Ch.61Memory Loss (9)

Before returning home, I made a firm resolution in the elevator. I would definitely accomplish my goal.

I can do anything for that purpose. Even if I have to sacrifice my entire lifespan, I’ll definitely succeed.

Anyway, my goal is to kill Agath.

Is it really that hard to tell someone that I was actually a man but changed into a woman due to circumstances? It wouldn’t even take 10 seconds to say that!

Honestly, it would probably be hard to believe even if I told the truth. Unfortunately, my body is unmistakably female now.

But if I had at least said something, today’s unfortunate incident wouldn’t have happened. If I had told him I was a man, he would have unconsciously remembered that too.

So what happened today is entirely Agath’s fault. That’s why I absolutely must kill Agath.

While I was thinking about this, the elevator arrived at my floor.

I took a deep breath and summoned my gun. Then I immediately opened the door and shouted.

“Agath, you fucking bitch!”

Leo, who was passionately writing something in the living room, said with displeasure.

“She’s not home right now. And why do you look like that?”

“I just came back from a dog cafe.”

“Why would you go to such a horrible place?”

Leo asked with a disgusted expression. How strange that someone could dislike those adorable creatures.

“Aren’t they cute? Just petting them is so healing.”

“There’s a demon that takes the form of a dog, you know? After fighting with that thing for years, I just shudder whenever I see dogs.”

“But puppies are cute, unlike that demon, right?”

“That thing looked exactly like a puppy with horns.”

A puppy with horns… that actually sounds cute.

“Why would they make it look so cute?”

“Probably to make enemies let their guard down before it bites them to death.”

“That’s truly demonic… well, it is a demon after all.”

I guess demons are naturally that evil. So it makes sense.

But I’d actually like to meet it. A puppy with horns sounds like something I’d want to keep as a pet if possible.

“Well, I’m going to wash up now.”

My condition is definitely quite messy. My clothes and hair are covered in dog fur, and various parts of my body are smeared with dog saliva.

Even though it was satisfying, it’s honestly uncomfortable. I need to wash up quickly.

So I grabbed my clothes and went straight to take a shower.

***

I’m screwed. This is really bad.

The reason I’m saying this is because I don’t feel the slightest bit aroused looking at myself.

I don’t mean this in a narcissistic way. I mean it in terms of my mental identity as a male.

There’s an extremely pretty girl naked right in front of me, and I’m not excited? That’s absolutely impossible. Even Buddha himself couldn’t resist that.

But I’ve accomplished what even Buddha couldn’t.

Why the hell am I like this? Don’t tell me I’ve mentally become a woman too…

…Wait, isn’t it weird to get excited looking at your own body in the first place?

Even if my body changed, it’s still my body. It doesn’t make sense to get excited looking at it.

Of course, it might happen right after the change. But after living like this for about two weeks, it’s obvious that I wouldn’t feel anything looking at my own body.

Stimulation naturally weakens the more you experience it. So this is actually a normal reaction.

Damn it.

Let’s just finish washing up…

While washing up listlessly, a hypothesis suddenly occurred to me.

Could it be that my personality when I lost my memories and my current personality have become mixed?

A day or two can’t possibly overcome 19 years. But in a situation like mine where the body has changed, it’s different.

Back then, I perceived myself as a woman. So I acted like a woman.

Where did that “like a woman” come from? It came from the memories I built up over 19 years.

So I haven’t mentally become a woman. I was just pretending to look like one.

The reason my behavior has changed is because deep in my unconscious, there’s a mixed perception that I’m a woman. So my brain unconsciously commands me to act like a woman.

In other words, if I deeply recognize myself as a man, today’s unfortunate incident would never happen again.

Let’s just consider today an aberration. From tomorrow, I’ll return to being the man Kim Min-jun…

“…Ah.”

If I could visit my past self, I’d put a bullet hole in my head.

What kind of stupid thought led me to ask Ju-an to call me Lite?

Damn, I really threw away the most important part of my identity, you idiot.

I should tell Ju-an to call me Kim Min-jun again right away…

…But I think Lite is actually more appropriate. There are identity issues, and I’ll be talking with other people too. When I return to being a man, I’ll ask him to call me Kim Min-jun again.

Anyway, all of this is Agath’s fault. So when Agath returns, I’ll definitely kill her.

While thinking about this, I finished washing up. I’ve even mastered the process of washing my hair now. I’m gradually adapting to this body.

At first, I thought I’d never adapt, but somehow I’m managing.

After washing up with these thoughts, I came out to find Agath waiting in front. Suddenly, Agath pressed a button on a voice recorder.

‘That’s right, you’re physically and mentally a woman, right?’

‘What, do you think I’m a man or something?’

‘Then you’ll marry a man in the future?’

‘Of course I’ll marry a man.’

Something terribly awful played from the recorder.

“Hello! How was your date with your future husband? Our physically and mentally female Lite who’s going to marry a man?”

I immediately took out my gun and filled it with all my mana. And just as I was about to pull the trigger…

A method far more terrible, evil, and frightening than killing Agath came to mind. It would surely be more fearsome than death.

“Agath, I’ll give you one last chance.”

“What chance? A chance to join the harem?”

“Then I have no choice.”

Agath was snickering as if she found this situation amusing, teasing me without even anticipating what was about to happen to her.

And I pronounced a death sentence on the people in this office.

“I’m quitting housework from now on.”

With those words, the expressions of Agath and Rebecca, who was sitting on the sofa watching this situation, completely distorted. For reference, Leo remained unfazed.

Well, since he eats that terrible stuff deliciously, Leo probably won’t be affected much. But what about Rebecca?

Am I not sorry? There’s a saying that bystanders are also perpetrators. So Rebecca bears enormous responsibility for this too.

“Miss Lite? What do you mean by that?”

“That’s right, Lite. You’re not planning to feed us that terrible stuff, are you? You know how awful it is since you’ve eaten it too, right?”

“It was still edible though.”

“…Please don’t fan the flames.”

Rebecca and Agath were trembling in fear. But I had no intention of compromising at all.

This is all their own doing.

“From now on, I’ll only do my own housework. Laundry, cleaning, and especially cooking—take care of it yourselves.”

“I’m sorry! I won’t do it again! Please forgive me!”

“That’s right! I’ll do anything! Just please don’t quit!”

They were desperately begging me, but I laughed it off and said.

“I gave you a chance. But Agath wasted it.”

They looked truly desperate, but I just stared back with incomparable coldness.

“Ah… aah…”

Agath collapsed to the floor with a sigh.

“Goddess… why are you giving us such a trial…?”

Rebecca was frantically praying to the Goddess with a trembling voice.

“So what should I make for breakfast tomorrow? Maybe something simple like curry?”

And Leo cruelly delivered the death sentence to them directly. If Satan had seen this scene, he would have run away in a hurry.

“Well, good night. Enjoy your breakfast tomorrow, all three of you.”

But I am not an angel who will save them. Rather, I’m closer to a demon from hell right now.

So I ignored them and returned to my room.

***

I was about to fall asleep after using my phone with a refreshed mind when suddenly a call came in.

[Nam Ju-an]

As soon as I saw the name, I immediately answered the phone.

“Hello?”

-It’s me. Did you get home safely?

“I got home safely… Oh right, I met that pervert again today.”

-Really?! You didn’t get hurt or anything, did you?!

“No. He just ran away after I shot him twice in the leg.”

Suddenly there was no sound from the other end of the phone.

“Hello? Did the call drop?”

-No… I just don’t know what to say for a moment.

“He got off easy anyway.”

-That’s true, but… you said it so calmly…

“Did I?”

It’s definitely a serious issue to shoot someone with a gun as a threat. I should restrain myself in the future.

“What are you doing right now?”

-Just resting. You?

“I’m just resting too. So what did you do after you went back?”

-I didn’t meet anyone in particular.

That’s a relief. Ju-an hasn’t gone to that orange-haired person yet. Now I just need to maintain this relationship and everything will be perfect.

“Do you have any plans for tomorrow?”

-I think I’ll be training all day.

“Are you meeting anyone or anything like that?”

-I’ll probably be alone the whole time.

Ju-an said he’d be training all week. So there’s absolutely no room for that orange-haired person to interfere.

Thinking about this, a smile naturally forms on my face. Fortunately, I don’t need to intervene.

This might seem overprotective, but as a precious friend, I need to prevent wrong choices.

Let’s keep it this way. Just like this.

After chatting happily with Ju-an, I hung up the phone. We talked for about 30 minutes.

Now as I was about to go to sleep and took off my ring, my body suddenly felt drained. I can really feel my lifespan being reduced.

But there’s one advantage to having a reduced lifespan. It’s easier to fall asleep!

I feel like I could collapse at any moment, and if I lie down now, I’ll fall asleep immediately. What a convenient ability!

…Let’s just go to sleep.