems like she’d continue all day long.

Thinking it would be best to stop this at an appropriate point, I pushed Sien away and said.

“Let’s talk for a bit.”

“……”

As I forcibly ended the kiss.

Sien, with a very regretful expression, carefully wiped the saliva from her mouth and said.

“…We, we can talk later. So, a little more…”

It was the first time Sien had so openly refused my words, and I was taken aback.

I didn’t expect her to like it this much.

‘I thought I had been rather light about it last time.’

I inwardly sighed at her words and shook my head.

“It’s an important conversation, so listen.”

At those words, Sien looked at me with a very gloomy face, like an abandoned puppy, and then nodded.

“… Yes.”

I explained this to Sien once again.

“I am not the Deren you knew, but a different Deren.”

“Yes. I heard that earlier.”

Judging by the expression on Sien’s face, as if asking what the problem was,

It seemed she was interpreting it as something like ‘The weak Deren of the past is dead, replaced by the strong Deren of the present!’

Just as I was about to say that wasn’t the case,

‘I, a being who lived on Earth, possessed Deren’s body through a process called possession, taking over the other person’s body. I’m pretending to be Deren without even knowing where the real Deren has gone.’

I momentarily close my mouth, not knowing how to begin explaining this.

‘… First of all, it’s difficult to explain the existence of Earth, and it’s also hard to explain that this place is inside a novel, so it’s giving me a headache.’

As I hold my head, thinking it’s too complicated to suddenly tell someone they’re a character in a virtual world,

Sien looks at me, clings to me again, and says with a bright smile.

“I know. I can feel how much you’ve changed even now.”

“……”

“So why don’t we just kiss now? And… this is my rightful privilege as your fiancée, so please stop trying to resist it.”

Feeling like we might end up kissing all day if this continues, I started to escape outside.

If we kept going, we might end up crossing a line.

‘It might be better to restrain myself now, even if later might be different.’

What’s important now isn’t satisfying my desires, but matters related to the Heaven God Cult, Rumi, and my possession.

It seems best to postpone things of relatively lower importance for now.

Gritting my teeth as I head outside, I decide to go to the garden to clear my head.

“Lord Deren.”

Sien chased after me.

Once again, she pushed me against the wall and started kissing me.

I couldn’t help but sigh inwardly as I watched Sien cling to me like a lost person who had finally found an oasis after a long time.

‘Is this why they say late-blooming love is dangerous?’

If left alone, she would probably continue like this for days, and even when I try to forcefully push her away, she doesn’t seem to listen.

As I watch Sien, hoping she won’t cross any more lines, and my lips are being taken,

“……”

I notice Rumi in the distance, looking at us with a rather shocked expression.

‘Of all times, it had to be now.’

No, come to think of it, maybe it’s not a coincidence.

If I recall correctly, Rumi was always hanging around my research lab, so perhaps this was something that was bound to happen.

‘Either way, this has become troublesome.’

Still, it seems I’ve more or less achieved Delia’s recommended method of arousing Rumi’s jealousy, so it’s not all bad.

Thinking this, I decide it’s really time to end the kiss and brush Sien’s bangs upward.

“… Ah.”

Only then does Sien seem to come to her senses, stopping for a moment and bowing her head as if burying her face in the floor, her face bright red.

“I-I’m sorry.”

It seems she’s realized what she’s done after regaining her senses.

I pinch Sien’s cheek and pull it sideways as I speak.

“If you want to claim your rights as a fiancée, you should also fulfill your duties as one.”

“… Yes.”

If it were someone else, they might not understand, but Sien would get it with just this much.

I patted her head to convey that she shouldn’t make mistakes from now on, and continued speaking.

“And…”

I was about to say that I’m not the Deren you used to know, but I shook my head.

It was uncertain whether I could convince her with such words, and even if I did, I wasn’t sure if I could handle what would happen afterward.

‘If that’s the case, it might be better to tell her right before everything ends.’

At least then, Sien wouldn’t cause any problems.

I felt disgusted with myself for such a self-centered course of action.

But since I couldn’t think of any other ideal way, I could only look on with clouded eyes.

As I was thinking about this and bracing myself for the oncoming headache.

Sien whispered to me with a reddened face.

“L-Lord Deren.”

“What is it?”

“Regarding what you said earlier about Lord Deren being different from the past, I have something I want to say.”

I nodded, indicating that she could go ahead.

Sien took a deep breath and continued speaking to me.

“It was my past self who came to like the past Lord Deren. And it’s my present self who has come to like the present Lord Deren.”

Sien whispered to me as if making a confession, then smiled brightly and continued.

“So even if Lord Deren has become a different person, it’s my current self who likes you, so there’s no problem at all.”

“… I see.”

“Yes. So don’t worry. I’m confident I’ll like any version of Deren.”

Seeing Sien respond so proudly, I couldn’t help but smile.

Although it was different from Sien’s intention, I was quite happy to hear that she would support ‘me’ rather than Deren.

When I smiled, Sien’s eyes widened in surprise.

She blinked her big eyes and stared at me blankly.

Then, after a moment of dazed expression, she followed my lead and smiled as she spoke.

“It’s been a while since I’ve seen Lord Deren smile.”

Indeed, I don’t think I smiled much when acting as Deren around others.

As I was thinking that my imitation of Deren was gradually fading, touching the corners of my mouth.

I noticed Rumi in the distance, looking at me with tears streaming down her face, before running away as if escaping.

‘… Is this the right thing to do?’

No matter how I thought about it, it didn’t seem right.

But in the current situation heading towards a negative outcome, this was the only thing worth trying to change.

I decided to hang onto this sliver of hope and sighed inwardly.

‘It’s always a headache to think about.’

Well, anyway, I’ve more or less succeeded in what Delia suggested.

For a while, I planned to neglect Rumi and focus on magic research and defeating the Heaven God Cult.

‘If things go wrong and Rumi really leaves, I need to prepare for that.’

I decided to create several preventive measures to ensure that Rumi couldn’t be touched.

Sien, who was in front of me, looked up at me with a pouty expression.

Then, as if she had a good idea, she lightly kissed me again and said.

“… Lord Deren. From now on, when you’re with me, if you think of something else, I plan to kiss you like this. Please try to focus on me as much as possible.”

Is it my imagination, or does it feel like Sien is just doing this because she wants to?

Thinking that my lips won’t survive this, I inwardly sighed.

Then I lightly tapped Sien’s head with my finger and said.

“Who said you could do that?”

“I, your fiancée, said I could do it.”

“How bold.”

As I looked at Sien speaking so confidently.

The image of Sien crying and asking for forgiveness in the past flashed through my mind.

Just as I was thinking how much I liked how different she looked now compared to her somewhat haggard appearance back then.

Sien smiled and said to me.

“Lord Deren, the kiss from last time wasn’t enough. Today we kissed repeatedly, so there’s a high chance I’ll get pregnant. So, shall we start preparing for the wedding soon?”

“… What?”

“I heard it from the maid. She said that if you kiss, there’s a high chance you’ll have a baby soon.”

With those words.

I was reminded once again that Sien had focused solely on swordsmanship for a long time, resulting in a lack of common sense.