Ch.8787. That Night, You and I – side. Hwanabi (1)

“…Siwoo, please want me too.”

I said it.

I finally… said it.

After waiting for three years, I finally conveyed my true feelings to him.

The moment I realized this fact, my heart pounded so hard it felt like it would burst. No, actually, it had been pulsing wildly for quite some time already.

When did my heart, my feelings, start racing like this?

Was it when I discovered “something” in that secret place under the blanket I was lifting to tidy up the bedding?

Or was it when I pretended to be drunk, leaned against him, and acted cute?

Or perhaps… when he was kissing me and subtly began touching various parts of my body?

…No, it probably wasn’t for such trivial reasons.

After all… my heart had been pounding long before that.

While I was trying to suppress my throbbing chest, he finally spoke.

“Hwa Nabi.”

Those three syllables of my name embroidered by his pleasant baritone voice made me so happy that… I unconsciously smiled broadly.

“Yes, Siwoo.”

“Are you… sure about this?”

…What does he mean? I was about to ask that when I hesitated for a moment. He had reached out slowly and was gently stroking my bangs.

His fingertips have calluses. Perhaps because of that, they feel somewhat rough and coarse… but contrary to that, his movements themselves are very gentle.

So when I feel his touch, it gives me the impression that he cherishes me greatly.

…I really am in serious condition.

“…Sure about what?”

“Well… what you just said, whether you’re confident you won’t regret it… something like that.”

Having withdrawn his hand by now, he scratched his cheek with an extremely embarrassed expression. This person really… is he asking such a question even at this point?

“Well…”

I wanted to tell him that I had made up my mind three years ago, that it was already settled long before he thought, but… I was afraid he might be shocked if I said that, so I barely held back and answered.

“…Don’t worry. I won’t… regret anything.”

“…Really?”

He answered leisurely, lowered his hand, looked at me directly… and nodded with an expression as if he had made some decision. Then he moved his upper body, slowly approached, and embraced me tightly.

“But… there’s something you should know.”

“…What is it?”

He doesn’t answer my question, just lets out a troubled sigh. Is it because it’s an awkward subject to talk about?

After seeming to contemplate for a while, he eventually appeared to gather his resolve, cleared his throat once, and fiddled with my shoulder strap.

“Once I start, I can’t stop in the middle.”

“Can’t stop? What do you… mean?”

“Well… you know. Once we start, I mean I need to do it several times…”

He whispered in my ear while holding me. But I couldn’t immediately understand what he meant, so I pondered it for a moment.

Once he starts, he needs to do it several times… in other words, does he mean that once we begin our relationship, he needs to ejaculate several times to be satisfied?

Having reached that conclusion, I lifted my head and peeked at his face. He seemed embarrassed by his own words, subtly avoiding my gaze.

“Oh, so you mean… you do it a lot?”

“Hmm… well, I guess you could say that?”

He had been needlessly rubbing my shoulder strap and answered cautiously, while I roughly estimated in my mind.

Hmm, doing it a lot… I wonder how much he’s planning to do it if he’s setting up expectations like this. I was having such idle thoughts when suddenly—

Just as he carefully placed his hand on the back of my head, coincidentally, a post I had once seen on Instagram popped into my mind.

I don’t remember the exact details, but roughly paraphrasing what I recall…

‘…So, all men mistakenly think they’re good in bed and show off. They confidently claim they can go all night multiple times, but countless times they ejaculate once and then fall asleep exhausted….’

That was the content, I think. Why did that story come to mind at this moment? As I slowly mulled it over, I soon realized the reason.

Ah, right. Isn’t what he just told me somewhat… similar to the story about typical men written in that post?

Thinking that, I unconsciously—

“…Pfft.”

—laughed.

“…Did you just mock me?”

In that instant, his eyes, which had been stroking the back of my head, opened wide. It was an expression as if he doubted his own ears.

“Ah, that’s not it. I just suddenly remembered something I saw before.”

Thinking he might misunderstand if I left it alone, I hurriedly opened my mouth and began explaining in detail. But after hearing my story, instead of clearing up the misunderstanding, he frowned even more.

“…Wait a minute. So you’re thinking I’m just showing off, right?”

“What? That’s not it, why is the conversation going that way…?”

“Yeah, right… Fine, let’s say that wasn’t your intention. Still, the very fact that you recalled and mentioned that now is already out of line.”

Indeed, his words were correct. Objectively speaking, he wasn’t wrong.

…Still, I really didn’t have such intentions. I would never mock the words of my precious boyfriend.

But I didn’t voice my true feelings. I was a bit upset. It was somewhat vexing and slightly annoying that he didn’t understand my heart.

I pouted my lips unnecessarily, turned my gaze away, and said something I shouldn’t have.

“…Well, you know. It’s true, isn’t it? They say men often show off like that.”

The hand stroking the back of my head stopped abruptly. Avoiding his gaze, I carefully observed his expression.

…His face looked as if his male pride, or something precious, had been ‘considerably’ provoked.

“Hwa Nabi, are you… confident you won’t regret saying that just now?”

A somewhat dangerous emotion dwelled in his eyes as he looked at me. Only then did I feel a sudden fear, but… the water was already spilled, right? So I couldn’t take it back now.

…So, I threw out words as if I didn’t care what happened.

“As if you have the courage to do anything anyway.”

When I muttered that, he raised one corner of his mouth and smiled fiercely.

It was such a different kind of smile from his usual gentle one that my heart dropped with a thud.

“Come here.”

He grabbed my shoulders and pulled me somewhat roughly. Then he immediately reached out and instantly lowered the straps of my nightgown, exposing my chest area.

“Siwoo… your eyes look scary.”

If I say his eyes look like those of a beast… will he get angry? But even his angry appearance seems very sexy and good…

“What’s wrong with my eyes.”

He curtly replied and roughly untied the belt of the bathrobe he was wearing. Naturally… his entire body, wearing only one piece of underwear, came into my view.

His well-extended limbs and broad shoulders, vibrant muscles, distinct abs, and a face that matched his fierce smile.

…I already knew from seeing him a few times before, but it’s a male body that hits my preferences directly.

“Hwa Nabi.”

I was blankly staring at the veins protruding on his thighs and couldn’t answer.

But he didn’t seem to mind much, came closer, caressed my chin… briefly met my eyes, and immediately stole my lips roughly.

“…Huh.”

It started as a light kiss, but as time passed bit by bit, our breathing became rougher. A kiss where lips are pressed together without gaps, tongues intertwined, constantly craving each other.

Perhaps excited from kissing, he wrapped my waist with his thick forearm, made me tilt my head back, and pushed more fiercely.

While slowly accepting his tongue, I reached out, wrapped my arms around his neck, and pulled him closer.

Clinging to him like that, I continued the kiss by sucking his tongue or gently rubbing with my tongue somewhere sensitive in his mouth that twitched when his tongue touched it.

“Mmm… hoo, smack, smooch…”

As I focused on tasting him, not knowing that my saliva was transferring to his mouth and his saliva to mine, my head gradually became dizzy.

I don’t want to part from his tongue, which still has a sweet wine scent. If only I could stay like this forever, that would be happiness too.

As such thoughts spread like clouds, filling my mind, soon I became so dazed that I didn’t even know what I was doing. As my movements began to slow down, his tongue unilaterally ravaged my mouth.

“Haah… smack, hnngh, hngh… slurp… smooch… hnngh…”

Even though he must know I’m struggling since he’s holding my waist tightly and pressing our bodies together… he continued to push me.

He seemed slightly upset by what I had just said, so this was clearly deliberate. I knew this fact in my head, but there was nothing I could do.

My body, which had lost a lot of strength just from kissing, could only unilaterally accept the pleasure he was giving.

“Hoo, smack, haah… hnnngh, smack… slurp, hnnngh…”

Just when I thought I might really die from being so immersed in pleasure because I loved this time of kissing him so much… he finally stopped the kiss.

“Huh, Siwoo…”

“Yes, what is it?”

Unlike me, half-melted just from kissing, his face still seems full of composure. I tried hard to grasp the situation with my hazy mind.

But then, something hard touched my abdomen. I slightly lowered my gaze to look down.

…He had already removed his underwear, the last barrier.

“Siwoo. This… hoooh.”

The moment I discovered his thing, which had become huge and large… his hand that had been wrapping around my waist came down and lightly grabbed my buttocks.

But my sensitized body trembled just from that… delivering an intensely strong pleasure. I pressed my body against his upper body as if escaping from the thrill running down my spine.

Then naturally, his thing touched my navel.

“Hoo… hngh.”

I thought while breathing heavily. Although I couldn’t see it well now since our bodies were pressed together… his thing that I had glimpsed was long and thick.

What if something like that enters me…? Just vaguely imagining it made my whole body shiver.

“Um, Hwa Nabi.”

“Y-Yes?”

His large hand rested on my shoulder as I was imagining the unknown fear. I looked at him in surprise. Has the time finally come?

I unconsciously gulped due to the overflowing tension, but his face somehow looked a bit troubled.

“Well, now that I think about it, there’s one more problem.”

“What… problem?”

“Uh, that… well, it’s gone.”

“What… do you mean?”

“…The, the condom is gone. No… I definitely, definitely packed it in my bag, you know? But I took it out and put it outside the bag for a moment. And in the meantime, it disappeared. I really don’t know where it went…”

His face, which had spoken quickly as if making excuses, was slightly red. That appearance was like a gentle large dog, and I couldn’t help but smile a little.

Ah… really, seeing him like this is kind of cute. Just a moment ago, he was pouncing on me like some wild beast, but as soon as he realized there was no contraceptive, he changed like this?

When I smiled broadly, he also looked at me and smiled awkwardly.

“I’m sorry for ruining the mood, but… we need that, right? It seems a bit difficult to find, so should I go buy one now? If you wait just a moment…”

I gently grabbed the cheek of him who was muttering without properly looking at me, and made him meet my gaze.

“That’s… not necessary.”

“…Huh?”

Looking at him who couldn’t immediately understand what I meant, I nodded slightly.

And, with a slightly trembling voice, I said.

“I’m… on a safe day.”