Chapter 121

Chapter 121

Episode 121: Deficiency “Hmm.”…Emily was tossing and turning in bed when she suddenly opened her eyes. The moonlight that seeped through the window dyed the room in a blue hue, illuminating it brightly. “….What caught her eye was not the familiar appearance of the room. Emily blinked a couple of times, blankly looking around the room, and then smiled as if she had realized something. The sensation of skin touching behind and the thick arms that embrace one’s body. The skin shines in a deep green color even under the moonlight. “Crunch.”..A rough breathing sound could be heard from behind. It was a breath closer to that of a beast than a human, but to Emily, it simply sounded familiar. Charka. He was a guard of the Retila Adventurers Guild and an orc who occasionally had relations with Emily. Now, having a relationship with him was nothing special. Emily, who received the teachings of the mother goddess from Lila, sometimes engaged in relationships like this with Charka to supplement her background. “….”However, it is not just for the sake of history.” Emily was realizing it herself. If the purpose was really to spread the story, she should have become a prostitute like when Laila was at the Lakers. If not, go to the outskirts of Karaldin and sell your body like last time. In terms of efficiency, that option was much better. But Emily did not do that. Was it something I didn’t do, or something I couldn’t do? She could not tell which one of the two it was. And the reason Emily visited Charka last night was also unknown. I…Was it because I was lonely?She thought of Lila’s face. The claim of distributing electricity was just an excuse. After Lila said she had something to do and left, she had to fall asleep alone in a room that had been empty for a long time. It was not unbearably difficult. I just thought that it would be better if someone was there with me when I lay in bed. …I wonder if that’s true. “No, then you should have gone to El.”Emily shook her head slightly, denying the excuse she had come up with herself. It’s understandable that while Charkar is fine, a friend from a past life feels more familiar than an orc from another race. Nevertheless, the fact that she came to Charka’s accommodation…. ‘….In the end, I needed a man too.Emily faced her inner self and made a complicated expression. It cannot be said to be clean, but it also cannot be said to be ugly. If it had been before, I would have blamed myself for being a color-obsessed person, but during my time with Lila, my rigid notions about sex gradually faded. I still have some resistance to things like picking up customers or engaging in group sex like Laila, but that feeling is more akin to fear of the unfamiliar, not a hesitation about mixing my body with a man. “Hoo.”…Emily could not determine whether her change was due to the influence of the mother figure or her own original personality. She was not like that originally. Even if I was born with a female body, I intended to live with a male mind. When did it change, I wonder? After mixing with Charka and experiencing the orgy in Mesatria, she changed drastically. As a woman, I realized the joy of leaning on a man, and there was also the justification of learning martial arts. And even if it is not necessarily the distribution of electricity, there is also the purpose of alleviating loneliness and boredom. No matter how cheap the pleasure is, once you surrender yourself to it and find comfort in it, it becomes difficult to escape. “Is this why Lila was looking for a man?”…At this point, I felt that I could somewhat understand Laila’s heart. If someone were to ask me now whether I could live without sex, I wouldn’t be able to confidently answer that I could. // Even after the morning sun rose, Emily could not leave the room of the Tsar. She could not refuse the czar who woke up, embracing herself with hands full of desire. After having relations three more times like that, she was finally able to leave the accommodation of Charka. “Ugh.”..Emily let out a faint moan and awkwardly moved her steps. The intercourse that continued from last night was so intense that my genitals were sore and burning, and I still felt a strange sensation as if the penis of Charka was still inside me. Spending the night with Charka without Lila was indeed a difficult task. On the other hand, the history of the power outage had accumulated quite a bit. It was an abundance of energy that was hard to believe could come from just one person. Emily smiled softly at the sensation felt in her lower abdomen, then suddenly burst into a hollow laugh. “Ahaha.”..”She could not distinguish whether the faithful feeling she was experiencing now originated from the essence of her lower dantian or from the mere fact that she had established a relationship with the chakra.” My mind is complicated and confused. However, surprisingly, I didn’t feel that bad. She felt herself changing, but she also didn’t think it was that bad. If the direction of that change is towards getting closer to Laila, it can’t necessarily be said to be a bad thing.

-Tap.

“….?”When Emily entered the accommodation, she was able to spot a familiar face.” “Elysion Nosferatu?”” “….Are you calling that name on purpose?”Although I confidently named it, I regretted it just three days after naming it,” Emily mentioned, and El responded with a puzzled expression. However, that was only for a moment; soon she corrected her expression and sent a curious glance towards Emily. Where did you go last night? I came to talk for a moment, but they weren’t there.”It was not a question with a mischievous meaning.” El did not ask knowing where Emily was headed. In response to that question filled with pure curiosity, Emily paused for a moment and then smiled. With a smile on my lips, I answered. “Ah, I’m sorry.” I slept with a guy I know.”Ah, I see.”…Huh?”El nodded absentmindedly, then replayed the smile etched on Emily’s lips and the meaning of her words in her mind.” And a little later. “….What?!!?”She shouted at Emily with a face that seemed to be in tremendous shock.” “Uh.”..El. Since this place is not soundproof, I think it would be better to be a little quieter.”Oh, really?” Understood….What do you know! You, honestly tell me. You’re not Emily, are you? So Laila just transformed into Emily?”El stammered and reached out his finger towards Emily, shouting loudly, but Emily shook her head and replied.” “El. According to the guild’s information, the doppelganger has already been extinct for a long time.”No.”…That’s not what I meant. Anyway, they say that the quiet cat mates first on the kitchen counter, and I never thought you would fall so low….Emily tilted her head while listening to Elle’s words. Even if there is a proverb about a well-behaved cat, can we really call it corruption? They just spoke like that, but their actions might not have changed much since meeting El. If there is any difference, it is that what I used to do with Lila, I can now do alone. Emily wiped the playful smile off her face and, with a gentle smile, spoke to El as if giving advice. It was as if an older sister was teaching her younger sister the ways of the world. “L, having sex does not mean falling into depravity.””I even said it!” That word! I wanted to speak too…No, that’s not it.Emily shook her head with a bitter smile at Elle’s intense reaction. “Well, since you are still naive, this topic might be overwhelming for you.”” “….What?”At those words, El seemed to be genuinely shocked.” For Emily, it was a statement filled with honest feelings, but sometimes, no. In many more cases than that, honesty and truth become the sharpest blades that pierce the heart of the other person. Emily’s honest words to Elle sounded like this.

-Well, a naive girl like you will probably never have sex and will die alone.

Emily did not actually say such a thing. In particular, the latter part of the statement was purely the inner voice that echoed in El’s mind. However, Elysion Nosferatu, who was an avid fan of animation and a devoted reader of light novels in his previous life, reinterpreted Emily’s words in his mind with a uniquely twisted emotional perspective, transforming them into a malicious intent embodied in a blade, and with that, he stabbed himself in the solar plexus. In the magnificent self-destruct sequence, El unconsciously recalled someone’s face. He was a bit lazy, but caring, and in her opinion, she thought he was quite cool. “….”Me too,” she murmured softly, with her head bowed. “Huh?Emily tried to ask back because she couldn’t hear what she was saying, but it wasn’t necessary. “I will also play with boys!”!El let out a fierce cry, covering her flushed face with her hands as she stepped out of the room. It was the attitude of a child that was not fitting for someone who is twenty years old, and El herself must have realized that. The die had already been cast. “….Emily stared blankly at the door through which El had exited. // “….Hmm.”How long has it been since I felt the throbbing pain in my head?” Since I had not experienced any minor illnesses after mastering martial arts, the headache I felt after a long time was almost refreshing. As my dazed consciousness returns, my senses slowly come back to life, and my blurred vision gradually regains its color. “…Huh?The first thing I saw was a strange ceiling. I wonder if it’s an inn somewhere. Thinking that way, I unconsciously rise my body. ….Oh, it’s not working. Why isn’t it working? I tried to get up once more, but my limbs, which should move naturally, still wouldn’t budge. No, it’s not just that I don’t budge; I have absolutely no feeling at all. What on earth is going on? As I tilted my head in confusion and looked down at my body, an incredibly bizarre sight caught my eye. “….What is this?Both arms are from just below the shoulders to the fingertips. And both legs extend from the part where the thighs start below the pelvis to the tips of the toes. The skin of the limbs was stained gray. ….No. It is not dyed gray. This is definitely that. The statue I saw when I walked the streets with Chenber. Like the statue I saw then, my body has turned to stone. I became dazed and carefully examined my body. Seeing it like this, it is clearly felt that there is no sensation in the limbs. Even if I try to move, my petrified limbs do not budge. The shoulder part, which still has some color left, moved slightly when lifted, but it is impossible to show any complex movements like a human. The limbs exposed under the sleeveless top and skirt were not bound by anything. There are no handcuffs, nor even bracelets or jewelry, yet I cannot move. What on earth is going on? I stared at my petrified limbs for a while, and suddenly something came to my mind, and I muttered. “….The vibe is not there.”Moreover, it is not displayed in the middle of the street.” Of course, I know that it can’t be that way, but still, it’s unavoidable to feel a bit disappointed. …I wanted to experience being fossilized and exhibited at least once.