Chapter 138: We were supposed to sleep together.

Was it just a simple mistake, or had the violence deeply embedded within my mother momentarily burst forth?

It lasted only a brief moment. In that instant, my mother’s two thumbs pressed down forcefully on my Adam’s apple.

“Gah! Ugh?!”

My body reacted instantly. The pain of having my Adam’s apple crushed was an entirely different sensation from merely being choked.

A sharp, stinging pain shot up my throat, and nausea surged, rising all the way to my head.

“Ugh…! Urk, blegh…!”

I barely managed to hold it in, nearly throwing up, but thankfully, it ended with just dry heaving.

“T-Tina! Are you okay?!”

My mother hurriedly supported me. Her hands were trembling slightly, and her wide, shaking eyes revealed just how shocked she was.

“I-I’m sorry. I accidentally put too much strength in my arms…”

There was a clear glimmer of regret in her eyes. She must have been overwhelmed by guilt at the realization that she had hurt her own daughter.

I reached out and grabbed my mother’s retreating hands. Then, with a firm grip, I pulled them back toward my neck.

“I… liked it.”

“You… liked it?”

A look of bewilderment flashed across my mother’s face. It had been so long since I’d seen her this shaken.

“Mother, to me, your happiness is ten times—no, a hundred times—more important than my own.”

That was the truth.

Even if I had to sacrifice my body, if it could bring her happiness, then it would return to me as an even greater joy.

Surely, my mother must feel the same way.

“If you’re sad, I feel twice as sad. If you’re struggling, I feel it ten times more.”

I met my mother’s gaze as I continued.

“Of course, being loved by you makes me happy, but knowing that I can help you… I know that will make me even happier.”

“Tina…”

“So, this is for me.”

I carefully lifted my mother’s thumb and placed it back on my Adam’s apple.

“For me… would you let yourself enjoy this?”

“T-Tina, but…”

“I’m sure it will feel good.”

The violence hidden deep within human nature—most people try to suppress it. But suppressing it doesn’t mean it disappears.

Mother was no different.

“Not for you, but for me… Could you let out everything you’ve been holding back?”

Hesitation was still visible in my mother’s eyes.

Then, a thought crossed my mind—the way my mother always adored my affectionate gestures. Even when she was upset, if I acted sweetly enough, she would quickly soften.

I felt a twinge of guilt, as if I were taking advantage of her weakness… but this was for her, so it was okay.

I lowered my eyes slightly, making them look rounder and more innocent than usual. Then, in the sweetest voice I could muster, I whispered:

“Can’t you, Mommy…?”

“Ah!”

Mommy.

At that single word, my mother flinched and stepped back in shock.

Her face flushed a deeper shade of red than usual, and with ragged breaths, she turned her gaze away from me. Then, with trembling hands, she pushed herself up from the floor.

“It’s… warm in here. I’ll go for a short walk. You should go to bed first.”

“Huh? Then, I-I’ll come with—”

“No, just go to sleep. I’ll be back soon.”

With those final words, my mother hurriedly left the bedroom as if she were fleeing.

I stared blankly at the empty space she had left behind and muttered absentmindedly.

“…All by myself?”

We were supposed to sleep together.

***

The next morning dawned as bright as ever.

Especially in the sunlit Blanc mansion, the atmosphere felt more radiant than anywhere else.

“Take care of yourself, and give my regards to the Saintess.”

Mother smiled faintly and stroked my head. She looked as affectionate as usual, but my cheeks were puffed up in a sulk, filled with disappointment.

“Yes.”

My voice was short and somewhat cold. I couldn’t hide my feelings of disappointment.

Mother had said she would go for a walk the night before, but she didn’t return for a long time.

In fact, she didn’t come back until I had fallen asleep.

The next day, when I asked, she said she had spent the night in my bedroom, not with me.

If that was the case, it would have been better if she had just kicked me out.

Hmph.

I was worried that Mother might be distancing herself from me because of what I had done yesterday, but she still spoke to me with loving eyes.

It was as if she was trying to brush aside what had happened yesterday.

It seemed that Mother had no intention of satisfying her desires with my body.

“…Well, I’ll be going then.”

With a weak voice, I bid farewell to Mother and got into the carriage.

Mother hesitated for a moment, then gently kissed my forehead.

“I love you, my daughter. More than anyone else in the world.”

“…Me too.”

Still, I didn’t want to part on such a weak note, so I gave Mother a faint smile and said my final goodbye.

Soon after, the carriage set off towards Lillian’s mansion.

I held the gift I had prepared for Lillian and turned my gaze out the window.

I felt somewhat powerless.

I thought my pretty appearance was my greatest asset, but it seemed to have no effect on Mother.

No, perhaps I just wasn’t that attractive.

Thinking about it, I don’t have a voluptuous figure like Mother, nor do I have the intense charisma of Viviana, or the bright and cheerful demeanor of Lillian.

My face, though pretty, seems timid and lacks any clear standout features.

Maybe my charm just doesn’t reach Mother’s heart.

“Am I… not attractive?”

This thought suddenly crossed my mind.

Perhaps I’m so unattractive that Mother doesn’t even feel the desire to torment me.

But this thought was soon proven wrong when I arrived at Lillian’s mansion.

My charms worked on her immediately.

“Kkeh, heuk— huk!”

“Y-you were the one who seduced me first, Tina!”

Lillian, having lost her rationality, glared at me sharply.

Her hands gripped my neck roughly. Her firm thumbs pressed hard against my Adam’s apple.

“Kkek! Ahk…! Ohk…!”

I gasped for breath as my body convulsed violently. Seemingly annoyed by my trembling, Lillian pinned my legs down with one of hers.

Then, as she pressed her other leg hard against my lower abdomen, a transparent stream of liquid gushed out into the air.

“Ahk, ohk, heuk, kkeh—”

“Y-you…! How dare you become so lewd when I wasn’t looking! Are you trying to spread rumors that you want to be raped?!”

What I had done wasn’t much.

I led Lillian to the bedroom, rubbed my body against her stomach, and whispered that I had missed her.

Perhaps because I clung to her more than usual due to the rejection from Mother, Lillian completely lost her rationality and began to pour violence onto my body.

“Ah? Heh—uh, Lillian… I like you….”

“Ugh…! Y-you bitch…!”

“Ah?! If you press there, I’ll…!”

“Just let it go!”

Splash—

Seeing the Saintess, as she is called, lose her rationality to this extent made me think that maybe I’m not so unattractive after all.

Why doesn’t Mother use me to satisfy her desires?

After a while of pressing down on my lower abdomen and neck, Lillian finally let me go once her desires were satisfied.

Even though Lillian had released me, my body continued to tremble from the aftereffects.

I felt like I might faint, but seeing Lillian’s now lighter expression, a sense of satisfaction and happiness spread from within, and I gradually felt better.

As expected, I seemed to feel happiness when bringing joy to someone else.

“Haa… Tina, I’m warning you in advance—don’t tempt me like that.”

“Hehe… I like you, Lillian.”

Lying helplessly on the floor, I smiled at Lillian.

At my action, something seemed to switch on in her again, as the rationality in her eyes disappeared once more.

Lillian pounced on me again.

I was only freed after the bed sheets were completely soaked in a transparent liquid.

Once Lillian had calmed down a bit, I finally handed her the gift I had prepared.

“This… is for me?”

What she held in her hands was a set of basic cosmetics—something essential for any woman.

Of course, I didn’t know much about makeup since I never used it myself, but having heard endless conversations about cosmetics during my time as a pet noble, I had managed to pick out some for Lillian.

“Lillian, you don’t wear makeup, right?”

“…That’s right. I’ve never been very interested in it.”

“That’s why I prepared this for you. Of course, your face is already so beautiful that makeup isn’t necessary at all, but… on special occasions, it might be nice to use it once in a while.”

It wasn’t just flattery.

As expected of the protagonist, both Lillian and Viviana possessed such overwhelmingly stunning looks that even the most elegant noble ladies couldn’t compare—even without makeup.

“I… I’d love to see you wearing makeup someday, Lillian. I’m sure you’d look breathtaking.”

At my words, Lillian’s eyes began losing their rationality again.

Uh… don’t tell me we’re doing this again?

I had no idea what kept triggering Lillian’s switch, but unfortunately, I didn’t have much stamina left.

Luckily, Lillian let out a short sigh and managed to regain her composure.

“Thank you for the gift. I’ll be sure to use it well.”

“Hehe, I’m glad.”

“Actually, I had something I wanted to check with you, Tina. This is perfect.”

Lillian moved closer to me and reached out a hand.

“Tina, would you mind holding my hand for a moment?”

“Huh? Oh… sure.”

“Tell me if it hurts.”

Though I was confused, I nodded in agreement.

Soon, a pure white light surrounded Lillian, gradually flowing into my body.

“Are you alright?”

“Huh? I don’t feel anything strange.”

“I thought so…”

Lillian nodded with a serious expression.

It seemed like she was deep in thought, considering something carefully.

Then, as she looked back at me, she wore the brightest smile I had ever seen.

“Congratulations, Tina.”

“Huh?”

“It seems the demon has finally left your body.”

“Uh…”

“You’re finally free now.”

Hmm…

That demon.

It’s in my room right now, though.