Chapter 32: I miss my mother

How much time has passed? An hour? Two hours?

I don’t know.

Slurp- Slurp-

Since my brain melted from the unknown drug, the concept of time no longer had any meaning to me. All I could do was accept reality helplessly, thoroughly crushed by Mardian.

“Sob…sob….”

Where did it all go wrong?

Did I do something wrong?

My childhood friend, loved by everyone. I merely imitated her. I just copied her actions, basking in the goodwill of many people.

Like her, I greeted people with a bright smile, listened attentively to others’ stories, and captured hearts with just the right amount of charm.

But the result was entirely different.

My childhood friend won the affection of many men and women, but no one ever crossed the line with her. The most they did was timidly confess. No one ever took it further.

How do I know this? Because she would always boast to me whenever something happened.

[Hey, guess what? I got a confession today. From the senior known to be the most handsome in our department.]

-……..

[Hmm…that’s it? You don’t feel anything special?]

-…..

[…If only you were a girl instead.]

-…?

[Oh? No, it’s nothing.]

She sometimes said incomprehensible, strange things, but she was a beautiful woman living happily with everyone’s affection.

At least, yeah, she never found herself in a situation where she was raped by another woman like I am now.

So why am I in this situation?

I just followed her actions,

There shouldn’t have been any mistakes in my actions……

Why am I………

Why am I going through this?

“Open your mouth.”

Mardian’s resentful voice pulled me out of my thoughts. At her command, I weakly opened my mouth, like a puppet with its strings cut. Not missing the chance, Mardian crashed her lips into mine and thrust her tongue into my open mouth.

Slurp- Slurp-

Mardian no longer gave me water. Instead, she quenched my thirst with the filthy saliva flowing abundantly.

“Ah…ugh…….”

Mardian’s tongue rummaged through my mouth. Every time her tongue moved, my body trembled. Enveloping my tongue, rummaging through my mouth, she thoroughly drenched me with her sticky saliva.

After what felt like an eternity of ravaging my mouth, Mardian pulled away, panting heavily, leaving a thin string of saliva between us. Licking her lips, she looked down at me with her fierce, burning red eyes.

“Ha, fuck, I can’t take it. Just marry me, Tina. I’ll make you happy.”

Her rough words made my body tremble slightly.

Why.

I gave her my mouth as she wanted, fulfilled her disgusting and vile desires, yet her red eyes still burned with a chilling desire.

“Sob, M-Mardian, please…stop…”

No. Stop now. My body feels like it’s going to melt…I’m going to die. I did as you wanted. Please stop and let me go.

“…This bitch is begging to be fucked, isn’t she?”

However, what returned was only a voice brimming with such desperation that it was almost unbearable. In a situation where not even a glimmer of hope could be seen, my rationality began to slowly fade.

“I’ll do as you wish, Tina.”

“N-No….”

Mardian’s hand slowly approached me. I struggled with all my might to push that hand away, but the more I resisted, the more painfully Mardian pressed down on me.

“N-No…don’t come any closer…I don’t want this….”

“It’s alright. You’ll surely feel good.”

With just one hand, Mardian firmly grabbed both of my wrists, restraining me. The strength of her grip was beyond imagination, and I was overcome by a feeling of helplessness. Every time her rough breath touched my face, waves of fear and despair washed over me.

While restraining my wrists with one hand, she slowly brought the other hand to my face. Her fingers slid down my cheek, and I shuddered at the cold, creepy sensation.

“N-No…stop it, please….”

“Finally, I get to touch your fruit.”

Mardian’s red eyes blazed like fire. Her breath, which flowed out of her mouth, sounded like a beast’s howl, making it even more uncomfortable to hear. Despite my fierce resistance, her hand drew closer and closer.

At last, her hand slipped through the gap in my disheveled shirt and touched my two buds. Mardian mercilessly grabbed one of my breasts and squeezed it with all her might.

“Aagh?!”

A sharp pain surged through me, making my back arch dramatically. The unbearable pain momentarily blurred my vision and made me feel dizzy.

“…Ah, Tina, even your breasts are so lovely.”

“It hurts…! It hurts!!”

“Endure it for your master.”

With those words, Mardian’s hand began to move more violently. Like a child playing with clay, her rough, unfeeling hand squeezed my breast. Her fingers dug into my flesh mercilessly, and waves of pain washed over me.

“Aagh?! Stop!! It hurts…!”

“…This is better than any drug.”

It seemed my desperate screams were unheard. Mardian only stared at my chest with eyes devoid of rationality.

‘N-No, this is wrong, I can’t take this anymore.’

My body felt strange. Every time she squeezed and released, electric currents seemed to run down my spine, spreading a tingling sensation throughout my body.

My vision blurred. My mind slowly began to fade. If I lost my sanity like this, I felt I would never return to my former self.

I gritted my teeth and summoned all the remaining strength and sanity I had. Using all my strength, I pushed Mardian’s hand away, showing hostility towards her for the first and last time.

Slap-!

With a sound of flesh tearing, Mardian’s head whipped to the side. A red wound appeared on her fair right cheek. As I looked at the bewildered Mardian, I let out the resentment and hatred boiling inside me.

“S-Stop it, you perverted witch..! You’re just a game character! I’ve killed you countless times in the game!”

For the first time, I let out the words that I had been holding inside. If I had been in my right mind, I would never have said such things. But with the strange drug affecting me, my mind was hazy, and I ended up making a mistake.

“…Tina.”

And that mistake eventually led to an irreversible outcome.

“Huh!?”

Mardian’s red eyes flashed, and her two hands quickly grabbed my neck. The sudden pain made my body tremble as if in convulsions.

Squeeze-!

“Ha, ha… Ugh!!”

Mardian’s grip on my neck grew stronger and stronger. My body instinctively gasped for air to survive, but her fierce grip did not allow me any oxygen.

“Huh, ugh, huh.”

I frantically pulled at Mardian’s hair and kicked her body, but even so, Mardian leisurely squeezed my neck.

“It seems Tina is not as obedient as I thought.”

“Ha, ugh…! I, can’t… breathe!”

“But it’s okay. I’ll tame you slowly, for a very long time. I really cherish you.”

“Ha, ugh.”

As my body grew weaker from the lack of oxygen, my frantic struggle for survival waned, and my arms and legs went limp like a puppet with its strings cut.

‘No… not again…’

The suffocating pain from the strangling.

The excruciating pain as if my lungs would burst.

It was a feeling all too familiar.

[I’m resentful of you. If only you hadn’t been born, my life wouldn’t have become so miserable!!]

I thought this life would be different.

But for a pathetic person like me,

No matter what I do, will it always end like this?

The memories I never wanted to recall again began to resurface in a situation all too similar.

[Why, why were you born…! Because of you, I…!]

I hear her voice. Mardian’s hands choking my neck overlap with hers.

I begged for my life back then too.

I apologized back then too.

[Who’s your mother!! I never once wanted you! Die…! Just die! Die along with that damn child!]

But just like then, now too, the woman in front of me mercilessly chokes my neck.

“When you wake up, we’ll start your training again, Tina. This time, you’ll become my pet, won’t you?”

A tear slid helplessly down my cheek. As Mardian finished her last words, the thread of my remaining sanity snapped, and my vision began to fade.

‘I… miss my mother.’

Even knowing it wasn’t love directed at me. What I wanted most in this moment was to see her blue eyes looking at me tenderly.

Just as I was about to close my eyes and lose consciousness, there was a deafening roar, and the carriage shook violently. Mardian’s eyes twitched, and the hands strangling me finally released their grip from my neck.

My body was suddenly freed, but I was so drained of energy that I collapsed onto the bed, gasping for breath, struggling to regain my lost breath.

“It is…!”

Mardian’s trembling voice reached my ears. I barely managed to lift my heavy eyelids and looked towards where her voice was directed.

“…There is someone desperately looking for the lady, so I had to be rude and cause this disturbance.”

At the unexpected appearance of this person, I blinked in confusion.

Black hair flowing like the beautiful night sky, and amethyst eyes shining nobly between the strands. Standing before me was someone I thought I would never encounter again.

“Even if you are a lady of the noble house, breaking the carriage of our count’s family is too much!!”

“Say one more word, Mardian.”

Mardian was silenced by Viviana’s chilling aura that filled the entire space. As Mardian swallowed dryly with trembling eyes, Viviana, gripping a sword covered in blood, approached us.

“I said, say one more word?”

This is strange…

Viviana, I thought you had lost interest in me. I thought you wouldn’t care about me at all anymore.

“Say one more word so I can tear that disgusting mouth of yours in half.”

But am I seeing things wrong?

Viviana…

Why… do you seem so angry?