Chapter 77: Now, This Moment (1) (Mature Illustration)

It was a story told with great resolve.

When I was making the date plans to meet Kang Hye-eun today, I hadn’t intended to confess this much to her.

I had planned to reveal the fact that I awakened my Hunter abilities to some extent, but I thought it was still too early to mention that the ability involved sexual intercourse with female hunters.

I thought our relationship might completely fall apart the moment I brought this up, so I had intended to hide it for as long as possible. But now that I’ve somehow managed to spit it out, even like this, I feel it was indeed fortunate that I said it.

At this moment.

Because I realized that if I hadn’t confessed my awakened ability and the sins I committed to Kang Hye-eun, I wouldn’t be able to regain her trust later on, even if I properly revealed the truth.

If that happened, it would have only left her with greater pain, so I didn’t hide it anymore.

Not to mention the very fact that I had awakened, the need for sexual intercourse with female hunters to utilize that awakened ability, and furthermore, that I had already had relations with other women besides Kang Hye-eun for that purpose.

“……”

It was a confession made with the resolve to give up everything.

That she would get completely fed up with my slutty ways and leave me, or that she would genuinely rage at the things I’d done and slap me across the face. Or that I had somewhat prepared myself for an even worse reaction than that.

…But.

“Th-the method for raising swordsmanship proficiency… Wh-what are the exact conditions?”

Kang Hye-eun spoke with a trembling voice, and the response that came back after a few questions and answers was something even I couldn’t have imagined.

“Perhaps… can you become stronger even by doing it with me right now?”

To the words that came from Hye-eun’s mouth at the end of the conversation, I involuntarily questioned their meaning.

“What?”

“I asked if you having sex with me right now… would help your awakened ability, Taekyung…”

To me, who had prepared myself to endure accusations, scolding, or even somewhat strong violence, Kang Hye-eun’s question felt like she was saying she wanted to help my awakened ability.

To the point where I, unable to grasp the situation, couldn’t help but ask the meaning again several times.

“Are you serious, Kang Hye-eun?”

“Yes, I’m serious.”

“You’d sacrifice your feelings for the sake of a slutty trash like me awakening?”

“Wh-what slutty trash…! I don’t think that!! The fact that you sleep with various women is ultimately for achieving your dream! You only did it because there was no other way!”

“That’s true, but….”

“What’s wrong with trying hard for your own dream! The reason I liked you from the very beginning was because I liked seeing you always trying your best!”

“……”

“So, don’t feel guilty.”

Having said that, Kang Hye-eun took my hand and placed it on her left chest, so the pounding heartbeat even beneath those ample breasts was transmitted to me.

Tears seemed about to overflow in Kang Hye-eun’s eyes, which were fixed on my face, but she wore a bright smile as if trying to hide them.

“I’m doing this because I want to, too.”

That sad smile was making my heart pound.

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Perhaps I was a much happier guy than I thought.

Losing my parents at the young age of before even graduating elementary school and becoming alone, or not being able to adapt as the only male student at the Hunter Training High School. And even up until the point where I couldn’t awaken after over ten years without my efforts being rewarded, I seemed to have unconsciously regarded myself as the protagonist of a tragic novel.

There was my childhood friend’s mother who raised me in place of my lost parents, and friends who stayed by my side even during my unadaptable school days. After twists and turns, I became the only awakened individual to awaken as a male, and now, even my childhood friend remains by my side, supporting that awakened ability.

It’s just that I hadn’t been conscious of it until now; I had essentially met all the conditions necessary to be happy in this world.

Of course, the standard of happiness varies from person to person, and its content is also subjective, so someone might consider me unhappy even in this situation, looking at the things I’ve lost.

However, as long as Kang Hye-eun is here, saying she wants to help me even after fully understanding my awakened ability, I could be sure that I am undoubtedly a happy person right now.

Therefore, in order not to betray her expectations, who said she would share relations for my awakened ability, we were soon sitting naked, facing each other on the large bed.

…Just like newlyweds confirming each other’s state of mind before spending their first night.

“Hye-eun.”

Making eye contact with Kang Hye-eun, who had wiped away the overflowing tears, I tried calling her name as if she were someone else entirely. Not like dealing with the simple relationship of childhood friends until now, or a sex friend for my awakened ability, but like dealing with someone who had already been like a lover for a long time.

Compared to my usual voice, it was unavoidable that it naturally became softer.

“Mm.”

Kang Hye-eun also exchanged glances filled with love and affection while making eye contact with me, and her clear lavender eyes sparkled as if hearts were engraved in them.

They were incredibly beautiful eyes, to the point where I unintentionally thought about wanting to lick those clear eyes with my tongue.

“Thank you, Hye-eun.”

“……”

“For telling me you would share love with me, even after knowing about the foolish things I did.”

To the words of apology and gratitude, which I had already said countless times today, she silently shook her head in reply.

“I’m doing this because I want to, too.”

“……”

“Sharing relations with you, Taekyung, who is always striving relentlessly, is something I like, so I’m doing it.”

“Hye-eun….”

“So don’t worry about it. If you keep doing that, it makes me feel weird too.”

“…Alright.”

Right, that’s certainly true.

Bringing up this topic repeatedly to Kang Hye-eun, who still says she’ll be my lover even after knowing my awakened ability makes me unable to have relations with only one person anymore, would not only make me miserable but would also be an act of disrespecting her choice.

So now, just embracing wholeheartedly the forgiveness she showed me was the most heartfelt expression I could show Kang Hye-eun.

“……”

“……”

After the last conversation ended, she and I looked into each other’s eyes for a long time on the bed, then, without anyone initiating first, we slowly brought our heads closer.

When it felt like our faces had come close enough for our pupils to touch, our nose bridges lightly bumped.

“Heh.”

“Kuh….”

This time, light laughter burst out, almost simultaneously.

I remember us being much more skillful even during our first kiss, but at the sight of our noses blocking each other, preventing our lips from touching, as if it were the zeroth kiss.

We couldn’t help but let out chuckles because we were so ridiculous. In a desire to hide our embarrassment, I pulled the back of her head with my left hand, bringing her face towards mine.

And then, a kiss where we devoured each other’s lips continued for quite a while.

“Haa.”

“Uhh.”

“Hhup, hap….”

As if competing to see who could devour the other’s lips more, she and I bit the other’s lips with our lips several times. As if proving who loved more by who could devour the other’s lips more.

After quite a while spent kissing using only our lips like that, this time I slightly stuck out my tongue and licked her upper lip.

-Hwaljak

“Hhht, hu….”

Her mouth slowly opened up and down with a cute moan, seeming slightly surprised.

I too overlapped my open mouth completely with hers, and this led into a deeper kiss where our tongues met.

Eye to eye, nose to nose, lip to lip.

Tongue to tongue, saliva to saliva, breath to breath.

In less than 10 minutes, she and I shared over ten kinds of kisses for a very long time. Finally, at the end of the long kiss, our faces moved apart, and when we could see each other’s faces again.

“Puhut!”

“Pahhat!”

In the end, we burst out laughing simultaneously, the laughter we had been holding back.

“Ah, seriously! Taekyung, what are you doing!”

“What were you doing, not moving away until our noses collided like elephants?”

“Puhut, o-of course, you should have turned your head first, Taekyung! You did it like that at first!”

“You’ve kissed before, not just once or twice, so it’s not solely my responsibility, you know that, right?”

“Hhht, I don’t know. The mood is totally ruined because of you, Taekyung.”

The memory of the first moment our faces bumped noses reminded us, so it was unavoidable that laughter burst out and the mood broke.

Even though it was clearly a steamy situation with us sitting naked, facing each other on the spacious bed.

“What should we do? Should we stop for today?”

“What the heck? Despite having a fully erect dick, you’re suddenly asking?”

“No, well. It’s because you, Hye-eun, might not be in the mood anymore.”

“Since when do you care about things like that, Taekyung? Last time, whether I told you to stop or not, you were fucking me all over the house.”

“…That’s true.”

I quietly nodded at Hye-eun’s irrefutable statement.

Thanks to that, the mood, which had lightened, became serious again.

“Hye-eun.”

“Mm.”

“It’s hard to call this an apology, but today, I’ll let you take the lead.”

“Hm?”

“I’m fine with missionary, or you sitting on top, or even cunnilingus. I’ll let you do whatever you want, so just tell me anything, Hye-eun.”

Since I didn’t particularly like the female-on-top position, it was a suggestion I made after careful consideration, but Kang Hye-eun just gazed into my eyes and quietly shook her head side to side.

“Taekyung.”

“Mm.”

“What I want the most while making love with you, Taekyung, is for you to do as you please.”

“……Huh?”

“Because when you’re happy, Taekyung, I’m happy too. So, handle me wherever your heart desires, Taekyung.”

“Right now, this moment. I belong to you.”

The moment I heard her shy voice, I quietly became certain.

At this moment.

I am the most loved man in the world.