Ch.83My Own Flower+

# 83. My Own Flower+

“The more a scale tilts to one side, the harder it becomes to restore balance. And such an unbalanced scale breaks faster. If you don’t want that to happen, it would be better to remove some weight.”

“…”

“It’s good to do your best, but don’t become too obsessed with being first. No matter what it is.”

“…”

Seyeon and Yuri were physically tired, but mentally alert. It was because of the fortune they had received at the fortune-telling shop that Danya had strongly recommended.

While they had enjoyed exploring Ayord, the fortune teller’s words kept bothering them, and that feeling persisted even now as they lay in bed back at the inn.

And naturally, they thought that perhaps tonight, the one person who wasn’t here might advance far beyond just cutting in line.

They wanted to go check right away.

That thought kept coming, but the fortune teller’s advice stood like a massive barricade blocking their way. Normally, they would have dismissed the fortune and done whatever they wanted, but once the “what if” thought entered their minds, they couldn’t bring themselves to act.

“Seyeon unni.”

“Yes?”

“I feel like I’m about to cry… isn’t that weird?”

“No. I’m already crying, Yuri.”

“Damn it…”

There’s something called a woman’s intuition.

How long could it take to revise a checklist that was supposedly completed before they even started exploring Ayord? But seeing that she still hadn’t returned…

It was a hundred times more likely that the Vice Captain, who had probably heard something from the fortune teller like they had, had used the checklist revision as an excuse to take action.

“Yuri.”

“Mmm?”

“People are strange, aren’t they?”

Seyeon moved to where Yuri was lying and whispered softly, afraid of waking Soyu.

“Before, I thought I’d be completely happy if we just stayed connected and didn’t drift apart, but now that we’re connected, I want to be closer, to be loved more.”

“Isn’t that natural?”

“It is natural, but our situation isn’t natural. I think that gap is what makes it hardest for me.”

“Hah.”

“Yuri.”

Seyeon took Yuri’s hand. Yuri, who was about to curse, closed her mouth.

“The Captain is a fair person, right?”

“…Yeah.”

“The Captain will treat us equally. That’s what I believe.”

“I’m not one to just wait around.”

“But you are waiting, aren’t you?”

*Aren’t you?*

Yuri said nothing. Instead, she clutched the blanket tightly.

On a night with a brilliantly bright moon.

It was a night when the slight difference in space and the absence of one person felt overwhelmingly large.

**

‘Ah.’

How should I describe this sensation? I really don’t know. Ah. I can tell it’s just on a completely different level compared to doing it alone.

But as the momentary ecstasy faded, it hurt a little. Not just a little—a lot. It felt like it was going to burst down there.

“Ugh, Subin. Strength. Ease up a bit.”

“Ah, uh.”

“Subin.”

Subin wasn’t saying she was in pain, but seeing the cold sweat on her forehead, she seemed to be in considerable pain. She was gritting her teeth and suppressing her moans.

‘How painful must it be for Subin to react like this?’

With the flow interrupted, my gaze naturally moved to where we were joined. And I received a shock like being doused with cold water.

“You, you. I told you to tell me if it hurts!”

“Shut up… why are you stopping? Keep going…”

The bed was soaked with blood.

I knew there would be blood during the first time and that it varies from person to person. But this was too much. This wasn’t just normal virginal bleeding—it was like she’d been stabbed in the lower abdomen.

“This isn’t the time for that. We need to treat you first—”

“No.”

But Subin wouldn’t let me go. Despite the pain in our joined parts, she grimaced as she endured the pain and still managed to wrap her legs around my waist.

“This moment, it’s only now.”

“Eun Subin.”

“Don’t make a fuss. It’s just, a little pain.”

Subin’s determination was too firm.

“This is my first time, a once-in-a-lifetime experience… don’t ruin it. You’ll regret it forever too.”

“…Alright.”

I carefully leaned down to embrace Subin. She also moved her arms to hold the back of my head, and took deep breaths to stabilize herself as much as possible.

“Thank you.”

“Don’t mention it.”

“I heard men find it hard to hold back.”

“You can’t see it, but seeing you bleed like this, I can’t help but worry.”

“I’m fine now.”

Subin whispered in my ear again.

“If it hurts, I’ll tell you… don’t stop this time.”

“Okay. Promise. And try to relax your body.”

“Mm.”

I could feel the intense pressure from that place gradually weakening. I pushed in very slowly, little by little. Each time, Subin frowned, but it didn’t seem as painful as before.

After a time of endurance, when I finally pushed all the way in until my pubic bone hit—

“Aah…”

An overwhelming mental pleasure struck my entire body at the realization that Subin and I had completely become one. It seemed the same for her, as we maintained our position for a while, tightly embracing each other without saying anything.

‘Warm and soft… it’s driving me crazy.’

As we stayed still, the already sensitive sensations became even more stimulated.

Subin’s heated sighs. Her elevated body temperature and the scent of her skin.

Her much hotter gaze, and that place down there that squirmed, wanting to become even more united.

I devoured her sighs and slowly pulled my hips back.

“Ah!”

Just moving that short distance, just that small area rubbing inside.

I felt like I’d lost half my life.

I wanted to experience this blissful pleasure again, continuously.

So I pushed back in, and Subin’s eyes grew almost twice their size.

“Ah, ah. This. This.”

The turtle-like pace gradually quickened. The more I moved, the more lewd sounds came from where we were joined. The sound of her blood mixing with our fluids was obscenity itself.

Squelch- squelch-

My thing now felt like it was going to burst in a different sense. Subin’s place pleasantly pressing against me and her arms and legs restraining me were both shackles and whips. The more she tightened around me, the more fervently I drove into her.

Thud-thud-thud-THUD-

“Ah. Mm. Hmm. Hnn. Sung, Sunghyun.”

Her face, which had only been half-relaxed before penetration, was now completely undone. The intellectual Eun Subin was gone. A female consumed by the instinct of sex pulled the face of the male pounding into her and devoured his lips.

“Huk, heuk, heuk.”

It’s not like I haven’t watched porn. Or read adult novels. So I know there are various positions. But there was no room for that. I didn’t want to separate from her even a little. I didn’t want this blissful sensation to be interrupted.

Moreover, this blissful sensation didn’t diminish but continued to amplify the more I moved.

‘Fuck, fuck…!’

Now the sound of my pubic bone hitting Subin’s buttocks was almost like the sound of punching something, and she was trembling all over, pulling my hair with one hand and covering her mouth with the other.

Sensing that we were both about to reach “climax,” I increased my speed and said,

“Move, your hand.”

Subin shook her head.

“Move it.”

“…”

“Quickly.”

At the moment of climax, I wanted to hear her attractive voice. I wanted to see her complete face. Feeling like I was about to come any second, I spoke somewhat forcefully, and she nodded with a slightly frightened expression and removed her hand.

“Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.”

Holding her thin wrist with one hand and grasping her bouncing breast with the other, I moved with all my might for a few seconds.

“Haaaah-!”

I embraced Subin’s body crushingly and poured everything into her.

“Uuugh…”

“Ah, aah, aaah…”

The feeling of ejaculating, like a hose with the water turned on full blast, the accumulated semen flowing out over several seconds… and not into empty space but inside my girlfriend…

Even after finishing, I maintained my position for a while, stroking Subin’s hair and repeatedly giving her light kisses, and she, who regained her senses much later than me, closed her eyes and enjoyed the aftercare I was providing.

*You’re mine.*

*Yes. I’m yours.*

That subtle smile was so beautiful.

I kissed those pretty lips once more with a light smack and said,

“That was awesome.”

“…What was?”

“Everything.”

“…Hmph. Of course.”

Perhaps she liked my simple, unadorned words. Subin played with my bangs and whispered,

“What if I get pregnant?”

“Ah.”

“Ah?”

“Ah, ahaha.”

Ah.

Really.

Am I crazy?

It felt like being doused with cold water. Just as I was about to seriously worry about what to do, I felt a slight pain in my nose.

“Ouch.”

“Did you think I would overlook that too?”

“Huh?”

“It’s a safe day. Don’t worry, you idiot.”

“Ah.”

Really, after such a blissful time, this wicked woman had to make my heart drop.

Still, thinking she might remember my reaction later and feel hurt, I felt I should choose my words carefully now.

“Um, you know that my surprise wasn’t because I disliked the idea of you getting pregnant, right?”

“No? I don’t know.”

“Oh, you know.”

“I don’t know, so tell me.”

“Huh?”

*Thump-*

Subin, who had been beneath me, pushed me away and suddenly was looking down at me, still in the penetrated position.

“If we do it one more time, maybe I’ll understand?”

“…Haha.”

“It’s my turn now. Be prepared.”

“Urgh!”

Once Eun Subin had lost her virginity, her destructive power doubled as she began to move on her own.

I heard most women who’ve had their first experience are in too much pain to do more, let alone walk properly… Has her body become too strong?

*- A week has seven days.*

Fortune teller.

I think I already understand what that means.

It was a night when the moon peeked in and then fled in shock.