Chapter 36 : Half-visible Radio

“I’m only telling you guys this, so don’t go around talking about it, okay?”

“It’s a secret just between us, okay? I’m telling you because it’s you and me, I can’t tell anyone else because it’s embarrassing.”

“You know, when I was in 4th grade, I was alone at home on the weekend, bored and lonely. So I went to my friend’s house to play, but back then, kids didn’t carry cell phones yet.”

“What? Dentures? Yeah, you guys are so lucky to be young. Hmph.”

“Anyway, since there were no phones, I just went without making plans, you know? But when I was about to ring the doorbell in front of my friend’s house, I suddenly had this thought.”

“What if my friend isn’t home? It’s fine if she’s there, but what if she’s not? What do I do if she’s not there?”

“If she’s not home, her mom or dad will come out, right?”

“But I’m not familiar with her mom and dad, you know? I’m very shy. So I didn’t feel confident talking to unfamiliar adults.”

“So I did a simulation in my head. What if her mom comes out and says, ‘Oh, she’s not home right now. She went out to play’?”

“What if her dad comes out instead of her mom? I think I could at least talk to her mom since I see her face often. But if her dad comes out, I don’t think I could even open my mouth.”

“I was thinking about all these what-ifs, what if this, what if that, what if, what if, what if, and then suddenly, my friend’s door burst open.”

“Her mom came out and said, ‘Oh? Ruffian, are you here? Our hyung went out to play.’”

“So I said, ‘Oh, I see. Goodbye,’ and ran away.”

-FriedChickenMonster: What is she even talking about? I don’t understand any of this

-DesirableGirl: What is this social anxiety disorder 

-pikapikapika : The internet Ruffian is actually a shut-in who runs 1000 mental simulations in real life?!

-YangUiYeon11: You really understand the needs of Switch viewers, teacher, you’re truly a great character

JungleIsHell: Her friend’s name is hyung. 

“Ugh. It’s not a concept. I just felt like talking about myself today. But if you’re going to tease me and not believe me, then I just won’t talk about myself anymore. Hmph hmph.”

-egzetus: The details are extraordinary 

-tntn0431: ᄅᄋ Where else on the internet can you hear such a vivid story 

LastLightOfNationRuffian : It’s unusual, it’s unusual, it’s unusual, it’s unusual, it’s unusual, it’s unusual

[RuffianBattalion donated a whopping 5,000 won!]

If you’ve ever stuttered more than three times when trying to order at a fast food restaurant, upvote 

“Upvote! Kiosks are really the best invention of the 21st century, right? You all agree, right? Yes?”

[NamBongRe donated a whopping 5,000 won!]

Upvote if you’ve ever had your voice crack when trying to answer ‘Do you need a bag?’ at a convenience store

“Upvote! People really do live similar lives, don’t they?”

-OverreactionModerator : I knew you guys were shut-ins, but I didn’t know it was this bad;

-SquidTacoYaki : Is this real? How can a person be like that????

-nadang: We’re all comrades watching the same stream, don’t look down on shut-ins 

-RunawayRuffianFromNursingHomeVolunteering : The PTSD is coming back 

-LeftRightSupport: How did you even make friends if you’re so shy 

“It wasn’t me who made friends, the teacher told the class president to take good care of Ruffian. You know what I mean?”

-Sand’sLoveDog: Stop the memory violence!

-DesirableGirl: I can’t tell if it’s real or a concept 

-hoguumme: If it’s acting, she’s definitely a genius 

StoleTheTowerPlateGoldRuffian : What kind of lives have you guys been living???

The chat was divided between the ‘real’ and the ‘fake’, with the real ones empathizing and the fake ones being confused.

At 4 PM, I turned on the stream at the regular opening time, greeted people while listening to two songs, and when the number of viewers reached around 1,000, I shared a secret story.

During the last joint broadcast, when I caused the great bleeding incident, I thought everyone would leave me because of my inexplicable annoyance and willfulness.

But the viewers who comforted and soothed me at that time made me feel a little attached, so I wanted to share a little bit of my story and be heard.

I guess I wanted to connect on a deeper level? Something like that.

But now that I’ve shared this real shut-in story, I feel my face turning red, and I kind of regret saying it. I’m so embarrassed.

“No, never mind. Let’s just say it was a concept! Pretend you didn’t hear it, it was just a joke!”

-MorningRice: Look at her suddenly getting embarrassed  So cute

HawaiianPizzaLover: Yeah~ I’ll never forget this~ I’ll remember it for a thousand years and keep teasing you~

LastLightOfNationRuffian : The ‘peak’ of shut-in stories, Ruffian! The ‘peak’ of shut-in stories, Ruffian! The ‘peak’ of shut-in stories, Ruffian! The ‘peak’ of shut-in stories, Ruffian! The ‘peak’ of shut-in stories, Ruffian! The ‘peak’ of shut-in stories, Ruffian! The ‘peak’ of shut-in stories, Ruffian!

“This isn’t the peak. Don’t you guys all have a story like this?”

-EatClementines : Who has such a powerful story, teacher

-YoonJeongHo: Ruffian! You’re the best!

Okay, I admit defeat!

[KkuSil donated a whopping 5,000 won!]

-A bee flew in through the window during class, and I screamed ‘Woah!’, and the girl next to me was surprised and said, ‘Wow, I’ve never heard you talk before!’

“I know, I know.”

I have no idea how people just talk to anyone.

[KasRik donated a whopping 5,000 won!]

-Whenever there was an odd number of people on field trips or school trips, the teacher always sat next to me ᄏᄏ

“Right, right. We viewers were all friends after all.”

After establishing common ground, I revealed my face cam before turning on LoL. I put some special effort into my outfit today, so I was looking forward to the reactions.

“I prepared this because I thought you guys would like it, what do you think?”

A checkered H-line skirt in red/navy.

On top, a white blouse. I left the top three buttons undone, revealing my cleavage.

What do you get when you combine the two? That’s right, a look of a schoolgirl who knows how to have fun.

If last time was an innocent girlfriend look, this time it’s a very provocative, sexy look.

Anyway, since I’ve been feeling so good since the last broadcast