I should have.

    I saw the signs, felt the shift in her mood, watched her retreat further and further into that tiny glowing screen like it was the only window she had left in a house full of locked doors.

    It was built.

    Layer by layer.

    Stone by stone.

    And I helped lay the foundation.

    That I wasn’t aware.

    That I couldn’t have predicted it.

    Not the whole picture.

    But enough.

    Enough to stop it.

    Enough to try.

    The golden child.

    The backup heir to the family name after their first project, me, crashed and burned.

    It was pressure.

    Pure, sharp, suffocating pressure.

    Like living under a microscope that burned instead of magnified.

    When to study.

    What to eat.

    Who to talk to.

    What to be.

    They were chains.

    The one I’m in now.

    They were the only ones who let her be herself.

    Quietly.

    Laughing under her breath, the kind of laugh I hadn’t heard in months.

    Asked who she was talking to.

    Said it was a group chat about her favorite game.

    Told her to enjoy it.

    Pressed further.

    Who was in that chat?

    How did she find them?

    What kind of people were they?

    I could have checked.

    They were clueless.

    They didn’t even know what Discord was.

    To them, “online chat” meant email.

    Maybe a school app.

    Who survived in digital spaces.

    I knew how fast things got dark, how easy it was for filth to blend in and pretend to care.

    Three times.

    Like always.

    There was something off about her voice.

    Too small.

    Too careful.

    I got up, opened the door— And there she was.

    Shoulders trembling.

    Clutching her phone like it had claws.

    Didn’t smile.

    Didn’t joke.

    She just walked in, sat on my bed, and stared at the floor.

    “I didn’t know who else to tell.”

    Told herself it was probably just someone lonely.

    That maybe she was misunderstanding things.

    Started DMing her friends.

    Threatened to leak things she had said in private.

    Said he would tell her parents she was in an adult server if she didn’t keep talking to him.

    “I didn’t think— I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”

    Dumb.

    Useless.

    “You know how dangerous that is, Areum! What if he was someone worse?! What if he—?!”

    Her shoulders were already shaking.

    Reported every account.

    Wiped the app.

    Deleted everything.

    Made sure nothing was left.

    Relief.

    Guilt.

    Shame.

    All fighting for space.

    “You’re safe now.”

    “Just… be more careful next time.”

    Should’ve traced his IP.

    Should’ve found out who he was.

    I didn’t mean to.

    But I lied.

    Some corporate party.

    Or a networking party.

    Or maybe a wine-tasting circle jerk with other equally self-important people.

    I don’t even remember what the excuse was.

    Eyes heavy.

    I hadn’t slept properly in days, maybe weeks.

    My vision blurred.

    My ears rang.

    I could feel it; this sickening pop followed by warm, wet pain flooding my mouth.

    He responded with his own blows, each racking my body with types of pain I had never experienced. 

    I didn’t stop clawing.

    Kicking.

    Screaming.

    ***

    Furniture splintered. 

    And then—


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