Is This a Green Light? (3)

Let me confess one thing,

I am in a battle with myself.

In the blue corner is Han Yujin, and in the red corner is HaYoo, constantly engaged in a tug-of-war, endlessly struggling for power.

Han Yujin is somewhat defensive, passive, and static.

On the other hand, HaYoo is aggressive, active, and dynamic.

A space where no questions are allowed.

The only thing that exists is the fact that there is a loser and a winner.

The loser will be perfectly annihilated without any remnants, and the winner will have eternal control over the self.

And.

Yesterday was the day Han Yujin suffered a crushing defeat to HaYoo.

Since when did the sound of donations become so eerie?

Goosebumps rose and my skin prickled.

I slightly raised my head and looked at the chat window.

[The chat messages express amusement at Han Yujin’s situation and reference events from the previous night’s broadcast]

…What is this?

What on earth is this.

Why is the broadcast still on?

I glared at Rilme with a distorted expression.

“Didn’t you turn off the broadcast?!”

“I was too flustered!”

Rilme pulled the blanket over her face and lay back down.

“I’m going to go crazy, really.”

An illusion flickered before my eyes.

Namuwiki. Han Yujin/Controversies and Incidents. Drinking Broadcast Incident. Such illusions.

I brushed up my disheveled hair with my hand and organized my thoughts.

Stay calm, Han Yujin.

Focus all your nerves and try to calmly understand this situation.

First, my appearance.

Looking at the cam screen, fortunately I was properly dressed.

Thankfully, it seems I don’t have the habit of stripping when drunk…

“Huh?”

Or so I thought!

…The clothes I’m wearing now.

It’s an outfit I’ve never seen before.

Looking to the side, my white shirt is sprawled out like a shed skin.

“What is this hideous outfit…”

[The chat messages make suggestive comments about Han Yujin’s outfit]

Right now, I’m wearing,

A short, form-fitting custom dress. The thing commonly called a hostess dress.

In short…

It was exactly the kind of outfit Rilme would wear.

It’s short. Too short.

Too much bare skin is showing vulgarly!

“Ah, you b****!”

I pulled out Rilme, who was hiding in the blanket like a turtle in its shell. I roughly grabbed her collar and shook her left and right.

“F-From now on, you’re the perpetrator and I’m the victim. You have the right to appoint a lawyer!”

“What are you talking about.”

“E-E-Explain!”

“What?”

My hands were shaking and I was stuttering from excitement.

“W-W-Why am I wearing this?”

“I don’t know either~”

Rilme shrugged her shoulders.

“If you don’t know, who would! This is exactly your style of clothing!”

“That’s right. It’s my clothes, but I don’t know why you’re wearing it either?”

No matter how much I rack my brain, I can’t remember anything from last night, as if the film has been cut.

It was a typical blackout symptom.

“Excuse me, respected viewers. Did I… do anything yesterday?”

[The chat messages hint at Han Yujin’s behavior the previous night]

Just then.

A donation provided the answer.

‘CoNamja’ gifted 10 star balloons!

-It’s all archived on GameKorea, let’s go

Hearing that, I sat in the computer chair and quickly accessed the site.

[Game Korea]

[The forum posts discuss Han Yujin’s drunken behavior from the previous night’s broadcast]

The recommended board was full of Han Yujin posts from the first page.

I clicked on one post.

[Title: Han Yujin was so hot yesterday.txt]

[The post describes how Han Yujin’s behavior changed as she drank more alcohol]

“…Crazy bastards.”

I turned the pages one by one.

There were so many posts that I could only find clues about yesterday after about six pages.

[The post titles suggest various embarrassing moments from Han Yujin’s drunken broadcast]

A board that perfectly preserves the remnants of a hell party, like seashells left behind when the tide goes out.

Just the titles are outrageous.

“Aaaaah, damn it!”

A scream naturally escaped.

I didn’t dare to click because of the hair-raising words.

“Hurry up and click. I’m curious too.”

Rilme said, scratching her nose.

“Aren’t… you worried?”

“Ah, I’ve had this image from the start, so it doesn’t matter.”

Rilme giggled annoyingly, as if watching a fire for fun.

I asked the viewers.

“…Is there a full video by any chance?”

I felt like I needed to watch everything without missing anything.

And a fan sent a link to the full video. I adjusted the playback bar and watched the scene of the great disaster.

(Full video)

─Ah, it’s so hot!

In the video, I… no, some crazy woman unbuttoned her white shirt and took it off.

[The chat messages react to Han Yujin’s actions]

‘Queen HaYoo’ gifted 100 star balloons!

-Your pants look uncomfortable too ㅋㅋ

─Oh, I got star balloons! Thank you for the 100 star balloons, nyaa!

Yesterday’s me, imitating a cat with tiny fists against my cheeks.

…Thank you nyaa? Is this b**** crazy?

─You say my pants look uncomfortable? I actually thought so too, hehehe!

She even tried to undo the buckle of her slacks.

─Y-Yujin-nim! W-Wait a moment!

─Ah, whyyy! I’m telling you I’m hot!

Hyun Junho next to me, with wide eyes, grabbed my hands and stopped the tragedy.

…Nice, Hyun Junho.

I went to the next room and changed into the clothes I’m wearing now.

Then, exclamations burst out in the chat window.

[The chat messages express excitement at Han Yujin’s new outfit]

I started smirking as I looked at the chat window.

─Silly… You like it? Okay. If you like it, I really like it too.

The crazy woman even drew a heart in the air and flirted with the viewers.

Then.

Yesterday’s me dropped a bombshell.

─…Should I show you what’s underneath?

[The chat messages respond with mixed reactions]

Before Hyun Junho could stop me, I lifted up my dress.

─Are you crazy, what are you doing!

─Yujin-ssi!

Rilme and Hyun Junho were startled, their expressions sobering up.

I, watching the video, also closed my eyes tightly in resignation.

Ah, it’s over.

─Ta-da! It has built-in shorts. Silly.

─Damn. I thought my heart was going to drop.

─Ah, you really scared me!

[The chat messages react with relief and amusement]

…I’ve really never had this thought in my life before.

I have murderous impulses towards myself.

‘New Country Child Rilme’ gifted 10 star balloons!

-Unni, do your armpits also turn red when you’re drunk?? I’m curious

Hearing that, I tilted my head and responded.

─…Armpits? I’m not sure.

Then I raised my arms wide and revealed my armpits to the world.

─Hehehe. They’re red! It’s so funny, really!

The crazy woman covering her mouth and grinning widely.

[The chat messages react to Han Yujin’s behavior]

The donation sound rang again.

‘New Country Child Rilme’ gifted 10 star balloons!

-But unni,,, what does your feet smell like??

─Feet? I can smell it myself but… wait a moment.

Suddenly, I twisted one corner of my mouth and thrust my white foot towards Hyun Junho.

─Sir.

─Don’t do it.

─Ah, it really doesn’t smell. Really.

─Okay, I get it.

Hyun Junho waving his hand as if brushing off a twisted bug.

─Ah, really! Really! How can this be possible?

─I understand, so put it away.

─Ah, really! Just smell it once! I’m telling you it’s amazing!

─…Sigh.

Hyun Junho, frowning, grabbed my foot and put his nose to it.

Then,

─Ah, damn! Really, a little!

Hyun Junho’s face turned red as he slapped my foot with his palm.

─Puhaha! So funny!

[The chat messages react with laughter and envy]

Wow, isn’t this completely psycho?

But the really scary fact is…

There’s still a lot of video left.

─…Huu. I want to hear mom’s voice.

This time, I made a phone call. It was on speaker, so the entire conversation could be heard.

The ringing stopped and my mom’s longed-for voice was heard softly.

-Yes, Yujin.

─Moooom!

-Why does your voice sound like that? Did something happen?

─No, I just missed you.

They say you become emotional when you drink, and my voice was choked up.

My eyes turned red and chicken-pea sized tears welled up.

─Mom, you know.

-Yes.

─I was really having a hard time.

-Yes, yes.

─But now I’m okay.

-I’m so glad. Mom is sorry.

─There are a lot of good people around me too.

-Yes.

─And the viewers like me too.

Mom laughed, finding me cute.

-Yujin, are you drinking by any chance?

─Yeah. A little bit.

Mom spoke in a low voice, filled with worry.

-Our daughter. Mom and dad couldn’t be there to have a drink with you. I’m sorry we made it hard for you.

─Hehe. It’s okay. I’m fine.

-Yujin, drink moderately and go home safely, okay? Mom is so worried.

I pouted my lips and shook my head at mom’s words.

─No. I’m going to drink a little more before I go!

-Oh my. Seeing you act spoiled makes me want to put you back in my womb.

─Geez, hang up!

-Okay. You should only drink a little.

─…Mom, I love you.

-Yes. Mom is so thankful for you and loves you too.

[The chat messages react with laughter and sympathy]

“Ah, damn it!”

I paused the video for a moment and knelt down.

With my eyes closed, I made the sign of the cross and recited the Apostles’ Creed.

“I believe in God, the Father Almighty, Creator of Heaven and Earth. And in Jesus Christ, His only Son, Our Lord…”

…What was next?

Anyway.

Jesus, God, Mary!

Please grant me just one request.

Let this be the last of my crazy antics.

If you answer, I’ll earn money and build you a church, so please.

[The chat messages react with amusement to Han Yujin’s prayer]

I managed to calm myself down and pressed the spacebar.

The video started playing again.